Phemie Frost"s Experiences.
by Ann S. Stephens.
PREFACE.
Thistle down, thistle down, cast to the wind So lightly and wildly, you scarcely can find A glimpse of it here, or a gleam of it there, As it trembles, a silvery mist, on the air.
Like the wide th.o.r.n.y leaves whence the mother root threw Up its crown of rich purple, bejewelled with dew, These feathery nothings, barbed, spa.r.s.ely, with seeds, Must struggle for life with the brambles and weeds.
PHEMIE FROST"S EXPERIENCES.
I.
LEAVING HOME.
I have made up my mind. Having put my hand to the plough, it isn"t in me to back out of a duty when duty and one"s own wishes sail amicably in the same canoe. I am going to give myself up to the good of mankind and the dissemination of great moral ideas.
Selected by the Society of Infinite Progress as its travelling missionary, with power to spread the most transcendental of New England ideas throughout the world, I shall take up my cross and go forth.
The evening after the Society had crowned me with this honor, I asked Aunt Kesiah and Uncle Ben Frost, who have been working the farm on shares ever since my father died, if they could not make out to do without me for some months, or weeks, or years, just as duty or my own feelings took a notion to stay.
Aunt Kesiah sat right down in the rocking-chair, and looked straight in my face for a whole minute without speaking.
"What," says she at last, "going away from home at your age--a female woman all alone in the world! You and the Society just take my breath away, Phmie. Where on arth are you a going to?"
"Well," says I, "it seems to be my duty to seek a field where there is the most sin and iniquity a going on, where dishonesty rides rampagnatious as a roaring lion, and fashion flaunts herself like a peac.o.c.k with moons in every tail feather. First of all, the field of my duty lies in York, that Babylon of cities."
"But whose a going to bear the expenses?" says Uncle Ben, who always was "cute as a miser about money matters. "Duty is sumtimes rayther expensive."
"The Society," answers I. "The members are a picking up produce now, I shan"t go empty-handed on my mission. All the members are wide awake about that. Crops have been first-rate."
"Yes," says Uncle Ben, "I give in there."
"And hens never laid better since chickens were hatched," continued I.
"Jes" so," says Aunt Kesiah, "if the pesky creturs wouldn"t run off and hide their nests."
"Hams are plenty, smoked beef ditto, to say nothing of dried apples. I mean to sell everything at a profit and settle accounts with the Society."
"I reckon you"ll get cut short; up to this time there has bin lots of talking in that Society. When it comes to giving--but never mind--we shall see!"
"There, there, Benjamin, don"t you go to pouring cold water on our Phmie"s missionary work. She is sot on going, so let her go."
"Is she sot?" says Uncle Ben, looking at me sort of anxious.
"Yes," says I, "my face is turned to the mark of the prize of the high calling."
"Jes" so," says Uncle Ben, "got your hand on the prow with a hard grip?
That being the fact, old woman, the best thing is for you to lend a helping hand and send her off comfortably. She can try anyhow, though I have a notion that the world has got to be so wicked since the war, that one female woman--"
"Girl!" says I.
"Well, girl--may fall short of regenerating the hull of it all to once.
Still there is no knowing what any one can do till they try."
"When do you lay out to start?" says Aunt Kesiah, all in a flutter.
"Right off," says I.
"By land or water?"
"Both," says I.
"Oh, dear! what if you should get shipwrecked, and all the produce and garden sa.s.s with you!" says she.
"There now, don"t skeer the girl, Kesiah," says Uncle Ben. "The Sound don"t rage to any great extent, neither are the engines alles a busting as a general thing."
"Well, well, if she"s sot on going, I"ll do my best to help get her off," says Aunt Kesiah, and she goes right to putting lard in a kettle, and while it was a heating, rolled out a lot of doughnuts, which article of food she excels in. For two whole days that good soul devoted herself to making crullers, doughnuts, and turnover pies, as if she thought I should not find anything to eat till I got home again.
Well, by and by the day came for me to start. That tea-party and a prayer-meeting at Deacon Pettibone"s house was a season that none of us will ever forget. Mrs. Pettibone, our president, is a wonderfully gifted woman, and that night she seized right hold of the horns of the altar and fairly beat herself. Oh, sisters, it was a touching time when I drove with Uncle Ben through Sprucehill a bowing from one window to another, for every member of the Society seemed to rush heart and soul to the windows; and when I found your executive committee on that platform, the tears that had been standing in my eyes just burst out and overflowed my soul.
There I sat on my trunk in your midst, with a bandbox at my feet, and a new satchel, large, plump, and shiny, in my hand, ready to start, but feeling the responsibility of my trust, and the danger of a young girl going forth into the world all alone. No wonder some of you thought I should give up and take my hand from the plough. It was a trying situation. I felt it; I suffered; but, knowing that the eyes of all Sprucehill were upon me, I was firm. Yes, even when Aunt Kesiah placed that satchel in my lap, and told me with tears in her eyes to take special care of it, for she did not know what I should do if it got lost.
She said this so loud, and with such deep sobs, that a tall gentleman who stood on the platform with a satchel in his hand, seemed to be greatly affected by the touching scene, and kept close to us till the train come lumbering and snorting in.
Then, sisters, you remember how we fell upon each other"s neck, and wept and kissed each other, then tore apart. How I went weeping into the cars leaving the satchel behind, and how Uncle Ben pushed it through the window, telling me to be awful careful of its precious contents so loud that everybody heard, and I have no doubt wondered how many thousand dollars it held. Well, the contents of that bag were miscellaneously precious. I had seen Aunt Kesiah pack it, with a feeling that made me homesick before I left the old farm. Doughnuts, crullers, turn-over pies, with luscious peach juice breaking through the curves. A great hunk of maple sugar, another of dried beef, some cheese, and a pint bottle of cider. It nearly broke Aunt Kesiah"s heart because she couldn"t top things off with a pot of preserves, but I wasn"t sorry, thinking they might be unhandy to carry.
Well, I took the satchel, set it upon my lap, and looked out of the window at you all, as well as I could for crying, till the train gave a jerk that made my teeth rattle, and moved on.
When I lost sight of you, sisters, I felt awfully lonesome and almost "fraid to trust myself among so many masculine men as filled the cars.
Being an unprotected female, with a certain amount of promiscuous property in my charge, I felt a commercial and moral responsibility that weighed down my shoulders till I felt like a camel with an enormous load to carry.
Had I been travelling with nothing but my own self to take care of, the sense of responsibility would have been less; but I could not help thinking that the dignity of our Society was in my keeping, and the anxieties of all Sprucehill followed me swifter than the cars could run or the snorting engine draw. So I pulled my dust-colored veil tight over my face, and, with my feet planted firm on the floor, sat bolt-upright, holding the satchel on my lap with both hands, kind of shivering for fear some man might attempt to sit down by me. I couldn"t think of this without feeling as if I should sink right through the red velvet cushions that I sat on.
I was so anxious that my heart jumped right into my mouth when that man I had seen on the platform come my way. While he was looking around, the breath stood still on my lips, and I gave my satchel a grip which would have hurt it if such things have any feeling. I have no doubt that the austerity of my countenance scared all the rest of them off, for most of "em pa.s.sed on, after giving me a regretful glance; but when he come in swinging his new satchel, so independent, I moved a little; for I knew he was a gentleman by the way he wore his hat--clear back on his head--by the great seal, with a red stone in it, on his finger, and by the heavy gold chain swinging across his breast.
When I saw this man"s eyes fixed on my seat so beseeching, I kind of moved a little more and then let my eyes droop downward, determined not to help his presumptuous design to sit by me a single bit.
"Thank you," says he, sitting down close to me, and chucking his satchel under the seat. "If there is a superior person in the car, I"m certain to have the luck and the honor to sit beside her. Some people prefer to look out of the window, but I would rather gaze on a sweet, pretty face, by a long shot--especially if it does not belong to a girl with airs."