"Black? I didn"t know anything was black," said Madge. "Here is Mr.
Dillwyn, come to take me sleigh-riding. Just think, Lois!--a sleigh ride in the Park!--O, I"m so glad I have got my hood done!"
Lois slowly turned her head round. "Sleigh-riding?" she said. "Are you going sleigh-riding, and with Mr. Dillwyn?"
"Yes indeed, why not?" said Madge, bustling about with great activity.
"I"d rather go with him than with anybody else, I can tell you. He has got his sister"s horses--Mrs. Burrage don"t like sleighing--and Mr.
Burrage begged he would take the horses out. They"re gay, but he knows how to drive. O, won"t it be magnificent?"
Lois looked at her sister in silence, unwilling, yet not knowing what to object; while Madge wrapped herself in a warm cloak, and donned a silk hood lined with cherry colour, in which she was certainly something to look at. No plainer attire nor brighter beauty would be seen among the gay snow-revellers that afternoon. She flung a sparkling glance at her sister as she turned to go.
"Don"t be very long!" Lois said.
"Just as long as he likes to make it!" Madge returned. "Do you think _I_ am going to ask him to turn about, before he is ready? Not I, I promise you. Good-bye, hermit!"
Away she ran, and Lois turned again to her window, where all the white seemed suddenly to have become black. She will marry him!--she was saying to herself. And why should she not? she has made no promise. _I_ am bound--doubly; what is it to me, what they do? Yet if not right for me it is not right for Madge. _Is_ the Bible absolute about it?
She thought it would perhaps serve to settle and stay her mind if she went to the Bible with the question and studied it fairly out. She drew up the table with the book, and prayed earnestly to be taught the truth, and to be kept contented with the right. Then she opened at the well-known words in 2 Corinthians, chap. vi.
"Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers"--
"Yoked together." That is, bound in a bond which obliges two to go one way and pull in one draught. Then of course they _must_ go one way; and which way, will depend upon which is strongest. But cannot a good woman use her influence to induce a man who is also good, only not Christian, to go the right way?
Lois pondered this, wishing to believe it. Yet there stood the command.
And she remembered there are two sides to influence; could not a good man, and a pleasant man, only not Christian, use his power to induce a Christian woman to go the wrong way? How little she would like to displease him! how willingly she would gratify him!--And then there stands the command. And, turning from it to a parallel pa.s.sage in 1 Cor. vii. 39, she read again the directions for the marriage of a Christian widow; she is at liberty to be married to whom she will, "_only in the Lord_." There could be no question of what is the will of G.o.d in this matter. And in Deut. vii. 3, 4, she studied anew the reasons there given. "Neither shalt thou make marriages with them; thy daughter thou shalt not give unto his son, nor his daughter shalt thou take unto thy son. For they will turn away thy son from following me, that they may serve other G.o.ds."
Lois studied these pa.s.sages with I cannot say how much aching of heart.
Why did her heart ache? It was nothing to her, surely; she neither loved nor was going to love any man to whom the prohibition could apply. Why should she concern herself with the matter? Madge?-- Well, Madge must be the keeper of her own conscience; she would probably marry Mr. Dillwyn; and poor Lois saw sufficiently into the workings of her own heart to know that she thought her sister very happy in the prospect. But then, if the question of conscience could be so got over, _why_ was she troubled? She would not evade the inquiry; she forced herself to make it; and she writhed under the pressure and the pain it caused her. At last, thoroughly humbled and grieved and ashamed, she fled to a woman"s refuge in tears, and a Christian"s refuge in prayer; and from the bottom of her heart, though with some very hard struggles, gave up every lingering thought and wish that ran counter to the Bible command. Let Madge do what Madge thought right; she had warned her of the truth. Now her business was with herself and her own action; and Lois made clean work of it. I cannot say she was exactly a happy woman as she went down-stairs; but she felt strong and at peace. Doing the Lord"s will, she could not be miserable; with the Lord"s presence she could not be utterly alone; anyhow, she would trust him and do her duty, and leave all the rest.
She went down-stairs at last, for she had spent the afternoon in her own room, and felt that she owed it to Mrs. Wishart to go down and keep her company. O, if Spring were but come! she thought as she descended the staircase,--and she could get away, and take hold of her work, and bring things into the old train! Spring was many weeks off yet, and she must do different and harder work first, she saw. She went down to the back drawing-room and laid herself upon the sofa.
"Are you not well, Lois?" was the immediate question from Mrs. Wishart.
"Yes, ma"am; only not just vigorous. How long they are gone! It is growing late."
"The sleighing is tempting. It is not often we have such a chance. I suppose everybody is out. _You_ don"t go into the air enough, Lois."
"I took a walk this morning."
"In the snow!--and came back tired. I saw it in your face. Such dreadful walking was enough to tire you. I don"t think you half know how to take care of yourself."
Lois let the charge pa.s.s undisputed, and lay still. The afternoon had waned and the sun gone down; the snow, however, made it still light outside. But that light faded too; and it was really evening, when sounds at the front door announced the return of the sleighing party.
Presently Madge burst in, rosy and gay as snow and sleigh-bells could make anybody.
"It"s glorious!" she said. "O, we have been to the Park and all over.
It"s splendid! Everybody in the world is out, and we saw everybody, and some people we saw two or three times; and it"s like nothing in all the world I ever saw before. The whole air is full of sleigh-bells; and the roads are so thick with sleighs that it is positively dangerous."
"That must make it very pleasant!" said Lois languidly.
"O, it does! There"s the excitement, you know, and the skill of steering clear of people that you think are going to run over you. It"s the greatest fun I ever saw in my life. And Mr. Dillwyn drives beautifully."
"I dare say."
"And the next piece of driving he does, is to drive you out."
"I hardly think he will manage that."
"Well, you"ll see. Here he is. She says she hardly thinks you will, Mr.
Dillwyn. Now for a trial of power!"
Madge stood in the centre of the room, her hood off, her little plain cloak still round her; eyes sparkling, cheeks rosy with pleasure and frosty air, a very handsome and striking figure. Lois"s eyes dwelt upon her, glad and sorry at once; but Lois had herself in hand now, and was as calm as the other was excited. Then presently came Mr. DilIwyn, and sat down beside her couch.
"How do you do, this evening?"
His manner, she noticed, was not at all like Madge"s; it was quiet, sober, collected, gentle; sleighing seemed to have wrought no particular exhilaration on him. Therefore it disarmed Lois. She gave her answer in a similar tone.
"Have you been out to-day?"
"Yes--quite a long walk this morning."
"Now I want you to let me give you a short drive."
"O no, I think not."
"Come!" said he. "I may not have another opportunity to show you what you will see to-day; and I want you to see it."
He did not seem to use much urgency, and yet there was a certain insistance in his tone which Lois felt, and which had its effect upon her, as such tones are apt to do, even when one does not willingly submit to them. She objected that it was late.
"O, the moon is up," cried Madge; "it won"t be any darker than it is now."
"It will be brighter," said Philip.
"But your horses must have had enough."
"Just enough," said Philip, laughing, "to make them go quietly. Miss Madge will bear witness they were beyond that at first. I want you to go with me. Come, Miss Lois! We must be home before Mrs. Wishart"s tea.
Miss Madge, give her your hood and cloak; that will save time."
Why should she not say no? She found it difficult, against that something in his tone. He was more intent upon the affirmative than she upon the negative. And after all, why _should_ she say no? She had fought her fight and conquered; Mr. Dillwyn was nothing to her, more than another man; unless, indeed, he were to be Madge"s husband, and then she would have to be on good terms with, him. And she had a secret fancy to have, for once, the pleasure of this drive with him. Why not, just to see how it tasted? I think it went with Lois at this moment as in the German story, where a little boy vaunted himself to his sister that he had resisted the temptation to buy some ripe cherries, and so had saved his pennies. His sister praised his prudence and firmness.
"But now, dear Hercules," she went on, "now that you have done right and saved your pennies, now, my dear brother, you may reward yourself and buy your cherries!"
Perhaps it was with some such unconscious recoil from judgment that Lois acted now. At any rate, she slowly rose from her sofa, and Madge, rejoicing, threw off her cloak and put it round her, and fastened its ties. Then Mr. Dillwyn himself took the hood and put it on her head, and tied the strings under her chin. The start this gave her almost made Lois repent of her decision; he was looking into her face, and his fingers were touching her cheek, and the pain of it was more than Lois had bargained for. No, she thought, she had better not gone; but it was too late now to alter things. She stood still, feeling that thrill of pain and pleasure where the one so makes the other keen, keeping quiet and not meeting his eyes; and then he put her hand upon his arm and led her down the wide, old-fashioned staircase. Something in the air of it all brought to Lois"s remembrance that Sunday afternoon at Shampuashuh and the walk home in the rain; and it gave her a stricture of heart.
She put the manner now to Madge"s account, and thought within herself that if Madge"s hood and cloak were beside him it probably did not matter who was in them; his fancy could do the rest. Somehow she did not want to go to drive as Madge"s proxy. However, there was no helping that now. She was put into the sleigh, enveloped in the fur robes; Mr.
Dillwyn took his place beside her, and they were off.
CHAPTER XLVI.