I spoke suddenly to James as we went.
"You will leave me," I said, "at the Whitehall gate; and go back to my lodgings. Procure a pair of good horses at the Covent Garden inn; and say we will leave them at any place they name on the Dover Road."
He answered that he would do so, and it was the first word he had spoken since we had left Tyburn. At the palace-doors I found no difficulty in admittance, for it was the hour for changing guard, and a lieutenant that was known to me let me in at once; so I went straight in and across the court, just as I was, in my dusty clothes and boots, carrying nothing but my riding-whip. My mind now seethed with bitter thoughts and words, now fell into a stupor, and I rehea.r.s.ed nothing of what I should say to His Majesty, except that I was done with his service and was then going to France for a little, unless it pleased him to have me arrested and hanged too for nothing. Then I would give him back his papers and begone.
I came up the stairs to Mr. Chiffinch"s lodgings, just as himself came out; and he fell back a step when he saw me.
"Why, where do you come from?" he asked.
"They are after me," I said briefly. "But that is not all."
"Why, what else?" said he, staring at me.
"I am come from seeing the martyrdoms," I said.
"For G.o.d"s sake!--" he cried; and caught me by the arm and drew me in.
"Now have you dined?" he said, when he had me in a chair.
"Not yet."
He looked at me, fingering his lip.
"I suppose you have come to see His Majesty?" he said.
I told him, Yes: no more.
"And what if His Majesty will not see you?" he asked, trying me.
"His Majesty will see me," I said. "I have something for him."
Again he hesitated. I think for a minute or two he thought it might be a pistol or a knife that I had for the King.
"If I bring you to him," he said, "will you give me your word to remain here till I come for you?"
"Yes; I will do that," I said. "But I must see him immediately."
"Well--" said Mr. Chiffinch. And then without a word he wheeled and went out of the room.
I do not know how long I sat there; but it may have been half an hour. I sat like a dazed man; for I had had no sleep, and what I had seen drove away all desire for it. I sat there, staring, and pondering round and round in circles, like a wheel turning. Now it was of Dorothy; now of the Jesuits; now of His Majesty and Mr. Chiffinch; now again, of the road to Dover, and of what I should do in France.
There came at last a step on the stairs, and Mr. Chiffinch came in. At the door he turned, and took from a man in the pa.s.sage, as I suppose, a covered dish, with a spoon in it. Then he shut the door with his heel, and came forward and set the dish down.
"Dinner first--" he said.
"I must see His Majesty," I repeated.
"Why you are an obstinate fellow, Mr. Mallock," he said, smiling. "Have I not given you my word you shall see him?"
"Directly?"
He leaned his hands on the table and looked at me.
"Mr. Mallock; His Majesty will be here in ten minutes" time. I told him you must eat something first; and he said he would wait till then."
The stew he had brought me was very savoury: and I ate it all up; for I had had nothing to eat since supper last night; and, by the time I had done, and had told him very briefly what had pa.s.sed at Hare Street, I felt some of my bewilderment was gone. It is marvellous how food can change the moods of the immortal soul herself; but I was none the less determined, I thought, to leave the King"s service; for I could not serve any man, I thought, whose hands were as red as his in the blood of innocents.
I had hardly done, and was blessing myself, when Mr. Chiffinch went out suddenly, and had returned before I had stood up, to hold the door open for the King.
He came in, that great Prince,--(for in spite of all I still count him to be that, _in posse_ if not _in esse_)--as airy and as easy as if nothing in the world was the matter. He was but just come from dinner, and his face was flushed a little under its brown, with wine; and his melancholy eyes were alight. He was in one of his fine suits too, for to-day was Sat.u.r.day; and as it was hot weather his suit was all of thin silk, puce-coloured, with yellow lace; and he carried a long cane in his ringed hand. He might not have had a care in the world, to all appearances; and he smiled at me, as if I were but just come back from a day in the country.
"Well, Mr. Mallock"--he said; and put out his hand to be kissed.
Now I had determined not to kiss his hand--whatever the consequences might be; but when I saw him like that I could do no otherwise; for my love and my pity for him--(if I may use such a word of a subject towards his Sovereign)--surged up again, which I thought were dead for ever; so I was on my knees in an instant, and I kissed his brown hand and smelled the faint violet essence which he used. Then, before I could say anything, he had me down in a chair, and himself in another, and was beginning to talk. (Mr. Chiffinch was gone out; but I had not seen him go.)
"It is a b.l.o.o.d.y business," he said sorrowfully--"a very b.l.o.o.d.y business.
But what else could be done? If I had not consented, I would be no longer King; but off on my travels again; and all England in confusion.
However; that is as it may be. What do you want to see me for, Mr.
Mallock?"
He spoke so kindly to me, and with such feeling too, and his condescension seemed to me so infinite in his coming here to wait upon me--(though this was very often his custom, I think, when he wished to see a man or a woman in private)--that I determined to put off my announcement to him that I could no longer be in his service. So first I drew out from my waistcoat the packet I had taken from under my shirt, and put there, while Mr. Chiffinch was away.
"Sir;" I said, "I have brought your packet back again. I have had no word from you as to its delivery; and as I must go abroad to-day I dare keep it no longer. Your Majesty, I fear, must find another messenger."
His face darkened for an instant as if he could not remember something; but it lightened again as he took the packet from me, and turned it over.
"Why; I remember," he said. "It was sealed within and without, was it not?"
That seemed to me a strangely irrelevant thing to say but I told him, Yes it was.
"And you were to deliver to--eh? what was his name?"
"Your Majesty told me that the name would be sent to me."
"Why, so I did," said the King, smiling. "Well; let us open the packet and see what is within."
He took up a little ivory knife that was on the table by his elbow, and slipped it beneath the folds of the paper, so as to burst open the seals; and when he had done that, there was another wrapper, also sealed. This seal he also scrutinized, still smiling a little; and then he burst that; and when he had taken off that covering, a folded piece of paper fell out. This he unfolded, and spread flat with his fingers; and there was nothing written on that side; then he turned it over, and shewed me how there was nothing written on that either. So the message I had borne about me, was nothing in the world but a piece of blank paper.
I drew a long breath when I saw that; for my anger surged up at the way I had been fooled; but before I could think of anything to say, the King spoke.
"Mr. Mallock," he said, "you have done very well. You understand it now, eh?"