The pride is reverently postured, the princely mourning-cloak it wears becomingly braided at the hem with fair designs of our mortal humility in the presence of the vanquisher; against whom, acknowledgeing a visible conquest of the dust, it sustains a placid contention in coloured gla.s.s and marbles.
Mademoiselle de Seilles, a fervid Orleanist, was thanked for having advised the curvature of the route homeward to visit "the spot of so impressive a monument": as it, was phrased by the Rev. Septimus Barmby; whose exposition to Nesta of the beautiful stained-gla.s.s pictures of incidents in the life of the crusading St. Louis, was toned to be likewise impressive:--Colney Durance not being at hand to bewail the pathos of his exhaustless "whacking of the plat.i.tudes"; which still retain their tender parts, but cry unheard when there is no cynic near.
Mr. Barmby laid-on solemnly.
Professional devoutness is deemed more righteous on such occasions than poetic fire. It robes us in the cloak of the place, as at a funeral.
Generally, Mr. Barmby found, and justly, that it is in superior estimation among his countrymen of all cla.s.ses. They are shown by example how to look, think, speak; what to do. Poets are disturbing; they cannot be comfortably imitated, they are unsafe, not certainly the metal, unless you have Laureates, ent.i.tled to speak by their pay and decorations; and these are but one at a time-and a quotation may remind us of a parody, to convulse the sacred dome! Established plain prose officials do better for our English. The audience moved round with heads of undertakers.
Victor called to recollection Fenellan"s "Rev. Glendoveer" while Mr.
Barmby pursued his discourse, uninterrupted by tripping wags. And those who have schemes, as well as those who are startled by the criticism in laughter to discover that they have cause for shunning it, rejoice when wits are absent. Mr. Sowerby and Nesta interchanged a comment on Mr.
Barmby"s remarks: The Fate of Princes! The Paths of Glory! St. Louis was a very distant Roman Catholic monarch; and the young gentleman of Evangelical education could admire him as a Crusader. St. Louis was for Nesta a figure in the rich hues of royal Saintship softened to homeliness by tears. She doated on a royalty crowned with the Saint"s halo, that swam down to us to lift us through holy human showers. She listened to Mr. Barmby, hearing few sentences, lending his eloquence all she felt: he rolled forth notes of a minster organ, accordant with the devotional service she was holding mutely. Mademoiselle upon St. Louis: "Worthy to be named King of Kings!" swept her to a fount of thoughts, where the thoughts are not yet shaped, are yet in the breast of the mother emotions. Louise de Seilles had prepared her to be strangely and deeply moved. The girl had a heart of many strings, of high pitch, open to be musical to simplest wandering airs or to the gales. This crypt of the rec.u.mbent sculptured figures and the coloured series of acts in the pa.s.sage of the crowned Saint thrilled her as with sight of flame on an altar-piece of History. But this King in the lines of the Crucifixion leading, gave her a lesson of life, not a message from death. With such a King, there would be union of the old order and the new, cessation to political turmoil: Radicalism, Socialism, all the monster names of things with heads agape in these our days to gobble-up the venerable, obliterate the beautiful, leave a stoniness of floods where field and garden were, would be appeased, transfigured. She hoped, she prayed for that glorious leader"s advent.
On one subject, conceived by her only of late, and not intelligibly, not communicably: a subject thickly veiled; one which struck at her through her s.e.x and must, she thought, ever be unnamed (the ardent young creature saw it as a very thing torn by the winds to show hideous gleams of a body rageing with fire behind the veil): on this one subject, her hopes and prayers were dumb in her bosom. It signified shame. She knew not the how, for she had no power to contemplate it: there was a torment of earth and a writhing of lurid dust-clouds about it at a glimpse.
But if the new crusading Hero were to come attacking that--if some born prince n.o.bly man would head the world to take away the withering scarlet from the face of women, she felt she could kiss the print of his feet upon the ground. Meanwhile she had enjoyment of her plunge into the inmost forest-well of mediaeval imaginativeness, where youthful minds of good aspiration through their obscurities find much akin to them.
She had an eye for little Skepsey too: unaware that these French Princes had hurried him off to Agincourt, for another encounter with them and the old result--poor dear gentlemen, with whom we do so wish to be friendly! What amused her was, his evident fatigue in undergoing the slow parade, and sheer deference to his betters, as to the signification of a holiday on arrested legs. Dudley Sowerby"s attention to him, in elucidating the scenes with historical sc.r.a.ps, greatly pleased her. The Rev. Septimus of course occupied her chiefly.
Mademoiselle was always near, to receive his repeated expressions of grat.i.tude for the route she had counselled. Without personal objections to a well-meaning orderly man, whose pardonable error it was to be aiming too considerably higher than his head, she did but show him the voluble muteness of a Frenchwoman"s closed lips; not a smile at all, and certainly no sign of hostility; when bowing to his reiterated compliment in the sentence of French. Mr. Barmby had noticed (and a strong sentiment rendered him observant, unwontedly) a similar alert immobility of her lips, indicating foreign notions of this kind or that, in England: an all but imperceptible shortening or loss of corners at the mouth, upon mention of marriages of his clergy: particularly once, at his reading of a lengthy report in a newspaper of a Wedding Ceremony involving his favourite Bishop for bridegroom: a report to make one glow like Hymen rollicking the Torch after draining the b.u.mper to the flying slipper. He remembered the look, and how it seemed to intensify on the slumbering features, at a statement, that his Bishop was a widower, entering into nuptials in his fifty-fourth year. Why not? But we ask it of Heaven and Man, why not? Mademoiselle was pleasant: she was young or youngish; her own clergy were celibates, and--no, he could not argue the matter with a young or youngish person of her s.e.x. Could it be a reasonable woman--a woman!--who, disapproved the holy nuptials of the pastors of the flocks? But we are forbidden to imagine the conducting of an argument thereon with a lady.
Luther... but we are not in Luther"s time:--Nature... no, nor can there possibly be allusions to Nature. Mr. Barmby wondered at Protestant parents taking a Papistical governess for their young flower of English womanhood. However, she venerated St. Louis; he cordially also; there they met; and he admitted, that she had, for a Frenchwoman, a handsome face, and besides an agreeably artificial ingenuousness in the looks which could be so politely dubious as to appear only dubiously adverse.
The spell upon Nesta was not blown away on English ground; and when her father and mother were comparing their impressions, she could not but keep guard over the deeper among her own. At the Chateau de Gisors, leftward off Vernon on Seine, it had been one of romance and wonderment, with inquisitive historic soundings of her knowledge and mademoiselle"s, a reverence for the prisoner"s patient holy work, and picturings of his watchful waiting daily, Nail in hand, for the heaven-sent sunlight on the circular dungeon-wall through the slits of the meurtrieres. But the Mausoleum at Dreux spake religiously; it enfolded Mr. Barmby, his voice re-edified it. The fact that he had discoursed there, though not a word of the discourse was remembered, allied him to the spirit of a day rather increasing in sacredness as it receded and left her less the possessor of it, more the worshipper.
Mademoiselle had to say to herself: "Impossible!" after seeing the drift of her dear Nesta"s eyes in the wake of the colossal English clergyman.
She fed her incredulousness indignantly on the evidence confounding it. Nataly was aware of unusual intonations, treble-stressed, in the Bethesda and the Galilee of Mr. Barmby on Concert evenings: as it were, the towering wood-work of the cathedral organ in quake under emission of its mult.i.tudinous outroar. The "Which?" of the Rev. Septimus, addressed to Nesta, when song was demanded of him; and her "Either"; and his gentle hesitation, upon a gaze at her for the directing choice, could not be unnoticed by women.
Did he know a certain thing?--and dream of urging the suit, as an indulgent skipper of parental pages?
Such haunting interrogations were the conspirators" daggers out at any instant, or leaping in sheath, against Nataly"s peace of mind. But she trusted her girl"s laughing side to rectify any little sentimental overbalancing. She left the ground where maternal meditations are serious, at an image of Mr. Barmby knocking at Nesta"s heart as a lover.
Was it worth inquiry?
A feminine look was trailed across the eyes of mademoiselle, with mention of Mr. Barmby"s name.
Mademoiselle rippled her shoulders. "We are at present much enamoured of Bethesda."
That watchfullest showing no alarm, the absurdity of the suspicion smothered it.
Nataly had moreover to receive startling new guests:
Lady Rodwell Blachington: Mrs. Fanning, wife of the General: young Mrs.
Blathenoy, wife of the great bill-broker: ladies of Wrensham and about.
And it was a tasking of her energies equal to the buffeting of recurrent waves on deep sea. The ladies were eager for her entry into Lakelands.
She heard that Victor had appointed Lady Blachington"s third son to the coveted post of clerk in the Indian house of Inchling and Radnor. These are the deluge days when even aristocracy will cry blessings on the man who procures a commercial appointment for one of its younger sons offended and reb.u.t.ted by the barrier of Examinations for the Civil Service. "To have our Adolphus under Mr. Victor Radnor"s protection, is a step!" Lady Blachington said. Nataly was in an atmosphere of hints and revealings. There were City Dinners, to which one or other of the residents about Lakelands had been taken before he sat at Victor"s London table. He was already winning his way, apparently without effort, to be the popular man of that neighbourhood. A subterranean tide or a slipping of earth itself seemed bearing her on. She had his promise indeed, that he would not ask of her to enter Lakelands until the day of his freedom had risen; but though she could trust to his word, the heart of the word went out of it when she heard herself thanked by Lady Blachington (who could so well excuse her at such a time of occupation for not returning her call, that she called in a friendly way a second time, warmly to thank her) for throwing open the Concert room at Lakelands in August, to an Entertainment in a.s.sistance of the funds for the purpose of erecting an East of London Clubhouse, where the children of the poor by day could play, and their parents pa.s.s a disengaged evening. Doubtless a worthy Charity. Nataly was alive to the duties of wealth. Had it been simply a demand for a donation, she would not have shown that momentary pucker of the brows, which Lady Blachington read as a contrast with the generous vivacity of the husband.
Nataly read a leaf of her fate in this announcement. Nay, she beheld herself as the outer world wexedly beholds a creature swung along to the doing of things against the better mind. An outer world is thoughtless of situations which prepare us to meet the objectionable with a will benumbed;--if we do not, as does that outer world, belong to the party of the readily heroical. She scourged her weakness: and the intimation of the truth stood over her, more than ever manifest, that the deficiency affecting her character lay in her want of language. A tongue to speak and contend, would have helped her to carve a clearer way. But then again, the tongue to speak must be one which could reproach, and strike at errors; fence, and continually summon resources to engage the electrical vitality of a man like Victor. It was an exultation of their life together, a mark of his holiness for them both, that they had never breathed a reproach upon one another.
She dropped away from ideas of remonstrance; faintly seeing, in her sigh of submission, that the deficiency affecting her character would have been supplied by a greater force of character, pressing either to speech or acts. The confession of a fated inevitable in the mind, is weakness prostrate. She knew it: but she could point to the manner of man she was matched with; and it was not a poor excuse.
Mr. Barmby, she thought, deserved her grat.i.tude in some degree for stepping between Mr. Sowerby and Nesta. The girl not having inclinations, and the young gentleman being devoid of stratagem, they were easily kept from the dangerous count of two.
Mademoiselle would have said, that the shepherd also had rarely if ever a minute quite alone with her lamb. Incredulously she perceived signs of a shock. The secret following the signs was betrayed by Nesta in return for a tender grasp of hands and a droll flutter of eyelids. Out it came, on a nod first; then a dreary mention of a date, and an incident, to bring it nearer to comprehension. Mr. Barmby--and decide who will whether it is that Love was made to elude or that curates impelled by his fires are subtle as nether--had outwitted French watchfulness by stealing minutes enough on a day at Lakelands to declare himself. And no wonder the girl looked so forlorn: he had shivered her mediaeval forest-palace of illuminated gla.s.s, to leave her standing like a mountain hind, that sniffs the tainted gale off the crag of her first quick leap from hounds; her instincts alarmed, instead of rich imagination colouring and fostering.
She had no memory for his words; so, and truly, she told her Louise: meaning that she had only a spiceless memory; especially for the word love in her ears from the mouth of a man.
There had been a dream of it; with the life-awakening marvel it would be, the humbleness it would bring to her soul beneath the golden clothing of her body: one of those faint formless dreams, which are as the bend of gra.s.ses to the breath of a still twilight. She lived too spiritedly to hang on any dream; and had moreover a m.u.f.fled dread-shadow-sister to the virginal desire--of this one, as of a fateful power that might drag her down, disorder, discolour. But now she had heard it: the word, the very word itself! in her own ears! addressed to her! in a man"s voice! The first utterance had been heard, and it was over; the chapter of the book of bulky promise of the splendours and mysteries;--the shimmering woods and bushy glades, and the descent of the shape celestial, and the recognition--the mutual cry of affinity; and overhead the crimson outrolling of the flag of beneficent enterprises hand in hand, all was at an end. These, then, are the deceptions our elders tell of! That masculine voice should herald a new world to the maiden. The voice she had heard did but rock to ruin the world she had been living in.
Mademoiselle prudently forbore from satirical remarks on his person or on his conduct. Nesta had nothing to defend: she walked in a bald waste.
"Can I have been guilty of leading him to think...?" she said, in a tone that writhed, at a second discussion of this hapless affair.
"They choose to think," mademoiselle replied. "It is he or another. My dear and dearest, you have entered the field where shots fly thick, as they do to soldiers in battle; and it is neither your fault nor any one"s, if you are hit."
Nesta gazed at her, with a shy supplicating cry of "Louise."
Mademoiselle immediately answered the tone of entreaty. "Has it happened to me? I am of the age of eight and twenty; pa.s.sable, to look at: yes, my dear, I have gone through it. To spare you the questions tormenting you, I will tell you, that perhaps our experience of our feelings comes nigh on a kind of resemblance. The first gentleman who did me the honour to inform me of his pa.s.sion, was a hunchback."
Nesta cried "Oh!" in a veritable pang of sympathy, and clapped hands to her ears, to shut out Mr. Barmby"s boom of the terrific word attacking Louise from that deformed one.
Her disillusionment became of the sort which hears derision. A girl of quick blood and active though unregulated intellect, she caught at the comic of young women"s hopes and experiences, in her fear of it.
"My own precious poor dear Louise! what injustice there is in the world for one like my Louise to have a hunchback to be the first...!"
"But, my dear, it did me no harm."
"But if it had been known!"
"But it was known!"
Nesta controlled a shuddering: "It is the knowledge of it in ourselves--that it has ever happened;--you dear Louise, who deserve so much better! And one asks--Oh, why are we not left in peace! And do look at the objects it makes of us!" Mademoiselle: could see, that the girl"s desperation had got hold of her humour for a life-buoy. "It is really worse to have it unknown--when you are compelled to be his partner in sharing the secret, and feel as if it were a dreadful doll you conceal for fear that everybody will laugh at its face."
She resumed her seriousness: "I find it so hard to be vexed with him and really really like him. For he is a good man; but he will not let one shake him off. He distresses: because we can"t quite meet as we did.
Last Wednesday Concert evening, he kept away; and I am annoyed that I was glad."
"Moths have to pa.s.s through showers, and keep their pretty patterns from damage as best they can," said mademoiselle.
Nesta transformed herself into a disciple of Philosophy on the spot.
"Yes, all these feelings of ours are moth-dust! One feels them. I suppose they pa.s.s. They must. But tell me, Louise, dear soul, was your poor dear good little afflicted suitor--was he kindly pitied?"
"Conformably with the regulations prescribed to young damsels who are in request to surrender the custody of their hands. It is easy to commit a dangerous excess in the dispensing of that article they call pity of them."
"And he--did he?--vowed to you he could not take No for an answer?"
At this ingenuous question, woefully uttered, mademoiselle was p.r.i.c.ked, to smile pointedly. Nesta had a tooth on her under-lip. Then, shaking vapours to the winds, she said: "It is an honour, to be asked; and we cannot be expected to consent. So I shall wear through it.--Only I do wish that Mr. Fenellan would not call him The Inchcape Bell!" She murmured this to herself.
Mr. Barmby was absent for two weeks. "Can anything have offended him?"
Victor inquired, in some consternation, appreciating the man"s worth, and the grand ba.s.so he was; together with the need for him at the Lakelands Concert in August.
Nataly wrote Mr. Barmby a direct invitation. She had no reply. Her speculations were cut short by Victor, who handed her a brief note addressed to him and signed by the Rev. Septimus, pet.i.tioning for a private interview.
The formality of the request incensed Victor. "Now, dear love, you see Colney"s meaning, when he says, there are people who have no intimacy in them. Here"s a man who visits me regularly once a week or more, has been familiar for years--four, at least; and he wants to speak to me, and must obtain the "privilege" by special appointment! What can be the meaning of it?"