"Hear me? Hear me call him darling? Why, he"s heard it so often it"s no more to him than your calling him Jack. But if he asked me what I meant by it! do you know what would happen then?"
"What would?"
"Then," said Nan enigmatically, "I should tell him, that"s all."
She would say no more, though he hurled questions at her, and hardly remembered afterward what they were. He was of an impression that he begged her to love him, to marry him, though d.i.c.k, prodigal as he was of great words in his verse, scarcely believed he used them in the direct address of love-making. But certainly he did beg her, and Nan was gentle with him, though always, like Tira, as she remembered afterward, repeating, "No! no!" At the end, his pa.s.sion softened into something appealing, as if they were together considering the sad case he found himself in and he depended on her to help him through.
"Nan," he said, in the boyish way she loved, "don"t you see it"s got to be in the end? We"ve always been together. We"re always going to be.
Don"t you see, old Nan?"
Nan smiled at him, brilliantly, cruelly, he thought. But she was sorry for him, and it was only a show of cruelty. It came out of her kindness, really. d.i.c.k mustn"t suffer so for want of her. Bully him, abuse him, anything to anger him and keep him from sheer weak, unavailing regret.
Nan had a great idea of what men should be: "tough as a knot," she thought, seasoned all through. If they whimpered, she was aghast.
"No," she said again, with the brilliant smile, "no! no! I can"t. I won"t. Not unless"--and this, too, was calculated cruelty--"unless Rookie tells me to."
They sat staring at each other as if each wondered what the outcome was to be. Nan was excitedly ready for it. Or had the last word been actually said? But d.i.c.k altogether surprised her. He got up and stood looking down at her in a dignity she found new to him.
"When you come to me," he said, "you"ll come because I ask you. It won"t be because any other man tells you to."
He walked past her, out of the room. Did he, Nan wondered, in her ingenuous surprise, look a very little like Rookie? When he was twenty years older, was he going to look as Rookie did now? His expression, that is. For, after all, there was d.i.c.k"s nose.
And in these days what of Tira? She, too, was on an edge of nervous apprehension. Tenney was about the house a great deal. He still made much of his lameness, though never in words. Every step he took seemed an implication that a cane was far from sufficient. He needed his crutch. And as the period of his silence lengthened, Tira was driven by her fear to another greater fear: that she might mention it herself.
What if she should tell him how the crutch, leaning there at the foot of the bed, had seemed to her a weapon, not a crutch? What if she appealed to his pity and even played a part with him, dwelling on her woman"s weakness of nature, her tremors, deprived of the protection that should be hers? Artifice was foreign to her. Yet what was there, short of implicating Raven, she would not do for the child? But a glance at Tenney"s face, the tightness of reserve, the fanatical eyes, closed her lips, and they moved about together dumbly at their common tasks. As she grew paler and the outline of her cheek the purer over the bones beneath, he watched her the more intently, but still furtively. One forenoon when the sky was gray and a soft snow fell in great flakes that melted as they came, he went haltingly up to the shed chamber and came down with his gun. He was not a huntsman, and when they moved into the house it had been left there with a disorder of things not likely to be needed. He drew a chair to the table and then addressed her almost urbanely. He wanted, she guessed, to call her attention in some explicit way.
"You git me some kind of a rag," he bade her. "I"m goin" to clean up this old musket. You might"s well hand me that oiler, too, off"n the sink shelf. I can"t git about any too well."
She brought him the cloth and the oiler and went away to the sink again, determined not to be drawn into any uneasiness of questioning. But it fascinated her, the sight of him bending to his task, and her will weakened. In spite of herself, she went over to the table and stood looking down at him. Presently he glanced up at her and smiled a little in a way she did not like. It seemed to imply some recognition of a common knowledge between them. He had, the look said, more than the apparent reason for what he was doing. The oiling of the gun was not all. Something at the back of his mind was more significant than this act of his hands, and this something, the look said, she also knew. All through the moment of her gazing down at him Tira was telling herself she must not speak. Yet she spoke:
"You goin" gunnin"?"
"I dunno but I be," he returned, his eyes again on his work. "I"ve had it in mind quite a spell, an" I dunno"s there"s any reason for puttin"
on"t off."
"What you goin" after, Isr"el?" she asked, against her will, and he was silent for what seemed so long, that she pursued: "You goin" rabbitin"?"
"No," said Tenney. "I dunno"s I be. What"s the use o" shootin" down four-footed creatur"s? T"other ones"ll do well enough for me."
Again he glanced up at her and her look of frozen horror evidently warned him against terrifying her unduly. She must be shaken enough to obey him, not to fight.
"You look kinder peaked," he said, with what she found a false air of interest. "You don"t git out enough. Mebbe you"d ought to git out nights. I"ve been noticin" how peaked you look, an" I thought mebbe I"d git the old musket loaded up an" go out an" shoot ye a pa"tridge. Tempt your appet.i.te, mebbe, a mite o" the breast."
"I dunno," said Tira, speaking with difficulty through her rigid misery, "as you"d ought to, so near nestin" time. I dunno"s as it"s the season to kill."
"All seasons are the same to me," said Tenney. "When it"s time to kill, then kill, I say. Kill!"
He spoke the word as if he loved it, and Tira walked away from him into the bedroom, and stretched herself on the bed, her hand on the sleeping child. When it was time to get dinner she came out again and found him reading his paper by the stove. He had set the gun away in a corner. But directly after dinner he shaved at the little gla.s.s by the kitchen window and told her, again with the air of abundant explanation she found foreign to him, that he was going to the street, to get the colt shod. The colt did need to be shod. She knew that. Perhaps this time he was actually going.
"You want to take along the eggs?" she said, and he a.s.sented.
He asked her, too, for a list of groceries she needed. He would have to wait his turn at the blacksmith"s. He might be a long time. She need not expect him before dark. She might as well go out, he told her, and again:
"You"re lookin" peaked. You need the air."
She heard him drive briskly out of the yard, but she would not, for some reason she did not herself know, go to the window to look after him. It was all a plan, she told herself. She was not to be taken in by it. She would force herself to sit down to her sewing. She would not leave the house while he was gone. If he wanted to tempt her out, to trap her, let him have his will. It was better, she thought, with a moment"s satirical comment, for him to be driving off on a fict.i.tious mission than roaming the neighborhood with a gun in his hand. She glanced involuntarily at the corner where the gun had stood not many minutes before he left the house. It was gone. Then she knew. She threw down her work, went to the telephone, and called Raven. He was there, and she felt her heart answer wildly when, at her first word, he broke in:
"Is it you?" Not her name, only the intimacy of the significant word.
"The hut?" he added.
"Up there," said Tira, breathless. "Both of you. I"ve got to see you both. Come quick."
She got her cloak and threw it down again, remembering it was what she was used to wearing and that Tenney would most certainly recognize her outline in it, even though a long way off. Grandmother Tenney"s black blanket shawl was in the parlor chest of drawers, that and her hood, disfiguring ancientry of dress. She ran into the parlor, s.n.a.t.c.hed them out, tied on the black knitted hood and, not unfolding the shawl, wrapped it about her shoulders. The baby was in his cradle, and she gave him one glance. If he waked, he would cry. Let him cry. But she did lock the door behind her, and put the key on the sill, a place Tenney would know. Half way down the path, she went back, took the key again and dropped it into her ap.r.o.n pocket. Tenney might come, but he should not go into the house and find the child alone. Lest he should come the way he went, she took the back road, and there, when she was about to turn into the wood road, she heard sleigh-bells behind her, the horse going, as her ear told her, "step and step." But she was actually on the wood road when the driver whipped up and the bells came clashingly. She did not turn to look. It was not Tenney. She would have known his bells. The horse drew up, the driver called to him a peremptory and jovial word, and she knew the voice. It was Eugene Martin"s, and instinct told her to stop and face him. He stepped out of the sleigh and threw the robe, with a quick motion, over the horse. Then he came on to her, smiling, effusively cordial, and Tira waited. A pace away he took off his hat and made her an exaggerated bow. He was carefully dressed, but then he was always that, according to his lights. Only Tira, who knew him so well, all his vain schemes of personal fitness, judged this to be a day of especial preparation. For what? He took the step between them and put out both hands.
"If this ain"t luck!" he beamed. "How are you, girl? I made up my mind I"d see you, but I hadn"t an idea you"d be on the road."
Tira rolled her hands in her ap.r.o.n, as if they were cold. His extended hands she did not seem to see.
"I ain"t waitin" for you," she said quietly, her eyes on his. "You better go right straight along about your business an" leave me to mine."
"I ain"t done right, Tira," said Martin, with the specious warmth she knew. "I did try to git you in bad with Tenney, but don"t you know what that sprung from? I"m jealous as the devil. Don"t you know I be?"
"You"ve no call to be jealous nor anything else," said Tira steadily.
"You an" me are as fur apart"--she hesitated for a word, and her eyes rested for a moment on one of the tall evergreens moving slightly in the breeze. "We couldn"t any more come together than I could climb up to the pick o" that pine tree."
He still regarded her solicitously. He was determined not to abandon his part.
"Ain"t somebody come betwixt us?" he demanded, with that vibration of the voice once so moving to her. "You can"t deny it. Can you now?"
"n.o.body"s come betwixt us," said Tira. "If you was the only man on this earth to-day, I"d run from you as I would a snake. I hate you. No, I don"t. I look on you as if you was the dirt under my feet."
But as she said it she glanced down, wistfully troubled, as if she begged forgiveness of the good earth. The quick anger she knew in him flared like a licking flame. He threw his arms about her and held her to him as tightly, it seemed to her, as if he were hostile to the very breath within her body. And she was still, not only because he gripped her so but because she had called upon that terrible endurance women recognize within themselves. He kissed her, angry, insulting kisses she could bear more patiently than the kisses of unwelcome love. But as his lips defiled her face, he was suddenly aware that it was wet. Great tears were rolling down her cheeks. He laughed.
"Cryin"?" he jeered. "Poor little cry-baby! wipe her eyes."
While he held her with one arm, the other hand plunged into her ap.r.o.n pocket and brought out her handkerchief. It also touched the key. His instincts, she knew, had a scope of devilish cunning, and at once he knew what key it was. He laughed. Looking off through the trees, he had seen what gave him another clue.
"Smoke!" he called, as if he shouted it to an unseen listener who might not have been clever enough to guess. "Smoke from that shack Raven lazes round in same as Old Crow did afore him. That"s where you were goin".
The wood road all broke out for you. I might ha" known it when I see that. Go along, my lady. He"ll be there waitin" for you. Go along. But jest for the fun o" the thing, you leave the key with me."
She answered with a desperate wrench; but though one of her hands reached the pocket where the key lay, she could only twitch the fingers, and while he laughed softly he pulled the tie of her ap.r.o.n and, releasing her with a little push, s.n.a.t.c.hed the ap.r.o.n from her, rolled it and thrust it into his pocket. She sprang at him, but he gave her another push that sent her staggering and ran laughing to the sleigh.
"So long!" he called back at her.
She recovered herself and started after him. But the horse plunged forward and Martin was shouting at her jovially, in what words she did not hear. She only knew, through the bewilderment of her despair, that the tone was merciless.
She stood there a moment, looking after him, and realizing that he had forced her into a corner from which there was no possible way out. But then another fear beat in her numbed brain. She had not accomplished the task for which she came here. Martin and his trick must wait. That other need was more important. There was the hut and its welcoming smoke and there Raven must be looking for her. She started running along the snowy path, reached the door, found it unlocked and went in.