Xia Mu’s eyes are unreadable, he continues to gaze at Yaw.a.n.g with his flushed face. His heart is beating extremely fast, and it looks like he is possessed as he dips his head down. Yaw.a.n.g looks at him in shock when she feels something touching her lips. She widens her eyes in disbelief. Xia Mu is really nervous, but he didn’t stop. He places a soft kiss onto her lips again, he don’t know how to kiss, it is just a light tap onto her lips. His hands grip onto hers tightly, it’s not to restrict her movement, but it just comes to him automatically. His hands are filled with sweat, not knowing if it’s his or hers.
Yaw.a.n.g finally awakens from the shock and turns her head to avoid his kiss, pushing Xia Mu off with her shoulder. Xia Mu did not budge.
“Xia Mu!” She yells his name in a hushed tone. He buries his face into the crook of her neck.
“Will you ignore me?” He asks her softly in her ear. Her heart beats really fast and her face is still red.
“No, I won’t.” Xia Mu bites his lips and whispers in her ear,
“I like you.” Shu Yaw.a.n.g didn’t think he will say it so straightforwardly, it’s as if he can’t hide it anymore.
“That is because you rely on me.” Xia Mu turns her head to have her look at him.
“No, I like you.” He says in a stubborn tone. If she can, she will answer him back. She really wish that she can give Xia Mu happiness if she can give Xia Mu the feelings to him like he have to her. Shu Yaw.a.n.g likes Xia Mu, she likes the quiet Xia Mu, the cold Xia Mu, the Xia Mu who never had happiness. She wishes that he can smile for once, even a slight tug of his lips or a slight curve on the corner of his lips, she just wants to see him smile. However, there are things that can’t be controlled….
“Xia Mu, I only think of you as a younger brother.” She replies while lowering her gaze. Xia Mu didn’t say anything, he grabs the necklace away from her and opens the clasp, helping her wear it around her neck. He touches the kissing kisses lightly.
“Wear it okay? Keep wearing it.” That was the necklace he bought for her three years ago. He was fourteen and don’t know anything about love. He just knows that she likes this necklace so he bought it for her with a debit card. The debit card is what his mother left for him and he never used it before. But on that day, he used it to buy the necklace for her. He wanted to give it to her, wanted to see her smile, wanted to have her in his embrace. But, he was too scared. He never knew why he was too scared to give it to her, it’s like if he gives it to her, his secret will be exposed.
Today, he finally did it, he can finally tell his secret to her. Maybe from today on, she won’t display her warm smile to him, but he don’t regret it. He hopes that she knows that he likes her, and will continue to like her.
“If you want me to, I’ll keep wearing it.” She tells him, ruffling his soft hair. Xia Mu’s eyes turn dark and he turns silent. He knows he won’t be able to have Yaw.a.n.g, he knew that from the start. But he don’t want to let go, so he pulls her into his embrace, hiding his face into the crook of her neck, his eyes showing sadness, his heart feeling heavy from sadness. He don’t want to let go, he don’t want to…