"I am sorry for that, Mariana."
"You wouldn"t be if you knew him. You are too economical to squander emotions."
"But it does seem rather hard on him," said Miss Ramsey.
Mariana laughed.
"It would have been worse on me had I stayed with him," she responded.
"And now, if Janet has my bath ready, I think I"ll get up."
An hour later she came down-stairs in her hat and coat, and went for her morning walk in the park. When she returned she ordered the carriage, and went shopping, accompanied by Miss Ramsey.
"You are to have a heliotrope satin," Mariana declared, in a burst of generosity, "and I am to have one that is all amber and dull gold."
As she stood in the centre of the costumer"s show-room, surveying the l.u.s.trous folds of heliotrope and amber, her eyes shone with pleasure.
Miss Ramsey protested faintly.
"My dear Mariana, I beg of you," she said, "leave me the black silk.
Colors confuse me."
But Mariana was obdurate.
"No," she replied, "I have selected it. We will go to the milliner"s."
They drove to the milliner"s, where they remained for a couple of hours--Mariana finding difficulty in deciding upon a bonnet. When the choice was made Miss Ramsey was threatened with hysteria, and they went home.
"I quite forgot," said Mariana, as they entered the house, a small brown-stone one on Fifty-seventh Street, which she had leased--"I quite forgot that I was to have sat for Mr. Nevins this morning. How provoking I am! But it is too late now, and, besides, I am looking a fright. My dear, good Miss Ramsey, I do wish you would express yourself more about the purchases I make."
"I did express myself," protested Miss Ramsey, looking jaded and hara.s.sed. "I expressed myself against that heliotrope satin, but it did no good."
"But that was absurd," responded Mariana. "I do hope luncheon is ready,"
and she went up-stairs to change her dress.
After luncheon Mrs. Ryder called, and Mariana went in to see her, a flush of pleasure suffusing her face.
"How very kind of you!" she said, taking the proffered hand, and there was a thrill of grat.i.tude in her voice. They seated themselves near together and talked of mutual acquaintances, princ.i.p.ally men, of the weather, and of the opera the evening before--all with the flippancy with which society veils the primordial network of veins coursing beneath its bloodless surface. Then, when Mrs. Ryder rose to go, she hesitated an instant, looking down at the smaller woman.
"I should like to be your friend," she said at last. "Will you let me?"
Mariana raised her eyes.
"I need them," she answered; and then she added, impulsively: "Do you know all that has been said of me--all?"
Mrs. Ryder drew herself up with a slow, gracious movement.
"But it is not true," she said.
"No, it is not true," repeated Mariana.
The other smiled and held out her hand.
"I want you to come to luncheon with me," she said. "I shall be alone to-morrow. Will you come?"
"Yes," Mariana responded, "to-morrow."
And after Mrs. Ryder had gone she sat down at her desk and wrote a note.
"You must not talk to me again as you did last evening," it said. "I have told you so before, but I may not have seemed in earnest. Now I am in earnest, and you must not--you shall not do it. I know it has been a great deal my fault, and I am sorry for it. Indeed, you must believe that I did not think of its coming to this."
Then she sealed it and gave it to the servant to mail, after which she went up-stairs and talked to Miss Ramsey until dinner.
The next day she went to Mrs. Ryder"s, and they sat down to luncheon at a small round table and talked as women talk in whom feeling is predominant over thought, and to whom life represents a rhythmic series of emotions rather than waves of mental evolution.
They spoke in low, almost affectionate voices, conscious of one of those sudden outreaches of sympathy to which women are subject. When luncheon was over they went up to the nursery, and Mariana knelt upon the floor and romped with the child, who pulled her loosened hair, uttering shrill shrieks of delight. At last she rose hurriedly, and Mrs. Ryder saw that a tear trembled on her lashes.
The elder woman"s heart expanded.
"You have had a child?" she asked, softly.
"Yes."
"And lost it?"
"Yes, I lost it."
Mrs. Ryder"s eyes grew soft.
"I am so sorry for you," she said. The tear on Mariana"s lashes fell upon her hand.
"It was eight years ago," she said. "That is a long time, but I suppose one never entirely forgets."
"No," answered the other, "one never forgets."
She stooped suddenly, and, lifting her child, kissed it pa.s.sionately.
Several mornings after this Mariana"s carriage stopped before Nevins"s studio, and Mariana got out and ascended the long flight of stairs. In response to the fall of the bra.s.s knocker, the door was opened and Nevins greeted her reproachfully. "Are you aware," he demanded, gravely, "that there has been sufficient time for the appearance of a wrinkle since your last sitting?"
"Portraits don"t have wrinkles," returned Mariana, cheerfully, entering and unfastening her coat; "nor do I."
She removed her hat and gave an impatient little fluff to her hair.
"Do I look well?" she asked.
"Were you ever otherwise to me?" rejoined Nevins, in impa.s.sioned protest.
Mariana turned from him with a slight shrug of her shoulders.
"For the last week," she said, "I have had a horrible cold. It made my eyes red and my nose also. That is why I stayed away."