"How disappointing! I don"t believe you liked being in Egypt after all,"
says Dulce, who cannot resist returning to tread once more the dangerous ground.
"I think one place is about as good as another," says Mr. Dare, discontentedly, "and about as bad. One shouldn"t expect too much, you know."
"Perhaps it would be as well if one didn"t expect anything," says Dulce.
"_Better_, no doubt."
"You take a very discontented view of things; your traveling has made you cynical, I think."
"Not my _traveling_?"
This is almost a challenge, and she accepts it.
"What then?" she asks, a little coldly.
"Shall I tell you?" retorts he, with an unpleasant smile. "Well, no; I will spare you; it would certainly not interest _you_. Let us return to our subject; you are wondering why I am not in raptures about Egypt; I am wondering why I should be."
"No; I was finding fault with you because you gave me the impression that all places on earth are alike indifferent to you."
"Perhaps that is true. I don"t defend myself. But I know there was a time when certain scenes were dear to me."
"There _was_?"
"Yes; I"ve outgrown it, I suppose; or else memory, rendering all things bitter, is to blame. It is our cruelest enemy, I dare say we might all be pretty comfortable forever if we could only "Quaff the kind Nepenthe, and forget our lost Lenores!""
""Ock, "m?" asks the sedate butler at this emotional moment, in his most prosaic tones.
Dulce starts perceptibly, and says "No," though she means "Yes." Roger starts too, and, being rather absent altogether, mistakes the sedate butler"s broken English for good German, and says, "Hockheim?" in a questioning voice; whereupon d.i.c.ky Browne, who has overheard him, laughs immoderately and insists upon repeating the little joke to everybody.
They all laugh with him, except, indeed, Portia, who happens to be miles away in thought from them, and does not hear one word of what is being said.
"Portia," says d.i.c.ky, presently.
No answer; Portia"s soul is still winging its flight to unseen regions.
"Still deaf to my entreaties," says Mr. Browne, eyeing her fixedly.
Something in his tone rouses her this time from her day-dreams, and, with a rather absent smile, she turns her face to his. Fabian, who has been listening to one of Mark Gore"s rather p.r.o.nounced opinions upon a subject that doesn"t concern us here, looks up at this moment and lets his eyes rest upon her.
"Will you not deign to bestow even one word upon your slave?" asks d.i.c.ky, sweetly. "Do. He pines for it. And after all the encouragement, too, you have showered upon me of late, this behavior--this studied avoidance is strange."
"You were asking me--?" begins Portia vaguely, with a little soft laugh.
""Why art thou silent? Is thy love a plant?"" quotes Mr. Browne, with sentimental reproach. As usual, he attacks his favorite author, and, as usual also, gives to that good man"s words a meaning unknown to him.
Portia, raising her head, meets Fabian"s eyes regarding her earnestly, and then and there colors hotly; there is no earthly reason why she should change color, yet she does so unmistakably, nay, painfully. She is feeling nervous and unstrung, and--not very well to-night, and even this light mention of the word love has driven all the blood from her heart to her cheeks. A moment ago they were pale as Lenten lilies, now they are dyed as deep as a damask rose.
For a moment only. She draws her breath quickly, full of anger at her own want of self-control, and then the flush fades, and she is even paler than she was before. Again she glances at Fabian, but not again do her eyes meet his. He has seemingly forgotten her very existence and has returned to his discussion with Sir Mark. He is apparently deeply interested, nay, animated, and even as she watches him he laughs aloud, a rare thing for him.
She tells herself that she is glad of this; _very_ glad, because it may prove he has not noticed her emotion. Her awkward blush, doubtless, was unseen by him. Yet I think she is piqued at his indifference, because her eyes grow duller and her lips sadder, and there is a small, but painful, flutter at her heart, that reminds her of the days before she came to Old Court, and that compels her to press her fingers tightly together, under cover of the table-cloth, in a vain effort to subdue it.
d.i.c.ky, who had noticed her quick transitions of color, and who feels there is something wrong, without knowing what, and who also understands that he himself, however unwittingly, has been the cause of it, grows annoyed with himself, and, to distract attention, turns to the Boodie, who is generally to be found at his elbow when anything sweet is to be had.
The butler and his attendant are politely requesting the backs of all the heads to try a little jelly, or cream, or so on. This, at the Court, is virtually the children"s hour, as Sir Christopher--who adores them--is of opinion that they prefer puddings to fruit, and that, as they should be made free of both, they are to put in an appearance with the first sweet every evening.
The Boodie, whose "vanity" is whipped cream, has just been helped to it, and d.i.c.ky, at this moment (that he may give Portia time to recover herself) turning to the golden-haired fairy beside him, adds to her felicity by dropping some crimson jelly into the centre of the cream.
"There now, I have made an island for you," he says.
Julia overhears him, and thinking this a capital opportunity to show off the Boodie"s learning, says, proudly:
"Now, darling, tell d.i.c.ky what an island really is."
d.i.c.ky feels honestly obliged to her for following up his lead, and so breaking the awkward silence that has descended upon him and Portia.
"A tract of land entirely surrounded by water," says the Boodie, promptly, betraying a faint desire to put her hands behind her back.
"Not at all," says Mr. Browne, scornfully; "it is a bit of red jelly entirely surrounded by cream!"
"It is _not_," says the Boodie, with a scorn that puts his in the shade.
To be just to the Boodie, she is always eager for the fray. Not a touch of cowardice about her. "How," demands she, pointing to the jelly, with a very superior smile, "how do you think one could live upon _that_?"
"Why not? I don"t see how anyone could possibly desire anything better to live upon."
"Just fancy Robinson Crusoe on it," says the Boodie, with a derisive smile.
"I could fancy him very fat on it; I could also fancy him considering himself in great luck when he found it, or discovered it. They always discovered islands, didn"t they? _I_ should like to live on just such an island for an indefinite number of years."
"You are extremely silly," says Miss Beaufort, politely; "you know as well as I do that it wouldn"t keep you up."
"Well, not, perhaps, so strongly as a few other things," acknowledges Mr. Browne, gracefully; "but I think it _would_ support me for all that,--for a _time_, at least."
"Not for one minute. Why, you couldn"t stand on it."
"A prolonged acquaintance with it _alone_ might make me totter, I confess," says Mr. Browne. "But yet, if I had enough of it, I think I _could_ stand on it very well."
"You could _not_," says the Boodie, indignant at being so continuously contradicted on a point so clear. "If you had ten whole jellies--if you had one as big as this house--you couldn"t manage it."
"I really beg your pardon," protests Mr. Browne, with dignity. "It is my belief that I _could_ manage it in time. I"m very fond of jelly."
"You would go right through it and come out at the other side," persists the Boodie, nothing daunted.
"Like the Thames Tunnel. How nice!" says d.i.c.ky Browne, amiably.
"Well, you can"t live on it _now_, anyway," says the Boodie, putting the last bit of the jelly island into her small mouth.
"No, no, indeed," says d.i.c.ky, shaking his head with all the appearance of one sunk in the very deepest dejection.