I WAVED DOWN THE MEDIC.
"There is something in my tea," I cried. I began to feel light-headed. "Call Valek." Maybe he had an antidote.
She stared at me with her large brown eyes. Her face was long and thin. Longer hair would soften her features, her short style merely made her resemble a ferret.
"It"s sleeping pills. Valek"s orders," she said.
I let out a breath, feeling better. The medic gave me an amused look before she left. My appet.i.te ruined, I shoved the food aside. I didn"t need sleeping pills to help me give in to the exhaustion that lapped up my remaining strength.
When I woke the next morning, there was a blurry white blob standing at the end of my bed. It moved. I blinked and squinted until the image sharpened into the short-haired medic.
"Did you have a good night?"
"Yes," I said. The first night in a long time free of nightmares, although my head felt as if wool had been shoved into it, and a rank taste in my mouth didn"t promise for a good morning.
The medic checked my bandages, made a noncommittal sound and told me breakfast would be a while.
As I waited, I scanned the infirmary. The rectangular room held twelve beds, six on each side, and s.p.a.ced so that they formed a mirror image. The sheets on the empty beds were pulled tight as bowstrings. Orderly and precise, the room annoyed me. I felt like rumpled bedding, no longer in control of my soul, my body, or my world. Being surrounded by neatness offended me, and I had a sudden desire to jump on the empty beds, knocking them out of line.
I was farthest from the door. Two empty beds lay between the three other patients and me on my side of the room. They were sleeping. I had no one to talk to. The stone walls were bare. h.e.l.l, my prison cell had more interesting decorations. At least it smelled better in here. I took a deep breath. The clean, sharp smell of alcohol mixed with disinfectant filled my nose, so different from the dungeon"s fetid air. Much better. Or was it? There was another scent intermixed with the medical aroma. Another whiff and I realized that the sour odor of old fear emanated from me.
I shouldn"t have survived yesterday. Brazell"s guards had me cornered. There was no escape. Yet I had been saved by a strange buzzing noise that had erupted from my throat like an unruly, uncontrollable offspring. A primal survival instinct that had echoed in my nightmares.
I avoided thoughts about that buzz because it was an old acquaintance of mine, but the memories kept invading my mind.
Examining the past three years, I forced myself to concentrate on when and where the buzzing had erupted, and to ignore the emotions.
The first couple of months of Brazell"s experiments had merely tested my reflexes. How fast I could dodge a ball or duck a swinging stick, harmless enough until the ball had turned into a knife and the stick into a sword.
My heart began to pound. With sweaty palms I fingered a scar on my neck. No emotion, I told myself sternly, flicking my hands as if I could push away the fear. Pretend you"re the medic, I thought, asking questions to gain information. I imagined myself dressed in white, calmly sitting next to a fevered patient while she babbled.
What came next? I asked the patient. Strength and endurance tests, she answered. Simple tasks of lifting weights had turned into holding heavy stones above her head for minutes, then hours. If she dropped the stone before the time was up, she was whipped. She was ordered to clutch chains dangling from the ceiling, holding her weight inches above the floor, until Brazell or Reyad gave permission to let go.
When was the first time you heard the buzzing? I prompted the patient. She had released the chains too early too many times and Reyad became furious. So he forced her outside a window six floors above the ground, and let her hold on to the ledge with her hands.
"Let"s try it again," Reyad said. "Now that we"ve raised the stakes, maybe you"ll last for the whole hour."
The patient stopped speaking. Go on, tell me what happened, I prodded. Her arms had been weak from spending most of the day hanging from the chains. Her fingers were slick with sweat; her muscles trembled with fatigue. She panicked. When her hands slipped off the ledge, she howled like a newborn. The howl mutated and transformed into a substance. It expanded out, enveloped and caressed her skin on all sides. She felt as if she was nestled in a warm pool of water.
Next thing she remembered she was sitting on the ground. She glanced up at the window. Reyad watched her with his face flushed. His perfect blond hair an unusual mess. Delighted, he blew her a kiss.
The only way she could have survived the fall was by magic. No. Absolutely not, she insisted. It had to have been some strange wind currents or landing the right way. Not magic.
Magic, a forbidden word in Ixia since Commander Ambrose came to power. Magicians had been treated like disease-riddled mosquitoes. They were hunted, trapped and exterminated. Any hint or suggestion that someone had magic was a death sentence. The only chance to live was to escape to Sitia.
The patient was growing agitated, and the other occupants of the room were staring at her...Me. Small doses, I told myself. I could handle the memories in modest quant.i.ties. After all, I hadn"t been hurt by the fall, and Reyad was sweet to me for a while. But his kindness only lasted until I started failing his tests again.
To distract myself from the memories, I counted the cracks in the ceiling. I was up to fifty-six when Valek arrived.
He carried a tray of food in one hand and a file folder in the other. I eyed the steaming omelet with suspicion. "What"s in it?" I demanded. "More sleeping pills? Or another new poison?" Every muscle in my body had stiffened. I tried unsuccessfully to sit up. "How about giving me something to make me feel good for a change?"
"How about something to keep you alive?" Valek asked. He pulled me to a sitting position and offered a pipette filled with my antidote. Then he placed the tray of food on my lap.
"No need for sleeping pills. The medic told me you picked up on that taste last night." Valek"s voice held a note of approval. "Taste your breakfast and tell me if you would allow the Commander to eat it."
Valek hadn"t been exaggerating when he said I"d have no days off. Sighing, I smelled the omelet. No unusual odors. I cut the omelet into quarters, examining each for any foreign material. Taking a small piece from each section, I put them into my mouth one at a time and chewed slowly. Swallowing, I waited to discern any aftertaste. I sniffed the tea and stirred it with a spoon before sipping. Rolling the liquid over my tongue, I detected a sweet taste before I swallowed.
"Unless the Commander doesn"t like honey in his tea, I wouldn"t reject this breakfast."
"Then eat it."
I hesitated. Was Valek trying to trick me? Unless he had used a poison I hadn"t learned, the breakfast was clean. I ate every morsel, and then drained the tea while Valek watched.
"Not bad," he said. "No poisons...today."
One of the medics brought another tray to Valek. This tray held four white cups of an olive-colored liquid that smelled like mint. Replacing my breakfast tray with the new one, Valek said, "I want to go over some tasting techniques. Each of these cups contains mint tea. Taste one."
Clasping the closest mug, I took a sip. An overwhelming flavor of mint pervaded my mouth. I choked.
Valek grinned. "Taste anything else?"
I attempted another mouthful. The mint dominated. "No."
"All right. Now pinch your nose tight and try again."
After some fumbling with my bandaged arm, I managed to gulp the tea while holding my nose. My ears popped. I marveled at the taste. "Sweet. No mint." My voice sounded silly so I released my grip. Immediately, the mint eclipsed the sweetness.
"Correct. Now try the others."
The next cup of mint tea hid a sour taste, the third had a bitter flavor, and the fourth was salty.
"This technique works for any drink or food. Blocking your sense of smell eliminates all flavors except sweet, sour, bitter and salt. Some poisons are recognizable by one of those four flavors." Valek paged through his folder. "Here is a complete list of human poisons and their distinct tastes for you to memorize. There are fifty-two known poisons."
I looked through the inventory of poisons. Some of them I had already smelled. My Love was at the top. The list would have saved me from the dizziness, nausea, headaches and occasional delusional effects of the poison. I brandished the paper in the air. "Why didn"t you just give me this list instead of making me sample My Love?"
Valek stopped paging through his folder. "What would you learn from a list? Kattsgut tastes sweet. What does that taste like? Honey sweet? Apple sweet? There are different levels of sweetness and the only way to learn them is to taste them yourself. The only reason I"m giving you this list is because the Commander wants you working as soon as possible." Valek snapped his folder shut. "Just because you aren"t going to taste those poisons now doesn"t mean you won"t in the future. Memorize that list. Once the medic releases you from the infirmary, I will test your knowledge. If you pa.s.s, then you can start work."
"And if I fail?"
"Then I"ll be training a new taster."
His voice was flat, monotone, but the force behind it caused my heart to lock.
Valek continued. "Brazell will be in the castle for another two weeks. He has more business to attend to. I can"t have you guarded all day, so Margg is preparing a room for you in my suite. I"ll come back later to see when you"ll be discharged."
I watched Valek walk to the door. He glided across the room, balanced and athletic. I shook my head. Thinking about Valek was the absolute worst thing I could be doing. Instead, I focused on the list of poisons clutched in my hand. I smoothed the paper out and hoped my sweat hadn"t smeared the ink. Relieved that the writing was legible, I began to study.
I barely noticed when the medic came to check on my arm. She must have taken the tray of teacups, because it disappeared from my lap. I had blocked out all the noise and commotion of the infirmary so that I jumped when a plate containing a round pastry was thrust under my nose.
The arm that held the plate led to Rand. His grin was gleeful.
"Look what I smuggled past Medic Mommy! Go ahead. Eat it before she comes back."
The warm dessert smelled like cinnamon. Melted white icing dripped down the sides, causing the cake to stick to my fingers when I picked it up. I examined the pastry closely, inhaling the aroma in search of a foreign smell. One small bite revealed multiple layers of dough and cinnamon.
"My G.o.d, Yelena, you don"t think I"d poison it?" Rand"s face was pinched tight, as if he was in pain.
Exactly what I"d been thinking, but admitting it to Rand would offend him. His motives for being here were unclear. Seeming nice and friendly, he could be holding a grudge over his friend Oscove, the previous food taster. But then again, he was a potential ally. Who better to have on my side? Rand, the cook, whose food I"d be eating on a daily basis, or Valek, the a.s.sa.s.sin, who had a nasty tendency of poisoning my meals?
"Occupational hazard," I tried.
He grunted, still put out. I took a big bite of the pastry.
"Wonderful," I said, appealing to his ego to give me another chance.
Rand"s face softened. "Good, isn"t it? My latest recipe. I take a long strip of pastry dough, cover it with cinnamon, roll it up into a ball, bake it, and then spread the icing on while it"s hot. I"m having some trouble with the name though. Cinnamon cake? Ball? Swirl?" Rand stopped his rambling to find a chair. After quite a bit of twisting to compensate for his unbendable left leg, he finally settled into a comfortable position.
While I finished the pastry, Rand continued. "Don"t tell Medic Mommy I gave you that. She doesn"t like her patients eating anything but a thin gruel. She says the gruel promotes healing. Well, of course it has an effect!" He threw his arms up, exposing several burn scars around his wrists. "It tastes so terrible that anyone would get better just to get a decent meal!"
The wild gesture caused the other patients to glance our way. Rand leaned in closer to me and asked in a quiet voice, "So, Yelena, how are you feeling?" He looked at me as though he was appraising a selection of meat, determining which one would make the best roast.
I was wary. Why would he care? "Gambling again?" I asked.
He leaned back. "We"re always gambling. Gambling and gossiping is all we servants do. What else is there? You should"ve seen the commotion and betting that went on when you were spotted being chased by Brazell"s goons."
Appalled, I said, "n.o.body came to help me. The hallways were deserted."
"That would be involvement in a situation that doesn"t affect us directly. Servants don"t ever do that. We"re like c.o.c.kroaches scurrying around in the dark." Rand"s slender fingers waggled. "Shine a light...poof!" He flicked his long fingers for emphasis. "We disappear."
I felt like the unlucky c.o.c.kroach that got caught by the light. Always scrambling to stay one step ahead while the shadow of a boot crept closer.
"Anyway, the odds were against you. Most lost big, while only a few-" Rand paused dramatically "-won big."
"Since you"re here, I suppose you won big."
He smiled. "Yelena, I"m always going to bet on you. You"re like one of the Commander"s terriers. A tiny, yappy dog you wouldn"t look at twice, but once it grabs your pant leg, it won"t let go."
"Poison the dog"s meat and it won"t bother you anymore."
My sour tone deflated Rand"s grin. "Trouble?"
Surprised that the castle"s gossip network hadn"t already started laying odds about Valek"s test, I hesitated. Rand liked to talk, and he could get me in trouble. "No. It"s just being the food taster and all..." I hoped that would satisfy him.
Rand nodded. He spent the rest of the afternoon alternating between reminiscing about Oscove and digressing about potential new recipes. When Valek appeared, Rand stopped talking, his face paled and he mumbled something about having to check on dinner. Lurching from his chair, he almost toppled in his haste to flee the room. Valek watched as Rand staggered out of the infirmary.
"What was he doing here?"
Valek"s expression remained neutral, but the stillness of his body made me wonder if he was angry. Carefully choosing my words, I explained to him that Rand had come to visit.
"When did you meet him?"
A casual question, but again there was an undercurrent to his words. "After I recovered from My Love, I went in search of food and met Rand in the kitchen."
"Watch what you say around him. He"s not to be trusted. I would have rea.s.signed him, but the Commander insisted he stay. He is a genius in the kitchen. Some kind of protege. He started cooking for the King at a very young age."
Valek stared at me with his cold blue eyes, warning me away from Rand. Maybe that"s why Valek hadn"t liked Oscove. Being allied with someone who had been loyal to the King could cast more suspicion on me. But letting Valek scare me off rankled. I stared back at him with, I hoped, an indifferent look.
Valek looked away. I was jubilant. In my mind, I had finally won a round.
"You leave the infirmary tomorrow morning." Valek was curt. "Get yourself cleaned up and report to my office to take the test. I won"t think you"re ready even if you pa.s.s, but the Commander ordered me to have you available by lunch." He shook his head in annoyance. "It"s a shortcut. I hate shortcuts."
"Why? You won"t have to risk yourself anymore." I regretted the words as soon as they had left my mouth.
Valek"s gaze was lethal. "In my experience, shortcuts usually lead to death."
"Is that what happened to my predecessor?" I asked, unable to stifle my curiosity. Would Valek confirm or deny Rand"s theories?
"Oscove?" Valek paused. "He didn"t have the stomach for it."
8.
WHEN I AWOKE THE NEXT morning, Valek"s list of poisons was still clutched in my hand. I reviewed the poison inventory until the medic discharged me.
Bruised muscles protested every movement as I headed for the door. I should have been happy to leave the infirmary, but my nerves preoccupied me. My stomach felt as if it contained a live mouse, trying to chew its way out.
The guards stationed outside the infirmary door startled me. But they weren"t wearing Brazell"s colors, and I belatedly remembered that Valek had a.s.signed them as protection until I reported to his office.
I glanced around to get my bearings, but had no idea which direction led to my room. I had been living in the castle for eighteen days, but I was still uncertain of its inner layout. The basic shape of the castle itself eluded me, having never seen it from the outside.
The prison carriage that had brought me to the castle had been a square box with airholes. I had refused to peer out like some caged animal. When I reached the castle, I squeezed my eyes shut in an attempt to block out the anguish of being chained, groped and dragged to the dungeon. I guess I could have focused on potential ways to escape, but I had accepted my punishment when I had killed Reyad.
As much as I hated to ask the guards for directions to my room, I had no choice. Wordlessly they guided me through the castle. One walked in front, the other followed. Only after the lead man inspected my room was I allowed inside.
My uniforms hung undisturbed in the armoire. But instead of being hidden inside a drawer, my journal lay open on the top of the desk. Someone had read my impressions of poisons and other information. The queasy feeling in my gut was replaced by a cold, hard sensation. The mouse had died, reflecting my sour mood perfectly.
I suspected Valek. He was bold enough to have gone through my personal papers. He had probably even reasoned that it was his duty to make sure I wasn"t plotting something. After all, I was just the food taster, and not ent.i.tled to any privacy.
Grabbing the journal and uniforms, I left my room and headed for the baths. The guards waited outside while I soaked in the water. I took my sweet time. Valek and his test could wait; I wasn"t going to carry out his orders like some idiotic drone.