"I should say you had made a good beginning. We"re a long way from Crystal Lake."
"Not far enough." His host reached across the table and filled Claude"s empty gla.s.s. "I sometimes waken up with the feeling I"m back there. Or I have bad dreams, and find myself sitting on that d.a.m.ned stool in the gla.s.s cage and can"t make my books balance; I hear the old man coughing in his private room, the way he coughs when he"s going to refuse a loan to some poor devil who needs it.
I"ve had a narrow escape, Wheeler; "as a brand from the burning".
That"s all the Scripture I remember."
The bright red spots on Victor"s cheeks, his pale forehead and brilliant eyes and saucy little moustaches seemed to give his quotation a peculiar vividness. Claude envied him. It must be great fun to take up a part and play it to a finish; to believe you were making yourself over, and to admire the kind of fellow you made. He, too, in a way, admired Victor,--though he couldn"t altogether believe in him.
"You"ll never go back," he said, "I wouldn"t worry about that."
"Take it from me, there are thousands who will never go back! I"m not speaking of the casualties. Some of you Americans are likely to discover the world this trip... and it"ll make the h.e.l.l of a lot of difference! You boys never had a fair chance. There"s a conspiracy of Church and State to keep you down. I"m going off to play with some girls tonight, will you come along?"
Claude laughed. "I guess not."
"Why not? You won"t be caught, I guarantee."
"I guess not." Claude spoke apologetically. "I"m going out to see Fanning after dinner."
Victor shrugged. "That a.s.s!" He beckoned the waiter to open another bottle and bring the coffee. "Well, it"s your last chance to go nutting with me." He looked intently at Claude and lifted his gla.s.s. "To the future, and our next meeting!" When he put down his empty goblet he remarked, "I got a wire through today; I"m leaving tomorrow."
"For London?"
"For Verdun."
Claude took a quick breath. Verdun... the very sound of the name was grim, like the hollow roll of drums. Victor was going there tomorrow. Here one could take a train for Verdun, or thereabouts, as at home one took a train for Omaha. He felt more "over" than he had done before, and a little crackle of excitement went all through him. He tried to be careless:
"Then you won"t get to London soon?"
"G.o.d knows," Victor answered gloomily. He looked up at the ceiling and began to whistle softly an engaging air. "Do you know that? It"s something Maisie often plays; "Roses of Picardy." You won"t know what a woman can be till you meet her, Wheeler."
"I hope I"ll have that pleasure. I was wondering if you"d forgotten her for the moment. She doesn"t object to these diversions?"
Victor lifted his eyebrows in the old haughty way. "Women don"t require that sort of fidelity of the air service. Our engagements are too uncertain."
Half an hour later Victor had gone in quest of amorous adventure, and Claude was wandering alone in a brightly lighted street full of soldiers and sailors of all nations. There were black Senegalese, and Highlanders in kilts, and little lorry-drivers from Siam,--all moving slowly along between rows of cabarets and cinema theatres. The wide-spreading branches of the plane trees met overhead, shutting out the sky and roofing in the orange glare. The sidewalks were crowded with chairs and little tables, at which marines and soldiers sat drinking schnapps and cognac and coffee. From every doorway music-machines poured out jazz tunes and strident Sousa marches. The noise was stupefying. Out in the middle of the street a band of bareheaded girls, hardy and tough looking; were following a string of awkward Americans, running into them, elbowing them, asking for treats, crying, "You dance me Fausse-trot, Sammie?"
Claude stationed himself before a movie theatre, where the sign in electric lights read, "Amour, quand tu nous tiens!" and stood watching the people. In the stream that pa.s.sed him, his eye lit upon two walking arm-in-arm, their hands clasped, talking eagerly and unconscious of the crowd,--different, he saw at once, from all the other strolling, affectionate couples.
The man wore the American uniform; his left arm had been amputated at the elbow, and he carried his head awry, as if he had a stiff neck. His dark, lean face wore an expression of intense anxiety, his eyebrows twitched as if he were in constant pain. The girl, too, looked troubled. As they pa.s.sed him, under the red light of the Amour sign, Claude could see that her eyes were full of tears. They were wide, blue eyes, innocent looking, and she had the prettiest face he had seen since he landed. From her silk shawl, and little bonnet with blue strings and a white frill, he thought she must be a country girl. As she listened to the soldier, with her mouth half-open, he saw a s.p.a.ce between her two front teeth, as with children whose second teeth have just come. While they pushed along in the crowd she looked up intently at the man beside her, or off into the blur of light, where she evidently saw nothing. Her face, young and soft, seemed new to emotion, and her bewildered look made one feel that she did not know where to turn.
Without realizing what he did, Claude followed them out of the crowd into a quiet street, and on into another, even more deserted, where the houses looked as if they had been asleep a long while. Here there were no street lamps, not even a light in the windows, but natural darkness; with the moon high overhead throwing sharp shadows across the white cobble paving. The narrow street made a bend, and he came out upon the church he and his comrades had entered that afternoon. It looked larger by night, and but for the sunken step, he might not have been sure it was the same. The dark neighbouring houses seemed to lean toward it, the moonlight shone silver-grey upon its battered front.
The two walking before him ascended the steps and withdrew into the deep doorway, where they clung together in an embrace so long and still that it was like death. At last they drew shuddering apart. The girl sat down on the stone bench beside the door. The soldier threw himself upon the pavement at her feet, and rested his head on her knee, his one arm lying across her lap.
In the shadow of the houses opposite, Claude kept watch like a sentinel, ready to take their part if any alarm should startle them. The girl bent over her soldier, stroking his head so softly that she might have been putting him to sleep; took his one hand and held it against her bosom as if to stop the pain there. Just behind her, on the sculptured portal, some old bishop, with a pointed cap and a broken crozier, stood, holding up two fingers.
III
The next morning when Claude arrived at the hospital to see Fanning, he found every one too busy to take account of him. The courtyard was full of ambulances, and a long line of camions waited outside the gate. A train-load of wounded Americans had come in, sent back from evacuation hospitals to await transportation home.
As the men were carried past him, he thought they looked as if they had been sick a long while--looked, indeed, as if they could never get well. The boys who died on board the Anchises had never seemed as sick as these did. Their skin was yellow or purple, their eyes were sunken, their lips sore. Everything that belonged to health had left them, every attribute of youth was gone. One poor fellow, whose face and trunk were wrapped in cotton, never stopped moaning, and as he was carried up the corridor he smelled horribly. The Texas orderly remarked to Claude, "In the beginning that one only had a finger blown off; would you believe it?"
These were the first wounded men Claude had seen. To shed bright blood, to wear the red badge of courage,--that was one thing; but to be reduced to this was quite another. Surely, the sooner these boys died, the better.
The Texan, pa.s.sing with his next load, asked Claude why he didn"t go into the office and wait until the rush was over. Looking in through the gla.s.s door, Claude noticed a young man writing at a desk enclosed by a railing. Something about his figure, about the way he held his head, was familiar. When he lifted his left arm to prop open the page of his ledger, it was a stump below the elbow. Yes, there could be no doubt about it; the pale, sharp face, the beak nose, the frowning, uneasy brow. Presently, as if he felt a curious eye upon him, the young man paused in his rapid writing, wriggled his shoulders, put an iron paperweight on the page of his book, took a case from his pocket and shook a cigarette out on the table. Going up to the railing, Claude offered him a cigar. "No, thank you. I don"t use them any more.
They seem too heavy for me." He struck a match, moved his shoulders again as if they were cramped, and sat down on the edge of his desk.
"Where do these wounded men come from?" Claude asked. "I just got in on the Anchises yesterday."
"They come from various evacuation hospitals. I believe most of them are the Belleau Wood lot."
"Where did you lose your arm?"
"Cantigny. I was in the First Division. I"d been over since last September, waiting for something to happen, and then got fixed in my first engagement."
"Can"t you go home?"
"Yes, I could. But I don"t want to. I"ve got used to things over here. I was attached to Headquarters in Paris for awhile."
Claude leaned across the rail. "We read about Cantigny at home, of course. We were a good deal excited; I suppose you were?"
"Yes, we were nervous. We hadn"t been under fire, and we"d been fed up on all that stuff about it"s taking fifty years to build a fighting machine. The Hun had a strong position; we looked up that long hill and wondered how we were going to behave." As he talked the boy"s eyes seemed to be moving all the time, probably because he could not move his head at all. After blowing out deep clouds of smoke until his cigarette was gone, he sat down to his ledger and frowned at the page in a way which said he was too busy to talk.
Claude saw Dr. Trueman standing in the doorway, waiting for him.
They made their morning call on Fanning, and left the hospital together. The Doctor turned to him as if he had something on his mind.
"I saw you talking to that wry-necked boy. How did he seem, all right?"
"Not exactly. That is, he seems very nervous. Do you know anything about him?"
"Oh, yes! He"s a star patient here, a psychopathic case. I had just been talking to one of the doctors about him, when I came out and saw you with him. He was shot in the neck at Cantigny, where he lost his arm. The wound healed, but his memory is affected; some nerve cut, I suppose, that connects with that part of his brain. This psychopath, Phillips, takes a great interest in him and keeps him here to observe him. He"s writing a book about him. He says the fellow has forgotten almost everything about his life before he came to France. The queer thing is, it"s his recollection of women that is most affected. He can remember his father, but not his mother; doesn"t know if he has sisters or not,--can remember seeing girls about the house, but thinks they may have been cousins. His photographs and belongings were lost when he was hurt, all except a bunch of letters he had in his pocket. They are from a girl he"s engaged to, and he declares he can"t remember her at all; doesn"t know what she looks like or anything about her, and can"t remember getting engaged. The doctor has the letters. They seem to be from a nice girl in his own town who is very ambitious for him to make the most of himself. He deserted soon after he was sent to this hospital, ran away. He was found on a farm out in the country here, where the sons had been killed and the people had sort of adopted him. He"d quit his uniform and was wearing the clothes of one of the dead sons. He"d probably have got away with it, if he hadn"t had that wry neck. Some one saw him in the fields and recognized him and reported him. I guess n.o.body cared much but this psychopathic doctor; he wanted to get his pet patient back. They call him "the lost American" here."
"He seems to be doing some sort of clerical work," Claude observed discreetly.
"Yes, they say he"s very well educated. He remembers the books he has read better than his own life. He can"t recall what his home town looks like, or his home. And the women are clear wiped out, even the girl he was going to marry."
Claude smiled. "Maybe he"s fortunate in that."
The Doctor turned to him affectionately, "Now Claude, don"t begin to talk like that the minute you land in this country."
Claude walked on past the church of St. Jacques. Last night already seemed like a dream, but it haunted him. He wished he could do something to help that boy; help him get away from the doctor who was writing a book about him, and the girl who wanted him to make the most of himself; get away and be lost altogether in what he had been lucky enough to find. All day, as Claude came and went, he looked among the crowds for that young face, so compa.s.sionate and tender.
IV
Deeper and deeper into flowery France! That was the sentence Claude kept saying over to himself to the jolt of the wheels, as the long troop train went southward, on the second day after he and his company had left the port of debarkation. Fields of wheat, fields of oats, fields of rye; all the low hills and rolling uplands clad with harvest. And everywhere, in the gra.s.s, in the yellowing grain, along the road-bed, the poppies spilling and streaming. On the second day the boys were still calling to each other about the poppies; nothing else had so entirely surpa.s.sed their expectations. They had supposed that poppies grew only on battle fields, or in the brains of war correspondents.