"Perhaps you are rethinking your plans, Mr. Trant."
"I am. But things are not too far gone to correct. Jealousy is an easy excuse with which to dismiss the rumors. And marriage will quash the rest," he said.
"I see."
"Do you? I will tell you something that no one else yet knows. The King is drawing up Letters right now. He knows which way the wind blows. He sees the future. And by this time next year, I will be an earl." One finger ran along her shoulder as he turned. "And you, my dear, you will be a countess. And not just any countess, but the wife of the future minister as well."
She wasn"t surprised by his ambition. Or by the information that he was to be t.i.tled. And least surprising was the crisp coolness that coiled within her, waiting. Winning cards lay before her. Chance blossoming and offering her a perfect hand.
"That sounds like a very fortuitous state of affairs." She tried to keep her voice calm. And she found that it wasn"t difficult to do so. A few months ago, she likely would have felt some heady relief. Something that said she didn"t have to continue along her rocky path, her father"s path.
But that path had disappeared over the cliff, and the one now before her was shrouded in a different kind of darkness.
"I see you are happy to have your sister back," he said, eyes narrowing when she didn"t gush over his offer, expression also satisfied that she could still act so coolly.
"Yes."
"Such a carefree, happy spirit."
Charlotte said nothing, not remotely surprised that Trant knew her weakness. Only that it had taken him so long to use it.
"Your sister will want for nothing. I have many connections."
Coldness spread. For here it really was before her. Actual bargains to be made, deals to be sealed, opportunities to be seized.
Her father thought his p.a.w.n was in here placating Trant. Securing his compliance to wait until the end of the season.
She thought back to what Roman had said. That the power rested in her lap. The problem was that internalizing that revelation also meant decisions could no longer be pushed aside.
"I simply wish for Emily to choose her own path." Everything in her voice said that there was nothing simple in the statement. That this is where negotiating began.
"Then that is what she will have," he whispered in her ear, excitement in his tone that they had reached the crux. "When I am minister, she might choose to become a patron of the arts. A courtier to a queen. Married to a simple man with children in the country. Anything she wants."
The whispered promise of out of your father"s hands lingered. Not having to worry about threats of Lord Kinley or his ilk.
She lifted her chin in interest, not willing to give away her position yet.
He paced around her chair again. "I"m a greedy man. But I could also offer . . . some freedom for you. Eventually." There was a hint of warning behind the words. He knew. Her heart beat in her, vibrating up her throat coldly. She should have felt no surprise at the certainty of the revelation. "Even with your current . . . rebelliousness, there is still barely a hint of talk. And with a ring on your finger, that all gets wiped clean." His fingers trailed across her chin as he came back into sight. "Perfection," he whispered.
She remained motionless. An expressionless bust.
Not only did he know, but he was willing to let her have some sort of relations.h.i.+p with Roman afterward.
Why would he agree to that? She didn"t have that much power. And while Trant was the type of man who could coldly work arrangements out at a later date, that he would use that incentive now . . . Something tugged at her thoughts, demanding attention.
"Still." His fingers left her skin. "You play your part, and I will play mine."
Give him heirs. Be the perfect wife in the social and political spheres. Have a secret life on the side.
The questions continued digging at her- why? And why now?
She could have everything. Why then did her stomach clench so painfully? She could have everything she"d thought she"d wanted if she simply, patiently waited for it.
"You offer much," she said.
"I want much in return." His eyes examined her. "But nothing that you are unable to give."
She lifted her chin. He didn"t require warmth or personal feeling. Obviously didn"t expect anything remotely smacking of it.
And though Trant"s motives were clear, pieces of him were hidden and twining beneath his calculating eyes. Less able to manage than another husband but also ambitious enough to claw them to the top.
She suddenly wondered when she reached the peak, how difficult it would be to stand upon the high, cold precipice, s.h.i.+vering, balancing, finding it hard to draw breath.
No, that was a coward"s way of thinking.
She worked with the cards she was dealt. She always had. A curl of cool air blew from somewhere. This was what she had been bred for.
These cards were better, no, more perfect, than any she"d been dealt before.
She smiled tightly at the man in front of her, and something inside of her, something that had been hanging by a fingernail for so long, finally broke.
The fair was lively. Emily was as enthusiastic as always, even if she kept sending Charlotte concerned glances when she thought she wasn"t looking. Viola was silent, and Charlotte would have normally pinpointed her expression as brooding, but on second glance it was almost contemplative.
Charlotte had a feeling that the three of them planned to exchange quick, pensive glances all day when they thought the others weren"t looking. She wondered what Emily and Viola were thinking-or brooding-about. She wanted to ask, but then she"d have to explain her own thoughts. Her future and her plans. Set the words and patterns to reality.
They swirled around her, tendrils of air that needed something firm to attach to. For she"d forced their carriage to stop at the Downings" on the way to the fair. Had run inside to speak to Miranda. A tumult of words and feelings, and admissions, all bursting free.
Knowing that everything might blast back. Turn on end, leave her dying.
And still she had done it. Pus.h.i.+ng past the fear, pus.h.i.+ng past the responsibility.
Roman . . . what would he- She froze, seeing Bill walking toward them. It wasn"t an unusual sight to see him these days, but to see him looking so solemn, his hands behind his back, approaching as if he meant to speak with them was. Her heart clenched. Had something happened?
She anxiously looked past Bill, hoping to see golden hair, but the crowd churned, the fairgoers laughing and talking, their voices too loud and piercing.
Bill finally came to a stop, standing before Viola, who looked at him as if he was a bug in her porridge.
"Milady, I couldn"t help but notice that your beauty s.h.i.+nes brighter than the bloodiest of veins."
Charlotte wasn"t sure whether to give into hysterical relief that nothing was wrong with Roman or to stupefaction at Bill"s words. Emily appeared firmly set on the latter.
"Pardon me?" Viola said coldly. But Viola didn"t push up her nose. Nor did she move away.
"The crimson blush of a violent sunset. Slaughtering my poor heart."
Bill"s hair was neatly combed, and he was dressed in a dark but dapper outfit, eye patch rakishly angled.
Charlotte"s eyes automatically raked the crowd for blond hair again. Slaughtering her poor heart.
" Pardon me?" Viola had never worn such an expression in Charlotte"s sight before.
"Only the light touch of your hand to my brow can stave the carmine mist."
Carmine mist? Charlotte"s brows furrowed, looking back at the man whom she had very much come to like, suddenly wondering at his sanity. But he was staring straight at Viola.
" Pardon me? "
Bill solemnly took his hands from behind his back and offered a bouquet of flawless roses to Viola. "For you, milady."
Viola stared at the man, her fingers automatically taking the flowers. She looked at the bouquet in her hands. "Blood roses are my favorite," she said, and Charlotte couldn"t read her tone.
"A beautiful choice, for a beautiful woman." Bill bowed. "Good day, milady."
Viola lifted her eyes from the flowers to Bill"s retreating back.
"I . . . what the devil just happened?" Emily whispered, staring at their mother, then looking into the crowd to see Bill"s figure disappear.
"Language," Charlotte said, almost absently, her eyes locked on the crowd that had swallowed him in.
"Yes!" Emily said, voice perkier. "There he is."
Charlotte froze. "Pardon me?"
"Incredibly Handsome Language. I"ve taken to calling him simply Handsome though, in secret," Emily chirpingly confided, then waved a hand at someone over Charlotte"s shoulder.
And now that she knew he was within the crowd, she couldn"t look. "Emily, what are you doing?" Charlotte hissed. Even Viola had recovered from her stupor and noticed, looking to where Emily waved.
She waited until she could wait no longer, then turned and b.u.mped into a warm body, a warm hand touching her waist to steady her.
"Pardon me," she said, s.h.i.+vering beneath his hand, not looking up. All the thoughts and emotions in the last few hours, in the last week without Roman . . . all swirling around.
"You have nothing to apologize for." Gravel under honey. "While I, on the other hand, have many such things. And yet I can"t stop touching you, even when it is better that I stay away," he whispered, too low for the others to hear. "Everything will be better. Soon. After this. Tonight."
He stilled suddenly. Almost a complete absence of movement, his hand still touching her. She startled and looked up to see him gazing at something over her shoulder. Deadly ice, those eyes.
"Pardon me, ladies." There was something venomous in his voice. Lethal and promising. He fluidly stepped around her, fingers drawing along the waist of her gown. Leaving a piece of paper tucked up in the ribbon under her b.r.e.a.s.t.s.
She turned, fl.u.s.tered, gripping a hand over the tucked paper as if it had the answer to every question she had ever asked, and saw him stalk toward a man who stood across the street. A man with a feral look to him. The man scowled upon seeing Roman, turned, and scurried into the crowd-not seeing Andreas standing nearby, a h.e.l.lish smile about his mouth as he smoothly pivoted and followed.
Roman"s pace increased as he moved after them, crowd parting around him. Expensive clothing moving with the stretch of his muscles. Savagery with the edge of polish. He disappeared from view a moment later.
"I say, Charlotte." Emily just kept blinking. "Each time I see him, I"m rendered stupid. Can I keep him? Or set him on Margaret Smith?"
Viola"s eyes were narrowed, and she looked at Charlotte for a long moment before she looked to Emily. "Do you know that man, Emily?"
"I have only partially met him. Charlotte was rather abrupt with him last time." Emily gave her a teasing grin. "I look forward to meeting him at a ball though. I bet he knows well how to dance."
Viola"s eyes were piercing. "Who is he, Charlotte?"
Emily blinked, brows furrowed as she looked from her mother to her sister. Obviously thinking with the way he was dressed and the fact that he had known Charlotte, it meant he was of the ton.
Charlotte looked at her mother evenly. "An acquaintance of Father"s."
And she saw everything in her mother"s eyes connecting the threads. Knowing.
Viola looked at the flowers in her fist. "And the other man?"
"A friend of his. Acting completely on his own." She added the last instinctively.
Viola said nothing for long moments, then she lifted her chin, looking at Charlotte, expression unreadable. "Very well." She turned and began walking slowly, flowers in the crook of her arm. "Shall we see whether the sweets here are any good?" she called over her shoulder. "Quality sweets, even in such an unrefined guise, should never be sacrificed."
Emily looked as if she"d been goosed, but a wild and thrilling emotion ran through Charlotte. Hope.
Charlotte quickly caught up to her mother, with Emily a beat behind. "I didn"t realize you were interested in sweets, Mother."
"Perhaps that has been my trouble all along. Not choosing to change circ.u.mstances to my advantage." Viola brought her chin up farther. "If one isn"t offered a sweet, it is up to that person to take one or make her own."
"But-" Charlotte looked at the hem of her expensive dress as it floated above her equally costly slippers. "Sometimes you can"t simply take one. It upsets the whole balance."
"Of course it does. And makes it inc.u.mbent on others to find their own paths." Viola waved a hand at Emily. "Take your sister. You don"t think that she would lose her way in this world if something happened to the rest of us, do you? Bah. She"s always been the quickest of our lot."
Emily blinked, but Charlotte smiled, tension and giddiness mixing, pressing her lips together.
"She"d probably take over France, or destroy it, if someone let her in on the strategy meetings. Your father is an idiot not to see it." There was a lot of relish in the statement, their mother"s voice flowing like a dam finally broken. Free. "He lost his way long ago, thinking there was only one way to skin a rabbit. And I lost my way brooding over his choices."
"But there is clearly a best way to skin one." Charlotte gripped her skirt, lingering tension still thrumming through her over her choice. "And sometimes pieces must be sacrificed."
"No, we aren"t playing chess," Emily said softly, breaking in to the conversation, putting her hand upon Charlotte"s arm. "And it is not necessarily that there is a best way, only one that is easiest. "
As their mother had pointed out, Emily was far from stupid, and she had obviously put things together quickly.
"I-I plan to make my own mistakes, Charlotte. My own choices. Would you take that away from me?"
Charlotte looked at her, shocked and confused. "Of course not, Emily. That is the point. You will be able to make any choice that you wish."
"At your expense? Do you think I could live with that knowledge?"
Charlotte took her shoulders in her hands. "There is nothing for you to feel guilty about. Nothing. It is my choice."
"And so too do I want to make my own. But not on the back of yours." She tipped her chin up. "I will make Father proud. Or I will make him rue his estimation of me. Either way, I want to do it on my own. And I want you to be happy. I-" She sent a quick look their mother"s way, who was pretending interest in a stall at their right though obviously still listening. "I can"t believe I didn"t piece it together sooner that he was not of the ton. But I saw you one night. Maybe, er, more than one night. Together. And didn"t think on that aspect."
Panic took Charlotte.
Emily gripped her hand. "Charlotte, I"ve never seen you so happy and relaxed. And I know that even though you are arguing with me now, you have thought of alternatives. You simply need to be confident as you walk down your path." She shrugged, a smile loosening her lips, her shoulders letting loose a tiny bit. "Besides, you"d never leave me. If I wanted to join you, you"d make sure I had a place to stay. Maybe I could get a dangerous Handsome to call my own."
Their mother gave Emily a look but was waved over by a matron a few paces away before she could respond.
"His name . . . his name is Roman," Charlotte said, unable to move anything but her lips.