Everyone should get a rest and a competency when they are sixty. (Not that you are nearly that, of course.) Some day that happy state of affairs will be. Now the kettle"s almost boiling, and I"m going to make you a cup of tea. Where"s the caddy?"
There was a spoonful of tea in the caddy, but in the cupboard there was only the heel of a loaf--no b.u.t.ter, no cheese, no jam.
"I"m at the end of my tether," Miss Abbot admitted. "And unless I touch the money laid away for my rent, I haven"t a penny in the house."
"Then," said Jean, "it was high time I turned up." She heated the teapot and poked the bit of coal into a blaze. "Now here"s your tea"--she reached for her bag that lay on the table--"and here"s some money to go on with. Oh, please don"t let"s go over it all again. Do, my dear, be reasonable."
"I doubt it"s charity," said poor Miss Abbot, "but I cannot refuse.
Indeed, I don"t seem to take it in.... I"ve whiles dreamed something like this, and cried when I wakened. This last year has been something awful--trying to hide my failing eye-sight and pretending I didn"t need sewing when I was near starving, and always seeing the workhouse before me. When I got up this morning there seemed to be a high wall in front of me, and I knew I had come to the end. I thought G.o.d had forgotten me."
"Not a bit of it," said Jean. "Put away that money like a sensible body, and I"ll write to my lawyer to-day. And the next thing to do is to go with me to an oculist, for your eyes may not be as bad as you think.
You know, Miss Abbot, you haven"t treated your friends well, keeping them all at arm"s length because you were in trouble. Friends do like to be given the chance of being useful.... Now I"ll tell you what to do.
This is a nice fresh day. You go and do some shopping, and be sure and get something nice for your supper, and fresh b.u.t.ter and marmalade and things, and then go for a walk along Tweedside and let the wind blow on you, and then drop in and have a cup of tea and a gossip with one of the friends you"ve been neglecting lately, and you see if you don"t feel heaps better.... Remember n.o.body knows anything about this but you and me. I shan"t even tell Mr. Macdonald.... You will get papers and things to sign, I expect, from the lawyer, and if you want anything explained you will come to The Rigs, won"t you? Perhaps you would rather I didn"t come here much. Good morning, Miss Abbot," and Jean went away. "For all the world," as Miss Abbot said to herself, "as if lifting folk from the miry clay and setting their feet on a rock was all in the day"s work."
The days slipped away and March came and David was home again; such a smart David in new clothes and (like Shakespeare"s Town Clerk) "everything handsome about him."
He immediately began to entice Jean into spending money. It was absurd, he said, to have no one but Mrs. M"Cosh: a smart housemaid must be got.
"She would only worry Mrs. M"Cosh," Jean protested "and there isn"t room for another maid, and I hate smart maids anyway. I like to help in the house myself."
"But that"s so absurd," said David, "with all your money. You should enjoy life now."
"Yes," said Jean meekly, "but smart maids wouldn"t help me to--quite the opposite.... And don"t you get ideas into your head about smartness, Davie. The Rigs could never be smart: you must go to The Towers for that. So long as we live at The Rigs we must be small plain people. And I hope I shall live here all my life--and so that"s that!"
David, greatly exasperated, bounded from his chair the better to harangue his sister.
"Jean, anybody would think you were a hundred to hear you talk! You"ll get nothing out of life except perhaps a text on your tombstone, "She hath done what she could," and that"s a dull prospect.... Why aren"t you more like other girls? Why don"t you do your hair the new way, all sort of--oh, I don"t know, and wear earrings ... you know you don"t dress smartly."
"No," said Jean.
"And you haven"t any tricks. I mean you don"t try and attract attention to yourself."
"No," said Jean.
"You don"t talk like other girls, and you"re not keen on the new dances.
I think you like being old-fashioned."
"I"m afraid I"m a failure as a girl," Jean confessed, "but perhaps I"ll get more charming as I get older. Look at Pamela!"
"Oh, _Miss Reston_," said David, in the tone that he might have said "Helen of Troy." ... "But seriously, Jean, I think you are using your money in a very dull way. You see, you"re so dashed _helpful_. What makes you want to think all the time about slum children?... I think you"d better present your money all in a lump to the Government as a drop in the ocean of the National Debt."
"I"ll not give it to the Government," said Jean, "but we may count ourselves lucky if they don"t thieve it from us. I"m at one with Bella Bathgate when she says, "I"m no verra sure aboot thae politicians Liberal _or_ Tory." I think she fears that any day they may grab Hillview from her."
"Anyway," David persisted, "we might have a car. I learned to drive at Oxford. It would be frightfully useful, you know, a little car."
"Useful!" laughed Jean. "Have you written any more, Davie?"
David explained that the term had been a very busy one, and that his time had been too much occupied for any outside work, and Jean understood that the stimulus of poverty having been removed David had fallen into easier ways. And why not--at nineteen?
"We must think about a car. Do you know all about the different makes?
We mustn"t be rash."
David a.s.sured her that he would make all inquiries and went out of the room whistling blithely. Jean, left alone, sat thinking. Was the money to be a treasure to her or the reverse? It was fine to give David what he wanted, to know that Jock and Mhor could have the best of everything, but their wants would grow and grow; simple tastes and habits were easily shed, and luxurious ways easily learned. Would the possession of money spoil the boys? She sighed, and then smiled rather ruefully as she thought of David and his smart maids and motors and his desire to turn her into a modern girl. It was very natural and very boyish of him.
"He"ll have the face ett off me," said Jean, quoting the Irish R.M....
Richard Plantagenet hadn"t minded her being old-fashioned.
It was odd how empty her life felt when it ought to feel so rich. She had the three boys beside her, Pamela was next door, she had all manner of schemes in hand to keep her thoughts occupied--but there was a great want somewhere. Jean owned to herself that the blank had been there ever since Lord Bidborough went away. It was frightfully silly, but there it was. And probably by this time he had quite forgotten her. It had amused him to imagine himself in love, something to pa.s.s the time in a dull little town. She knew from books that men had a roving fancy--but even as she said it to herself her heart rebuked her for disloyalty Richard Plantagenet"s eyes, laughing, full of kindness and honest--oh, honest, she was sure!--looked into hers. She thrilled again as she seemed to feel the touch of his hand and heard his voice saying, "Oh, Penny-plain, are you going to send me away?" Why hadn"t he written to congratulate her on the fortune? He might have done that, surely.... And Pamela hardly spoke of him. Didn"t seem to think Jean would be interested. Jean, whose heart leapt into her throat at the mere casual mention of his name.
Jean looked up quickly, hearing a step on the gravel. It was Pamela sauntering in, smiling over her shoulder at Mhor, who was swinging on the gate with Peter by his side.
"Oh, Pamela, I am glad to see you. David says I am using the money in such a stuffy way. Do you think I am?"
"What does David want you to do?" Pamela asked, as she threw off her coat and knelt before the fire to warm her hands.
""To eat your supper in a room Blazing with lights, four t.i.tians on the wall And twenty naked girls to change your plate?""
Jean laughed. "Something like that, I suppose. Anyway he wants a smart parlour-maid at once, and a motor-car. Also he wants me to wear earrings, and talk slang, and wear the newest sort of clothes."
"Poor Penny-plain, are you going to be forced into being twopence coloured? But I think you should get another maid; you have too much to do. And a car would be a great interest to you. Jock and Mhor would love it too: you could go touring all round in it. You must begin to see the world now. I think, perhaps, David is right. It is rather stuffy to stick in the same place (even if that place is Priorsford) when the whole wide world is waiting to be looked at.... I remember a dear old cure in Switzerland who, when he retired from his living at the age of eighty, set off to see the world. He told me he did it because he was quite sure when he entered heaven"s gate the first question G.o.d would put to him would be, "And what did you think of My world?" and he wanted to be in a position to answer intelligently.... He was an old dear. When you come to think of it, it is a little ungrateful of you, Jean, not to want to taste all the pleasures provided for the inhabitants of this earth. There is no sense in useless extravagance, but there is a certain fitness in things. A cottage is a delicious thing, but it is meant for the lucky people with small means; the big houses have their uses too.
That"s why so many rich people have discontented faces. It"s because to them 200 a year and a cottage is "paradise enow" and they are doomed to the many mansions and the many servants."
Jean nodded. "Mrs. M"Cosh often says, "There"s mony a lang gant in a cairriage," and I dare say it"s true. I don"t want to be ungrateful, Pamela. I think it"s about the worst sin one can commit--ingrat.i.tude.
And I don"t want to be stuffy, either, but I think I was meant for small ways."
"Poor Penny-plain! Never mind. I"m not going to preach any more. You shall do just as you please with your life. I was remembering, Jean, your desire to go to the Shakespeare Festival at Stratford in April. Why not motor there? It is a lovely run. I meant to take you myself, but I expect you would enjoy it much better if you went with the boys. It would be great fun for you all, and take you away from your philanthropic efforts and let you see round everything clearly."
Jean"s eyes lit with interest, and Pamela, seeing the light in them, went on:
"Everybody should make a pilgrimage in spring: it"s the correct thing to do. Imagine starting on an April morning, through new roads, among singing birds and cowslips and green new leaves, and stopping at little inns for the night--lovely, Jean."
Jean gave a great sigh.
"Lovely," she echoed. Lovely, indeed, to be away from housekeeping and poor people and known paths for a little, and into leafy Warwick lanes and the rich English country which she had never seen.
"And then," Pamela went on, "you would come back appreciating Priorsford more than you have ever done. You would come back to Tweed and Peel Tower and the Hopetoun Woods with a new understanding. There"s nothing so makes you appreciate your home as leaving it.... Bother! That"s the bell. Visitors!"
It was only one visitor--Lewis Elliot.
"Cousin Lewis!" cried Jean. "Where in the world have you been? Three whole months since you went away and never a word from you. You didn"t even write to Mrs. Hope."
"No," said Lewis; "I was rather busy." He greeted Pamela and sat down.
"Were you so very busy that you couldn"t write so much as a post card?
And I don"t believe you know that I"m an heiress?"
"Yes; I heard that, but only the other day. It was a most unexpected windfall. I was delighted to hear about it." Jean looked at him and wondered if he were well. His long holiday did not seem to have improved his spirits; he was more absent-minded than usual and disappointingly uninterested.