"All right."
Old York was an anachronism kept alive by a handful of literati who doted on the prestige lent by old buildings, old streets and old ways of life. It was a grim, canyonesque grotesquerie compared to its pretty new cousin on Mars; but during the years, parts of it had taken on some of the coloring and some of the atmosphere once a.s.sociated with the Left Bank of Paris, and if the season was spring and you were falling in love, Old York was a lovely place in which to be.
They walked through the dreaming desuetude of ancient avenues, in the cool shadows of buildings mellowed by the pa.s.sage of time. They lingered in the wilderness of Central Park, and the sky was blue with spring, the trees adorned with the pale greenness of nascent leaves ... It had been the loveliest of afternoons and, afterward, the loveliest of evenings. The stars had never shone so brightly, nor had the moon ever been so full, the hours so swift, the minutes so sweet. Marten"s head had been light, seeing Lelia home, his footsteps unsteady; but it wasn"t till later, sitting on his apartment steps, that he had realized how hungry he was, and simultaneously realized that he hadn"t eaten a morsel of food since morning...
Deep in the alien night, Marten stirred, awakened. The strange star patterns shocked him for a moment, and then he remembered where he was and what he was going to do. Sleep tiptoed back around him and he turned dreamily in the warmth of his electronic coc.o.o.n. Freeing one arm, he reached out till his fingers touched the rea.s.suring surface of the star-kissed cliff. He sighed.
Dawn wore a pink dress and crept across the land like a timid girl. Her sister Morning followed, dressed in blue, the sun a dazzling locket on her breast.
There was a tightness in Marten, a tightness compounded of antic.i.p.ation and dread. He did not permit himself to think. Methodically he ate his concentrated breakfast, packed his sleeping bag. Then he began a systematic examination of the Virgin"s chin.
In the morning light, the cliff did not seem nearly so awe-some as it had the night before. But its pitch had not varied, nor had its sheer, smooth surface. Marten was both relieved and chagrined.
Then, near the western edge of the neck-ridge, he found the chimney.
It was a shallow fissure, perhaps twice the breadth of his body, created probably by a recent seismic disturbance. He remembered, suddenly, the other signs of recent seismic activity he had noticed in the colony but had not bothered to inquire about.
A dozen or so ruptured dwellings were of little consequence when you were on the verge of resolving a com-plex that had plagued you for twelve years.
The chimney zigzagged upward as far as he could see, pre-senting, at least for the first thousand feet, a comparatively easy means of ascent. There were innumerable hand- and footholds, and occasional ledges. The trouble was, he had no way of knowing whether the holds and the ledges - or even the chim-ney itself- continued all the way to the summit.
He cursed himself for having neglected to bring binoculars. Then he noticed that his hands were trembling, that his heart was tight against his ribs; and he knew, all at once, that he was going to climb the chimney regardless, that nothing could stop him, not even himself - not even the knowledge, had it been available, that the chimney was a dead end.
He drew his piton pistol and inserted one of the dozen clips he carried in his belt.
He aimed carefully, squeezed the trigger. The long hours he had spent practising, while awaiting trans-portation from the s.p.a.ceport to the colony, paid off, and the peg, trailing its almost invisible nylon line, imbedded itself in the lofty ledge he had selected for his first belay. The sound of the Second charge caromed down and joined the fading sound of the first, and he knew that the steel roots of the peg had been forced deep into the granite, guaranteeing his safety for the initial 500 feet.
He replaced the pistol in its self-locking holster. From now till he reached the ledge the line would take in its own slack, auto-matically rewinding itself in the chamber in pace with his ascent.
He began to climb.
His hands were steady now, and his heart had resumed its normal beat. There was a song in him, throbbing soundlessly through his whole being, imbuing him with a strength he had never known before, might never know again. The first 500 feet were almost ridiculously easy. Hand- and footholds were so numerous most of the way that it was like climbing a stone ladder, and in the few places where the projections petered out, the walls were ideally s.p.a.ced for opposite pressure. When he reached the ledge, he wasn"t even breathing hard.
He decided not to rest. Sooner or later the thinness of the atmosphere was going to catch up with him, and the higher he got, while he was still fresh, the better. He stood up boldly and drew and aimed the piton pistol. The new peg soared forth, trailing the new line and dislodging the old, arrowing into the base of another ledge some 200 feet above the one on which he stood. The range of the pistol was 1,000 feet, but the narrow-ness of the chimney and the awkwardness of his position posed severe limitations.
He resumed his ascent, his confidence increasing with each foot he gained. But he was careful not to look down. The chimney was so far out on the western edge of the neck-ridge that looking down entailed not only the distance he had already climbed, but the 8,000-foot drop from the ridge to the low lands. He did not think his new confidence quite capable of a.s.similating the shock of so appalling a height.
The climb to the second ledge was as uneventful as the climb to the first. Again he decided not to rest, and, sinking another peg into a third ledge approximately 250 feet above the second, he resumed climbing. Halfway to the third ledge the first pangs of oxygen starvation manifested themselves in a heaviness in his arms and legs and a shortness of his breath. He slipped an oxygen tablet into his mouth and went on climbing.
The dissolving tablet revived him, and when he reached the third ledge he still did not feel like resting. But he forced him-self to sit down oh the narrow granite shelf and he lay his head back against the chimney wall and tried to relax. Sunlight smote his eyes, and with a shock he realized that the speed of his ascent had been subjective; actually, hours had pa.s.sed since he had left the neck-ridge, and Alpha Virginis was already at meridian.
Then he couldn"t rest; there was not time. He had to reach the face-mesa before nightfall, else he might never reach it at all. In an instant he was on his feet, piton pistol drawn and aimed.
For a while the climb took on a different character. His confidence never diminished and the soundless song throbbed through him in ever-increasing cadence; but the heaviness of his limbs and the shortness of his breath recurred at more and more frequent periods, lending a dreamlike quality to the ad-venture, and this quality, in turn, was interspersed by the brief but lucid intervals that began immediately whenever he took an oxygen tablet.
The character of the chimney, however, varied only slightly. It grew wider for a while, but he found that by bracing his back against one wall and his feet against the other, he could inch his way upward with a minimum of effort. Then the chimney narrowed again and he returned to his original mode of ascent.
Inevitably he became bolder. Up to now he had been using three-point suspension, never moving one appendage till he was certain the other three were firmly placed.
But as his bold-ness increased, his caution, diminished. He neglected three-point suspension more and more often, finally neglected it altogether. After all, he rea.s.sured himself, what difference did it make if he did slip? The piton line would stop him before he fell two feet.
And it would have too - if the particular cartridge he had just discharged had not been defective. In his haste he did not notice that the nylon line was not rewinding itself, and when the chockstone, on which he"d just put his entire weight, gave way beneath his foot, his instinctive terror was tempered by the thought that his fall would be brief.
It was not. It was slow at first, unreal. He knew instantly that something had gone wrong. Nearby, someone was scream-ing. For a moment he did not recognize his own voice. And then the fall was swift; the chimney walls blurred past his clawing hands, and dislodged rubble rained about his anguished face.
Twenty feet down he struck a projection on one side of the chimney. The impact threw him against the other side, then the ledge that he had left a short while before came up jarringly beneath his feet and he sprawled forward on his stomach, the wind knocked from him, blood running into his eyes from a cut on his forehead.
When his breath returned he moved each of his limbs care-fully, testing them for broken bones. Then he inhaled deeply. Afterward he lay there on his stomach for a long time, content with the knowledge that he was alive and not seriously hurt.
Presently he realized that his eyes were closed. Without thinking, he opened them and wiped the blood away. He found himself staring straight down at the forest of the Virgin"s hair, 10,000 feet below. He sucked in his breath, tried to sink his fingers into the ungiving granite of the ledge". For a while he was sick, but gradually his sickness left him and his terror faded away.
The forest spread out almost to the sea, flanked by the magnificent precipices of the neck and shoulder, the nine-mile ridge of the arm. The sea was gold and glittering in the mid-afternoon sunlight, and the lowlands were a green-gold beach.
There was an a.n.a.logy somewhere. Marten frowned, trying to remember. Hadn"t he, a long time ago, crouched on another ledge - or was it a bluff? - looking down upon another beach, a real beach? Looking down at- Abruptly he remembered, and the memory set his face on fire. He tried to force the unwanted moment back into his subconscious, but it slipped through his mental fingers and came out and stood nakedly in the sun, and he had to confront it whether he wanted to or not, had to live it over again.
After their marriage, he and Lelia had rented the same cot-tage in Connecticut where Rise Up, My Love! was born, and he had settled down to write his second book.
The cottage was a charming affair, perched on a bluff over-looking the sea. Below it, accessible by a flight of winding stairs, was a narrow strip of white sand, protected from the prying eyes of civilization by the wooded arms of a small cove. It was here that Lelia spent her afternoons sunbathing in the nude, while Marten spent those same afternoons feeding empty words and uninspired phrases into the ma.n.u.script machine on his study desk.
The new book was going very badly. The spontaneity that had characterized the creation of Rise Up, My Love! was no longer with him. Ideas would not come, or, if they did come, he was incapable of coping with them. A part of his mood, he knew, could be ascribed to his marriage. Lelia was everything a bride should be, but there was something she was not, an intangible something that taunted him by night and haunted him by day...
The August afternoon had been hot and humid. There was a breeze coming in over the sea, but while it was strong enough to ruffle the curtains of his study window, it wasn"t quite strong enough to struggle through the intervening expanse of stagnant air to the doldrums of the study proper where he sat miserably at his desk.
As he sat there, fingering words and phrases, grappling with ideas, he became aware of the soft sound of the surf on the beach below, and an image of Lelia, lying dark and golden in the sun, intruded repeatedly on his thoughts.
Presently he found himself speculating on the positions she might be lying in. On her side, perhaps ... or perhaps on her back, the golden sunlight .raining down on her thighs, her stomach, her b.r.e.a.s.t.s.
There was a faint throbbing in his temples, a new nervous-ness in the fingers that toyed with the correction pencil on the desktop before him. Lelia lying immobile by the sea, her dark hair spread out around her head and shoulders, her blue eyes staring up into the sky - How would she look from above? Say from the height of the bluff? Would she resemble another woman lying by another sea - a woman, who had affected him in some mysterious way and lent him his literary wings?
He wondered, and as he wondered his nervousness grew and the throbbing in his temples thickened and slowed till it matched the rhythmic beat of the surf.
He looked at the clock on the study wall: 2:45. There was very little time. In another half hour she would be coming up to shower. Numbly, he stood up. He walked slowly across the study, stepped into the living room; he walked across the living room and out upon the latticed porch that fronted the green lawn and the brow of the bluff and the sparkling summer sea.
The gra.s.s was soft beneath his feet and there was a dreami-ness about the afternoon sunlight and the sound of the surf. When he neared the bluff he got down on his hands and knees, feeling like a fool, and crept cautiously forward. Several feet from the brow he lowered himself to his elbows and thighs and crawled the rest of the way. He parted the long gra.s.s carefully and looked down to the white strip of beach below.
She was lying directly beneath him - on her back. Her left arm was flung out to the sea and her fingers dangled in the water. Her right knee was drawn upward, a graceful hillock of sun-gold flesh ... and the smooth expanse of her stomach was golden too, as were the gentle mountains of her b.r.e.a.s.t.s. Her neck was a magnificent golden ridge leading to the proud precipice of her chin and the vast golden mesa of her face. The blue lakes of her eyes were closed in peaceful sleep.
Illusion and reality intermingled. Time retreated and s.p.a.ce ceased to be. At the crucial moment, the blue eyes opened.
She saw, him instantly. There was amazement on her face at first, then understanding (though she hadn"t understood at all). Finally her lips curved in a beckoning smile and she held out her arms to him. "Come down, darling," she called.
"Come down and see me!"
The throbbing in his temples drowned out the sound of the surf as he descended the winding stairs to the beach. She was waiting there by the sea, waiting as she had always waited, wailing for him; and suddenly he was a giant striding over the lowlands, his shoulders brushing the sky, the ground shudder-ing beneath his Brobdingnagian footsteps. , .
Thou art beautiful, 0 my love, as Tirzah, Comely as Jerusalem, Terrible as an army with banners...
A breeze, born in the purple shadows between the mountains, wafted up to his eyrie, cooling his flushed face and reviving his battered body. Slowly he got to his feet. He looked up at the enigmatic walls of the chimney, wondering if they continued for the thousand-odd feet that still separated him from the summit.
He drew his piton pistol and ejected the defective cartridge; then he took careful aim and squeezed the trigger. When he replaced the pistol he experienced a wave of giddiness and he reached instinctively for the oxygen packet on his belt. Then he fumbled for the packet, frantically feeling every inch of the web surface, and finally he found the tiny rivets that had remained after the packet had been torn away during his fall.
For a while he did not move. He had but one logical course of action and he knew it: climb back down to the neck-ridge, spend the night there and return to the colony in the morning then arrange for transportation to the s.p.a.ceport, take the first ship back to Earth and forget about the Virgin.
He nearly laughed aloud. Logic was a fine word and an equally fine concept, but there were many things in heaven and earth that it did not encompa.s.s, and the Virgin was one of them. He started to climb.
In the neighbourhood of 2,200 feet, the chimney began to change.
Marten did not notice the change at first. Oxygen starvation had decimated his, awareness and he moved in a slow, continu-ous lethargy, raising one heavy limb and then another, inching his ponderous body from one precarious position to another equally precarious - but slightly closer to his goal. When he finally did notice, he was too weary to be frightened, too numb to be discouraged.
He had just crawled upon the sanctuary of a narrow ledge and had raised his eyes to seek out another ledge at which to point his pistol. The chimney was palely lit by the last rays of the sinking sun and for a moment he thought that the diminish-ing light was distorting his vision.
For there were no more ledges.
There was no more chimney either, for that matter. It had been growing wider and wider for some time; now it flared abruptly into a concave slope that stretched all the way to the summit. Strictly speaking, there had never been a chimney in the first place. In toto, the fissure was far more suggestive of the cross section of a gigantic funnel: the part he had already climbed represented the tube, and the part he had yet to climb represented the mouth.
The mouth, he saw at a glance, was going to be bad. The slope was far too smooth.
From where he sat he could not see a single projection, and while that didn"t necessarily rule out the possible existence of projections, it did cancel out the likeli-hood of there being any large enough to enable him to use his piton pistol. He couldn"t very well drive a piton if there was nothing for him to drive it into.
He looked down at his hands. They were trembling again. He started to reach for a cigarette, realized suddenly that he hadn"t eaten since morning, and got a supper biscuit out of his pack instead. He ate it slowly, forced it down with a mouthful of water. His canteen was nearly empty. He smiled wanly to himself. At last he had a logical reason for climbing to the mesa - to replenish his water supply in the blue lakes.
He reached for a cigarette again and this time he pulled one out and lit it. He blew smoke at the darkening sky. He drew his feet up on the ledge and hugged his knees with his arms and rocked himself gently back and forth. He hummed softly to himself. It was an old, old tune, dating back to his early child-hood. Abruptly he remembered where he had heard it and who had sung it to him, and he stood up angrily and. flicked his cig-arette into the deepening shadows and turned toward the slope.
He resumed his upward journey.
It was a memorable journey. The slope was just as bad as it had looked. It was impossible to ascend it vertically, and he had to traverse, zigzagging back and forth with nothing but finger-thick irregularities to support his weight. But his brief rest and his condensed meal had replenished his strength and at first he experienced no difficulties.
Gradually, however, the increasing thinness of the atmos-phere caught up with him again. He moved slower and slower. Sometimes he wondered if he was making any progress at all. He did not dare lean his head back far enough to look upward, for his hand- and footholds were so tenuous that the slightest imbalance could dislodge them. And presently there was the increasing darkness to contend with too.
He regretted not having left his pack on the last ledge. It was an awkward burden and it seemed to grow heavier with each foot he gained. He would have loosened the straps and slipped it from his shoulders - if he had had hands to spare.
Repeatedly, sweat ran down into his eyes. Once he tried to wipe his wet forehead on the granite slope, but he only suc-ceeded in reopening his cut, and the blood joined forces with the sweat and for a while he could not see at all. He began to wonder if the cliff was forever. Finally he managed to wipe his eyes on his sleeve, but still he could not see, for the darkness was complete.
Time blurred, ceased to be. He kept wondering if the stars were out, and when he found a set of hand- and footholds less tenuous than the preceding ones, he leaned his head back carefully and looked upward. But the blood and the sweat ran down into his eyes again and he saw nothing.
He was astonished when his bleeding fingers discovered the ledge. His reconnaissance had been cursory, but even so he had been certain that there were no ledges. But there was this one. Trembling, he inched his weary body higher till at last he found purchase for his elbows, then he swung his right leg onto the granite surface and pulled himself to safety.
It was a wide ledge. He could sense its wideness when he rolled over on his back and let his arms drop to his sides. He lay there quietly, too tired to move. Presently he raised one arm and wiped the blood and sweat from his eyes. The stars were out.
The sky was patterned with the pulsing beauty of a hundred constellations. Directly above him was the one he had noticed the night before - the rider-with-the-scythe.
Marten signed. He wanted to lie there on the ledge forever, the starlight soft on his face, the Virgin rea.s.suringly close; lie there in blissful peace, eternally suspended between the past and the future, bereft of time and motion.
But the past would not have it so. Despite his efforts to stop her, Xylla parted its dark curtain and stepped upon the stage. And then the curtain dissolved behind her and the impossible play began.
After the failure of his third novel (the second had sold on the strength of the first and had enjoyed an ephemeral success), Lelia had gone to work for a perfume concern so that he could continue writing. Later on, to free him from the burden of household ch.o.r.es, she had hired a maid.
Xylla was an e.t. - a native of Mizar X. The natives, of Mizar X were remarkable for two things: their gigantic bodies and their diminutive minds. Xylla was no exception. She stood over seven feet tall and she had an I.Q. of less than 40.
But for all her height she was well proportioned, even grace-ful. In fact, if her face had possessed any appeal at all, she could have pa.s.sed for an attractive woman. But her face was fiat, with big, bovine eyes and wide cheekbones. Her mouth was much too full, and its fullness was accentuated by a pendu-lous lower lip. Her hair, which, by contributing the right dash of color, might have rescued her from drabness, was a listless brown.
Marten took one look at her when Lelia introduced them, said, "How do you do?"
and then dismissed her from his mind. If Lelia thought a giantess could do the housework better than he could, it was all right with him.
That winter Lelia was transferred to the West Coast, and rather than suffer the upkeep of two houses they gave up the Connecticut cottage and moved to California.
California was as spa.r.s.ely populated as Old York. The promised land had long since absconded starward, lay scattered throughout a thousand as yet unexploited systems. But there was one good thing about the average man"s eternal hankering for green pastures: the pastures he left behind grew lush in his absence; there was plenty of s.p.a.ce for the stay-at-homes and the stub-born; and Earth, after four centuries of opportunism, had finally settled down in its new role as the cultural center of the galaxy.
Lavish twenty-third century villas were scattered all along the California coast.
Almost all of them were charming and almost all of them were empty. Lelia chose a pink one, con-venient to her work, and settled down into a routine identical, except for a change from the morning to the afternoon shift, to the routine she had left behind; and Marten settled down to write his fourth book.
Or tried to.
He had not been naive enough to think that a change in scene would snap him out of his literary lethargy. He had known all along that whatever words and combinations thereof that he fed into his ma.n.u.script machine had to come from within himself. But he had hoped that two failures in a row (the second book was really a failure, despite its short-lived financial success) would goad him to a point where he would not permit a third.
In this he had been wrong. His lethargy not only persisted; it grew worse. He found himself going out less and less often, retiring earlier and earlier to his study and his books. But not to his ma.n.u.script machine. He read the great novelists. He read Tolstoy and Flaubert. He read Dostoevski and Stendhal. He read Proust and Cervantes. He read Balzac. And the more he read Balzac, the more his wonder grew, that this small, fat, red-faced man could have been so prolific, while he himself remained as .sterile as the white sands on the beach below his study windows.
Around ten o"clock each evening Xylla brought him his brandy in the big snifter gla.s.s Lelia had given him on his last birthday, and he would lie back in his lazy- chair before the fireplace (Xylla had built a fire of pine knots earlier in the evening) and sip and dream. Sometimes he would drowse for a moment, and then wake with a start. Finally he would get up, cross the hall to his room and go to bed. (Lelia had begun working overtime shortly after their arrival and seldom got home before one o"clock.) Xylla"s effect upon him was c.u.mulative. At first he was not even conscious of it.
One night he would notice the way she walked - lightly, for so ponderous a creature, rhythmically, almost; and the next night, the virginal swell of her huge b.r.e.a.s.t.s; and the night after that, the graceful surge of her Amazonian thighs beneath her coa.r.s.e skirt. The night finally came when, on an impulse, or so he thought at the time, he asked her to sit down and talk for a while.
"If you weesh, sar," she said, and sat down on the ha.s.sock at his feet.
He hadn"t expected that, and at first he was embarra.s.sed. Gradually, however, as the brandy began its swift infiltration of his bloodstream, he warmed to the moment. He noticed the play of the firelight on her hair, and suddenly he was surprised to find that it was something more than a dull brown after all; there was a hint of redness in it, a quiet, una.s.suming redness that offset the heaviness of her face.
They talked of various things - the weather mostly, some-times the sea; a book Xylla had read when she was a little girl (the only book she had ever read); Mizar X.
When she spoke of Mizar X, something happened to her voice. It grew soft and childlike, and her eyes, which he had thought dull and un-interesting, became bright and round, and he even detected a trace of blueness in them. The merest trace, of course, but it was a beginning.
He began asking her to stay every night after that, and she was always willing, always took her place dutifully on the ha.s.sock at his feet. Even sitting, she loomed above him, but he did not find her size disquieting any more, at least not dis-quieting in the sense that it had been before. Now her vast pre-sence had a lulling effect upon him, lent him a peace of sorts. He began looking forward more and more to her nightly visits.
Lelia continued to work overtime. Sometimes she did not come in till nearly two. He had been concerned about her at first; he had even reprimanded her for working so hard. Some-where along the line, though, he had stopped being concerned- Abruptly he remembered the night Lelia had come home early - the night he had touched Xylla"s hand.
He had been wanting to touch it for a long time. Night after night he had seen it lying motionless on her knee and he had marveled again and again at its symmetry and grace, wondered how much bigger than his hand it was, whether it was" soft or coa.r.s.e, warm or cold. Finally the time came when he couldn"t control himself any longer, and he bent forward and reached out - and suddenly her giantess fingers were intertwined with his pygmy ones and he felt the warmth of her and knew her nearness. Her lips were very close, her giantess-face, and her eyes were a vivid blue now, a blue-lake blue. And then the coppices of her eyebrows brushed his forehead and the red rimrock of her mouth smothered his and melted into softness and her giantess-arms enfolded him against the twin mountains of her b.r.e.a.s.t.s- Then Lelia, who had paused shocked in the doorway, said, "I"ll get my things ..."
The night was cold, and particles of h.o.a.rfrost hovered in the air, catching the light of the stars. Marten shivered, sat up. He looked down into the pale depths below, then he lifted his eyes to the breathless beauty of the twin mountains. Presently he stood up and turned toward the slope, instinctively raising his hands in search of new projections.
His hands brushed air.
He stared. There were no projections. There was no slope. There had never been a ledge, for that matter. Before him lay the mesa of the Virgin"s face, pale and poignant in the star-light.
Marten moved across the mesa slowly. All around him the starlight fell like glistening rain. When he came to the rimrock of the mouth, he pressed his lips to the cold, ungiving stone. "Rise up, my love!" he whispered.
But the Virgin remained immobile beneath his feet, as he had known she would, and he went on, past the proud tor of her nose, straining his eyes for the first glimpse of the blue lakes.
He walked numbly, his arms hanging limply at his sides. He hardly knew he walked at all. The lure of the lakes, now that they were so close, was overwhelming. The lovely lakes with their blue beckoning deeps and their promise of eternal de-light.