He said afterwards, under conditions favourable to such sentimental confidence, that a cold hand seemed to take hold of the bow, through his, and--anyway, before he knew what he was about he had played the first bars of "When First I Met Sweet Peggy", a tune he had played often, twenty years before, in his courting days, and had never happened to play since. He sawed it right through (the cold hand left after the first bar or two) standing up; then still stood with fiddle and bow trembling in his hands, with the queer feeling still on him, and a rush of old thoughts going through his head, all of which he set down afterwards to the effect of the heat. He put the fiddle away hastily, d.a.m.ning the bridge of it at the same time in loud but hurried tones, with the idea of covering any eccentricity which the wife might have noticed in his actions. "Must "a" got a touch o" sun," he muttered to himself. He sat down, fumbled with knife, pipe, and tobacco, and presently stole a furtive glance over his shoulder at his wife.
The washed-out little woman was still sewing, but st.i.tching blindly, for great tears were rolling down her worn cheeks.
Johnny, white-faced on account of the heat, stood close behind her, one hand on her shoulder and the other clenched on the table; but the clenched hand shook as badly as the loose one.
"Good G.o.d! What is the matter, Mary? You"re sick!" (They had had little or no experience of illness.) "Tell me, Mary--come now! Has the boys been up to anything?"
"No, Johnny; it"s not that."
"What is it then? You"re taken sick! What have you been doing with yourself? It might be fever. Hold up a minute. You wait here quiet while I roost out the boys and send "em for the doctor and someone----"
"No! no! I"m not sick, John. It"s only a turn. I"ll be all right in a minute."
He shifted his hand to her head, which she dropped suddenly, with a life-weary sigh, against his side.
"Now then!" cried Johnny, wildly, "don"t you faint or go into disterricks, Mary! It"ll upset the boys; think of the boys! It"s only the heat--you"re only takin" queer."
"It"s not that; you ought to know me better than that. It was--I--Johnny, I was only thinking--we"ve been married twenty years to-night--an"--it"s New Year"s Night!"
"And I"ve never thought of it!" said Johnny (in the afterwards). "Shows what a G.o.d-forgotten selection will make of a man. She"d thought of it all the time, and was waiting for it to strike me. Why! I"d agreed to go and play at a darnce at Old Pipeclay School-house all night--that very night--and leave her at home because she hadn"t asked to come; and it never struck me to ask her--at home by herself in that hole--for twenty-five bob. And I only stopped at home because I"d got the hump, and knew they"d want me bad at the school."
They sat close together on the long stool by the table, shy and awkward at first; and she clung to him at opening of thunder, and they started apart guiltily when the first great drops sounded like footsteps on the gravel outside, just as they"d done one night-time before--twenty years before.
If it was dark before, it was black now. The edge of the awful storm-cloud rushed up and under the original darkness like the best "drop" black-brushed over the cheap "lamp" variety, turning it grey by contrast. The deluge lasted only a quarter of an hour; but it cleared the night, and did its work. There was hail before it, too--big as emu eggs, the boys said--that lay feet deep in the old diggers" holes on Pipeclay for days afterwards--weeks some said.
The two sweethearts of twenty years ago and to-night watched the retreat of the storm, and, seeing Mount Buckaroo standing clear, they went to the back door, which opened opposite the end of the shed, and saw to the east a glorious arch of steel-blue, starry sky, with the distant peaks showing clear and blue away back under the far-away stars in the depth of it.
They lingered awhile--arms round each other"s waists--before she called the boys, just as they had done this time of night twenty years ago, after the boys" grandmother had called her.
"Awlright, mother!" bawled back the boys, with unfilial independence of Australian youth. "We"re awlright! We"ll be in directly! Wasn"t it a pelterer, mother?"
They went in and sat down again. The embarra.s.sment began to wear off.
"We"ll get out of this, Mary," said Johnny. "I"ll take Mason"s offer for the cattle and things, and take that job of Dawson"s, boss or no boss"--(Johnny"s bad luck was due to his inability in the past to "get on" with any boss for any reasonable length of time)--"I can get the boys on, too. They"re doing no good here, and growing up. It ain"t doing justice to them; and, what"s more, this life is killin" you, Mary. That settles it! I was blind. Let the jumpt-up selection go! It"s making a wall-eyed bullock of me, Mary--a dry-rotted rag of a wall-eyed bullock like Jimmy Nowlett"s old Strawberry. And you"ll live in town like a lady."
"Somebody coming!" yelled the boys.
There was a clatter of sliprails hurriedly thrown down, and clipped by horses" hoofs.
"Insoide there! Is that you, Johnny?"
"Yes!" ("I knew they"d come for you," said Mrs. Mears to Johnny.)
"You"ll have to come, Johnny. There"s no get out of it. Here"s Jim Mason with me, and we"ve got orders to stun you and pack you if you show fight. The blessed fiddler from Mudgee didn"t turn up. Dave Regan burst his concertina, and they"re in a fix."
"But I can"t leave the missus."
"That"s all right. We"ve got the school missus"s mare and side-saddle.
She says you ought to be jolly well ashamed of yourself, Johnny Mears, for not bringing your wife on New Year"s Night. And so you ought!"
Johnny did not look shame-faced, for reasons unknown to them.
"The boys couldn"t find the horses," put in Mrs. Mears. "Johnny was just going down the gully again."
He gave her a grateful look, and felt a strange, new thrill of admiration for his wife.
"And--there"s a bottle of the best put by for you, Johnny," added Pat McDurmer, mistaking Johnny"s silence; "and we"ll call it thirty bob!"
(Johnny"s ideas were coming slowly again, after the recent rush.) "Or--two quid!--there you are!"
"I don"t want two quid, nor one either, for taking my wife to a dance on New Year"s Night!" said Johnny Mears. "Run and put on your best bib and tucker, Mary."
And she hurried to dress as eager and excited, and smiling to herself as girlishly as she had done on such occasions on evenings before the bright New Year"s Night twenty years ago.--For a related story, see "A Bush Dance", in "Joe Wilson and His Mates".--A. L., 1998.--
Black Joe
They called him Black Joe, and me White Joe, by way of distinction and for the convenience of his boss (my uncle), and my aunt, and mother; so, when we heard the cry of "Bla-a-ack Joe!" (the adjective drawn out until it became a screech, after several repet.i.tions, and the "Joe" short and sharp) coming across the flat in a woman"s voice, Joe knew that the missus wanted him at the house, to get wood or water, or mind the baby, and he kept carefully out of sight; he went at once when uncle called.
And when we heard the cry of "Wh-i-i-te Joe!" which we did with difficulty and after several tries--though Black Joe"s ears were of the keenest--we knew that I was overdue at home, or absent without leave, and was probably in for a warming, as the old folk called it. On some occasions I postponed the warming as long as my stomach held out, which was a good while in five-corner, native-cherry, or yam season--but the warming was none the cooler for being postponed.
Sometimes Joe heard the wrong adjective, or led me to believe he did--and left me for a whole afternoon under the impression that the race of Ham was in demand at the homestead, when I myself was wanted there, and maternal wrath was increasing every moment of my absence.
But Joe knew that my conscience was not so elastic as his, and--well, you must expect little things like this in all friendships.
Black Joe was somewhere between nine and twelve when I first met him, on a visit to my uncle"s station; I was somewhere in those years too.
He was very black, the darker for being engaged in the interesting but uncertain occupation of "burning off" in his spare time--which wasn"t particularly limited. He combined shepherding, "possum and kangaroo hunting, crawfishing, sleeping, and various other occupations and engagements with that of burning off. I was very white, being a sickly town boy; but, as I took great interest in burning off, and was not particularly fond of cold water--it was in winter time--the difference in our complexions was not so marked at times.
Black Joe"s father, old Black Jimmie, lived in a gunyah on the rise at the back of the sheepyards, and shepherded for my uncle. He was a gentle, good-humoured, easy-going old fellow with a pleasant smile; which description applies, I think, to most old blackfellows in civilisation. I was very partial to the old man, and chummy with him, and used to slip away from the homestead whenever I could, and squat by the campfire along with the other piccaninnies, and think, and yarn socially with Black Jimmie by the hour. I would give something to remember those conversations now. Sometimes somebody would be sent to bring me home, when it got too late, and Black Jimmie would say:
"Piccaninnie alonga possum rug," and there I"d be, sound asleep, with the other young Australians.
I liked Black Jimmie very much, and would willingly have adopted him as a father. I should have been quite content to spend my days in the scrub, enjoying life in dark and savage ways, and my nights "alonga possum rug"; but the family had other plans for my future.
It was a case of two blackfellows and one gin, when Black Jimmie went a-wooing--about twelve years before I made his acquaintance--and he fought for his bride in the black fashion. It was the last affair of that kind in the district. My uncle"s brother professed to have been present at the fight, and gave me an alleged description of it. He said that they drew lots, and Black Jimmie put his hands on his knees and bent his head, and the other blackfellow hit him a whack on the skull with a nulla nulla. Then they had a nip of rum all round--Black Jimmie must have wanted it, for the nulla nulla was knotted, and heavy, and made in the most approved fashion. Then the other blackfellow bent his head, and Jimmie took the club and returned the whack with interest.
Then the other fellow hit Jimmie a lick, and took a clout in return.
Then they had another drink, and continued thus until Jimmie"s rival lost all heart and interest in the business. But you couldn"t take everything my uncle"s brother said for granted.
Black Mary was a queen by right, and had the reputation of being the cleanest gin in the district; she was a great favourite with the squatters" wives round there. Perhaps she hoped to reclaim Jimmie--he was royal, too, but held easy views with regard to religion and the conventionalities of civilisation. Mary insisted on being married properly by a clergyman, made the old man build a decent hut, had all her children christened, and kept him and them clean and tidy up to the time of her death.
Poor Queen Mary was ambitious. She started to educate her children, and when they got beyond her--that is when they had learnt their letters--she was grateful for any a.s.sistance from the good-natured bush men and women of her acquaintance. She had decided to get her eldest boy into the mounted police, and had plans for the rest, and she worked hard for them, too. Jimmie offered no opposition, and gave her no a.s.sistance beyond the rations and money he earned shepherding--which was as much as could be expected of him.
He did as many husbands do "for the sake of peace and quietness"--he drifted along in the wake of his wife, and took things as easily as her schemes of reformation and education would allow him to.
Queen Mary died before her time, respected by all who knew or had heard of her. The nearest squatter"s wife sent a pair of sheets for a shroud, with instructions to lay Mary out, and arranged (by bush telegraph) to drive over next morning with her sister-in-law and two other white women in the vicinity, to see Mary decently buried.
But the remnant of Jimmie"s tribe were there beforehand. They tore the sheets in strips and tied Mary up in a bundle, with her chin to her knees--preparing her for burial in their own fashion--and mourned all night in whitewash and ashes. At least, the gins did. The white women saw that it was hopeless to attempt to untie any of the innumerable knots and double knots, even if it had been possible to lay Mary out afterwards; so they had to let her be buried as she was, with black and white obsequies. And we"ve got no interest in believing that she did not "jump up white woman" long ago.