"You are better to me than the sunshine," he told Mary one day when she was leaving him. "The world grows darker when you leave me."
Once at this parting moment he took both her hands, and drew her nearer to him, peering into her face in the clear evening light.
"You are like my mother," he said. "Yes, you are very like her. And who else is it that you are like? There is some one else, I know. Yes, some one else! I remember! It is a face in a picture--a picture at Maulevrier Castle."
"What do you know of Maulevrier Castle?" asked Mary, wonderingly.
Maulevrier was the family seat in Herefordshire, which had not been occupied by the elder branch for the last forty years. Lady Maulevrier had let it during her son"s minority to a younger branch of the family, a branch which had intermarried with the world of successful commerce, and was richer than the heads of the house. This occupation of Maulevrier Castle had continued to the present time, and was likely still to continue, Maulevrier having no desire to set up housekeeping in a feudal castle in the marches.
"How came you to know Maulevrier Castle?" repeated Mary.
"I was there once. There is a picture by Lely, a portrait of a Lady Maulevrier in Charles the Second"s time. The face is yours, my love. I have heard of such hereditary faces. My mother was proud of resembling that portrait."
"What did your mother know of Maulevrier Castle?"
The old man did not answer. He had lapsed into that dream-like condition into which he often sank, when his brain was not stimulated to attention and coherency by his interest in Mary"s narrations.
Mary concluded that this man had once been a servant in the Maulevrier household, perhaps at the place in Herefordshire, and that all his old memories ran in one grove--the house of Maulevrier.
The freedom of her intercourse with him was undisturbed for about three weeks; and at the end of that time she came face to face with James Steadman as she emerged from the circle of greenery.
"You here, Lady Mary?" he exclaimed with an angry look.
"Yes, I have been sitting talking to that poor old man," Mary answered, cheerily, concluding that Steadman"s look of vexation arose from his being detected in the act of harbouring a contraband relation. "He is a very interesting character. A relation of yours, I suppose?"
"Yes, he is a relation," replied Steadman. "He is very old, and his mind has long been gone. Her ladyship is kind enough to allow me to give him a home in her house. He is quite harmless, and he is in n.o.body"s way."
"Of course not, poor soul. He is only a burden to himself. He talks as if his life had been very weary. Has he been long in that sad state?"
"Yes, a long time."
Steadman"s manner to Lady Mary was curt at the best of times. She had always stood somewhat in awe of him, as a person delegated with authority by her grandmother, a servant who was much more than a servant. But to-day his manner was more abrupt than usual.
"He spoke of Maulevrier Castle just now," said Mary, determined not to be put down too easily. "Was he once in service there?"
"He was. Pray how did you find your way into this garden, Lady Mary?"
"I came through the stable. As it is my grandmother"s garden I suppose I did not take an unwarrantable liberty in coming," said Mary, drawing herself up, and ready for battle.
"It is Lady Maulevrier"s wish that this garden should be reserved for my use," answered Steadman. "Her ladyship knows that my uncle walks here of an afternoon, and that, owing to his age and infirmities, he can go nowhere else; and if only on that account, it is well that the garden should be kept private. Lunatics are rather dangerous company, Lady Mary, and I advise you to give them a wide berth wherever you may meet them."
"I am not afraid of your uncle," said Mary, resolutely. "You said yourself just now that he is quite harmless: and I am really interested in him, poor old creature. He likes me to sit with him a little of an afternoon and to talk to him; and if you have no objection I should like to do so, whenever the weather is fine enough for the poor old man to be out in the garden at this hour."
"I have a very great objection, Lady Mary, and that objection is chiefly in your interest," answered Steadman, firmly. "No one who is not experienced in the ways of lunatics can imagine the danger of any a.s.sociation with them--their consummate craftiness, their capacity for crime. Every madman is harmless up to a certain point--mild, inoffensive, perhaps, up to the very moment in which he commits some appalling crime. And then people cry out upon the want of prudence, the want of common-sense which allowed such an act to be possible. No, Lady Mary, I understand the benevolence of your motive, but I cannot permit you to run such a risk."
"I am convinced that the poor old creature is perfectly harmless," said Mary, with suppressed indignation. "I shall certainly ask Lady Maulevrier to speak to you on the subject. Perhaps her influence may induce you to be a little more considerate to your unhappy relation."
"Lady Mary, I beg you not to say a word to Lady Maulevrier on this subject. You will do me the greatest injury if you speak of that man. I entreat you--"
But Mary was gone. She pa.s.sed Steadman with her head held high and her eyes sparkling with anger. All that was generous, compa.s.sionate, womanly in her nature was up in arms against her grandmother"s steward. Of all other things, Mary Haselden most detested cruelty; and she could see in Steadman"s opposition to her wish nothing but the most cold-hearted cruelty to a poor dependent on his charity.
She went in at the stable door, shut and locked it, and put the key in her pocket as usual. But she had little hope that this mode of access would be left open to her. She knew enough of James Steadman"s character, from hearsay rather than from experience, to feel sure that he would not easily give way. She was not surprised, therefore, on returning from her ride on the following afternoon, to find the disused harness-room half filled with trusses of straw, and the door of communication completely blocked. It would be impossible for her to remove that barricade without a.s.sistance; and then, how could she be sure that the door itself was not nailed up, or secured in some way?
It was a delicious sunny afternoon, and she could picture the lonely old man sitting in his circle of greenery beside the dial, which for him had registered so many dreary and solitary hours, waiting for the little ray of social sunlight which her presence shed over his monotonous life. He had told her that she was like the sunshine to him--better than sunshine--and she had promised not to forsake him. She pictured him waiting, with his hand clasped upon his crutch-stick, his chin resting upon his hands, his eyes poring on the ground, as she had seen him for the first time. And as the stable clock chimed the quarters he would begin to think himself abandoned, forgotten; if, indeed, he took any count of the pa.s.sage of time of which she was not sure. His mind seemed to have sunk into a condition which was between dreaming and waking, a state to which the outside world seemed only half real--a phase of being in which there was neither past nor future, only the insufferable monotony of an everlasting _now_.
Pity is so near akin to love that Mary, in her deep compa.s.sion for this lonely, joyless, loveless existence, felt a regard which was almost affection for this strange old man, whose very name was unknown to her.
True that there was much in his countenance and manner which was sinister and repellant. He was a being calculated to inspire fear rather than love; but the fact that he had courted her presence and looked to her for consolation had touched Mary"s heart, and she had become reconciled to all that was forbidding and disagreeable in the lunatic physiognomy. Was he not the victim of a visitation which ent.i.tled him to respect as well as to pity?
For some days Mary held her peace, remembering Steadman"s vehement entreaty that she should not speak of this subject to her grandmother.
She was silent, but the image of the old man haunted her at all times and seasons. She saw him even in her dreams--those happy dreams of the girl who loves and is beloved, and before whom the pathway of the future smiles like a vision of Paradise. She heard him calling to her with a piteous cry of distress, and on waking from this troubled dream she fancied that he must be dying, and that this sound in her dreams was one of those ghostly warnings which give notice of death. She was so unhappy about him, altogether so distressed at being compelled to break her word, that she could not prevent her thoughts from dwelling upon him, not even after she had poured out all her trouble to John Hammond in a long letter, in which her garden adventures and her little skirmish with Steadman were graphically described.
To her intense discomforture Hammond replied that he thoroughly approved of Steadman"s conduct in the matter. However agreeable Mary"s society might be to the lunatic, Mary"s life was far too precious to be put within the possibility of peril by any such _tete-a-tetes_. If the person was the same old man whom Hammond had seen on the Fell, he was a most sinister-looking creature, of whom any evil act might be fairly antic.i.p.ated. In a word Mr. Hammond took Steadman"s view of the matter, and entreated his dearest Mary to be careful, and not to allow her warm heart to place her in circ.u.mstances of peril.
This was most disappointing to Mary, who expected her lover to agree with her upon every point; and if he had been at Fellside the difference of opinion might have given rise to their first quarrel. But as she had a few hours" leisure for reflection before the post went out, she had time to get over her anger, and to remember that promise of obedience given, half in jest, half in earnest, at the little inn beyond Dunmail Raise. So she wrote submissively enough, only with just a touch of reproach at Jack"s want of compa.s.sion for a poor old man who had such strong claims upon everybody"s pity.
The image of the poor old man was not to be banished from her thoughts, and on that very afternoon, when her letter was dispatched, Mary went on a visit of exploration to the stables, to see if by any chance Mr.
Steadman"s plans for isolating his unhappy relative might be circ.u.mvented.
She went all over the stables--into loose boxes, harness and saddle rooms, sheds for wood, and sheds for roots, but she found no door opening into the quadrangle, save that door by which she had entered, and which was securely defended by a barricade of straw that had been doubled by a fresh delivery of trusses since she first saw it. But while she was prowling about the sweet-scented stable, much disappointed at the result of her investigations, she stumbled against a ladder which led to an open trap-door. Mary mounted the ladder, and found herself amidst the dusty atmosphere of a large hayloft, half in shadow, half in the hot bright sunlight. A large shutter was open in the sloping roof, the roof that sloped towards the quadrangle, an open patch admitting light and air. Mary, light and active as a squirrel, sprang upon a truss of hay, and in another moment had swung herself in the opening of the shutter, and was standing with her feet on the wooden ledge at the bottom of the ma.s.sive frame, and her figure supported against the slope of thick thatched roof. Perched, or half suspended, thus, she was just high enough to look over the top of the yew-tree hedge into the circle round the sundial.
Yes, there was the unhappy victim of fate, and man"s inhumanity to man.
There sat the shrunken figure, with drooping head, and melancholy att.i.tude--the bent shoulders of feeble old age, the patriarchal locks so appealing to pity. There he sat with eyes poring upon the ground just as she had seen him the first time. And while she had sat with him and talked with him he had seemed to awaken out of that dull despondency, gleams of pleasure had lighted up his wrinkled face--he had grown animated, a sentient living instead of a corpse alive. It was very hard that this little interval of life, these stray gleams of gladness should be denied to the poor old creature, at the behest of James Steadman.
Mary would have felt less angrily upon the subject had she believed in Steadman"s supreme carefulness of her own safety; but in this she did not believe. She looked upon the house-steward"s prudence as a hypocritical pretence, an affectation of fidelity and wisdom, by which he contrived to gratify the evil tendencies of his own hard and cruel nature. For some reasons of his own, perhaps constrained thereto by necessity, he had given the old man an asylum for his age and infirmity: but while thus giving him shelter he considered him a burden, and from mere perversity of mind refused him all such consolations as were possible to his afflicted state, mewed him up as a prisoner, cut him off from the companionship of his fellow-men.
Two years ago, before Mary emerged from her Tomboyhood, she would have thought very little of letting herself out of the loft window and clambering down the side of the stable, which was well furnished with those projections in the way of gutters, drain-pipes, and century-old ivy, which make such a descent easy. Two years ago Mary"s light figure would have swung itself down among the ivy leaves, and she would have gloried in the thought of circ.u.mventing James Steadman so easily. But now Mary was a young lady--a young lady engaged to be married, and impressed with the responsibilities of her position, deeply sensible of a new dignity, for the preservation of which she was in a manner answerable to her lover.
"What would _he_ think of me if I went scrambling down the ivy?" she asked herself; "and after he has approved of Steadman"s heartless restrictions, it would be rank rebellion against him if I were to do it.
Poor old man, "Thou art so near and yet so far," as Lesbia"s song says."
She blew a kiss on the tips of her fingers towards that sad solitary figure, and then dropped back into the dusty duskiness of the loft. But although her new ideas upon the subject of "Anstand"--or good behaviour--prevented her getting the better of Steadman by foul means, she was all the more intent upon having her own way by fair means, now that the impression of the old man"s sadness and solitude had been renewed by the sight of the drooping figure by the sundial.
She went back to the house, and walked straight to her grandmother"s room. Lady Maulevrier"s couch had been placed in front of the open window, from which she was watching the westward-sloping sun above the long line of hills, dark Helvellyn, rugged Nabb Scarr, and verdant Fairfield, with its two giant arms stretched out to enfold and shelter the smiling valley.
"Heavens! child, what an object you are;" exclaimed her ladyship, as Mary drew near. "Why, your gown is all over dust, and your hair is--why your hair is sprinkled with hay and clover. I thought you had learnt to be tidy, since your engagement. What have you been doing with yourself?"
"I have been up in the hayloft," answered Mary, frankly; and, intent on one idea, she said impetuously, "Dear grandmother, I want you to do me a favour--a very great favour. There is a poor old man, a relation of Steadman"s, who lives with him, out of his mind, but quite harmless, and he is so sad and lonely, so dreadfully sad, and he likes me to sit with him in the garden, and tell him stories, and recite verses to him, poor soul, just as if he were a child, don"t you know, and it is such a pleasure to me to be a little comfort to him in his lonely wretched life, and James Steadman says I mustn"t go near him, because he may change at any moment into a dangerous lunatic, and do me some kind of harm, and I am not a bit afraid, and I"m sure he won"t do anything of the kind, and, please grandmother, tell Steadman, that I am to be allowed to go and sit with his poor old prisoner half an hour every afternoon."
Carried along the current of her own impetuous thoughts, Mary had talked very fast, and had not once looked at her grandmother while she was speaking. But now at the end of her speech her eyes sought Lady Maulevrier"s face in gentle entreaty, and she recoiled involuntarily at the sight she saw there.
The cla.s.sic features were distorted almost as they had been in the worst period of the paralytic seizure. Lady Maulevrier was ghastly pale, and her eyes glared with an awful fire as they gazed at Mary. Her whole frame was convulsed, and she, the cripple, whose right limbs lay numbed and motionless upon the couch, made a struggling motion as she raised herself a little with the left arm, as if, by very force of angry will, she would have lifted herself up erect before the girl who had offended her.
For a few moments her lips moved dumbly; and there was something unspeakably awful in those convulsed features, that livid countenance, and those voiceless syllables trembling upon the white dry lips.
At last speech came.
"Girl, you were created to torment me;" she exclaimed.
"Dear grandmother, what harm have I done?" faltered Mary.