"What! At Merefield? Then you must know her quite well."
"Oh! yes," said Frank, "I know her quite well."
Again there was silence. Then the other burst out:
"Look here--I wish you"d let me do something. It seems to me perfectly ghastly--"
"My dear man," said Frank. "Indeed you can"t do anything.... You got my note, didn"t you?"
The clergyman nodded.
"It"s just in case I"m ill, or anything, you know. Jack"s a great friend of mine. And it"s just as well that some friend of mine should be able to find out where I am. I"ve just written to him myself, as I said in my note. But you mustn"t give him my address unless in case of real need."
"All right. But are you sure--"
"I"m perfectly sure.... Oh! by the way, that lady you sent round did no good. I expect she told you?"
"Yes; she said she"d never come across such a difficult case."
"Well, I shall have to try again myself.... I must turn off here. Good luck!"
(IV)
Gertie was sitting alone in the kitchen about nine o"clock that night--alone, that is to say, except for the sleeping "Erb, who, in a cot at the foot of his mother"s bed, was almost invisible under a pile of clothes, and completely negligible as a witness. Mrs. Partington, with the other two children, was paying a prolonged visit in Mortimer Road, and the Major, ignorant of this fact, was talking big in the bar of the "Queen"s Arms" opposite the Men"s Club of the Eton Mission.
Gertie was enjoying herself just now, on the whole. It is true that she had received some chastis.e.m.e.nt yesterday from the Major; but she had the kind of nature that preferred almost any sensation to none. And, indeed, the situation was full of emotion. It was extraordinarily pleasant to her to occupy such a position between two men--and, above all, two "gentlemen." Her att.i.tude towards the Major was of the most simple and primitive kind; he was her man, who bullied her, despised her, dragged her about the country, and she never for one instant forgot that he had once been an officer in the army. Even his blows (which, to tell the truth, were not very frequent, and were always administered in a judicial kind of way) bore with them a certain stamp of brilliance; she possessed a very pathetic capacity for sn.o.bbishness. Frank, on the other side, was no less exciting. She regarded him as a good young man, almost romantic, indeed, in his goodness--a kind of Sir Galahad; and he, whatever his motive (and she was sometimes terribly puzzled about his motives), at any rate, stood in a sort of rivalry to the Major; and it was she who was the cause of contention. She loved to feel herself pulled this way and that by two such figures, to be quarreled over by such very strong and opposite types. It was a vague sensation to her, but very vivid and attractive; and although just now she believed herself to be thoroughly miserable, I have no doubt whatever that she was enjoying it all immensely. She was very feminine indeed, and the little scene of last night had brought matters to an almost exquisite point. She was crying a little now, gently, to herself.
The door opened. Frank came in, put down his cap, and took his seat on the bench by the fire.
"All out?" he asked.
Gertie nodded, and made a little broken sound.
"Very good," said Frank. "Then I"m going to talk to you."
Gertie wiped away a few more tears, and settled herself down for a little morbid pleasure. It was delightful to her to be found crying over the fire. Frank, at any rate, would appreciate that.
"Now," said Frank, "you"ve got the choice once more, and I"m going to put it plainly. If you don"t do what I want this time, I shall have to see whether somebody else can"t persuade you."
She glanced up, a little startled.
"Look here," said Frank. "I"m not going to take any more trouble myself over this affair. You were a good deal upset yesterday when the lady came round, and you"ll be more upset yet before the thing"s over. I shan"t talk to you myself any more: you don"t seem to care a hang what I say; in fact, I"m thinking of moving my lodgings after Christmas. So now you"ve got your choice."
He paused.
"On the one side you"ve got the Major; well, you know him; you know the way he treats you. But that"s not the reason why I want you to leave him. I want you to leave him because I think that down at the bottom you"ve got the makings of a good woman--"
"I haven"t," cried Gertie pa.s.sionately.
"Well, I think you have. You"re very patient, and you"re very industrious, and because you care for this man you"ll do simply anything in the world for him. Well, that"s splendid. That shows you"ve got grit.
But have you ever thought what it"ll all be like in five years from now?"
"I shall be dead," wailed Gertie. "I wish I was dead now."
Frank paused.
"And when you"re dead--?" he said slowly.
There was an instant"s silence. Then Frank took up his discourse again.
(So far he had done exactly what he had wanted. He had dropped two tiny ideas on her heart once more--hope and fear.)
"Now I"ve something to tell you. Do you remember the last time I talked to you? Well, I"ve been thinking what was the best thing to do, and a few days ago I saw my chance and took it. You"ve got a little prayer-book down at the bottom of your bundle, haven"t you? Well, I got at that (you never let anyone see it, you know), and I looked through it. I looked through all your things. Did you know your address was written in it? I wasn"t sure it was your address, you know, until--"
Gertie sat up, white with pa.s.sion.
"You looked at my things?"
Frank looked her straight in the face.
"Don"t talk to me like that," he said. "Wait till I"ve done.... Well, I wrote to the address, and I got an answer; then I wrote again, and I got another answer and a letter for you. It came this morning, to the post-office where I got it."
Gertie looked at him, still white, with her lips parted.
"Give me the letter," she whispered.
"As soon as I"ve done talking," said Frank serenely. "You"ve got to listen to me first. I knew what you"d say: you"d say that your people wouldn"t have you back. And I knew perfectly well from the little things you"d said about them that they would. But I wrote to make sure....
"Gertie, d"you know that they"re breaking their hearts for you?... that there"s nothing, in the whole world they want so much as that you should come back?..."
"Give me the letter!"
"You"ve got a good heart yourself, Gertie; I know that well enough.
Think hard, before I give you the letter. Which is best--the Major and this sort of life--and ... and--well, you know about the soul and G.o.d, don"t you?... or to go home, and--"
Her face shook all over for one instant.
"Give me the letter," she wailed suddenly.
Then Frank gave it her.
(V)
"But I can"t possibly go home like this," whispered Gertie agitatedly in the pa.s.sage, after the Major"s return half an hour later.
"Good Lord!" whispered Frank, "what an extraordinary girl you are, to think--"