In this way he thought he had obtained rest from that question in any case, but it returned. He had taken the responsibility upon himself now, and was going to begin by sacrificing his only friend on a question of etiquette! He would have to go to him and hold out a hand of reconciliation!
This at last seemed to be a n.o.ble thought!
But Pelle was not allowed to feel satisfied with himself in this either.
He was a prey to the same tormenting unrest that he had suffered in his cell, when he stole away from his work and sat reading secretly--he felt as if there were always an eye at the peephole, which saw everything that he did. He would have to go into the question once more.
That unselfish Morten envious? It was true he had not celebrated Pelle"s victory with a flourish of trumpets, but had preferred to be his conscience! That was really at the bottom of it. He had intoxicated himself in the noise, and wanted to find something with which to drown Morten"s quiet warning voice, and the accusation was not far to seek--_envy!_ It was he himself, in fact, who had been the one to disappoint.
One day he hunted him up. Morten"s dwelling was not difficult to find out; he had acquired a name as an author, and was often mentioned in the papers in connection with the lower cla.s.ses. He lived on the South Boulevard, up in an attic as usual, with a view over Kalvebod Strand and Amager.
"Why, is that you?" he said, taking Pelle"s hands in his and gazing into his stern, furrowed face until the tears filled his eyes. "I say, how you have changed!" he whispered half tearfully, and led him into his room.
"I suppose I have," Pelle answered gloomily. "I"ve had good reason to, anyhow. And how have you been? Are you married?"
"No, I"m as solitary as ever. The one I want still doesn"t care about me, and the others _I_ don"t want. I thought you"d thrown me over too, but you"ve come after all."
"I had too much prosperity, and that makes you self-important."
"Oh, well, it does. But in prison--why did you send my letters back? It was almost too hard."
Pelle looked up in astonishment. "It would never have occurred to the prisoner that he could hurt anybody, so you do me an injustice there,"
he said. "It was myself I wanted to punish!"
"You"ve been ill then, Pelle!"
"Yes, ill! You should only know what one gets like when they stifle your right to be a human being and shut you in between four bare walls. At one time I hated blindly the whole world; my brain reeled with trying to find out a really crushing revenge, and when I couldn"t hit others I helped to carry out the punishment upon myself. There was always a satisfaction in feeling that the more I suffered, the greater devils did it make the others appear. And I really did get a hit at them; they hated with all their hearts having to give me a transfer."
"Wasn"t there any one there who could speak a comforting word--the chaplain, the teachers?"
Pelle smiled a bitter smile. "Oh, yes, the lash! The jailer couldn"t keep me under discipline; I was what they call a difficult prisoner. It wasn"t that I didn"t want to, but I had quite lost my balance. You might just as well expect a man to walk steadily when everything is whirling round him. They saw, I suppose, that I couldn"t come right by myself, so one day they tied me to a post, pulled my shirt up over my head and gave me a thrashing. It sounds strange, but that did it; the manner of procedure was so brutal that everything in me was struck dumb. When such a thing as _that_ could happen, there was nothing more to protest against. They put a wet sheet round me and I was lifted onto my pallet, so that was all right. For a week I had to lie on my face and couldn"t move for the pain; the slightest movement made me growl like an animal.
The strokes had gone right through me and could be counted on my chest; and there I lay like a lump of lead, struck down to the earth in open-mouthed astonishment. "This is what they do to human beings!"
I groaned inwardly; "this is what they do to human beings!" I could no longer comprehend anything."
Pelle"s face had become ashen gray; all the blood had left it, and the bones stood out sharply as in a dead face. He gulped two or three times to obtain control over his voice.
"I wonder if you understand what it means to get a thrashing!" he said hoa.r.s.ely. "Fire"s nothing; I"d rather be burnt alive than have it again.
The fellow doesn"t beat; he"s not the least angry; n.o.body"s angry with you; they"re all so seriously grieved on your account. He places the strokes carefully down over your back as if he were weighing out food, almost as if he were fondling you. But your lungs gasp at each stroke and your heart beats wildly; it"s as if a thousand pincers were tearing all your fibers and nerves apart at once. My very entrails contracted in terror, and seemed ready to escape through my throat every time the lash fell. My lungs still burn when I think of it, and my heart will suddenly contract as if it would send the blood out through my throat. Do you know what the devilish part of corporal punishment is? It"s not the bodily pain that they inflict upon the culprit; it"s his inner man they thrash--his soul. While I lay there brooding over my mutilated spirit, left to lick my wounds like a wounded animal, I realized that I had been in an encounter with the evil conscience of Society, the victim of their hatred of those who suffer."
"Do you remember what gave occasion to the punishment?" Morten asked, as he wiped the perspiration from his forehead.
"It was some little thing or other--I think I called out. The solitude and the terrible silence got upon my nerves, and I suppose I shouted to make a little life in the horrible emptiness. I don"t remember very clearly, but I think that was my crime."
"You"d have been the better anyhow for a kind word from a friend."
Morten was still thinking of his despised letters.
"Yes, but the atmosphere of a cell is not suited for friendly relations with the outside world. You get to hate all who are at liberty--those who mean well by you too--and you chop off even the little bit of branch you"re sitting on. Perhaps I should never have got into touch with life again if it hadn"t been for the mice in my cell. I used to put crumbs of bread down the grating for them, and when I lay there half dead and brooding, they ran squeaking over my hand. It was a caress anyhow, even if it wasn"t from fellow-men."
Morten lived in a small two-roomed flat in the attics. While they sat talking, a sound came now and then from the other room, and each time a nervous look came into Morten"s face, and he glanced in annoyance at the closed door. Gradually he became quite restless and his attention was fixed on these sounds. Pelle wondered at it, but asked no questions.
Suddenly there came the sound of a chair being overturned. Morten rose quickly and went in, shutting the door carefully behind him. Pelle heard low voices--Morten"s admonishing, and a thin, refractory, girlish voice.
"He"s got a girl hidden in there," thought Pelle. "I"d better be off."
He rose and looked out of the large attic window. How everything had changed since he first came to the capital and looked out over it from Morten"s old lodging! In those days he had had dreams of conquering it, and had carried out his plan too; and now he could begin from the beginning! An entirely new city lay spread out beneath him. Where he had once run about among wharves and coal-bunkers, there now stood a row of palatial buildings with a fine boulevard. And everything outside was new; a large working-men"s district had sprung up where there had once been timber-yards or water. Below him engines were drawing rows of trucks filled with ballast across the site for the new goods-station yard; and on the opposite side of the harbor a new residential and business quarter had grown up on the Iceland Quay. And behind it all lay the water and the green land of Amager. Morten had had the sense to select a high branch for himself like the nightingales.
He had got together a good number of books again, and on his writing-table stood photographs of well-known men with autograph inscriptions. To all appearances he seemed to make his way in the world of books. Pelle took down some of Morten"s own works, and turned over their leaves with interest. He seemed to hear Morten"s earnest voice behind the printed words. He would begin to read him now!
Morten came in. "You"re not going, are you?" he asked, drawing his hand across his forehead. "Do stay a little while and we"ll have a good talk.
You can"t think how I"ve missed you!" He looked tired.
"I"m looking forward tremendously to reading your books," said Pelle enthusiastically. "What a lot you"ve written! You haven"t given that up."
"Perhaps solitude"s taught you too to like books," said Morten, looking at him. "If so, you"ve made some good friends in there, Pelle. All that there isn"t worth much; it"s only preliminary work. It"s a new world ours, you must remember."
"I don"t think _The Working Man_ cares much about you."
"No, not much," answered Morten slowly.
"They say you only write in the upper-cla.s.s papers."
"If I didn"t I should starve. _They_ don"t grudge me my food, at any rate! Our own press still has no use for skirmishers, but only for men who march to order!"
"And it"s very difficult for you to subordinate yourself to any one,"
said Pelle, smiling.
"I have a responsibility to those above me," answered Morten proudly.
"If I give the blind man eyes to see into the future, I can"t let myself be led by him. Now and then _The Working Man_ gets hold of one of my contributions to the upper-cla.s.s press: that"s all the connection I have with my own side. My food I have to get from the other side of the boundary, and lay my eggs there: they"re pretty hard conditions. You can"t think how often I"ve worried over not being able to speak to my own people except in roundabout ways. Well, it doesn"t matter! I can afford to wait. There"s no way of avoiding the son of my father, and in the meantime I"m doing work among the upper cla.s.ses. I bring the misery into the life of the happily-situated, and disturb their quiet enjoyment. The upper cla.s.ses must be prepared for the revolution too."
"Can they stand your representations?" asked Pelle, in surprise.
"Yes, the upper cla.s.ses are just as tolerant as the common people were before they rose: it"s an outcome of culture. Sometimes they"re almost too tolerant; you can"t quite vouch for their words. When there"s something they don"t like, they always get out of it by looking at it from an artistic point of view."
"How do you mean?"
"As a display, as if you were acting for their entertainment. "It"s splendidly done," they say, when you"ve laid bare a little of the boundless misery. "It"s quite Russian. Of course it"s not real at all, at any rate not here at home." But you always make a mark on some one or other, and little by little the food after all becomes bitter to their taste, I think. Perhaps some day I shall be lucky enough to write in such a way about the poor that no one can leave them out. But you yourself--what"s your att.i.tude toward matters? Are you disappointed?"
"Yes, to some extent. In prison, in my great need, I left the fulfilment of the time of prosperity to you others. All the same, a great change has taken place."
"And you"re pleased with it?"
"Everything has become dearer," said Pelle slowly, "and unemployment seems on the way to become permanent."
Morten nodded. "That"s the answer capital gives," he said. "It multiplies every rise in wages by two, and puts it back on the workmen again. The poor man can"t stand very many victories of that kind."
"Almost the worst thing about it is the development of sn.o.bbery. It seems to me that our good working cla.s.ses are being split up into two--the higher professions, which will be taken up into the upper cla.s.ses; and the proletariat, which will be left behind. The whole thing has been planned on too small a scale for it to get very far."
"You"ve been out and seen something of the world, Pelle," said Morten significantly. "You must teach others now."
"I don"t understand myself," answered Pelle evasively, "and I"ve been in prison. But what about you?"