"Your right! Nay, Philip, you have no right. Dear brother, does it never seem to you that you do her whom you love harm by persisting in that very love which is--yes, Philip, I must say it--unlawful? See, now, I am struck with the change in her since I beheld her last. The modesty which charmed me in Penelope Devereux seems vanished. Even now I hear her laugh, hollow and unreal, as she coquettes and lays herself out for the admiring notice of the gentlemen who are watching her movements. Yes, Philip, nothing but harm can come of persisting in this unhappy pa.s.sion."
"Harm to her! Nay, I would die sooner than that harm should befall her through me. I pray you, Mary, let us speak of other matters." But though he did begin to discuss the affairs of his father, and to beg Lady Pembroke to advise his mother to be wary in what she urged when the Queen gave her an interview, it was evident to his sister that his thoughts were in the direction of his eyes, and that she could not hope to get from him the wise advice as to her father"s embarra.s.sments which she had expected.
But the gently exercised influence of his pure and high-minded sister had its effect, and long after the sounds of revelry had died away, and the quiet of night had fallen upon the palace, there was one who could not sleep.
Philip Sidney was restlessly pacing to and fro in the confined s.p.a.ce of the chamber allotted to him at Whitehall, and this sonnet, one of the most beautiful which he ever wrote, will express better than any other words what effect his sister"s counsel had upon him.
"Leave me, oh! Love! which reachest but to dust, And thou, my mind, aspire to higher things, Grow rich in that, which never taketh rust.
Whatever fades, but fading pleasure brings.
Draw in thy beams, and humble all thy might, To that sweet yoke, where lasting freedoms be, Which breaks the clouds, and opens forth the light That doth both shine and give us sight to see.
Oh! take fast hold! let that light be thy guide In this small course which birth draws out to Death, And think how evil becometh him to slide Who seeketh heaven, and comes of heavenly breath.
Then farewell world, thy uttermost I see; Eternal Love, maintain thy life in me."
The clouds were soon to break and the light shine upon the way in that "small course" which yet lay before him.
We who can look onward to the few years yet left to Philip Sidney, and can even now lament that they were so few, know how his aspirations were abundantly fulfilled, and that Love Eternal did indeed maintain its life in his n.o.ble and true heart.
CHAPTER VII
WHITSUNTIDE, 1581
"The greater stroke astonisheth the more; Astonishment takes from us sense of pain; I stood amazed when others" tears begun, And now begin to weep, when they have done."
HENRY CONSTABLE, 1586.
After Lucy"s departure from Penshurst, Mary Gifford kept her boy continually in sight, and, however restive Ambrose might be under the control which his grandmother exercised over him, he was generally obedient to his mother.
His high spirit was curbed by a look from her, and, having promised that he would not go beyond the gate leading from the farmyard on one side of Ford Manor, or into the lane which led to the highroad on the other, Ambrose held that promise sacred.
He trotted along by his mother"s side as she performed the duties in the dairy and poultry-yard, which Lucy"s absence in the household had made it necessary for her to undertake. Although it was a relief that peace reigned now that the wranglings between their stepmother and Lucy had ceased, Mary found the additional work a great strain upon her, however glad she was to have her hands well occupied, that she might have less time to brood over the fears which her husband"s visit and threats had aroused.
Two weeks had now gone by, and these fears were comparatively laid to rest.
Mary thought that her husband would not risk being seen in the neighbourhood, as news came through the Puritan friends of Mrs Forrester that several Papists had been seized at Tunbridge, and had been thrown into prison, on the suspicion that they were concerned in one of the Popish plots of which the Protestants were continually in dread, and in one of which Edmund Campion was implicated.
Indeed, there was an almost universal feeling throughout the country that the Papists cherished evil designs against the Queen"s life, and that they were only biding their time to league with those who wished to place the captive Queen of Scotland on the throne, and so restore England to her allegiance to the Pope.
News of the imprisonment of this celebrated Edmund Campion had been circulated about this time through the country, and stories of the manner in which he had been mercilessly tortured to extract from him the confession of a plot against Elizabeth"s life.
On the Sunday after Ascension Day there were to be great shows and games in the village of Penshurst, and Ambrose, hearing of them from his friend Ned the cowherd, on Sat.u.r.day evening, begged his mother to let him see the sports.
"There"s a wrestling match," he urged, "on the green, and a tilting between hors.e.m.e.n in the outer park. Mother, I"d like to see it; do take me down to see it. Oh! mother, do; I"ll hold your hand all the time; I won"t run away from you, no, not an inch. I am six years old. I am big enough now to take care of _you_, if there"s a crowd or the horses plunge and kick. Ned says it will be a brave show."
"I will go down to church with you, Ambrose," his mother said, "and if I can secure a safe place I will wait for a part of the sports, but you must not fret if I do not stay to see the sports end, for I am tired, Ambrose, and I would fain have rest on Sunday."
The child looked wistfully into his mother"s face.
"I"ll be a very good boy, mother. I _have_ been a good boy," he said, "and you will tell Mr Sidney that I didn"t plague you, and tell Master Humphrey too. He said I was a plague to you, and I hate him for saying it."
"Hush, Ambrose, Master Ratcliffe will be a good friend to you, if--"
"If what? if _I_ am good?
"I meant, if ever you had no mother to care for you."
"No mother!" the child repeated, only dimly catching her meaning. "No mother!" and there was a sudden change in his voice, which told of something that was partly fear and partly incredulity. "No mother! but you said we should always have each other. I have you, and you have me. You said I must not leave you, and," with vehemence, "you _sha"n"t_ leave me."
"Ambrose, G.o.d"s will must be done, let us trust him."
But the boy"s serious mood pa.s.sed, and he was now capering about and singing as he went in a joyous monotone as he went to find Ned in the farmyard.
"I am to see the sports on the morrow. I"m to see the sports on the green."
The words reached other ears than Ned"s. His grandmother came out of the bakehouse, where she had been storing piles of loaves on a high shelf, which had just been taken from the oven, and called out,--
"Sports on the Lord"s Day, what does the child say? No one who eats my bread shall see that day profaned. The wrath of the Almighty will fall on their heads, whoever they be, mind that, Mary Gifford, mind that! Ay, I know what you will say, that the Queen lends her countenance to them, and your grand folk in the great house, but as sure as you live, Mary Gifford, a curse will fall on your head if you let that child witness this wickedness."
Mary took refuge in silence, but her stepmother"s words sounded in her ears like a knell.
For herself she would willingly have dispensed with games and sports on Sundays. Her sympathies were with those who, taking the just view of the seventh day, believed that G.o.d had ordained it for the refreshment both of body and soul--a day when, free from the labours of this toilsome world, the body should rest, and the soul have quiet and leisure for meditation in private, and for prayer and praise in the services appointed by the Church.
Sports and merry-making were quite as much out of harmony with Mary Gifford"s feelings as they were with her stepmother"s, but, in the due observance of Sunday, as in many other things, the extreme Puritan failed to influence those around them by their harsh insistence on the letter which killeth, and the utter absence of that spirit of love which giveth life.
The villagers a.s.sembled in the churchyard on this Sunday morning were not so numerous as sometimes, and the pew occupied by the Sidneys, when the family was in residence at the Park, was empty.
Mary Gifford and her boy, as they knelt together by a bench near the chancel steps, attracted the attention of the old Rector. He had seen them before, and had many times exchanged a kindly greeting with Mary and complimented Lucy on her "lilies and roses," and asked in a jocose way for that good and amiable lady, their stepmother! But there was something in Mary"s att.i.tude and rapt devotion as the light of the east window fell on her, that struck the good old man as unusual.
When the service was over, he stepped up to her as she was crossing the churchyard, and asked her to come into the Rectory garden to rest.
"For," he added, "you look a-weary, Mistress Gifford, and need refreshment ere you climb the hill again."
The Rectory garden was an Eden of delight to little Ambrose. His mother let him wander away in the winding paths, intersecting the close-cut yew hedges, with no fear of lurking danger, while, at the Rector"s invitation, she sat with him in a bower, over which a tangle of early roses and honeysuckle hung, and filled the air with fragrance. A rosy-cheeked maiden with bare arms, in a blue kirtle scarcely reaching below the knees, which displayed a pair of st.u.r.dy legs cased in leather boots, brought a wooden trencher of bread and cheese, with a large mug of spiced ale, and set them down on the table, fixed to the floor of the summer bower, with a broad smile.
As Ambrose ran past, chasing a pair of white b.u.t.terflies, the Rector said,--
"That is a fine boy, Mistress Gifford. I doubt not, doubly precious, as the only son of his mother, who is a widow. I hear Master Philip Sidney looks at him with favour; and, no doubt, he will see that he is well trained in service which will stand him in good stead in life."
"Ambrose is my only joy, sir," Mary replied. "All that is left to me of earthly joy, I would say. I pray to be helped to bring him up in the nurture and admonition of the Lord. But it is a great charge."
"Take heart, Mistress Gifford; there are many childless folk who would envy you your charge, but, methinks, you have the air of one who is burdened with a hidden grief. Now, if I can, by hearing it, a.s.suage it, and you would fain bring it to me, I would do what in me lies as a minister of Christ to give you counsel."
"You are very good, kind sir, but there are griefs which no human hand can touch."