Time was chorus, gave them cues to laugh or cry; They would kill, befool, amuse him, let him die; Set him webs to weave to-day and break to-morrow, Till he died for good in play, and rose in sorrow.
What the years mean; how time dies and is not slain; How love grows and laughs and cries and wanes again; These were things she came to know, and take their measure, When the play was played out so for one man"s pleasure.
THE LEPER
Nothing is better, I well think, Than love; the hidden well-water Is not so delicate to drink: This was well seen of me and her.
I served her in a royal house; I served her wine and curious meat.
For will to kiss between her brows, I had no heart to sleep or eat.
Mere scorn G.o.d knows she had of me, A poor scribe, nowise great or fair, Who plucked his clerk"s hood back to see Her curled-up lips and amorous hair.
I vex my head with thinking this.
Yea, though G.o.d always hated me, And hates me now that I can kiss Her eyes, plait up her hair to see
How she then wore it on the brows, Yet am I glad to have her dead Here in this wretched wattled house Where I can kiss her eyes and head.
Nothing is better, I well know, Than love; no amber in cold sea Or gathered berries under snow: That is well seen of her and me.
Three thoughts I make my pleasure of: First I take heart and think of this: That knight"s gold hair she chose to love, His mouth she had such will to kiss.
Then I remember that sundawn I brought him by a privy way Out at her lattice, and thereon What gracious words she found to say.
(Cold rushes for such little feet-- Both feet could lie into my hand.
A marvel was it of my sweet Her upright body could so stand.)
"Sweet friend, G.o.d give you thank and grace; Now am I clean and whole of shame, Nor shall men burn me in the face For my sweet fault that scandals them."
I tell you over word by word.
She, sitting edgewise on her bed, Holding her feet, said thus. The third, A sweeter thing than these, I said.
G.o.d, that makes time and ruins it And alters not, abiding G.o.d, Changed with disease her body sweet, The body of love wherein she abode.
Love is more sweet and comelier Than a dove"s throat strained out to sing.
All they spat out and cursed at her And cast her forth for a base thing.
They cursed her, seeing how G.o.d had wrought This curse to plague her, a curse of his.
Fools were they surely, seeing not How sweeter than all sweet she is.
He that had held her by the hair, With kissing lips blinding her eyes, Felt her bright bosom, strained and bare, Sigh under him, with short mad cries
Out of her throat and sobbing mouth And body broken up with love, With sweet hot tears his lips were loth Her own should taste the savour of,
Yea, he inside whose grasp all night Her fervent body leapt or lay, Stained with sharp kisses red and white, Found her a plague to spurn away.
I hid her in this wattled house, I served her water and poor bread.
For joy to kiss between her brows Time upon time I was nigh dead.
Bread failed; we got but well-water And gathered gra.s.s with dropping seed.
I had such joy of kissing her, I had small care to sleep or feed.
Sometimes when service made me glad The sharp tears leapt between my lids, Falling on her, such joy I had To do the service G.o.d forbids.
"I pray you let me be at peace, Get hence, make room for me to die."
She said that: her poor lip would cease, Put up to mine, and turn to cry.
I said, "Bethink yourself how love Fared in us twain, what either did; Shall I unclothe my soul thereof?
That I should do this, G.o.d forbid."
Yea, though G.o.d hateth us, he knows That hardly in a little thing Love faileth of the work it does Till it grow ripe for gathering.
Six months, and now my sweet is dead A trouble takes me; I know not If all were done well, all well said, No word or tender deed forgot.
Too sweet, for the least part in her, To have shed life out by fragments; yet, Could the close mouth catch breath and stir, I might see something I forget.
Six months, and I sit still and hold In two cold palms her cold two feet.
Her hair, half grey half ruined gold, Thrills me and burns me in kissing it.
Love bites and stings me through, to see Her keen face made of sunken bones.
Her worn-off eyelids madden me, That were shot through with purple once.
She said, "Be good with me; I grow So tired for shame"s sake, I shall die If you say nothing:" even so.
And she is dead now, and shame put by.
Yea, and the scorn she had of me In the old time, doubtless vexed her then.
I never should have kissed her. See What fools G.o.d"s anger makes of men!
She might have loved me a little too, Had I been humbler for her sake.
But that new shame could make love new She saw not--yet her shame did make.
I took too much upon my love, Having for such mean service done Her beauty and all the ways thereof, Her face and all the sweet thereon.
Yea, all this while I tended her, I know the old love held fast his part: I know the old scorn waxed heavier, Mixed with sad wonder, in her heart.
It may be all my love went wrong-- A scribe"s work writ awry and blurred, Scrawled after the blind evensong-- Spoilt music with no perfect word.
But surely I would fain have done All things the best I could. Perchance Because I failed, came short of one, She kept at heart that other man"s.
I am grown blind with all these things: It may be now she hath in sight Some better knowledge; still there clings The old question. Will not G.o.d do right?[3]
[3] En ce temps-l estoyt dans ce pays grand nombre de ladres et de meseaulx, ce dont le roy eut grand desplaisir, veu que Dieu dust en estre moult griefvement courrouc. Ores il advint qu"une n.o.ble damoyselle appele Yolande de Sallires estant atteincte et touste guaste de ce vilain mal, tous ses amys et ses parens ayant devant leurs yeux la paour de Dieu la firent issir fors de leurs maisons et oncques ne voulurent recepvoir ni reconforter chose mauldicte de Dieu et tous les hommes puante et abhominable.
Ceste dame avoyt est moult belle et gracieuse de formes, et de son corps elle estoyt large et de vie lascive. Pourtant nul des amans qui l"avoyent souventesfois accolle et baise moult tendrement ne voul.u.s.t plus hberger si laide femme et si dtestable pescheresse. Ung seul clerc qui feut premirement son lacquays et son entremetteur en matire d"amour la reut chez luy et la rcla dans une pet.i.te cabane. L mourut la meschinette de grande misre et de male mort: et aprs elle dcda ledist clerc qui pour grand amour l"avoyt six mois durant soigne, lave, habille et deshabille tous les jours de ses mains propres. Mesme dist-on que ce meschant homme et mauldict clerc se remmourant de la grande beaut pa.s.se et guaste de ceste femme se dlectoyt maintesfois la baiser sur sa bouche orde et lpreuse et l"accoller doulcement de ses mains amoureuses. Aussy est-il mort de ceste mesme maladie abhominable. Cecy advint prs Fontainebellant en Gastinois. Et quand ouyt le roy Philippe ceste adventure moult en estoyt esmerveill.
_Grandes Chroniques de France, 1505._