Even though more than 20 years have pa.s.sed, if one was to say that he didn"t care nor mind a bit, then that is a lie. When BeiTang YaZhi asked him back then if he knew that person, he didn"t admit it. Actually, there is reservation in his heart because he didn"t trust this powerful woman, BeiTang YaZhi. Moreover, it is his privacy; he didn"t want to reveal it to other people.
But it is not the same with BeiTang MinQian. This is the person he loves the most and is also the most intimate person to him. Since he personally asked him today, Su YuanHeng must make it clear.
BeiTang MinQian carefully uttered, “After I say it, you must not get too agitated."
Su YuenHeng"s heart raced, yet his face remained forcefully calm, “Tell me.”
BeiTang MinQian hesitated for a moment and then finally voiced, “I got the news that he is now in a mental hospital in China. It"s likely he doesn"t have much time left.”
Su YuanHeng"s face instantly paled. He bit his lower lip. Not moving at all.
“YuanHeng!” BeiTang MinQian sees his frail expression and became instantly terrified.
He embraced him tightly but could only feel that his body is so cold that it"s frightening.
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Sitting on a private plane to China, Su YuanHeng was restless all along. Looking at the vast white clouds, he felt that life is but a dream. Everything is like a fantasy.
Suddenly, the little person in his belly gave him a stabbing kick, jolting him out of his stupor.
Su YuanHeng gently put his hand over his belly; his eyelids lowered.
Even if everything in this world is an illusion, at least the child in him is real. All the emotions that this child has stirred in him; the excitement, the pain and all the antic.i.p.ated sentiments are so vivid and so intimate, giving him the courage and determination to give it all.
Could it be that…father was already like that back then?
Su YuanHeng"s heart felt pained and he was lost in his thoughts again.
BeiTang MinQian, “Don"t think too much, eat something.”
BeiTang MinQian walked over with a tray and put the food on the table.
This is a private plane belonging to the BeiTang family. Because Su YuanHeng"s physical condition is poor, it is difficult to leave on an international flight so BeiTang MinQian mobilized this plane, only taking the two of them back to China.
Su YuanHeng actually has no appet.i.te, but seeing the Chinese cuisine BeiTang MinQian specially ordered the chef to cook according to his taste, warm current rise in his heart, flowing with a touch of tenderness.
“After you eat, nap for a while. There is still more than ten hours on the flight."
“Ok,” Su YuanHeng softly responded.
Seeing Su YuanHeng"s inconcealable exhaustive face, BeiTang MinQian could not help but regret it. At the time, he really shouldn"t have told him about his father.
But then again, how could he have known Su YuanHeng"s physical condition at the time? The only thing in his mind was that this person is Su YuanHeng"s biological father. If he didn"t inform him of the truth, he will regret it the rest of his life.
BeiTang MinQian didn"t want this kind of situation to fall upon Su YuenHeng because he knew him so well. Su YuanHeng is a person that is very sentimental. If he (Su YuenHeng) found out that he knew about his father"s situation but didn"t tell him, once this is revealed in the future, it will definitely become a knot in their hearts.
Moreover, BeiTang MinQian didn"t think that this is a matter that should be hidden from him. But he regretted that he didn"t find out about his physical condition before he blurted this out in that moment.
“Don"t worry too much. I"m here,” BeiTang MinQian patted the back of Su YuanHeng"s hand, softly trying to comfort him. He"s really not one that would say comforting words to people. These words were already his limit. Anything more than this, he really don"t know how to say it. But to Su YuanHeng, this is enough.
Su YuanHeng held onto his hand and sigh softly, “Thank you.”
BeiTang MinQian"s other hand crossed over to his shoulder and held him in his arms.
He had never hugged him like this before. Two big men, sitting together like this is a bit strange. But who cares? In any case, they are the only two pa.s.sengers on the plane. The accompanying crews are in the lounge and won"t disturb them.
In fact, Su YuanHeng"s physique is very similar to BeiTang MinQian. Although, his is not proportional, but he also has wide shoulders, narrow hips and long slender legs, it"s a great figure.
It was only after his pregnancy that his health deteriorated rapidly and his body was somewhat deformed. Nestling in BeiTang MinQian"s arms, he felt very much at ease and comfortable, his mind calmed down slightly.
BeiTang MinQian held his hand; his line of sight fell on the very obviously protruding belly. The corners of his mouth could not help but lift into a smile.
He really didn"t expect Su YuanHeng to be of MoYe origin as mentioned by his elder sister. If true, he can"t ask for any greater blessing than this.
That day when he told Su YuanHeng about his father"s situation, Su YuanHeng"s face immediately paled and looked like he could faint at any moment. BeiTang MinQian was so terrified that he wanted to take him to the hospital immediately, but was stopped by Su YuanHeng.
“Hurry … call this number and ask for a Dr. Zhang … Doctor Zhang.”
BeiTang MinQian narrowed his eyes, wanting to ask who this doctor is but seeing his ghastly expression, he quickly called.
This Doctor Zhang is Qiu ZhiYuan"s senior, who has been living in America for many years. Because Su YuanHeng refused to go to the hospital, Qiu ZhiYuan rummaged through his house to find the contact number for this senior. Very coincidentally, this senior lives in a neighboring town from Su YuanHeng and could get there within a 30 minutes drive.
Qiu ZhiYuan sent his medical records to the senior and asked him to take care of him. Su YuanHeng had just gone to his clinic just last week because he wanted to check on when he could return to China and also got some medications.
When BeiTang MinQian called, it just so happen that the doctor was in. He immediately drove over to check on Su YuanHeng. After determining that it was due to him being too agitated, he gave him a shot and prescribed some medicine against miscarriage.
There were no serious problems.
At the time, when BeiTang MinQian found out that Su YuanHeng had been pregnant for more than four months, he was very astonished. His slender eyes continuously stared at the belly that now appears bulging. This huge shock that followed made him so excited that he couldn"t speak for half a day.
I"m going to be a father! I"m going to be a father!
When he realized what Su YuanHeng"s pregnancy meant, BeiTang MinQian was instantly struck by this strange but proud emotion.
He has no doubt that the child in Su YuanHeng is his. Just that he never thought that he and Su YuanHeng could have a child together one day. No, or rather, he was still too young to be thinking of becoming a father. But when he realized he was about to become one, he is unexpectedly excited and delighted.
At this time, Su YuanHeng saw all of his reactions.
Although Su YuanHeng was weakly lying on the bed, he still secretly observed BeiTang MinQian"s reaction. When Dr. Zhang arrived, he had wanted BeiTang MinQian to leave the bedroom, but … this matter can"t always be concealed. Since he (BeiTang MinQian) is already here, he should let him know about the baby. It"s a bet to see what his reaction would be….
He watched as BeiTang MinQian listened to Dr. Zhang"s diagnosis and saw him stunned for a full three minutes. Then, his face suddenly changed as he starred at his belly in surprise and delight.
Su YuanHeng felt uneasy. He couldn"t understand BeiTang MinQian"s att.i.tude. During the six years they are together, he felt that BeiTang MinQian was free like a flying eagle; unwilling to be bound by anything. Sometimes when the two chat and the topic touched on children, BeiTang MinQian would always say, “Having children is a kind of burden and it"s too much trouble to raise.”
At that time, BeiTang MinQian was very young so Su YuanHeng was not at all surprised with his thinking.
Later, BeiTang MinQian entered the entertainment circle. In that intricate and colorful world, he became even more unruly and imposing, treating everything like a spectator with a bantering att.i.tude. Su YuanHeng felt even more so that he (BeiTang MinQian) would not consider having children. So in all these years, he had never mentioned that he has a MoYe person"s physique.
But sometimes when he is taking a stroll with BeiTang MinQian and sees a family with young children, BeiTang MinQian would always become excited and would play with the children; which makes him think that he"s doesn"t actually dislike children. Maybe it is just because of his family background and the environment he was raised in that made him not want to have his own children.
Su YuanHeng quietly observed for a while and saw that BeiTang MinQian"s eyes were glimmering; the corners of his mouth skittish. He is obviously pleasantly surprised. But Su YuanHeng didn"t know what his att.i.tude would be once he"s calmed down.
Sure enough, after sending Dr. Zhang away, BeiTang MinQian began to carefully ponder this matter. He circled around the living room twice to slowly process the hints.
Apparently, Su YuanHeng had hidden the fact that he is a MoYe from him, and … if it weren"t for today"s incident needing to call for Dr. Zhang, he could not guarantee that Su YuanHeng would confess this matter to him.
BeiTang MinQian creased his brows. He respected Su YuanHeng"s wishes but didn"t like his att.i.tude of concealment.
He thought for a moment and decided to put this matter to the bottom of his heart.
Pretending as if nothing had happened, he went back upstairs. He smiled at Su YuanHeng and gave him a kiss.
“Baby, you hid this really well.”
Su YuanHeng"s heart jump. But after BeiTang MinQian said this, he never mentioned this topic again. He just excitedly touched his belly, beaming with happiness.
“Haha, I"m going to have a son!!”
“…… how do you know it"s going to be a boy?”
“A daughter is also fine. As long as you"re the one that gave birth to it, I will love it,"
BeiTang MinQian smiled as he leaned over and gently kissed him.
Su YuanHeng is confused by his att.i.tude. BeiTang MinQian did not mention anything about him concealing his condition and pregnancy, so this made Su YuanHeng somewhat uneasy.
However, he did not have the time to ponder over BeiTang MinQian"s way of thinking. He just desperately wanted to return (to China).
Su YuanHeng has high blood pressure so his current physical condition is not suitable for flying. But he is rarely this stubborn.
Finally getting news of his father who has vanished for many years, how can he be at ease to stay in America?
Even though BeiTang MinQian is upset with himself for informing him of this matter, he was still unable to curb his stubbornness on insisting to return to China. Finally, he mobilized his private plane to fly them back.
Su YuanHeng moved and got out of BeiTang MinQian"s embrace, unlocking the seat belts.
“What are you doing?"
“Going to the bathroom,” Su YuanHeng responded as he got up.
"I"ll go with you."
When Su YuanHeng heard it, he smiled and looked at him, “Why are you going with me for? I"ll go by myself. You just sit.”
After hearing that, BeiTang MinQian sat back down on his seat and grabbed a magazine, flipping through it absentmindedly.
Su YuanHeng came back shortly. While he was walking, he lowered his head to connect the cufflinks on his shirt.
BeiTang MinQian looked at him with a slight smile. Right when he was about to say something, the plane suddenly shook vigorously.
Su YuanHeng was caught off guard. Private planes are unlike regular pa.s.senger planes where there are two rows of seats that he can readily use as support. Instead, it is a s.p.a.cious and comfortable cabin with only a few couches that are far apart. The shaking caused Su YuanHeng to lose his balance, his body instantly becoming unsteady as he fell forward toward BeiTang MinQian.
BeiTang MinQian was so terrified that he quickly stretched out his hands to catch him. The plane violently shook twice again, then slowly subsided.
“YuanHeng, are you okay?” BeiTang MinQian nervously asked.
Su YuanHeng fell onto his lap. This position is a little awkward. He wanted to get up and return to his own seat but was held down firmly.
“I"m fine, I just couldn"t stand still.”
BeiTang MinQian saw that his expression appears normal. He touched his belly and said, “Fortunately, the baby is fine.”
When Su YuanHeng heard this, his heart suddenly sank a little but he didn"t say anything.
The plane was stabilized and the crew came by to check on them. Su YuanHeng was already back in his seat.
BeiTang MinQian asked, “Tired? Go inside to sleep for a while.”
Su YuanHeng is indeed tired. He nodded and went into the bedroom. After lying down for a while, BeiTang MinQian also came in and laid down next to him.
Su YuanHeng shifted to a side and BeiTang MinQian reached out his arms to hug him.
Su YuanHeng didn"t know why; he felt a bit touched but there is nowhere to hide on the plane so he just let him (BeiTang MinQian) hold him.
BeiTang MinQian"s hand that was on his waist, slowly moved down to his lower belly and gently ma.s.saged it.
“YuanHeng, are you asleep?”
Su YuanHeng didn"t say anything.
"FeiLi, are you asleep?"
Su YuanHeng"s heart jumped. He couldn"t help but say, “Why are you calling me FeiLi?”
BeiTang MinQian smiled, “I know that you"re not sleeping. Hey, I like calling you FeiLi. This name sounds nice."
“How does it sound nice?”
“I also don"t know. It just seems like I"ve call you that many thousands of times with that name. You don"t like it?”
“… No, I"m just not use to it.” Actually, he can"t describe it but every time he heard BeiTang MinQian call him that, his heart would beat erratically. As if … there is a kind of intimacy that existed even closer than before, seeping into the depths of his heart.
Perhaps it is because that is his real name or maybe because it was a name his father had given him … or maybe the meaning of the name itself. In short, when Su YuanHeng hears BeiTang MinQian call him like that, his heart would indiscriminately quicken.
BeiTang MinQian lowered head against the back of his neck, his breathing right next to his ear; the sound is low, hoa.r.s.e and soft.
“FeiLi… FeiLi … Don"t say goodbye … this name is really not bad.”
Su YuanHeng slowly closed his eyes. His mind hazily returned to the distant past. His father also hugged him this same way and gently murmured softly, “Xiao Li, FeiLi……the meaning of this name is "to never leave." You have to remember……"
Remember….
Father, I remember, but what about you? You still left me…
Even the person next to him, there will be one day, when he will also leave him……
End of the Chapter