"D"you remember what you said to me the other day?" she asked then on a sudden.
"Oh, I say, don"t let"s quarrel," said Philip. "It really isn"t worth while."
She gave a quick, painful inspiration.
"I don"t want to quarrel with you. You"re the only friend I had in Paris.
I thought you rather liked me. I felt there was something between us. I was drawn towards you--you know what I mean, your club-foot."
Philip reddened and instinctively tried to walk without a limp. He did not like anyone to mention the deformity. He knew what f.a.n.n.y Price meant. She was ugly and uncouth, and because he was deformed there was between them a certain sympathy. He was very angry with her, but he forced himself not to speak.
"You said you only asked my advice to please me. Don"t you think my work"s any good?"
"I"ve only seen your drawing at Amitrano"s. It"s awfully hard to judge from that."
"I was wondering if you"d come and look at my other work. I"ve never asked anyone else to look at it. I should like to show it to you."
"It"s awfully kind of you. I"d like to see it very much."
"I live quite near here," she said apologetically. "It"ll only take you ten minutes."
"Oh, that"s all right," he said.
They were walking along the boulevard, and she turned down a side street, then led him into another, poorer still, with cheap shops on the ground floor, and at last stopped. They climbed flight after flight of stairs.
She unlocked a door, and they went into a tiny attic with a sloping roof and a small window. This was closed and the room had a musty smell. Though it was very cold there was no fire and no sign that there had been one.
The bed was unmade. A chair, a chest of drawers which served also as a wash-stand, and a cheap easel, were all the furniture. The place would have been squalid enough in any case, but the litter, the untidiness, made the impression revolting. On the chimney-piece, scattered over with paints and brushes, were a cup, a dirty plate, and a tea-pot.
"If you"ll stand over there I"ll put them on the chair so that you can see them better."
She showed him twenty small canvases, about eighteen by twelve. She placed them on the chair, one after the other, watching his face; he nodded as he looked at each one.
"You do like them, don"t you?" she said anxiously, after a bit.
"I just want to look at them all first," he answered. "I"ll talk afterwards."
He was collecting himself. He was panic-stricken. He did not know what to say. It was not only that they were ill-drawn, or that the colour was put on amateurishly by someone who had no eye for it; but there was no attempt at getting the values, and the perspective was grotesque. It looked like the work of a child of five, but a child would have had some naivete and might at least have made an attempt to put down what he saw; but here was the work of a vulgar mind chock full of recollections of vulgar pictures.
Philip remembered that she had talked enthusiastically about Monet and the Impressionists, but here were only the worst traditions of the Royal Academy.
"There," she said at last, "that"s the lot."
Philip was no more truthful than anybody else, but he had a great difficulty in telling a thundering, deliberate lie, and he blushed furiously when he answered:
"I think they"re most awfully good."
A faint colour came into her unhealthy cheeks, and she smiled a little.
"You needn"t say so if you don"t think so, you know. I want the truth."
"But I do think so."
"Haven"t you got any criticism to offer? There must be some you don"t like as well as others."
Philip looked round helplessly. He saw a landscape, the typical picturesque "bit" of the amateur, an old bridge, a creeper-clad cottage, and a leafy bank.
"Of course I don"t pretend to know anything about it," he said. "But I wasn"t quite sure about the values of that."
She flushed darkly and taking up the picture quickly turned its back to him.
"I don"t know why you should have chosen that one to sneer at. It"s the best thing I"ve ever done. I"m sure my values are all right. That"s a thing you can"t teach anyone, you either understand values or you don"t."
"I think they"re all most awfully good," repeated Philip.
She looked at them with an air of self-satisfaction.
"I don"t think they"re anything to be ashamed of."
Philip looked at his watch.
"I say, it"s getting late. Won"t you let me give you a little lunch?"
"I"ve got my lunch waiting for me here."
Philip saw no sign of it, but supposed perhaps the concierge would bring it up when he was gone. He was in a hurry to get away. The mustiness of the room made his head ache.
XLVII
In March there was all the excitement of sending in to the Salon. Clutton, characteristically, had nothing ready, and he was very scornful of the two heads that Lawson sent; they were obviously the work of a student, straight-forward portraits of models, but they had a certain force; Clutton, aiming at perfection, had no patience with efforts which betrayed hesitancy, and with a shrug of the shoulders told Lawson it was an impertinence to exhibit stuff which should never have been allowed out of his studio; he was not less contemptuous when the two heads were accepted.
Flanagan tried his luck too, but his picture was refused. Mrs. Otter sent a blameless Portrait de ma Mere, accomplished and second-rate; and was hung in a very good place.
Hayward, whom Philip had not seen since he left Heidelberg, arrived in Paris to spend a few days in time to come to the party which Lawson and Philip were giving in their studio to celebrate the hanging of Lawson"s pictures. Philip had been eager to see Hayward again, but when at last they met, he experienced some disappointment. Hayward had altered a little in appearance: his fine hair was thinner, and with the rapid wilting of the very fair, he was becoming wizened and colourless; his blue eyes were paler than they had been, and there was a muzziness about his features. On the other hand, in mind he did not seem to have changed at all, and the culture which had impressed Philip at eighteen aroused somewhat the contempt of Philip at twenty-one. He had altered a good deal himself, and regarding with scorn all his old opinions of art, life, and letters, had no patience with anyone who still held them. He was scarcely conscious of the fact that he wanted to show off before Hayward, but when he took him round the galleries he poured out to him all the revolutionary opinions which himself had so recently adopted. He took him to Manet"s Olympia and said dramatically:
"I would give all the old masters except Velasquez, Rembrandt, and Vermeer for that one picture."
"Who was Vermeer?" asked Hayward.
"Oh, my dear fellow, don"t you know Vermeer? You"re not civilised. You mustn"t live a moment longer without making his acquaintance. He"s the one old master who painted like a modern."
He dragged Hayward out of the Luxembourg and hurried him off to the Louvre.
"But aren"t there any more pictures here?" asked Hayward, with the tourist"s pa.s.sion for thoroughness.
"Nothing of the least consequence. You can come and look at them by yourself with your Baedeker."
When they arrived at the Louvre Philip led his friend down the Long Gallery.
"I should like to see The Gioconda," said Hayward.