"Has taken a week off to be with her son. I told her I could handle it."
When her mind began to function, she might be grateful for the intrusion. Right now, all she noticed was a keen sense of frustration, a sensation as alien to her as desire.
"I"ll go," she offered.
"No," he said brusquely, taking two steps back. "You start working up here. I"ve got it."
She nodded. Her tongue swiped over her lips. She still tasted Griff. Hugging herself, she watched as he bounded down the stairs two at a time. His reluctance to end the kiss had resulted in his eagerness to get away.
She turned to unpack, ignoring her still throbbing body. She reached for another book. Griff shouted so loud she would have heard him yell without the monitor. She vaulted down the stairs and dashed towards Alix"s bedroom.
"What is it?" Only grabbing onto the molding on the door frame slowed her run.
His eyes met hers. "She"s burning up. Should we give her aspirin?"
"No!"
Griff looked startled at her sharp tone.
"Never give a child aspirin," she said in a calmer voice. Chelsie leaned over the crib where the little girl lay shaking and shivering, and pressed her hand against the child"s forehead. Her skin felt hot as an iron. Glancing over her shoulder, Chelsie saw Griff pacing behind her. "Call her doctor and ask him whether we should meet him at his office or the hospital."
He bolted out of the room. Chelsie quickly stripped off the child"s clothes and lifted Alix into her arms. "It"ll be okay, sweety," Chelsie crooned in her ear during the short walk down the hall to the bathroom. "I"m here, and Uncle Griff"s here. We"ll take good care of you, I promise."
Alix whimpered and tried to thrash around, but Chelsie held her fast.
While waiting for Griff to return, she held Alix over one shoulder and reached for the still damp bath towel with the other. After laying the towel in the sink, she opened the medicine cabinet and hoped she"d find what she was looking for without having to search. Once she located the rubbing alcohol, she propped Alix up on the counter while saturating the towel in a combination of alcohol and cold water. She wrung out the rag and sat on the toilet, wiping the little girl down with the cool compress.
She would have liked to repeat the process but knew she had little time. Instead, she returned to Alix"s room and had her dressed by the time Griff returned.
"What did the doctor say?"
"He"ll meet us at the hospital."
"Okay. Let"s go."
He wrinkled his nose. "What"s that smell?"
"Rubbing alcohol. Reduces fever."
Within minutes, they had Alix in her car seat and were headed for the hospital. "Where did all this knowledge about children come from, anyway?" Griff asked, keeping his eye on the road.
Chelsie swallowed hard and thought quickly. "Working at the shelter," she explained. During her brief pregnancy, she had read all she could about infant and child care, waiting for the day she"d hold her own baby in her arms. No point in explaining that to Griff now.
"Oh."
She placed a hand on his arm. "She"ll be fine. Lots of kids run high fevers with things as minor as an ear infection," she said for his benefit. He looked pale and shaken and about to fall apart. "I"ve seen things like this before." Whether or not Alix"s illness was as simple as she"d laid out for Griff didn"t matter. Keeping him calm did. She"d let herself fall apart later.
He turned and she met his intense stare. "Thanks."
She smiled in return. He lifted her hand, wrapping his fingers around hers. His touch formed a tangible bond between them, stronger than anything that had pa.s.sed between them before.
They drove the rest of the trip in worried but comfortable silence. Only when they reached the hospital did she feel Griff reluctantly pry his hand from her own.
Chelsie glanced down at her watch. "What did the doctor say again?"
"That her fever had spiked, but it"s down now. They"re just monitoring her." Griff leaned his head against the wall. He closed his eyes and wished for privacy.
He wasn"t pleased with the fact that he"d stood by helplessly and let Chelsie handle what should have been his responsibility. But the thought of losing Alix as surely as he"d lost everyone else in his life had immobilized him. Now, with the immediate crisis over, the cold fear that ripped at his gut had begun to recede.
Allowing Chelsie into his life would just add another woman to the list of those who"d deserted him in the end. Erecting barriers didn"t come as easily as it had in the past. He supposed he had Chelsie to thank for that. "Why don"t you go get some sleep?" he asked.
"I wouldn"t leave you now."
Later, then? The clock on the wall ticked off another minute, the sound echoing in the small waiting room. He opened his eyes and focused on the stark beige walls, but refused to allow himself the pleasure and agony of glancing in her direction.
"Eleven o"clock," she murmured. She stood and paced the confines of the limited s.p.a.ce, her actions making him increasingly aware of her presence and whereabouts. "Are you sure it"s just the flu?" she asked.
"Yes."
"And they"ll let her go home in a few hours if the fever stays down?"
"Yes."
"What if she wakes up and gets scared?"
He groaned. "Would you just relax? Go get a cup of coffee or something." He stood and stretched.
She shook her head.
"Go home, then. Or at least stop pacing like you were her mother. You"re making me nervous."
"I"ll go home when I"m good and ready. And if you don"t want me acting like her mother, you shouldn"t have placed me in this d.a.m.ned position to begin with." Her eyes flashed angry sparks, but her voice shook, as well.
Griff recognized the accompanying signs of hurt, too. Shame overwhelmed him, but once spoken, his words lay like a chasm between them.
"I warned you, but would you listen?" she asked.
"Chelsie." He placed a hand on her arm. She shrugged off his touch.
"Of course not. You know what"s best. You know what everybody can handle." She snorted in disgust.
"Calm down." He tried soothing her with his voice. "I"m sorry. It"s been a long night and I"m as edgy as you are. And I"m used to dealing with things alone."
"And you prefer it that way."
"Yes. No. I can"t lose someone else." Not Alix or Chelsie, but he wouldn"t admit as much aloud.
Her shoulders sagged as some of the anger seemed to seep out of her system. "It"s okay. I understand."
"One of us should get some sleep. I"ll take the night shift and I"ll catch some shut-eye tomorrow when you take over." A strand of hair had fallen across her cheek. Suddenly needing human contact, needing Chelsie, he reached to brush it away.
"When I proposed this partnership, the idea was for you to get more sleep, not less," he said. "So go, okay?"
"Okay. Now"s not the best time to hash this out anyway. We"ll deal with things tomorrow."
His eyes narrowed. "What things?"
She slung her purse over her shoulder. "Things," she said in a low but determined voice. "At least we haven"t finalized anything," she murmured. "I"ll check Alix on my way out."
"Be my guest," he said to her retreating back. The swinging doors shuffled closed behind her. "But don"t think you"re walking out on this arrangement just because I lack tact and finesse." And the brains G.o.d gave to most men.
Maybe he had come down with the d.a.m.ned flu. Self-protection was one thing. Driving away the woman who had kept him sane was another. A d.a.m.ned stupid move. As soon as he got Alix home, he planned on rectifying his mistake.
Chelsie stomped around the office. If she"d unpacked, at least she"d have the satisfaction of tossing her things back into the boxes. Now, she took the only means available to release her frustration. She taped closed the one box she"d had time to open.
"What do you think you"re doing?"
"Leaving," Chelsie said without turning to look at Griff. At times, he read her too easily. Now he"d see a woman with no intention of carrying out her threat But her childish actions allowed her to vent anger she couldn"t decide where to direct and she needed the release.
"No, you"re not" He sneezed.
"Bless you. Why shouldn"t I?"
"Chelsie, I"m sorry. I was tired. Irritable. Worried about Alix."
"Right. So you turned on me, the person you"d kissed hours earlier. Says a lot about your character."
He had to suppress a grin. Her sarcasm gave him a foolish hope that she didn"t really want to leave. "My character leaves a lot to be desired. My taste in partners does not. Come on, give a guy a break."
Her hands stilled on the box. "How"s Alix?" she asked.
"Napping. Fever"s gone. My guess is she"ll be raring to go in about"-he glanced at his watch-"one hour."
"Then you go on and get some rest. I"ll handle Alix."
He sneezed again. She looked at him in concern. "Feeling okay?" she asked.
"Just tired. So if you don"t mind, I"ll take you up on your offer." At least if she had to watch Alix, Griff could be sure she"d still be there when he woke.
"Go on." She prodded his back with her palm. "Despite that nasty temper of yours, I might have lunch made when you wake up."
"Is that your way of saying we"re still partners?"
"It"s my way of saying you might get another chance." Her lips twitched as she tried to suppress a smile. "Speaking of chances, is that your third or fourth?" she asked.
He opened his mouth to reply and she snapped his jaw shut with her hand. "Quit while you still have a partner, partner."
Her dark-eyed gaze settled on his, unnerving him.
"Go get some sleep," she said in a husky voice.
He let his finger trail over her moist lower lip before turning and doing as she suggested. He didn"t trust himself not to touch further. At this point, a solitary nap was the safest place for him to be.
He awoke with a scratchy throat and a pounding headache. His skin hurt to the touch. He groaned, which only caused the first two symptoms to increase in severity. A hangover, which he hadn"t had since his college days, would feel better than this.
Chelsie knocked.
"Come on in." He propped himself up higher in bed.
"You must have been exhausted, because you slept through lunch and dinner. I figured I"d wake you so you could at least have something to eat before I left."
"How"s Alix?" he asked.
"What"s wrong? You sound like a frog." She walked to the side of the bed and snapped on a table lamp, causing him to squint until his eyes adjusted to the light. "She"s fine. She woke up, played all afternoon, watched a video or two, and went back in for the night."
He ran his fingers through his hair. "And I slept through all that?"
She nodded. "You look awful."
"Thank you. I can"t remember the last time a woman"s compliment turned my head like that."
"Be serious. Your eyes are gla.s.sy, your face is flushed. How do you feel?"
"As lousy as I apparently look."
"Where do you keep the aspirin around here?"
Grateful that she seemed to be taking charge, he gave in to his aching muscles and leaned back onto the pillows. "Bathroom medicine cabinet. Through that door," he said, and pointed to the master bath.
"Someone should have told me that baby-sitter and nursemaid would be part of the partnership agreement. I would have upped my percentage." He was about to dispute that, then realized he couldn"t. Apologizing seemed like the next best alternative. But she softened her words with a genuine smile before heading in the direction he"d indicated.
"You probably caught some form of what Alix had. Open up," she said, upon exiting the bathroom.
He complied and she cut off any answer by sticking a thermometer in his mouth. "Don"t go anywhere. I"ll be right back."
She left as briskly as she"d come, giving him only a brief moment to view her from behind. Her jeans fit like a coating of paint and those legs seemed to grow in length each time he looked. If he felt feverish before, he"d hate to view the thermometer now. He closed his eyes and settled in to wait.
"Open," she said a few minutes later.
"You sure you weren"t a drill sergeant in another life?"
"Cute." She paused to read the thermometer and frowned. "You"ve got a fever, Griff." She handed him a gla.s.s of orange juice from the nightstand. "You stay put."
"And who takes care of Alix?"