None Other G.o.ds.
by Robert Hugh Benson.
DEDICATORY LETTER
MY DEAR JACK KIRKBY,
To whom can I dedicate this book but to you who were, not only the best friend of the man I have written about, but one without whom the book could not have been written? It is to you that I owe practically all the materials necessary for the work: it was to you that Frank left the greater part of his diary, such as it was (and I hope I have observed your instructions properly as regards the use I have made of it); it was you who took such trouble to identify the places he pa.s.sed through; and it was you, above all, who gave me so keen an impression of Frank himself, that it seems to me I must myself have somehow known him intimately, in spite of the fact that we never met.
I think I should say that it is this sense of intimacy, this extraordinary interior accessibility (so to speak) of Frank, that made him (as you and I both think) about the most lovable person we have ever known. They were very extraordinary changes that pa.s.sed over him, of course--(and I suppose we cannot improve, even with all our modern psychology, upon the old mystical names for such changes--Purgation, Illumination and Union)--but, as theologians themselves tell us, that mysterious thing which Catholics call the Grace of G.o.d does not obliterate, but rather emphasizes and transfigures the natural characteristics of every man upon whom it comes with power. It was the same element in Frank, as it seems to me--the same root-principle, at least--that made him do those preposterous things connected with bread and b.u.t.ter and a railway train, that drove him from Cambridge in defiance of all common-sense and sweet reasonableness; that held him still to that deplorable and lamentable journey with his two traveling companions, and that ultimately led him to his death. I mean, it was the same kind of unreasonable daring and purpose throughout, though it issued in very different kinds of actions, and was inspired by very different motives.
Well, it is not much good discussing Frank in public like this. The people who are kind enough to read his life--or, rather, the six months of it with which this book deals--must form their own opinion of him.
Probably a good many will think him a fool. I daresay he was; but I think I like that kind of folly. Other people may think him simply obstinate and tiresome. Well, I like obstinacy of that sort, and I do not find him tiresome. Everyone must form their own views, and I have a perfect right to form mine, which I am glad to know coincide with your own. After all, you knew him better than anyone else.
I went to see Gertie Trustcott, as you suggested, but I didn"t get any help from her. I think she is the most suburban person I have ever met.
She could tell me nothing whatever new about him; she could only corroborate what you yourself had told me, and what the diaries and other papers contained. I did not stay long with Miss Trustcott.
And now, my dear friend, I must ask you to accept this book from me, and to make the best of it. Of course, I have had to conjecture a great deal, and to embroider even more; but it is no more than embroidery. I have not touched the fabric itself which you put into my hands; and anyone who cares to pull out the threads I have inserted can do so if they will, without any fear of the thing falling to pieces.
I have to thank you for many pleasurable and even emotional hours. The offering which I present to you now is the only return I can make.
I am, Ever yours sincerely, ROBERT HUGH BENSON.
P.S.--We"ve paneled a new room since you were last at Hare Street. Come and see it soon and sleep in it. We want you badly. And I want to talk a great deal more about Frank.
P.P.S.--I hear that her ladyship has gone back to live with her father; she tried the Dower House in Westmoreland, but seems to have found it lonely. Is that true? It"ll be rather difficult for d.i.c.k, won"t it?
NONE OTHER G.o.dS
PART I
CHAPTER I
(I)
"I think you"re behaving like an absolute idiot," said Jack Kirkby indignantly.
Frank grinned pleasantly, and added his left foot to his right one in the broad window-seat.
These two young men were sitting in one of the most pleasant places in all the world in which to sit on a summer evening--in a ground-floor room looking out upon the Great Court of Trinity College, Cambridge. It was in that short s.p.a.ce of time, between six and seven, during which the Great Court is largely deserted. The athletes and the dawdlers have not yet returned from field and river; and Fellows and other persons, young enough to know better, who think that a summer evening was created for the reading of books, have not yet emerged from their retreats. A white-ap.r.o.ned cook or two moves across the cobbled s.p.a.ces with trays upon their heads; a tradesman"s boy comes out of the corner entrance from the hostel; a cat or two stretches himself on the gra.s.s; but, for the rest, the court lies in broad sunshine; the shadows slope eastwards, and the fitful splash and trickle of the fountain a.s.serts itself clearly above the gentle rumble of Trinity Street.
Within, the room in which these two sat was much like other rooms of the same standing; only, in this one case the walls were paneled with white-painted deal. Three doors led out of it--two into a tiny bedroom and a tinier dining-room respectively; the third on to the pa.s.sage leading to the lecture-rooms. Frank found it very convenient, since he thus was enabled, at every hour of the morning when the lectures broke up, to have the best possible excuse for conversing with his friends through the window.
The room was furnished really well. Above the mantelpiece, where rested an array of smoking-materials and a large silver cigarette-box, hung an ancestral-looking portrait, in a dull gilded frame, of an aged man, with a ruff round his neck, purchased for one guinea; there was a sofa and a set of chairs upholstered in a good damask: a black piano by Broadwood; a large oval gate-leg table; a bureau; shelves filled with very indiscriminate literature--law books, novels, Badminton, magazines and ancient school editions of the cla.s.sics; a mahogany gla.s.s-fronted bookcase packed with volumes of esthetic appearance--green-backed poetry books with white labels; old leather tomes, and all the rest of the specimens usual to a man who has once thought himself literary. Then there were engravings, well framed, round the walls; a black iron-work lamp, fitted for electric light, hung from the ceiling; there were a couple of oak chests, curiously carved. On the stained floor lay three or four mellow rugs, and the window-boxes outside blazed with geraniums.
The debris of tea rested on the window-seat nearest the outer door.
Frank Guiseley, too, lolling in the window-seat in a white silk shirt, unb.u.t.toned at the throat, and gray flannel trousers, and one white shoe, was very pleasant to look upon. His hair was as black and curly as a Neapolitan"s; he had a smiling, humorous mouth, and black eyes--of an extraordinary twinkling alertness. His clean-shaven face, brown in its proper complexion as well as with healthy sunburning (he had played very vigorous lawn-tennis for the last two months), looked like a boy"s, except for the very determined mouth and the short, straight nose. He was a little below middle height--well-knit and active; and though, properly speaking, he was not exactly handsome, he was quite exceptionally delightful to look at.
Jack Kirkby, sitting in an arm-chair a yard away, and in the same sort of costume--except that he wore both his shoes and a Third Trinity blazer--was a complete contrast in appearance. The other had something of a Southern Europe look; Jack was obviously English--wholesome red cheeks, fair hair and a small mustache resembling spun silk. He was, also, closely on six feet in height.
He was anxious just now, and, therefore, looked rather cross, fingering the very minute hairs of his mustache whenever he could spare the time from smoking, and looking determinedly away from Frank upon the floor.
For the last week he had talked over this affair, ever since the amazing announcement; and had come to the conclusion that once more, in this preposterous scheme, Frank really meant what he said.
Frank had a terrible way of meaning what he said--he reflected with dismay. There was the affair of the bread and b.u.t.ter three years ago, before either of them had learned manners. This had consisted in the fastening up in separate brown-paper parcels innumerable pieces of bread and b.u.t.ter, addressing each with the name of the Reverend Junior Dean (who had annoyed Frank in some way), and the leaving of the parcels about in every corner of Cambridge, in hansom cabs, on seats, on shop-counters and on the pavements--with the result that for the next two or three days the dean"s staircase was crowded with messenger boys and unemployables, anxious to return apparently lost property.
Then there had been the matter of the flagging of a fast Northern train in the middle of the fens with a red pocket-handkerchief, to find out if it were really true that the train would stop, followed by a rapid retreat on bicycles so soon as it had been ascertained that it was true; the Affair of the German Prince traveling incognito, into which the Mayor himself had been drawn; and the Affair of the Nun who smoked a short black pipe in the Great Court shortly before midnight, before gathering up her skirts and vanishing on noiseless india-rubber-shod feet round the kitchen quarters into the gloom of Neville"s Court, as the horrified porter descended from his signal-box.
Now many minds could have conceived these things; a smaller number of people would have announced their intention of doing them: but there were very few persons who would actually carry them all out to the very end: in fact, Jack reflected, Frank Guiseley was about the only man of his acquaintance who could possibly have done them. And he had done them all on his own sole responsibility.
He had remembered, too, during the past week, certain incidents of the same nature at Eton. There was the master who had rashly inquired, with deep sarcasm, on the fourth or fifth occasion in one week when Frank had come in a little late for five-o"clock school, whether "Guiseley would not like to have tea before pursuing his studies." Frank, with a radiant smile of grat.i.tude, and extraordinary rapidity, had answered that he would like it very much indeed, and had vanished through the still half-open door before another word could be uttered, returning with a look of childlike innocence at about five-and-twenty minutes to six.
"Please, sir," he had said, "I thought you said I might go?"
"And have you had tea?"
"Why, certainly, sir; at Webber"s."
Now all this kind of thing was a little disconcerting to remember now.
Truly, the things in themselves had been admirably conceived and faithfully executed, but they seemed to show that Frank was the kind of person who really carried through what other people only talked about--and especially if he announced beforehand that he intended to do it.
It was a little dismaying, therefore, for his friend to reflect that upon the arrival of the famous letter from Lord Talgarth--Frank"s father--six days previously, in which all the well-worn phrases occurred as to "darkening doors" and "roof" and "disgrace to the family," Frank had announced that he proposed to take his father at his word, sell up his property and set out like a prince in a fairy-tale to make his fortune.
Jack had argued till he was sick of it, and to no avail. Frank had a parry for every thrust. Why wouldn"t he wait a bit until the governor had had time to cool down? Because the governor must learn, sooner or later, that words really meant something, and that he--Frank--was not going to stand it for one instant.
Why wouldn"t he come and stay at Barham till further notice? They"d all be delighted to have him: It was only ten miles off Merefield, and perhaps--Because Frank was not going to sponge upon his friends. Neither was he going to skulk about near home. Well, if he was so d.a.m.ned obstinate, why didn"t he go into the City--or even to the Bar? Because (1) he hadn"t any money; and (2) he would infinitely sooner go on the tramp than sit on a stool. Well, why didn"t he enlist, like a gentleman? Frank dared say he would some time, but he wanted to stand by himself a bit first and see the world.
"Let"s see the letter again," said Jack at last. "Where is it?"
Frank reflected.
"I think it"s in that tobacco-jar just behind your head," he said. "No, it isn"t; it"s in the pouch on the floor. I know I a.s.sociated it somehow with smoking. And, by the way, give me a cigarette."
Jack tossed him his case, opened the pouch, took out the letter, and read it slowly through again.
"Merefield Court, "near Harrogate.
"May 28th, _Thursday_.
"I am ashamed of you, sir. When you first told me of your intention, I warned you what would happen if you persisted, and I repeat it now. Since you have deliberately chosen, in spite of all that I have said, to go your own way, and to become a Papist, I will have no more to do with you. From this moment you cease to be my son. You shall not, while I live, darken my doors again, or sleep under my roof. I say nothing of what you have had from me in the past--your education and all the rest.
And, since I do not wish to be unduly hard upon you, you can keep the remainder of your allowance up to July and the furniture of your rooms. But, after that, not one penny shall you have from me. You can go to your priests and get them to support you.
"I am only thankful that your poor mother has been spared this blow.