"What if G.o.d wants you to wait first, little daughter?"
Polly hid her face in the sofa-cushions and did not answer.
CHAPTER II.
FORECASTING THE FUTURE.
Two of Mrs. Oliver"s sitting-room windows looked out on the fig-trees, and the third on a cosy piazza corner framed in pa.s.sion-vines, where at the present moment stood a round table holding a crystal bowl of Gold of Ophir roses, a brown leather portfolio, and a dish of apricots.
Against the table leaned an old Spanish guitar with a yellow ribbon round its neck, and across the corner hung a gorgeous hammock of Persian colored threads, with two or three pillows of canary-colored China silk in one end. A bamboo lounging-chair and a Shaker rocker completed the picture; and the pa.s.ser-by could generally see Miss Anita Ferguson reclining in the one, and a young (but not Wise) man from the East in the other. It was not always the same young man any more than the decorations were always of the same color.
"That"s another of my troubles," said Polly to her friend Margery n.o.ble, pulling up the window-shade one afternoon and pointing to the now empty "cosy corner." "I don"t mind Miss Ferguson"s sitting there, though it used always to be screened off for my doll-house, and I love it dearly; but she pays to sit there, and she ought to do it; besides, she looks prettier there than any one else. Isn"t it lovely? The other day she had pink oleanders in the bowl, the cushions turned the pink side up,--you see they are canary and rose-color,--a pink muslin dress, and the guitar trimmed with a fringe of narrow pink ribbons.
She was a dream, Margery! But she does n"t sit there with her young men when I am at school, nor when I am helping Ah Foy in the dining-room, nor, of course, when we are at table. She sits there from four to six in the afternoon and in the evening, the only times I have with mamma in this room. We are obliged to keep the window closed, lest we should overhear the conversation. That is tiresome enough in warm weather. You see the other windows are shaded by the fig-trees, so here we sit, in Egyptian darkness, mamma and I, during most of the pleasant afternoons. And if anything ever came of it, we would n"t mind, but nothing ever does. There have been so many young men,--I could n"t begin to count them, but they have worn out the seats of four chairs,--and why does n"t one of them take her away? Then we could have a nice, plain young lady who would sit quietly on the front steps with the old people, and who would n"t want me to carry messages for her three times a day."
At the present moment, however, Miss Anita Ferguson, clad in a black habit, with a white rose in her b.u.t.tonhole, and a neat black derby with a scarf of white _crepe de chine_ wound about it, had gone on the mesa for a horseback ride, so Polly and Margery had borrowed the cosy corner for a chat.
Margery was crocheting a baby"s afghan, and Polly was almost obscured by a rumpled, yellow dress which lay in her lap.
"You observe my favorite yellow gown?" she asked.
"Yes, what have you done to it?"
"Gin Sing picked blackberries in the colander. I, supposing the said colander to be a pan with the usual bottom, took it in my lap and held it for an hour while I sorted the berries. Result: a hideous stain a foot and a half in diameter, to say nothing of the circ.u.mference. Mr.
Greenwood suggested oxalic acid. I applied it, and removed both the stain and the dress in the following complete manner;" and Polly put her brilliant head through an immense circular hole in the front breadth of the skirt.
"It "s hopeless, is n"t it? for of course a patch won"t look well,"
said Margery.
"Hopeless? Not a bit. You see this pretty yellow and white striped lawn? I have made a long, narrow ap.r.o.n of it, and ruffled it all round. I pin it to my waist thus, and the hole is covered. But it looks like an ap.r.o.n, and how do I contrive to throw the public off the scent? I add a yoke and sash of the striped lawn, and people see simply a combination-dress. I do the designing, and my beloved little mother there will do the sewing; forgetting her precious Polly"s carelessness in making the hole, and remembering only her cleverness in covering it."
"Capital!" said Margery; "it will be prettier than ever. Oh dear! that dress was new when we had our last lovely summer in the canon. Shall we ever go again, all together, I wonder? Just think how we are all scattered,--the Winships traveling in Europe (I "ll read you Bell"s last letter by and by); Geoffrey Strong studying at Leipsic; Jack Howard at Harvard, with Elsie and her mother watching over him in Cambridge; Philip and I on the ranch as usual, and you here. We are so divided that it does n"t seem possible that we can ever have a complete reunion, does it?"
"No," said Polly, looking dreamily at the humming-birds hovering over the honeysuckle; "and if we should, everything would be different.
Bless dear old Bell"s heart! What a lovely summer she must be having!
I wonder what she will do."
"Do?" echoed Margery.
"Yes; it always seemed to me that Bell Winship would do something in the world; that she would never go along placidly like other girls, she has so many talents."
"Yes; but so long as they have plenty of money, Dr. and Mrs. Winship would probably never encourage her in doing anything."
"It would be all the better if she could do something because she loved it, and with no thought of earning a living by it. Is n"t it odd that I who most need the talents should have fewer than any one of our dear little group? Bell can write, sing, dance, or do anything else, in fact; Elsie can play like an angel; you can draw; but it seems to me I can do nothing well enough to earn money by it; and that is precisely what I must do."
"You "ve never had any special instruction, Polly dear, else you could sing as well as Bell, or play as well as Elsie."
"Well, I must soon decide. Mamma says next summer, when I am seventeen, she will try to spend a year in San Francisco and let me study regularly for some profession. The question is, what?--or whether to do something without study. I read in a magazine the other day that there are now three hundred or three thousand, I can"t remember which, vocations open to women. If it were even three hundred I could certainly choose one to my liking, and there would be two hundred and ninety-nine left over for the other girls. Mrs. Weeks is trying to raise silkworms. That would be rather nice, because the worms would be silent partners in the business and do most of the work."
"But you want something without any risks, you know," said Margery sagely. "You would have to buy ground for the silkworms, and set out the mulberries, and then a swarm of horrid insects might happen along and devour the plants before the worms began spinning."
""Compet.i.tion is the life of trade,"" said Polly. "No, that is n"t what I mean--"Nothing venture, nothing have," that"s it. Then how would hens do? Ever so many women raise hens."
"Hens have diseases, and they never lay very well when you have to sell the eggs. By the way, Clarence Jones, who sings in the choir,--you know, the man with the pink cheeks and corn-silk hair,--advertises in the "Daily Press" for a "live partner." Now, there "s a chance on an established hen-ranch, if he does n"t demand capital or experience."
"It"s a better chance for Miss Ferguson. But she does n"t like Mr.
Jones, because when he comes to call, his coat-pockets are always bulging with brown paper packages of a hen-food that he has just invented. The other day, when he came to see her, she was out, and he handed me his card. It had a picture and advertis.e.m.e.nt of "The Royal Dish-faced Berkshire Pig" on it; and I "m sure, by her expression when she saw it, that she will never be his "live partner." No, I don"t think I "ll have an out-of-door occupation, it"s so trying to the complexion. Now, how about millinery? I could be an apprentice, and gradually rise until I imported everything direct from Paris."
"But, Polly," objected Margery, "you know you never could tie a bow, or even put a ribbon on your sailor hat."
"But I could learn. Do you suppose all the milliners were called to their work by a consciousness of genius? Perish the thought! If that were true, there wouldn"t be so many hideous hats in the shop windows.
However, I don"t pine for millinery; it"s always a struggle for me to wear a hat myself."
"You "ve done beautifully the last year or two, dear, and you "ve reaped the reward of virtue, for you "ve scarcely a freckle left."
"Oh, that isn"t hats," rejoined Polly, "that"s the law of compensation.
When I was younger, and did n"t take the boarders so much to heart, I had freckles given to me for a cross; but the moment I grew old enough to see the boarders in their true light and note their effect on mamma, the freckles disappeared. Now, here "s an idea. I might make a complexion lotion for a living. Let me see what I "ve been advised by elderly ladies to use in past years: ammonia, lemon-juice, cuc.u.mbers, morning dew, milk, pork rinds, kerosene, and a few other household remedies. Of course I "m not sure which did the work, but why could n"t I mix them all in equal parts,--if they would mix, you know, and let those stay out that would n"t,--and call it the "Olivera Complexion Lotion"? The trade-mark might be a cuc.u.mber, a lemon, and a morning dew-drop, _rampant_, and a frightened little brown spot _couchant_.
Then on the neat label pasted on the bottles above the trade-mark there might be a picture of a spotted girl,--that"s Miss Oliver before using her lotion,--and a copy of my last photograph,--that"s Miss Oliver radiant in beauty after using her lotion."
Margery laughed, as she generally did at Polly"s nonsense.
"That sounds very attractive, but if you are anxious for an elegant and dignified occupation which shall restore your mother to her ancestral position, it certainly has its defects."
"I know everything has its defects, everything except one, and I won"t believe that has a single weak point."
"Oh, Polly, you deceiver! You have a secret leaning toward some particular thing, after all!"
"Yes; though I have n"t talked it over fully yet, even with mamma, lest she should think it one of my wild schemes; but, Margery, I want with all my heart to be a kindergartner like Miss Mary Denison. There would be no sting to me in earning my living, if only I could do it by working among poor, ragged, little children, as she does. I run in and stay half an hour with her whenever I can, and help the babies with their sewing or weaving, and I always study and work better myself afterward,--I don"t know whether it"s the children, or Miss Denison, or the place, or all three. And the other day, when I was excused from my examinations, I stayed the whole morning in the kindergarten. When it was time for the games, and they were all on the circle, they began with a quiet play they call "Silent Greeting," and oh, Margery, they chose me to come in, of their own accord! When I walked into the circle to greet that smallest Walker baby my heart beat like a trip-hammer, I was so afraid I should do something wrong, and they would never ask me in again. Then we played "The Hen and Chickens,"
and afterward something about the birds in the greenwood; and one of the make-believe birds flew to me (I was a tree, you know, a whispering elm-tree), and built its nest in my branches, and then I smoothed its feathers and sang to it as the others had done, and it was like heaven!
After the play was over, we modeled clay birds; and just as we were making the tables tidy, Professor Hohlweg came in and asked Miss Denison to come into the large hall to play for the marching, as the music-teacher was absent. Then what did Miss Denison do but turn to me and say, "Miss Oliver, you get on so nicely with the children, would you mind telling them some little story for me? I shall be gone only ten or fifteen minutes." Oh, Margery, it was awful! I was more frightened than when I was asked to come into the circle; but the children clapped their hands and cried, "Yes, yes, tell us a story!" I could only think of "The Hen that Hatched Ducks," but I sat down and began, and, as I talked, I took my clay bird and molded it into a hen, so that they would look at me whether they listened or not. Of course, one of the big seven-year-old boys began to whisper and be restless, but I handed him a large lump of clay and asked him to make a nest and some eggs for my hen, and that soon absorbed his attention. They listened so nicely,--you can hardly believe how nicely they listened!
When I finished I looked at the clock. It had been nine minutes, and I could n"t think what to do the other dreadful minutes till Miss Denison should come back. At last my eye fell on the blackboard, and that gave me an idea. I drew a hen"s beak and then a duck"s, a hen"s foot and then a duck"s, to show them the difference. Just then Miss Denison came in softly, and I confess I was bursting with pride and delight.
There was the blackboard with the sketches, not very good ones, it is true, the clay hen and nest and eggs, and all the children sitting quietly in their wee red chairs. And Miss Denison said, "How charming of you to carry out the idea of the morning so nicely! My dear little girl, you were made for this sort of thing, did you know it?""
"Well, I should n"t think you had patience enough for any sort of teaching," said Margery candidly.
"Neither did I suppose so myself, and I have n"t any patience to spare, that is, for boarders, or dishes, or beds; but I love children so dearly that they never try my patience as other things do."
"You have had the play side of the kindergarten, Polly, while Miss Denison had the care. There must be a work-a-day side to it; I"m sure Miss Denison very often looks tired to death."
"Of course!" cried Polly. "I know it "s hard work; but who cares whether a thing is hard or not, if one loves it? I don"t mind work; I only mind working at something I dislike and can never learn to like.
Why, Margery, at the Sunday-school picnics you go off in the broiling sun and sit on a camp-chair and sketch, while I play Fox and Geese with the children, and each of us pities the other and thinks she must be dying with heat. It "s just the difference between us! You carry your easel and stool and paint-boxes and umbrella up the steepest hill, and never mind if your back aches; I bend over Miss Denison"s children with their drawing or building, and never think of my back-ache, do you see?"
"Yes; but I always keep up my spirits by thinking that though I may be tired and discouraged, it is worth while because it is Art I am working at; and for the sake of being an artist I ought to be willing to endure anything. You would n"t have that feeling to inspire and help you."
"I should like to know why I would n"t," exclaimed Polly, with flashing eyes. "I should like to know why teaching may not be an art. I confess I don"t know exactly what an artist is, or rather what the dictionary definition of art is; but sit down in Miss Burke"s room at the college; you can"t stay there half an hour without thinking that, rather than have her teach you anything, you would be an ignorant little cannibal on a desert island! She does n"t know how, and there is nothing beautiful about it. But look at Miss Denison! When she comes into her kindergarten it is like the sunrise, and she makes everything blossom that she touches. It is all so simple and sweet that it seems as if anybody could do it; but when you try it you find that it is quite different. Whether she plays or sings, or talks or works with the children, it is perfect. "It all seems so easy when you do it," I said to her yesterday, and she pointed to the quotation for the day in her calendar. It was a sentence from George MacDonald: "Ease is the lovely result of forgotten toil." Now it may be that Miss Mary Denison is only an angel; but I think that she "s an artist."
"On second thoughts, perhaps you are right in your meaning of the word, though it does n"t follow that all teachers are artists."