"Yes?" Gower rumbled. "I"ve been sort of expecting you."
"Oh?" MacRae failed to conceal altogether his surprise at this statement. "I understand you are willing to sell this place. I want to buy it."
"It was yours once, wasn"t it?"
The words were more of a comment than a question, but MacRae answered:
"You know that, I think."
"And you want it back?"
"Naturally."
"If that"s what you want," Gower said slowly. "I"ll see you in----"
He cut off the sentence. His round stomach--less round by far than it had been two months earlier--shook with silent laughter. His eyes twinkled. His thick, stubby fingers drummed on the chair arm.
MacRae"s face grew hot. He recognized the unfinished sentence as one of his own, words he had flung in Gower"s face not so long since. If that was the way of it he could save his breath. He turned silently.
"Wait."
He faced about at the changed quality of Gower"s tone. The amused expression had vanished. Gower leaned forward a little. There was something very like appeal in his expression. MacRae was suddenly conscious of facing a still different man,--an oldish, fat man with thinning hair and tired, wistful eyes.
"I just happened to think of what you said to me not long ago," Gower explained. "It struck me as funny. But that isn"t how I feel. If you want this land you can have it. Take a chair. Sit down. I want to talk to you."
"There is nothing the matter with my legs," MacRae said shortly. "I do want this land. I will pay you the price you paid for it, in cash, when you execute a legal transfer. Is that satisfactory?"
"What about this house?" Gower asked casually. "It"s worth something, isn"t it?"
"Not to me," MacRae replied. "I don"t want the house. You can take it away with you, if you like."
Gower looked at him thoughtfully.
"The Scotch," he said, "cherish a grudge like a family heirloom."
"Perhaps they do," MacRae answered. "Why not? If you knock a man down you don"t expect him to jump up and shake hands with you. You had your inning. It was a long one."
"I wonder," Gower said slowly, "why old Donald MacRae kept his mouth closed to you about trouble between us until he was ready to die?"
"How do you know he did that?" MacRae demanded harshly.
"The night you came to ask for the _Arrow_ to take him to town you had no such feeling against me as you have had since," Gower said. "I know you didn"t. You wouldn"t have come if you had. I cut no figure in your eyes, one way or the other, until after he was dead. So he must have told you at the very last. What did he tell you? Why did he have to pa.s.s that old poison on to another generation?"
"Why shouldn"t he?" MacRae demanded. "You made his life a failure. You put a scar on his face--I can remember when I was a youngster wondering how he got that mark--I remember how it stood like a ridge across his cheek bone when he was dead. You put a scar upon his soul that no one but himself ever saw or felt--except as I have been able to feel it since I knew. You weren"t satisfied with that. You had to keep on throwing your weight against him for thirty years. You didn"t even stop when the war made everything seem different. You might have let up then. We were doing our bit. But you didn"t. You kept on until you had deprived him of everything but the power to row around the Rock day after day and take a few salmon in order to live. You made a pauper of him and sat here gloating over it. It preyed on his mind to think that I should come back from France and find myself a beggar because he was unable to cope with you. He lived his life without whimpering to me, except to say he did not like you. He only wrote this down for me to read--when he began to feel that he would never see me again--the reasons why he had failed in everything, lost everything. When I pieced out the story, from the day you used your pike pole to knock down a man whose fighting hands were tied by a promise to a woman he loved, from then till the last cold-blooded maneuver by which you got this land of ours, I hated you, and I set out to pay you back in your own coin.
"But," MacRae continued after a momentary hesitation, "that is not what I came here to say. Talk--talk"s cheap. I would rather not talk about these things, or think of them, now. I want to buy this land from you if you are willing to sell. That"s all."
Gower scarcely seemed to hear him. He was nursing his heavy chin with one hand, looking at MacRae with a curious concentration, looking at him and seeing something far beyond.
"h.e.l.l; it is a true indictment, up to a certain point," he said at last.
"What a curse misunderstanding is--and pride! By G.o.d, I have envied your father, MacRae, many a time. I struck him an ugly blow once. Yes. I was young and hot-headed, and I was burning with jealousy. But I did him a good turn at that, I think. I--oh, well, maybe you wouldn"t understand.
I suppose you wouldn"t believe me if I say I didn"t swoop down on him every time I got a chance; that I didn"t bushwhack--no matter if he believed I did."
"No?" MacRae said incredulously. "You didn"t break up a logging venture on the Claha when he had a chance to make a stake? You didn"t show your fine Italian hand in that marble quarry undertaking on Texada? Nor other things that I could name as he named them. Why crawl now? It doesn"t matter. I"m not swinging a club over your head."
Gower shook himself.
"No," he declared slowly. "He interfered with the Morton interests in that Claha logging camp, and they did whatever was done. The quarry business I know nothing about, except that I had business dealings with the people whom he ran foul of. I tell you, MacRae, after the first short period of time when I was afire with the fury of jealousy, I did not do these things. I didn"t even want to do them. I wish you would get that straight. I wanted Bessie Morton and I got her. That was an issue between us, I grant. I gained my point there. I would have gone farther to gain that point. But I paid for it. It was not so long before I knew that I was going to pay dearly for it. I tell you I came to envy Donald MacRae. I don"t know if he nursed a disappointment--which I came to know was an illusion. Perhaps he did. But he had nothing real to regret, nothing to p.r.i.c.k, p.r.i.c.k him all the time. He married a woman who seemed to care for him. At any rate, she respected him and was a mate, living his life while she did live.
"Look, MacRae. I married Bessie Morton because I wanted her, wanted her on any terms. She didn"t want me. She wanted Donald MacRae. But she had wanted other men. That was the way she was made. She was facile. And she never loved any one half so much as she loved herself. She was only a beautiful peac.o.c.k preening her feathers and sighing for homage. She was--she is--the essence of self from the top of her head to her shoes.
Her feelings, her wants, her wishes, her whims, her two-by-four outlook, nothing else counted. She couldn"t comprehend anything outside of herself. She would have made Donald MacRae"s life a misery to him when the novelty of that infatuation wore off. The Mortons are like that.
They want everything. They give nothing.
"She was cowardly too. Do you think two old men and myself would have taken her, or anything else, from your father out in the middle of the Gulf, if she had had any spirit? You knew your father. He wasn"t a tame man. He would have fought--fought like a tiger. We might have killed him. It is more likely that he would have killed us. But we could not have beaten him. But she had to knuckle down--take the easy way for her.
She cried; and he promised."
Gower lay back in his chair. His chin sunk on his breast. He spoke slowly, groping for his words. MacRae did not interrupt. Something compelled him to listen. There was a pained ring in Gower"s voice that held him. The man was telling him these things with visible reluctance, with a simple dignity that arrested him, even while he felt that he should not listen.
"She used to taunt me with that," he went on, "taunt me with striking Donald MacRae. For years after we were married she used to do that. Long after--and that wasn"t so long--she had ceased to care if such a man as your father existed. That was only an episode to her, of which she was sn.o.bbishly ashamed in time. But she often reminded me that I had struck him like a hardened butcher, because she knew she could hurt me with that. So that I used to wish to G.o.d I had never followed her out into the Gulf.
"For thirty years I"ve lived and worked and never known any real satisfaction in living--or happiness. I"ve played the game, played it hard. I"ve been hard, they say. Probably I have. I didn"t care. A man had to walk on others or be walked on himself. I made money. Money--I poured it into her hands, like pouring sand in a rat-hole. She lived for herself, her whims, her codfish-aristocracy standards, spending my money like water to make a showing, giving me nothing in return, nothing but whining and recrimination if I crossed her ever so little. She made a lap dog of her son the first twenty-five years of his life. She would have made Betty a cheap imitation of herself. But she couldn"t do that."
He stopped a moment and shook his head gently.
"No," he resumed, "she couldn"t do that. There"s iron in that girl.
She"s all Gower. I think I should have thrown up my hands long ago only for Betty"s sake."
MacRae shifted uneasily.
"You see," Gower continued, "my life has been a failure, too. When Donald MacRae and I clashed, I prevailed. I got what I wanted. But it was only a shadow. There was no substance. It didn"t do me any good. I have made money, barrels of it, and that has not done me any good. I"ve been successful at everything I undertook--except lately--but succeeding as the world reckons success hasn"t made me happy. In my personal life I"ve been a d.a.m.ned failure. I"ve always been aware of that. And if I have held a feeling toward Donald MacRae these thirty-odd years, it was a feeling of envy. I would have traded places with him and been the gainer. I would have liked to tell him so. But I couldn"t. He was a dour Scotchman and I suppose he hated me, although he kept it to himself. I suppose he loved Bessie. I know I did. Perhaps he cherished hatred of me for wrecking his dream, and so saw my hand in things where it never was.
But he was wrong. Bessie would have wrecked it and him too. She would have whined and sniffled about being a poor man"s wife, once she learned what it was to be poor. She could never understand anything but a silk-lined existence. She loved herself and her own illusions. She would have driven him mad with her petty whims, her petty emotions. She doesn"t know the meaning of loyalty, consideration, or even an open, honest hatred. And I"ve stood it all these years--because I don"t shirk responsibilities, and I had brought it on myself."
He stopped a second, staring out across the Gulf.
"But apart from that one thing, I never consciously or deliberately wronged Donald MacRae. He may honestly have believed I did. I have the name of being hard. I dare say I am. The world is a hard place. When I had to choose between walking on a man"s face and having my own walked on, I never hesitated. There was nothing much to make me soft. I moved along the same lines as most of the men I know.
"But, I repeat, I never put a straw in your father"s way. I know that things went against him. I could see that. I knew why, too. He was too square for his time and place. He trusted men too much. You can"t always do that. He was too scrupulously honest. He always gave the other fellow the best of it. That alone beat him. He didn"t always consider his own interest and follow up every advantage. I don"t think he cared to scramble for money, as a man must scramble for it these days. He could have held this place if he had cast about for ways to do so. There were plenty of loopholes. But he had that old-fashioned honor which doesn"t seek loopholes. He had borrowed money on it. He would have taken the coat off his back, beggared himself any day to pay a debt. Isn"t that right?"
MacRae nodded.
"So this place came into my hands. It was deliberate on my part--but only, mind you, when I knew that he was bound to lose it. Perhaps it was bad judgment on my part. I didn"t think that he would see it as an end I"d been working for. As I grew older, I found myself wanting now and then to wipe out that old score between us. I would have given a good deal to sit down with him over a pipe. A woman, who wasn"t much as women go, had made us both suffer. So I built this cottage and came here to stay now and then. I liked the place. I liked to think that now he and I were getting to be old men, we could be friends. But he was too bitter.
And I"m human. I"ve got a bit of pride. I couldn"t crawl. So I never got nearer to him than to see him rowing around the Rock. And he died full of that bitterness. I don"t like to think of that. Still, it cannot be helped. Do you grasp this, MacRae? Do you believe me?"
Incredible as it seemed, MacRae had no choice but to accept that explanation of strangely twisted motives, those misapprehensions, the murky cloud of misunderstanding. The tone of Gower"s voice, his att.i.tude, carried supreme conviction. And still--
"Yes," he said at last. "It is all a contradiction of things I have been pa.s.sionately sure of for nearly two years. But I can see--yes, it must be as you say. I"m sorry."
"Sorry? For what?" Gower regarded him soberly.