I wonder lastly while absentmindedly listening to my mom, if I died who will be sad for that and how sad they would be I am sure if Sui isn"t asleep right now, she would chop my head with her hand and say "Stop thinking useless things." Or something similar.
I know I am quiet a bad son absentmindedly listening to my mom"s regret but soon, she got a call from her boyfriend who she planned to remarried to. So I escaped and played CoD again in the bedroom where my brother and sister is already asleep.
I sleep late, woke up earl and we all go to the airport, as usually Sui who usually sleep 12 hours on average now is still asleep.
After checking in we wait for the announcer to announce when our plane will go but it have been time for the plane to go but they still haven"t called us so we decided to just ask the receptionist, then all the sudden they said the plane was about to go now and hurried us to go there, my sister who ran into the wrong direction ran back to us while crying.
On the bus to escort us there, there is another pa.s.senger who have two babies with her complaining too how they didn"t even call for us. While the plane is on flight, I played with my phone but of course I turned on the airplane mode, still I couldn"t help but to lament my bad luck these past few days.
In the middle of the flight , Sui woke up and it brough a smile on my face, usually when I read novel I only occasionally smiled but I can read it all day long but with Sui, if I am not mad at her or she is mad at me, I could talk with her, with a smile on my face at least a faint smile.
Since I couldn"t use the tactic, I am on phone with someone, I could only whisper with Sui, since we are on flight the only one who heard it Is my seatmate and he looked weirdly at me before inching closer to the window before closing his eyes to sleep.
If it were before I would be very concerned about his opinion on me but now, I just laughed at it and talked to Sui about it making the man shiver, indicating he is not asleep. I told Sui about my worries yesterday and just as I speculated, she got mad and hit me on the head before scolding me.
As soon as we got off the plane, we all immediately go out and the driver from my grandpa"s place is there driving us back home along with my one brother who stayed with dad, actually I am supposed to stay with him too but I went to collage so that"s it.
I really think my mom is a very emotional person and emphatic one, since the moment we got up to the second floor and she saw my grandma from my dad"s side who she has divorced with! She immediately ran to her and hugged her before crying, I think combined with my cla.s.smate in high school who cried because she didn"t get 95, my mom, anime girls, I confirmed the rumors that girls are more emotional than boys.
You know my mother"s side of family is kind of Chinese too and my dad"s too but my mom"s is a Catholic one with less Chinese tradition on it while my dad"s family is Buddhist with thick Chinese tradition in it.
On the next day we woke up very early in the morning and all the family member that managed to come here, my dad"s brother, sister, cousins, uncles, nieces, and of course us his children come to the airport.
Actually, the coffin arrived last night but according to the tradition it"s better to pick him up in morning. So, when we got there the visiting family member immediately told me to be strong and so, it was VERY annoying so I escaped to the car and complained to Sui, if I were sad perhaps it would help the problem Is, I am not.
Then after the coffin Is brough out before putting it in the ambulance, we all prayed to the coffin using Hio or the incense stick before I have to carry the incense holder with the incense still burning occosioally dropping the hot piece on my hand, my younger brother have to carry the phone of my dad while the youngers, he carried something, yeah an envelope.
After that we are told that when pa.s.sing a bridge or bodies of water, we have to say out loud "Dad, we are pa.s.sing the bridge, let"s pa.s.s with us." Honestly I don"t understand why and I can"t searched for it cause my phone is taken from me and later on I will most likely already lost interest.
Am I 100% human? That"s very stupid of course I am but did perhaps manifesting Sui took some "human" part of me cause I never have to face the death of someone I know before Sui come and I never really watched an sad anime or manga yet, while the novel I read is mostly fantasy and action right now so, yeah I never really felt sad ever since Sui come, except when I think Sui was about to leave me.
Hmm… that"s totally not normal. I was thinking too long that I almost forgot to say the incantation when we pa.s.sed the bridge, thank G.o.d Sui reminded me. When we arrived at the funeral home just like the with grandpa, there is someone who have pa.s.sed away too.
Coincidence I think not, is what I want to say but I think it"s a coincidence. After placing the incense holder on the table before the coffin and arranging the offerings and photos there, after covering dad"s coffin with a layer of white satin cloth, my grandma placed a plate with some red rice that seems sticky before stabbing a Hio there, Grandma said we must never let the Hio burnt out and replace it as soon as possible.
After that I along with my brothers who couldn"t play with our phone sat there occasionally greeting the guest who visited, it was boring even more for my brothers, I have Sui, they have what, and I didn"t shield my thought so Sui got angry and refused to talk with me, I am confused she should be happy right I am saying that.
Not long after that my brother"s new toy arrived, the silver joss paper that is shaped with sharp end in both sides. They happily threw them into fire with a smile on their face especially my younger brother, I think he is a closet arsonist.
When night arrived it was supposed to be all male children of the deceased who is supposed to stay but in the end only I the one who stayed and slept at the funeral home, of course with his younger sister and some cousins.
This repeat for a whole week, well to be exact 6 days, the difference is that on the 2, 4, and 6th day there is a two difference group of Buddhist monks who visited and performed a ritual, the one who visited twice is the one where my dad belong to.