NSFW so please be warned. This is just a bit of chapter 17 as I cant find the rest of the raws
Ye Zhengchen"s kiss was more violent than the storm. It was as if a dam had burst, unleashing long suppressed desires
I tried to resist, but he was much stronger. My struggles resulted in nothing but some pain in my wrists.
In the heavy rain and the darkness of the night, his face was just a handsome silhouette , but I would never forget the look in his eyes – a strange mixture of desire and desperation.
Yes ..desperation.
I knew that Ye Zhengchen was still in a dilemma about us. But to give credit to him, he had firmly put an end to our relationship, carefully erasing any chance of reconciliation.
All he told me was that he didn"t want to hurt me or deceive me.
Even on the day that he broke up with me, he gave me an affectionate hug and consoled me saying that soon, I would be over him. When he heard the madman hara.s.s me, he came to my rescue immediately in the next five minutes. I even think that , that day, when he was looking at his mobile phone seriously, he was looking at the texts that I had sent him
Tonight, he had come to pick me up with no other ulterior motive. We would like to return to being just good friends. Like in the past, when we would be standing in the balcony together, sharing a bowl of noodles.
But unfortunately, we couldn"t go back in time..
When a small spark reaches dry wood, sooner or later , there will be a fire.
Especially in such a stormy night, when we seemed to be isolated and imprisoned in a world of our own.
&h.e.l.lip;&h.e.l.lip; &h.e.l.lip;
When Ye Zhengchen hugged me, I could smell the faint trace of the familiar mix of coffee and beer. My heart softened, I closed my eyes and relaxed my jaw
The moment our tongues touched, his kiss turned even wilder, as if today was the end of the world, and there was no tomorrow ..
All the anger I had simmered in for so long dissipated. I forgot everything. I could not control my own hands. Slowly, I wrapped them around his neck and my fingers combed through his hair.
Only the sound of the rain hitting the ground could be heard.
All I could feel was the heat flowing from his body to mine
My feelings had overwhelmed me. I was no longer thinking about the future
As long as the man in my arms was Ye Zhengchen, as long as he loved me and I loved him, that was enough!
I kissed him back with equal pa.s.sion. As our tongues entangled, our bodies entangled too.
His hot palm reached into my dress, caressing my chest. The touch of his hot palm on my cold body jolted my senses and my arms tightened around his neck.
His aggressive, male caresses ignited my body. I felt as if my body had become boneless while my nerves were over-sensitised
I could never refuse his attempts to explore my body and tempt me
&h.e.l.lip;&h.e.l.lip; &h.e.l.lip;
The pouring rain was like a curtain, shielding us from the street lights
The swaying cherry trees looked like floating clouds in the blurry light
I was confused. In the strange state that my mind had entered in, I had an idea. I wanted him to be my first. Even though I knew there was no commitment, no promises, just like the short lived cherry blossoms in front of me, I wanted to engage in this ephemeral pa.s.sion. If he were engraved in my body, if I was engraved in his mind, maybe I would never be completely forgotten, maybe I would never be firmly pushed off conveniently to the past..
I would have no regrets if my first time was with a man I loved so much
Then I thought, maybe what I was thinking was crazy. Maybe people in love were always crazy and silly !
Ye Zhengchen unb.u.t.toned my dress, then putting his hand around my body, he unhooked my bra. The warm air in the car touched my body . Then his fingers replaced the touch of the warm air.
In the closed s.p.a.ce of the car, I felt like I was on fire!
His moist tongue explored my skin and left a trail of fire wherever it reached.
I felt like I was slowly melting..
I didn"t even realise when he pressed a b.u.t.ton so that my body sank and both of us lay down on the seat. After that, I could feel the full weight of his body over mine.
My hands slipped in through his shirt to caress his bare skin. His skin was much warmer and smoother than I had expected
I looked up when I heard the sound of the belt unbuckling.
I could see one square inch of the sky through the sunroof of the car. It was so beautiful!
I could see little stars, dazzling and shimmering in the night
How could there be stars visible on a rainy night ? But I really did see stars, bright and dazzling!
After taking off the last bits of my clothes, he held up one of my legs with his elbow and kissed me
The swaying trees strew the blossoms in the wind
This was the fate of the cherry blossom, a beautiful end..
Suddenly I felt something hot and hard as rock invade my body..
Chapter 17
A harsh pain ripped through my body
I clenched my lips ,my body stiffened in response and I tried to swallow the scream that automatically emerged in my throat.
Tears fell from the corner of my eyes.
Ye Zhengchen was stunned and looked at me incredulously.
Perhaps he had thought that even though I was a good girl, I would have had boyfriends in the past. He had probably never come across a twenty three year old woman who was still a virgin.
" Don"t worry, I won"t demand you to marry me or something". I was a bit angry, and my tone was cold," I am willing to.."
But only after a few miliseconds of stunned inactivity, Ye Zhengchen seemed to be brought back to life again; as if he had made an important decision
With a long sigh, he wiped my tears, then caressed my forehead, lovingly smoothing out the bangs on my forehead.
" Is it too painful?"
His tenderness melted my anger, especially when our bodies were so close
In a softer tone I said, " No"
" Do you want to continue?"
After this step, he was asking me if I wanted to continue! I was almost angry again (miumiu : ha ha . I love her reaction!)
" I mean, do you want to move somewhere more comfortable?"
I shook my head
I liked it here. The heavy rain like silk curtains, the flowers strewn in the air, the confined s.p.a.ce, this was a good place to explore our pa.s.sions..
" Relax, give me your hand", he whispered
I put my hand in his palm , let him hold me as he adjusted my position. Then he slowed his rhythm , slowly in and slowly out. He continued in this manner till I adjusted to his rhythm and my body relaxed
No wonder people said that love making was so beautiful. In particular, if he knew you more than you did yourself.
Five minutes later, he asked again, " What is it?"
It was no longer painful, but what I was feeling was something even more unbearable than the pain.
After a while, he asked me , ” Is it too much?”
Yes it was too much, too much for my heart not to soften further
Then again, ” too fast?”
Yes too fast, I liked it that way
” Do you like this position?”
When he asked me this question, he was lying on the seat, with me on top.
I shook my head shyly
He leaned towards me , enjoying my embarra.s.sed expression, ” I like it”
“&h.e.l.lip;”
” You know, you look so beautiful now!”
I closed my eyes. A tide surged in my body, overwhelming me .Wave after wave of pa.s.sion engulfed me.
I lost all sense of time.
” Do you know what the next verse is, after ‘ dressed in water, what does the water want ?” ( miumiu : this is what YZ had said to BB the first time in the car. Its a reference to some poem describing a beauty in wet clothes in graphic detail)
” The silken pa.s.sions of Ren Jun You” (miumiu : RJY is the poet)
Next sentence? There was a next sentence?
This man was the most shameless person in the world.
But this was the man I liked!