"She may have her hallucinations."
"But a blow--what a word for it! But it"s life to us life! It"s the blow we"ve prayed for. Why, you know it! Let her strike, we bless her. We"ve never had an ill feeling to the woman; utterly the contrary--pity, pity, pity! Let her do that, we"re at her feet, my Nataly and I. If you knew what my poor girl suffers! She "s a saint at the stake. Chiefly on behalf of her family. Fenellan, you may have a sort of guess at my fortune: I"ll own to luck; I put in a claim to courage and calculation."
"You"ve been a bulwark to your friends."
"All, Fenellan, all-stocks, shares, mines, companies, industries at home and--abroad--all, at a sweep, to have the woman strike that blow!
Cheerfully would I begin to build a fortune over again--singing! Ha! the woman has threatened it before. It"s probably feline play with us."
His chin took support, he frowned.
"You may have touched her."
"She won"t be touched, and she won"t be driven. What "s the secret of her? I can"t guess, I never could. She"s a riddle."
"Riddles with wigs and false teeth have to be taken and shaken for the ardently sought secret to reveal itself," said Mr. Fenellan.
His picture, with the skeleton issue of any shaking, smote Mr. Radnor"s eyes, they turned over. "Oh!--her charms! She had a desperate belief in her beauty. The woman "s undoubtedly charitable; she"s not without a mind--sort of mind: well, it shows no crack till it"s put to use. Heart!
yes, against me she has plenty of it. They say she used to be courted; she talked of it: "my courtiers, Mr. Victor!" There, heaven forgive me, I wouldn"t mock at her to another."
"It looks as if she were only inexorably human," said Mr. Fenellan, crushing a delicious gulp of the wine, that foamed along the channel to flavour. "We read of the tester of a bandit-bed; and it flattened unwary rec.u.mbents to pancakes. An escape from the like of that seems pleadable, should be: none but the drowsy would fail to jump out and run, or the insane."
Mr. Radnor was taken with the ill.u.s.tration of his case. "For the sake of my sanity, it was! to preserve my.... but any word makes nonsense of it. Could--I must ask you--could any sane man--you were abroad in those days, horrible days! and never met her: I say, could you consent to be tied--I admit the vow, ceremony, so forth-tied to--I was barely twenty-one: I put it to you, Fenellan, was it in reason an engagement--which is, I take it, a mutual plight of faith, in good faith; that is, with capacity on both sides to keep the engagement: between the man you know I was in youth and a more than middle-aged woman crazy up to the edge of the cliff--as Colney says half the world is, and she positively is when her spite is roused. No, Fenellan, I have nothing on my conscience with regard to the woman. She had wealth: I left her not one penny the worse for--but she was not one to reckon it, I own. She could be generous, was, with her money. If she had struck this blow--I know she thought of it: or if she would strike it now, I could not only forgive her, I could beg forgiveness."
A sight of that extremity fetched p.r.i.c.kles to his forehead.
"You"ve borne your part bravely, my friend."
"I!" Mr. Radnor shrugged at mention of his personal burdens. "Praise my Nataly if you like! Made for one another, if ever two in this world! You know us both, and do you doubt it? The sin would have been for us two to meet and--but enough when I say, that I am she, she me, till death and beyond it: that"s my firm faith. Nataly teaches me the religion of life, and you may learn what that is when you fall in love with a woman.
Eighteen-nineteen-twenty years!"
Tears fell from him, two drops. He blinked, bugled in his throat, eyed his watch, and smiled: "The finishing gla.s.s! We should have had to put Colney to bed. Few men stand their wine. You and I are not lamed by it; we can drink and do business: my first experience in the City was, that the power to drink--keeping a sound head--conduces to the doing of business."
"It"s a pleasant way of instructing men to submit to their conqueror."
"If it doubles the energies, mind."
"Not if it fiddles inside. I confess to that effect upon me. I"ve a waltz going on, like the snake with the tail in his mouth, eternal; and it won"t allow of a thought upon Investments."
"Consult me to-morrow," said Mr. Radnor, somewhat pained for having inconsiderately misled the man he had hitherto helpfully guided. "You"ve looked at the warehouse?"
"That"s performed."
"Make a practice of getting over as much of your business in the early morning as you well can."
Mr. Radnor added hints of advice to a frail humanity he was indulgent, the giant spoke in good fellowship. It would have been to have strained his meaning, for purposes of sarcasm upon him, if one had taken him to boast of a personal exemption from our common weakness.
He stopped, and laughed: "Now I "m pumping my pulpit-eh? You come with us to Lakelands. I drive the ladies down to my office, ten A.M.: if it"s fine; train half-past. We take a basket. By the way, I had no letter from Dartrey last mail."
"He has buried his wife. It happens to some men."
Mr. Radnor stood gazing. He asked for the name of the place of the burial. He heard without seizing it. A simulacrum spectre-spark of hopefulness shot up in his imagination, glowed and quivered, darkening at the utterance of the Dutch syllables, leaving a tinge of witless envy. Dartrey--Fenellan had buried the wife whose behaviour vexed and dishonoured him: and it was in Africa! One would have to go to Africa to be free of the galling. But Dartrey had gone, and he was free!--The strange faint freaks of our sensations when struck to leap and throw off their load after a long affliction, play these disorderly pranks on the brain; and they are faint, but they come in numbers, they are recurring, always in ambush. We do not speak of them: we have not words to stamp the indefinite things; generally we should leave them unspoken if we had the words; we know them as out of reason: they haunt us, pluck at us, fret us, nevertheless.
Dartrey free, he was relieved of the murderous drama incessantly in the mind of shackled men.
It seemed like one of the miracles of a divine intervention, that Dartrey should be free, suddenly free; and free while still a youngish man. He was in himself a wonderful fellow, the pick of his country for vigour, gallantry, trustiness, high-mindedness; his heavenly good fortune decked him as a prodigy.
"No harm to the head from that fall of yours?" Mr. Fenellan said.
"None." Mr. Radnor withdrew his hand from head to hat, clapped it on and cried cheerily: "Now to business"; as men may, who have confidence in their ability to concentrate an instant attention upon the substantial.
"You dine with us. The usual Quartet: Peridon, Pempton, Colney, Yatt, or Catkin: Priscilla Graves and Nataly--the Rev. Septimus; Cormyn and his wife: Young Dudley Sowerby and I--flutes: he has precision, as naughty Fredi said, when some one spoke of expression. In the course of the evening, Lady Grace, perhaps: you like her."
"Human nature in the upper circle is particularly likeable."
"Fenellan," said Mr. Radnor, emboldened to judge hopefully of his fortunes by mere pressure of the thought of Dartrey"s, "I put it to you: would you say, that there is anything this time behind your friend Carling"s report?"
Although it had not been phrased as a report, Mr. Fenellan"s answering look and gesture, and a run of indiscriminate words, enrolled it in that form, greatly to the inspiriting of Mr. Radnor.
Old Veuve in one, to the soul of Old Veuve in the other, they recalled a past day or two, touched the skies; and merriment or happiness in the times behind them held a mirror to the present: or the hour of the reverse of happiness worked the same effect by contrast: so that notions of the singular election of us by Dame Fortune, sprang like vinous bubbles. For it is written, that however powerful you be, you shall not take the WineG.o.d on board to entertain him as a simple pa.s.senger; and you may captain your vessel, you may pilot it, and keep to your reckonings, and steer for all the ports you have a mind to, even to doing profitable exchange with Armenian and Jew, and still you shall do the something more, which proves that the WineG.o.d is on board: he is the pilot of your blood if not the captain of your thoughts.
Mr. Fenellan was unused to the copious outpouring of Victor Radnor"s confidences upon his domestic affairs; and the unwonted excitement of Victor"s manner of speech would have perplexed him, had there not been such a fiddling of the waltz inside him.
Payment for the turtle and the bottles of Old Veuve was performed apart with Benjamin, while Simeon Fenellan strolled out of the house, questioning a tumbled mind as to what description of suitable entertainment, which would be dancing and flirting and fal-lallery in the season of youth, London City could provide near meridian hours for a man of middle age carrying his bottle of champagne, like a guest of an old-fashioned wedding-breakfast. For although he could stand his wine as well as his friend, his friend"s potent capacity martially after the feast to buckle to business at a sign of the clock, was beyond him. It pointed to one of the embodied elements, hot from Nature"s workshop. It told of the endurance of powers, that partly explained the successful, astonishing career of his friend among a people making urgent, if unequal, demands perpetually upon stomach and head.
CHAPTER V. THE LONDON WALK WESTWARD
In that nationally interesting Poem, or Dramatic Satire, once famous, THE RAJAH IN LONDON (London, Limbo and Sons, 1889), now obliterated under the long wash of Press-matter, the reflection--not unknown to philosophical observers, and natural perhaps in the mind of an Oriental Prince--produced by his observation of the march of London citizens Eastward at morn, Westward at eve, attributes their practice to a survival of the Zoroastrian form of worship. His Minister, favourable to the people or for the sake of fostering an idea in his Master"s head, remarks, that they show more than the fidelity of the sunflower to her G.o.d. The Rajah, it would appear, frowns interrogatively, in the princely fashion, accusing him of obscureness of speech:--princes and the louder members of the grey public are fraternally instant to spurn at the whip of that which they do not immediately comprehend. It is explained by the Minister: not even the flower, he says, would hold constant, as they, to the constantly unseen--a trebly cataphractic Invisible. The Rajah professes curiosity to know how it is that the singular people nourish their loyalty, since they cannot attest to the continued being of the object in which they put their faith. He is informed by his prostrate servant of a settled habit they have of diligently seeking their Divinity, hidden above, below; and of copiously taking inside them doses of what is denied to their external vision: thus they fortify credence chemically on an abundance of meats and liquors; fire they eat, and they drink fire; they become consequently instinct with fire. Necessarily therefore they believe in fire. Believing, they worship. Worshipping, they march Eastward at morn, Westward at eve. For that way lies the key, this way the cupboard, of the supplies, their fuel.
According to Stage directions, THE RAJAH AND HIS MINISTER Enter a Gin-Palace.--It is to witness a service that they have learnt to appreciate as Anglicanly religious.
On the step of the return to their Indian clime, they speak of the hatted sect, which is most, or most commercially, succoured and fattened by our rule there: they wave adieu to the conquering Islanders, as to "Pa.r.s.ees beneath a cloud."
The two are seen last on the deck of the vessel, in perusal of a medical pamphlet composed of statistics and sketches, traceries, horrid blots, diagrams with numbers referring to notes, of the various maladies caused by the prolonged prosecution of that form of worship.
"But can they suffer so and live?" exclaims the Rajah, vexed by the physical sympathetic twinges which set him wincing.
"Science," his Minister answers, "took them up where Nature, in pity of their martyrdom, dropped them. They do not live; they are engines, insensible things of repairs and patches; insteamed to pursue their infuriate course, to the one end of exhausting supplies for the renewing of them, on peril of an instant suspension if they deviate a step or stop: nor do they."
The Rajah is of opinion, that he sails home with the key of the riddle of their power to vanquish. In some apparent allusion to an Indian story of a married couple who successfully made their way, he accounts for their solid and resistless advance, resembling that of--
The doubly-wedded man and wife, Pledged to each other and against the world With mutual union.
One would like to think of the lengthened tide-flux of pedestrian citizens facing South-westward, as being drawn by devout attraction to our nourishing luminary: at the hour, mark, when the Norland cloud-king, after a day of wild invasion, sits him on his restful bank of bluefish smack-o"-cheek red above Whitechapel, to spy where his last puff of icy javelins pierces and dismembers the vapoury ma.s.ses in cl.u.s.ter about the circle of flame descending upon the greatest and most elevated of Admirals at the head of the Strand, with illumination of smoke-plumed chimneys, house-roofs, window-panes, weather-vanes, monument and pedimental monsters, and omnibus umbrella. One would fair believe that they advance admireing; they are a.s.suredly made handsome by the beams.
No longer mere concurrent atoms of the furnace of business (from coal-dust to sparks, rushing, as it were, on respiratory blasts of an enormous engine"s centripetal and centrifugal energy), their step is leisurely to meet the rosy Dinner, which is ever a see-saw with the G.o.d of Light in his fall; the mask of the n.o.ble human visage upon them is not roughened, as at midday, by those knotted hard ridges of the scrambler"s hand seen from forehead down to jaw; when indeed they have all the appearance of sour scientific productions. And unhappily for the national portrait, in the Poem quoted, the Rajah"s Minister chose an hour between morning and meridian, or at least before an astonished luncheon had come to composure inside their persons, for drawing his Master"s attention to the quaint similarity of feature in the units of the busy antish congregates they had travelled so far to visit and to study:
These Britons wear The driven and perplexed look of men Begotten hastily "twixt business hours