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In the restroom, Lin Xuanxuan let go of the hand she had been holding and look at Fang Yan is shock by her change. When she saw her reaction, Lin Xuanxuan smile, but there was no warmth at all. That smile was full of disdain, disdain for her as well as the anger and resentment hidden underneath. Fang Yan is still in shock that Lin Xuanxuan knew of this. She thought that her dad had arranged all the information well. Even Lin Zhenyang and the Lin matriarch didn"t find out, how was Lin Xuanxuan able to? Also, if she knows, doesn"t that mean the rest of the Lin family also knows? These are the questions bothering her right now.
She still remembers what her mother said to her before she died. While laying on her deathbed with a pale face she weakly told her, “Yanyan, don"t hate him. It"s not his fault. It"s my mother"s choice. I don"t regret falling in love so I don"t have anything to feel sorry for in my life. He has a family so we can"t bother him." She also said, “ She also said, “Yanyan, go to Shanghai but don"t acknowledge him. Just see him, see him for me.” Finally, she said, “Yanyan, mother"s greatest regret in life is not being able to give you a father. Mother is sorry for you.”
When she came to Shanghai, she followed her mother"s wishes. She hated that man but she will never destroy his family. But this matter could not be concealed forever and in the end, she couldn"t keep the promise she made her mother.
“I didn"t expect our relationship to be so intimate, don"t you think, Miss Fang?” Lin Xuanxuan"s voice coldly pa.s.sed through Fang Yan"s ear.
Fang Yan returned to her senses. Since this situation had come to this point, those that are irreparable are already irreparable so it is not her blame. When she thought of this Fang Yan felt at ease and calmly face Lin Xuanxuan, “Miss Lin is too praiseful, we are not intimate. After all, my surname is Fang and yours is Lin.”
“Yes, you are not a Lin, Lin family does not welcome you.” Otherwise, why else would her grandmother hide her ident.i.ty? Like Butler Lin said, her life would not affect the Lin family.
Fang Yan"s corner lips twitch. She non-committedly answered, “I"m not that rare.”
“Heng.” Lin Xuanxuan angrily shouted, “Your mom stole my mom"s man and now you are stealing mine, it really is like mother like daughter.” She thought about how her parents have been fighting for twenty years and still remembered how many times her mother cried because of her father. And now the man she loves for ten years is pushing her away for this woman. She wanted to let it go but seeing as how this is fate, she will do whatever it takes to take her down.
Lin Xuanxuan"s word stung. Her mother had been deeply hurt because of her love and now she has to carry that burden on her back. Fang Yan angrily glared at her with fire in her eyes, “If you have the ability then go grab your man"s heart instead of putting the blame on others. And don"t forget, half of who I am is the same as you.”
“You–––” Lin Xuanxuan angrily pointed at her face. She couldn"t find any words to refute her because she knew what she said was true so she could only glare at her.
Fang Yan didn"t want to say anything or else it will only make her angry. “Miss Lin, take your time, I will go back first.” Then she coldly walked out of the room.
Lin Xuanxuan clenched her fist, her nails digging into her flesh.” Fang Yan, just you wait. One day I will take back everything you mother and daughter pair owed me and my mom.”
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On the car ride back, Fang Yan leaned against the window and look out on the Shanghai view. However, she is unable to appreciate the view since her mind is filled with the secret that Lin Xuanxuan broke today. It turns out that they already knew of her existence and refuse to acknowledge her. It turns out it is all her mother"s wishful thinking. It turns out that man is indifferent to her existence. If her mother was still alive and knew of this, will she still think that she loved the wrong man? Probably not. A salty taste enters her mouth. Fang Yan reaches her hand out and realized that her tears had unknowingly fallen. Fang Yan gently curved her lips and wiped away the tears on her face. It"s ridiculous how this still bothers her.
A big warm hand tightly grasped her own small cold hand, giving her warmth and encouragement. Fang Yan looked up at the owner of the big hand, Zheng Weiqian is looking at her with a smile and didn"t say anything. He just gently looks at her and reached out wipe away her tears.
When she came back from the restroom, Zheng Weiqian noticed that she was acting strangely. Although he didn"t know what happened, he didn"t ask and only hoped that she would take the initiative to tell him. But before that, he may be able to get some answers from other sources. For instance, she went to the restroom with Lin Xuanxuan.
Fang Yan returned a sweet smile, grateful that he is with her at this time. She has his hand a squeeze and said, “Thank you, Weiqian.” Zheng Weiqian sent Fang Yan back to her apartment. He didn"t ask her anything else and just urge her to wash up and go to bed early since she must be tired today.
“Get some rest, I will pick you up tomorrow,” Zheng Weiqian pulled the quilt over her and kissed her forehead.
“En.” Fang Yan obediently laid on her bed and smiled.
Zheng Weiqian stood up, ready to leave when a small hand tugged on his shirt.
He turned around and met a pair of clear eyes.
“Stay.” Fang Yan stared at him and seriously said. Today, she wants someone to accompany her, to make her not feel abandoned.
“Do you know what you are saying?” Zheng Weiqian looked at the woman in front of him. Does she know how much she is tempting him by saying this?
“En.” Fang Yan nodded. She knows what is going to happen if she lets him stay, but since it is him, she is willing.
Zheng Weiqian bowed and deeply kissed her, “You can"t regret it now.”
Fang Yan nodded and responded to his kiss.