"But you must be civil, my man."
"I ax yer pardon, Liftinant. I don"t mane no harrum by blatherin". It"s a way we have in th" ould counthry. Mebbe it"s no good in th" arrmy."
"Let him yawp, Capm," interposed Glover. "It"s a way they hev, as he says.
Never see two Paddies together but what they got to fightin" or pokin" fun at each other. Me an" Sweeny won"t quarrel. I take his clickatyclack for what it"s worth by the cart-load. "Twon"t hurt me. Dunno but what it"s good for me."
"Bedad, it"s betther for ye nor yer own gruntin"," added the irrepressible Irishman.
By two in the afternoon they had made perhaps fifteen miles, and reached the foot of the mountain which they proposed to skirt. As Glover was now f.a.gged out, Thurstane decided to halt for the night and try deer-stalking.
A muddy water-hole, surrounded by thickets of willows, indicated their camping ground. The sick man was _cached_ in the dense foliage; his canteen was filled for him and placed by his side; there could be no other nursing.
"If the nagurs kill ye, I"ll revenge ye," was Sweeny"s parting encouragement. "I"ll git ye back yer scallup, if I have to cut it out of um."
Late in the evening the two hunters returned empty. Sweeny, in spite of his hunger and fatigue, boiled over with stories of the hairbreadth escapes of the "antyloops" that he had fired at. Thurstane also had seen game, but not near enough for a shot.
"I didn"t look for such bad luck," said the weary and half-starved young fellow, soberly. "No supper for any of us. We must save our last ration to make to-morrow"s march on."
"It"s a poor way of atin" two males in wan," remarked Sweeny. "I niver thought I"d come to wish I had me haversack full o" dried bear."
The next day was a terrible one. Already half famished, their only food for the twenty-four hours was about four ounces apiece of bear meat, tough, ill-scented, and innutritious. Glover was so weak with hunger and his ailments that he had to be supported most of the way by his two comrades. His temper, and Sweeny"s also, gave out, and they snarled at each other in good earnest, as men are apt to do under protracted hardships. Thurstane stalked on in silence, sustained by his youth and health, and not less by his sense of responsibility. These men were here through his doing; he must support them and save them if possible; if not, he must show them how to die bravely; for it had come to be a problem of life and death. They could not expect to travel two days longer without food. The time was approaching when they would fall down with faintness, not to rise again in this world.
In the morning their only provision was one small bit of meat which Thurstane had saved from his ration of the day before. This he handed to Glover, saying with a firm eye and a cheerful smile, "My dear fellow, here is your breakfast."
The starving invalid looked at it wistfully, and stammered, with a voice full of tears, "I can"t eat when the rest of ye don"t."
Sweeny, who had stared at the morsel with hungry eyes, now broke out, "I tell ye, ate it. The liftinant wants ye to."
"Divide it fair," answered Glover, who could hardly restrain himself from sobbing.
"I won"t touch a bit av it," declared Sweeny. "It"s the liftinant"s own grub."
"We won"t divide it," said Thurstane. "I"ll put it in your pocket, Glover.
When you can"t take another step without it, you must go at it."
"Bedad, if ye don"t, we"ll lave yees," added Sweeny, digging his fists into his empty stomach to relieve its gnawing.
Very slowly, the well men sustaining the sick one, they marched over rolling hills until about noon, accomplishing perhaps ten miles. They were now on a slope looking southward; above them the wind sighed through a large grove of cedars; a little below was a copious spring of clear, sweet water. There they halted, drinking and filling their canteens, but not eating. The square inch of bear meat was still in Glover"s pocket, but he could not be got to taste it unless the others would share.
"Capm, I feel"s though Heaven"d strike me if I should eat your victuals,"
he whispered, his voice having failed him. "I feel a sort o" superst.i.tious "bout it. I want to die with a clear conscience."
But when they rose his strength gave out entirely, and he dropped down fainting.
"Now ate yer mate," said Sweeny, in a pa.s.sion of pity and anxiety. "Ate yer mate an" stand up to yer marchin"."
Glover, however, could not eat, for the fever of hunger had at last produced nausea, and he pushed away the unsavory morsel when it was put to his lips.
"Go ahead," he whispered. "No use all dyin". Go ahead." And then he fainted outright.
"I think the trail can"t be more than fifteen miles off," said Thurstane, when he had found that his comrade still breathed. "One of us must push on to it and the other stay with Glover. Sweeny, I can track the country best. You must stay."
For the first time in this long and suffering and perilous journey Sweeny"s courage failed him, and he looked as if he would like to shirk his duty.
"My lad, it is necessary," continued the officer. "We can"t leave this man so. You have your gun. You can try to hunt. When he comes to, you must get him along, following the course you see me take. If I find help, I"ll save you. If not, I"ll come back and die with you."
Sitting down by the side of the insensible Glover, Sweeny covered his face with two grimy hands which trembled a little. It was not till his officer had got some thirty feet away that he raised his head and looked after him. Then he called, in his usual quick, sharp, chattering way, "Liftinant, is this soldierin"?"
"Yes, my lad," replied Thurstane with a sad, weary smile, thinking meantime of hardships past, "this is soldiering."
"Thin I"ll do me dooty if I rot jest here," declared the simple hero.
Thurstane came back, grasped Sweeny"s hand in silence, turned away to hide his shaken face, and commenced his anxious journey.
There were both terrible and beautiful thoughts in his soul as he pushed on into the desert. Would he find the trail? Would he encounter the rare chance of traders or emigrants? Would there be food and rest for him and rescue for his comrades? Would he meet Clara? This last idea gave him great courage; he struggled to keep it constantly in his mind; he needed to lean upon it.
By the time that he had marched ten miles he found that he was weaker than he had supposed. Weeks of wretched food and three days of almost complete starvation had taken the strength pretty much out of his stalwart frame.
His breath was short; he stumbled over the slightest obstacles; occasionally he could not see clear. From time to time it struck him that he had been dreaming or else that his mind was beginning to wander. Things that he remembered and things that he hoped for seemed strangely present.
He spoke to people who were hundreds of miles away; and, for the most part, he spoke to them pettishly or with downright anger; for in the main he felt more like a wretched, baited animal than a human being.
It was only when he called Clara to mind that this evil spirit was exorcised, and he ceased for a moment to resemble a hungry, jaded wolf.
Then he would be for a while all sweetness, because he was for the while perfectly happy. In the next instant, by some hateful and irresistible magic, happiness and sweetness would be gone, and he could not even remember them nor remember _her_.
Meantime he struggled to command himself and pay attention to his route.
He must do this, because his starving comrades lay behind him, and he must know how to lead men back to their rescue. Well, here he was; there were hills to the left; there was a mountain to the right; he would stop and fix it all in his memory.
He sat down beside a rock, leaned his back against it to steady his dizzy head, had a sensation of struggling with something invincible, and was gone.
CHAPTER x.x.xI.
Leaving Thurstane in the desert, we return to Clara in the desert. It will be remembered that she stood on the roof of the Casa Grande when her lover was swept oarless down the San Juan.
She was watching him; of course she was watching him; at the moment of the catastrophe she saw him; she felt sure also that he was looking at her.
The boat began to fly down the current; then the two oarsmen fell to paddling violently; what did it mean? Far from guessing that the towline had snapped, she was not aware that there was one.
On went the boat; presently it whirled around helplessly; it was nearing the rocks of the rapid; there was evidently danger. Running to the edge of the roof, Clara saw a Mexican cattle-driver standing on the wall of the enclosure, and called to him, "What is the matter?"
"The lariats have broken," he replied. "They are drifting."
Clara uttered a little gasp of a shriek, and then did not seem to breathe again for a minute. She saw Thurstane led away in captivity by the savage torrent; she saw him rise up in the boat and wave her a farewell; she could not lift her hand to respond; she could only stand and stare. She had a look, and there was within her a sensation, as if her soul were starting out of her eyes. The whole calamity revealed itself to her at once and without mercy. There was no saving him and no going after him; he was being taken out of her sight; he was disappearing; he was gone. She leaned forward, trying to look around the bend of the river, and was balked by a monstrous, cruel advance of precipices. Then, when she realized that he had vanished, there was a long scream ending in unconsciousness.
When she came to herself everybody was talking of the calamity. Coronado, Aunt Maria, and others overflowed with babblings of regret, astonishment, explanations, and consolation. The lariats had broken. How could it have happened! How dreadful! etc.
"But he will land," cried Clara, looking eagerly from face to face.
"Oh, certainly," said Coronado. "Landings can be made. There are none visible, but doubtless they exist."