"Now David says still I could be a big opray singer some day mebbe, and _he_ don"t think it"s bad. I think still that singin" is about like havin" curls--if G.o.d don"t want you to use your singin" and your curls what did He give "em to you for?"
Much to the teacher"s relief she was spared the difficulty of answering the child. The aunt was bringing the visitors to Phbe"s room.
"Come in and see my things," Phbe invited cordially, as though curls and operatic careers had never troubled her. In the excitement of displaying her quilts she apparently forgot the vital problems she had so lately discussed. But Miss Lee made a mental comment as she stood apart and watched the child among the white-capped women, "That little girl will do things before she settles into the simple, monotonous life these women lead."
CHAPTER VI
THE PRIMA DONNA OF THE ATTIC
"AUNT MARIA, dare I go without sewing just this one Sat.u.r.day?"
It was Sat.u.r.day afternoon in early October. All the week-end work of the farmhouse was done: the walks and porches scrubbed, the entire house cleaned, the shelves in the cellar filled with pies and cakes. Maria Metz stood by the wooden frame in which she had sewed Phbe"s latest quilt and chalked lines and half-moons upon the calico, preliminary to the actual work of quilting.
Phbe"s face was eloquent as her aunt turned and looked down.
"Why?" asked the woman calmly.
"Ach, because it"s my birthday, eleven I am to-day. And pop"s going to bring me new hair-ribbons from Greenwald, pretty blue ones, I asked him to bring, and nice and wide"--she opened her hands in imaginary picturing of the width of the new ribbons--"but most of all," she hastened to add as she saw an expression of displeasure on her aunt"s face, "I"d like to have a party all to myself. I thought that so long as you"re going to have women in to help you quilt, and that is like a party, only you don"t call it so, why I could have a party for me alone.
I"d like to play all afternoon instead of sewing first like I do still.
Dare I, I mean may I?"--in conscientious endeavor to speak as Miss Lee was trying to teach her.
Maria Metz smiled at the little girl"s idea of a party, and after a moment"s hesitation replied, "Ach, yes well, Phbe, I don"t care."
"In the garret, oh, dare I go in the garret and play?" she asked excitedly.
"Yes, I guess. If you put everything away nice when you are done playin"."
"I will."
She started off gleefully.
"And be careful of the steps. I"m always afraid you"ll fall down when you go up there, the steps are so narrow."
"Ach, I won"t fall. I"ll be careful. I"ll play a while and then shall I help to quilt?" she offered magnanimously in return for the privilege of playing in the garret.
"No, I don"t need you. But you can quilt nice, too. The last time you took littler st.i.tches than Lizzie from the Home, but she don"t see so good. But you needn"t help to-day, for so many can"t get round the frame good. Phares"s mom and David"s mom and Lyddy and Granny Hogendobler and Susan are comin", and that"s enough for one quilt. You go play."
In a moment Phbe was off, up the broad stairs to the second floor.
There she paused for breath--"Oh, it"s like going to a castle somewhere in a strange country, goin" to the garret! I"m always a little scared at first, goin" to the garret."
With a laugh she turned into a small room, opened a latched door, closed it securely behind her, and stood upon the lower step of the attic stairs. She looked about a moment. Above her were the stained rafters of the attic, where a dim light invested it with a strange, half fearful interest.
"Ach, now, don"t be a baby," she admonished herself. "Go right up the stairs. You"re a queen--no, I know!--You"re a primer donner going up the platform steps to sing!"
With that helpful delusion she started bravely up the stairs and never paused until she reached the top step. She ran to a small window and threw it wide open so that the October sunshine could stream in and make the place less ghostly.
"Now it"s fine up here," she cried. "And I dare--I may--talk to myself all I want. Aunt Maria says it"s simple to talk to yourself, but goodness, when abody has no other boys or girls to talk to half the time like I don"t, what else can abody do but talk to your own self? Anyhow, I"m up here now and dare talk out loud all I want. I"ll hunt first for robbers."
She ran about the big attic, peered behind every old trunk and box, even inside an old yellow cupboard, though she knew it was filled with old school-books and older hymn-books.
"Not a robber here, less he"s back under the eaves."
She crept into the low nook under the slanting roof but found nothing more exciting than a spider. "Huh, it"s no fun hunting for robbers.
Guess I"ll spin a while."
With quick variability she drew a low stool near an old spinning-wheel, placed her foot on the slender treadle and twisted the golden flax in imitation of the way Aunt Maria had once taught her.
"I"ll weave a new dress for myself--oh, goody!" she cried, springing from the stool. "Now I know what I"ll do! I"ll dress up in the old clothes in that old trunk! That"ll be the very best party I can have."
She skipped to a far corner of the attic, where a long, leather-covered trunk stood among some boxes. In a moment the clasps were unfastened, the lid raised, a protecting cloth lifted from the top and the contents of the trunk exposed.
The child, kneeling before the trunk, clasped her hands and uttered an ecstatic, "Oh, I"ll be a primer donner now! I remember there used to be a wonderful fine dress in here somewhere."
With childish feverishness, yet with tenderness and reverence for the relics of a long dead past, she lifted the old garments from the trunk.
"The baby clothes my mom wore--my mother, Miss Lee always says, and I like that name better, too. My, but they"re little! Such tweeny, weeny sleeves! I wonder how a baby ever got into anything so tiny. I bet she was cunning--Miss Lee says babies are cunning. And here"s the dress and cap and a pair of white woolen stockings I wore. Aunt Maria told me so the last time we cleaned house and I helped to carry all these things down-stairs and hang them out in the air so they don"t spoil here in the trunk all locked up tight. I wish I could see how I looked when I wore these things. I wonder if I was a nice baby--but, ach, all babies are nice. I could squeeze every one I see, only when they"re not clean I"d want to wash "em first. And here"s my mom--mother"s wedding dress, a gray silk one. Ain"t it too bad, now, it"s going in holes! And this satin jacket Aunt Maria said my grandpap wore at his wedding; it has a silver buckle at the neck in front. And next comes the dress I like. It was my mother"s mother"s, and it"s awful old. But I think it"s fine, with the little pink rosebuds and the lace shawl round the neck and the long skirt. That"s the dress I must wear now to play I"m a primer donner."
She held out the old-fashioned pink-sprigged muslin, yellowed with age, yet possessing the charm of old, well-preserved garments. The short, puffed sleeves, lace fichu and full, puffed skirt proclaimed it of a bygone generation.
"It"s pretty," the child exulted as she shook out the soft folds. "Guess I can slip it on over my other dress, it"s plenty big. It must b.u.t.ton in the front, for that"s the way the lace shawl goes. Um--it"s long"--she looked down as she fastened the last little b.u.t.ton. "Oh, I know! I"ll tuck it up in the front and leave the long back for a trail! How"s that, I wonder."
She unearthed an old mirror, hung it on a nail in the wall and surveyed herself in the gla.s.s.
"Um, I don"t look so bad--but my hair ain"t right. I don"t know how primer donners wear their hair, but I know they don"t wear it in two plaits like mine."
She pulled the narrow brown ribbons from her braids, opened the braids and shook her head vigorously until her curls tumbled about her head and over her shoulders. Then she knotted the two ribbons together and bound them across her hair in a fillet, tying them in a bow under her flowing curls.
"Now, I guess it"s as good as I can fix it. I wish Miss Lee could see me now. I wish most of all my mom--mother could see me. Mebbe she"d say, "Precious child," like they say in stories, and then I"d say back, "Mother dear, mother dear""--she lingered over the words--""Mother dear." But mebbe she is saying that to me right now, seeing it"s my birthday. I"ll make believe so, anyhow."
She was silent for a moment, a puzzled expression on her face.
"I just don"t see," she spoke aloud suddenly, "I don"t see why I shouldn"t make believe I have a mother, just adopt one like people do children sometimes. Aunt Maria says it"s a risk to adopt some one"s child, but I don"t see that it would be a risk to adopt a mother. Let me see now--of all the women I know, who do I want to adopt? Not Mary Warner"s mom--she"s stylish and wears nice dresses, but I don"t think I"d like her to keep. Not Granny Hogendobler, though she"s nice and I like her a lot, a whole lot, and I wish her Nason would come back, but I don"t see how I could take her for my mother; she"s too old and she don"t wear a white cap and my mother did, so I must take one that does.
I don"t want Phares"s mom, either. Now, David"s mom I like--yes, I like her. Most everybody calls her Aunty Bab and I"m just goin" to ask her if I dare call her Mother Bab! Mother Bab--I like that vonderful much!
And I like her. When we go over to her house she"s so nice and talks to me kind and the last time I was there she kissed me and said what pretty hair I got. Yes, I want David"s mom for mine. I guess he won"t care. He always gives me apples and chestnuts and things and he shows me birds"
nests and I think he"ll leave me have his mom, so long as he can have her too. I"ll ask him once when I see him. I wonder who"s goin" on the road to Greenwald."
She gathered up her long skirt and stepped grandly across the bare floor of the attic. As she stood by the window a boyish whistle floated up to her. She leaned over the narrow sill and peered through the evergreen trees at the road.
"That"s David now, I bet! Sounds like his whistle. Oo-oo, David," she called as the boy came swinging down the road.
"h.e.l.lo, Phbe. Where you at?"
He turned in at the gate and looked around.