EDITOR.
[133-A] This pa.s.sage refers to letters written under a purpose of suicide, and not intended to be opened till after the catastrophe.
POSTHUMOUS WORKS
OF THE
AUTHOR
OF A
VINDICATION OF THE RIGHTS OF WOMAN.
IN FOUR VOLUMES.
VOL. IV.
_LONDON:_
PRINTED FOR J. JOHNSON, NO. 72, ST. PAUL"S CHURCH-YARD; AND G. G. AND J. ROBINSON, PATERNOSTER-ROW.
1798.
LETTERS
AND
MISCELLANEOUS PIECES.
IN TWO VOLUMES.
VOL. II.
CONTENTS.
Page Letters 1 Letter on the Present Character of the French Nation 39 Fragment of Letters on the Management of Infants 55 Letters to Mr. Johnson 61 Extract of the Cave of Fancy, a Tale 99 On Poetry and our Relish for the Beauties of Nature 159 Hints 179
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LETTERS.
LETTER LXVII.
September 27.
WHEN you receive this, I shall either have landed, or be hovering on the British coast--your letter of the 18th decided me.
By what criterion of principle or affection, you term my questions extraordinary and unnecessary, I cannot determine.--You desire me to decide--I had decided. You must have had long ago two letters of mine, from ------, to the same purport, to consider.--In these, G.o.d knows!
there was but too much affection, and the agonies of a distracted mind were but too faithfully pourtrayed!--What more then had I to say?--The negative was to come from you.--You had perpetually recurred to your promise of meeting me in the autumn--Was it extraordinary that I should demand a yes, or no?--Your letter is written with extreme harshness, coldness I am accustomed to, in it I find not a trace of the tenderness of humanity, much less of friendship.--I only see a desire to heave a load off your shoulders.
I am above disputing about words.--It matters not in what terms you decide.
The tremendous power who formed this heart, must have foreseen that, in a world in which self-interest, in various shapes, is the princ.i.p.al mobile, I had little chance of escaping misery.--To the fiat of fate I submit.--I am content to be wretched; but I will not be contemptible.--Of me you have no cause to complain, but for having had too much regard for you--for having expected a degree of permanent happiness, when you only sought for a momentary gratification.
I am strangely deficient in sagacity.--Uniting myself to you, your tenderness seemed to make me amends for all my former misfortunes.--On this tenderness and affection with what confidence did I rest!--but I leaned on a spear, that has pierced me to the heart.--You have thrown off a faithful friend, to pursue the caprices of the moment.--We certainly are differently organized; for even now, when conviction has been stamped on my soul by sorrow, I can scarcely believe it possible. It depends at present on you, whether you will see me or not.--I shall take no step, till I see or hear from you.
Preparing myself for the worst--I have determined, if your next letter be like the last, to write to Mr. ------to procure me an obscure lodging, and not to inform any body of my arrival.--There I will endeavour in a few months to obtain the sum necessary to take me to France--from you I will not receive any more.--I am not yet sufficiently humbled to depend on your beneficence.
Some people, whom my unhappiness has interested, though they know not the extent of it, will a.s.sist me to attain the object I have in view, the independence of my child. Should a peace take place, ready money will go a great way in France--and I will borrow a sum, which my industry _shall_ enable me to pay at my leisure, to purchase a small estate for my girl.--The a.s.sistance I shall find necessary to complete her education, I can get at an easy rate at Paris--I can introduce her to such society as she will like--and thus, securing for her all the chance for happiness, which depends on me, I shall die in peace, persuaded that the felicity which has. .h.i.therto cheated my expectation, will not always elude my grasp. No poor tempest-tossed mariner ever more earnestly longed to arrive at his port.
I shall not come up in the vessel all the way, because I have no place to go to. Captain ------ will inform you where I am. It is needless to add, that I am not in a state of mind to bear suspense--and that I wish to see you, though it be for the last time.
LETTER LXVIII.
Sunday, October 4.