Down at the boathouse even Tessie, who had confessed ignorance of boats and oars, knew that Ballou was fumbling clumsily. He stooped to adjust the oars to the oarlocks. His hat was off. His hair looked very gray in the cruel spring sunshine. He straightened and smiled up at her.
"Ready in a minute, sweetheart," he said. He took off his collar and turned in the neckband of his shirt. His skin was very white. Tessie felt a little shudder of disgust sweep over her, so that she stumbled a little as she stepped into the boat.
The river was very lovely. Tessie trailed her fingers in the water and told herself that she was having a grand time. She told Nap the same when he asked her.
"Having a good time, little beauty?" he said. He was puffing a little with the unwonted exercise.
Tessie tried some of her old-time pertness of speech. "Oh, good enough, considering the company."
He laughed admiringly at that and said she was a sketch.
When the early evening came on they made a clumsy landing and had supper. This time Nap fed her the tidbits, though she protested.
"White meat for you," he said, "with your skin like milk."
"You must of read that in a book," scoffed Tessie. She glanced around her at the deepening shadows. "We haven"t got much time. It gets dark so early."
"No hurry," Nap a.s.sured her. He went on eating in a leisurely, finicking sort of way, though he consumed very little food, actually.
"You"re not eating much," Tessie said once, halfheartedly. She decided that she wasn"t having such a very grand time, after all, and that she hated his teeth, which were very bad. Now, Chuck"s strong, white, double row----
"Well," she said, "let"s be going."
"No hurry," again.
Tessie looked up at that with the instinctive fear of her kind. "What d"you mean, no hurry! "Spect to stay here till dark?" She laughed at her own joke.
"Yes."
She got up then, the blood in her face. "Well, _I_ don"t."
He rose, too. "Why not?"
"Because I don"t, that"s why." She stooped and began picking up the remnants of the lunch, placing spoons and gla.s.s bottles swiftly and thriftily into the lunch box. Nap stepped around behind her.
"Let me help," he said. And then his arm was about her and his face was close to hers, and Tessie did not like it. He kissed her after a little wordless struggle. And then she knew. She had been kissed before. But not like this. Not like this! She struck at him furiously. Across her mind flashed the memory of a girl who had worked in the finishing room. A nice girl, too. But that hadn"t helped her.
Nap Ballou was laughing a little as he clasped her.
At that she heard herself saying: "I"ll get Chuck Mory after you--you drunken b.u.m, you! He"ll lick you black and blue. He"ll----"
The face, with the ugly, broken brown teeth, was coming close again.
With all the young strength that was in her she freed one hand and clawed at that face from eyes to chin. A howl of pain rewarded her.
His hold loosened. Like a flash she was off. She ran. It seemed to her that her feet did not touch the earth. Over brush, through bushes, crashing against trees, on and on. She heard him following her, but the broken-down engine that was his heart refused to do the work. She ran on, though her fear was as great as before. Fear of what might have happened--to her, Tessie Golden, that n.o.body could even talk fresh to.
She gave a sob of fury and fatigue. She was stumbling now. It was growing dark. She ran on again, in fear of the overtaking darkness.
It was easier now. Not so many trees and bushes. She came to a fence, climbed over it, lurched as she landed, leaned against it weakly for support, one hand on her aching heart. Before her was the Hatton summer cottage, dimly outlined in the twilight among the trees.
A warm, flickering light danced in the window. Tessie stood a moment, breathing painfully, sobbingly. Then, with an instinctive gesture, she patted her hair, tidied her blouse, and walked uncertainly toward the house, up the steps to the door. She stood there a moment, swaying slightly. Somebody"d be there.
The light. The woman who cooked for them or the man who took care of the place. Somebody"d----
She knocked at the door feebly. She"d tell "em she had lost her way and got scared when it began to get dark. She knocked again, louder now. Footsteps. She braced herself and even arranged a crooked smile.
The door opened wide. Old Man Hatton!
She looked up at him, terror and relief in her face. He peered over his gla.s.ses at her. "Who is it?" Tessie had not known, somehow, that his face was so kindly.
Tessie"s carefully planned story crumbled into nothingness. "It"s me!"
she whimpered. "It"s me!"
He reached out and put a hand on her arm and drew her inside.
"Angie! Angie! Here"s a poor little kid----"
Tessie clutched frantically at the last crumbs of her pride. She tried to straighten, to smile with her old bravado. What was that story she had planned to tell?
"Who is it, Dad? Who----?" Angie Hatton came into the hallway. She stared at Tessie. Then: "Why, my dear!" she said. "My dear! Come in here."
Angie Hatton! Tessie began to cry weakly, her face buried in Angie Hatton"s expensive shoulder. Tessie remembered later that she had felt no surprise at the act.
"There, there!" Angie Hatton was saying. "Just poke up the fire, Dad.
And get something from the dining room. Oh, I don"t know. To drink, you know. Something----"
Then Old Man Hatton stood over her, holding a small gla.s.s to her lips.
Tessie drank it obediently, made a wry little face, coughed, wiped her eyes, and sat up. She looked from one to the other, like a trapped little animal. She put a hand to her tousled head.
"That"s all right," Angie Hatton a.s.sured her. "You can fix it after a while."
There they were, the three of them: Old Man Hatton with his back to the fire, looking benignly down upon her; Angie seated, with some knitting in her hands, as if entertaining bedraggled, tear-stained young ladies at dusk were an everyday occurrence; Tessie, twisting her handkerchief in a torment of embarra.s.sment. But they asked no questions, these two. They evinced no curiosity about this disheveled creature who had flung herself in upon their decent solitude.
Tessie stared at the fire. She looked up at Old Man Hatton"s face and opened her lips. She looked down and shut them again. Then she flashed a quick look at Angie, to see if she could detect there some suspicion, some disdain. None. Angie Hatton looked--well, Tessie put it to herself, thus: "She looks like she"d cried till she couldn"t cry no more--only inside."
And then, surprisingly, Tessie began to talk. "I wouldn"t never have gone with this fella, only Chuck, he was gone. All the boys"re gone.
It"s fierce. You get scared, sitting home, waiting, and they"re in France and everywhere, learning French and everything, and meeting grand people and having a fuss made over "em. So I got mad and said I didn"t care, I wasn"t going to squat home all my life, waiting----"
Angie Hatton had stopped knitting now. Old Man Hatton was looking down at her very kindly. And so Tessie went on. The pent-up emotions and thoughts of these past months were finding an outlet at last. These things which she had never been able to discuss with her mother she now was laying bare to Angie Hatton and Old Man Hatton! They asked no questions. They seemed to understand. Once Old Man Hatton interrupted with: "So that"s the kind of fellow they"ve got as escapement-room foreman, eh?"
Tessie, whose mind was working very clearly now, put out a quick hand.
"Say, it wasn"t his fault. He"s a b.u.m, all right, but I knew it, didn"t I? It was me. I didn"t care. Seemed to me it didn"t make no difference who I went with, but it does." She looked down at her hands clasped so tightly in her lap.
"Yes, it makes a whole lot of difference," Angie agreed, and looked up at her father.
At that Tessie blurted her last desperate problem: "He"s learning all kind of new things. Me, I ain"t learning anything. When Chuck comes home he"ll just think I"m dumb, that"s all. He----"
"What kind of thing would you like to learn, Tessie, so that when Chuck comes home----"
Tessie looked up then, her wide mouth quivering with eagerness. "I"d like to learn to swim--and row a boat--and play tennis--like the rich girls--like the girls that"s making such a fuss over the soldiers."
Angie Hatton was not laughing. So, after a moment"s hesitation, Tessie brought out the worst of it. "And French. I"d like to learn to talk French."