The Queer Little Thing
_By Eleanor Hoyt Brainerd_
Bonita Allen was a queer little thing. Everyone in the school, from Miss Ryder down to the chambermaid, had made remarks to that effect before the child had spent forty-eight hours in the house, yet no one seemed able to give a convincing reason for the general impression.
The new pupil was quiet, docile, moderately well dressed, fairly good looking. She did nothing extraordinary. In fact, she effaced herself as far as possible; yet from the first she caused a ripple in the placid current of the school, and her personality was distinctly felt.
"I think it"s her eyes," hazarded Belinda, as she and Miss Barnes discussed the new-comer in the Youngest Teacher"s room. "They aren"t girl eyes at all."
"Fine eyes," a.s.serted the teacher of mathematics with her usual curtness.
Belinda nodded emphatic a.s.sent. "Yes, of course; beautiful, but so big and pathetic and dumb. I feel ridiculously apologetic every time the child looks at me, and as for punishing her--I"d as soon shoot a deer at six paces. It"s all wrong. A twelve-year-old girl hasn"t any right to eyes like those. If the youngster is unhappy she ought to cry twenty-five handkerchiefs full of tears, as Evangeline Marie did when she came, and then get over it. And if she"s happy she ought to smile with her eyes as well as with her lips. I can"t stand self-repression in children."
"She"ll be all right when she has been here longer and begins to feel at home," said Miss Barnes. But Belinda shook her head doubtfully as she went down to superintend study hour.
Seated at her desk in the big schoolroom she looked idly along the rows of girlish heads until she came to one bent stoically over a book. The new pupil was not fidgeting like her comrades. Apparently her every thought was concentrated upon the book before her. Her elbows were on her desk, and one lean little brown hand supported the head, whose ma.s.ses of straight black hair were parted in an unerring white line and fell in two heavy braids. The face framed in the smooth shining hair was lean as the hand, yet held no suggestion of ill-health. It was clean cut, almost to sharpness, brown with the brownness that comes from wind and sun, oddly firm about chin and lips, high of cheekbones, straight of nose.
As Belinda looked two dark eyes were raised from the book and met her own--sombre eyes with a hurt in them--and an uncomfortable lump rose in the Youngest Teacher"s throat. She smiled at the sad little face, but the smile was not a merry one. In some unaccountable way it spoke of the sympathetic lump in her throat, and the Queer Little Thing seemed to read the message, for the ghost of an answering smile flickered in the brown depths before the lids dropped over them.
When study hour was over the Youngest Teacher moved hastily to the door, with some vague idea of following up the successful smile, and establishing diplomatic relations with the new girl; but she was not quick enough. Bonita had slipped into the hall and hurried up the stair toward the shelter of her own room.
Shrugging her shoulders, Belinda turned toward the door of Miss Ryder"s study and knocked.
"Come in."
The voice was not encouraging. Miss Lucilla objected to interruptions in the late evening hours, when she relaxed from immaculately fitted black silk to the undignified folds of a violet dressing gown.
When she recognized the intruder she thawed perceptibly.
"Oh, Miss Carewe! Come in. Nothing wrong, is there?"
Belinda dropped into a chair with a whimsical sigh.
"Nothing wrong except my curiosity. Miss Ryder, do tell me something about that Allen child."
Miss Lucilla eyed her subordinate questioningly.
"What has she been doing?"
"Nothing at all. I wish she would do something. It"s what she doesn"t do, and looks capable of doing, that bothers me. There"s simply no getting at her. She"s from Texas, isn"t she?"
The princ.i.p.al regarded attentively one of the grapes she was eating, and there was an interval of silence.
"She is a queer little thing," Miss Lucilla admitted at last. "Yes, she"s from Texas, but that"s no reason why she should be odd. We"ve had a number of young ladies from Texas, and they were quite like other school girls only more so. Just between you and me, Miss Carewe, I think it must be the child"s Indian blood that makes her seem different."
"Indian?" Belinda sat up, sniffing romance in the air.
"Yes, her father mentioned the strain quite casually when he wrote.
It"s rather far back in the family, but he seemed to think it might account for the girl"s intense love for nature and dislike of conventions. Mrs. Allen died when the baby was born, and the father has brought the child up on a ranch. He"s completely wrapped up in her, but he finally realized that she needed to be with women. He"s worth several millions and he wants to educate her so that she"ll enjoy the money--"be a fine lady," as he puts it. I confess his description of the girl disturbed me at first, but he was so liberal in regard to terms that----"
Miss Lucilla left the sentence in the air and meditatively ate another bunch of grapes.
"Did her father come up with her?" Belinda asked.
"No, he sent her with friends who happened to be coming--highly respectable couple, but breezy, very breezy. They told me that Bonita could ride any broncho on the ranch and could shoot a jack-rabbit on the run. They seemed to think she would be a great addition to our school circle on that account. Personally I"m much relieved to find her so tractable and quiet, but I"ve noticed something--well--unusual about her."
As Belinda went up to bed she met a slim little figure in a barbaric red and yellow dressing gown crossing the hall. There was a shy challenge in the serious child face, although the little feet, clad in soft beaded moccasins, quickened their steps; and Belinda answered the furtive friendliness by slipping an arm around the girl"s waist and drawing her into the tiny hall bedroom.
"You haven"t been to see me. It"s one of the rules that every girl shall have a cup of cocoa with me before she has been here three evenings," she said laughingly.
The Queer Little Thing accepted the overture soberly and, curled up in the one big chair, watched the teacher in silence.
The cocoa was soon under way. Then the hostess turned and smiled frankly at her guest. Belinda"s smile is a rea.s.suring thing.
"Homesick business, isn"t it?" she said abruptly, with a warm note of comradeship in her voice.
The tense little figure in the big chair leaned forward with sudden, swift confidence.
"I"m going home," announced Bonita in a tone that made no reservations.
Belinda received the news without the quiver of an eyelash or a sign of incredulity.
"When?" she asked with interest warm enough to invite confession and not emphatic enough to rouse distrust.
"I don"t know just when, but I have to go. I can"t stand it and I"ve written to Daddy. He"ll understand. n.o.body here knows. They"re all used to it. They"ve always lived in houses like this, with little back yards that have high walls around them, and sidewalks and streets right outside the front windows, and crowds of strange people going by all the time, and just rules, rules, rules, everywhere. Everybody has so many manners, and they talk about things I don"t know anything about, and n.o.body would understand if I talked about the real things."
"Perhaps I"ll understand a little bit," murmured Belinda. The Queer Little Thing put out one hand and touched the Youngest Teacher"s knee gently in a shy, caressing fashion.
"No, you wouldn"t understand, because you don"t know; but you could learn. The others couldn"t. The prairie wouldn"t talk to them and they"d be lonesome--the way I am here. d.i.c.k says you have got to learn the language when you are little, or else have a gift for such languages, but that when you"ve once learned it you don"t care to hear any other."
"Who"s d.i.c.k?" Belinda asked.
"d.i.c.k? Oh he"s just d.i.c.k. He taught me to ride and to shoot, and he used to read poetry to me, and he told me stories about everything. He used to go to a big school called Harvard, but he was lonesome there--the way I am here."
"The way I am here" dropped into the talk like a persistent refrain, and there was heartache in it.
"I want to go home," the child went on. Now that the dam of silence was down the pent-up feeling rushed out tumultuously. "I want to see Daddy and the boys and the horses and the cattle, and I want to watch the sun go down over the edge of the world, not just tumble down among the dirty houses, and I want to gallop over the prairie where there aren"t any roads, and smell the gra.s.s and watch the birds and the sky.
You ought to see the sky down there at night, Miss Carewe. It"s so big and black and soft and full of bright stars, and you can see clear to where it touches the ground all around you, and there"s a night breeze that"s cool as cool, and the boys all play their banjos and guitars and sing, and Daddy and I sit over on our veranda and listen. There"s only a little narrow strip of sky with two or three stars in it out of my window here, and it"s so noisy and cluttered out in the back yards--and I hate walking in a procession on the ugly old streets, and doing things when bells ring. I hate it. I hate it."
Her voice hadn"t risen at all, had only grown more and more vibrant with pa.s.sionate rebellion. The sharp little face was drawn and pale, but there were no tears in the big tragic eyes.
Belinda had consoled many homesick little girls, but this was a different problem.
"I"m sorry," she said softly. "Don"t you think It will be easier after a while?"
The small girl with the old face shook her head.