She remembered that four years ago at school, a male cla.s.smate of hers had a very good impression of her. When she wasn"t paying attention, he had forcefully hugged her, and she had ruthlessly smashed his head with a vase, causing him to leave a lot of blood. As for her, she had also been sent in to be imprisoned for two days.
After that, the boy stayed away from her.
"I know!" Tang You You"s face suddenly flushed red again.
Tang You You suddenly pressed down hard on her head, she somehow resisted and thought back to what happened.
"Dr. Liu, I... Can you take a rest first? "
"Miss Tang, you must open your heart to it. Don"t try to avoid it anymore. Tell me how you felt at that time."
That night, I was forcefully sent on the plane by my father. I stayed on the plane with my eyes open for more than ten hours, not daring to sleep. I still had to endure the pain on my body. Under the gentle gaze of the doctor, Tang You You began to touch upon those things that happened in the past.
"Do you hate the man who hurt you?"
I hate him, I wish I could kill him, but I also feel that I hate myself even more, hate myself for being useless, being unable to protect myself, and also, I hate those people who sent me into the room. No matter what, that night, I might not be able to hide, no matter who they are. When Tang You You said till here, her entire body was stiff and cold, trembling uncontrollably.
In the past, she had selectively forgotten everything and adjusted her life to start from the moment her child was born.
All the joy, from having a child, then little by little acc.u.mulated.
Dr. Liu saw that her face was pale and cold sweat was dripping down his forehead. Perhaps his nightmares were the result of his being suppressed for a long time.
"Relax, Miss Tang. Can you tell me what your nightmare is like?" Dr. Liu could only ask her with a gentle voice.
Tang You You nodded. Her beautiful eyes were somewhat empty, lost, and afraid.
"Sometimes I feel as if I"ve been torn apart by a wild animal. Sometimes I feel as if I"m trapped in a dark room."
"More specifically, have you ever dreamed about matters between men and women?"
"Yes, I have!"
"Can you see the face of the man in the dream?"
"It"s very blurry, I can"t see clearly!"
Dr. Liu recorded her symptoms and after thinking for a while, she suddenly said: "Then now that you know that person is Quarterly, do you hate him?"
Tang You You"s entire body froze, and her expression remained frozen for a long time.
"Do you hate him?" Dr. Liu asked her again.
Tang You You lowered his head.
"I used to hate him, but now I don"t!" Tang You You bit her lips and answered very lightly.
"Why don"t you hate him?"
Tang You You really did not think much about it, and after that, she could only face this question head on and answer: "Because he did not intentionally hurt me, and he was also forced to do it himself. Furthermore, I had a child with him, he treats the child very well, and has always been very good to me as well."
"Are you in love with him?" The Dr. Liu smiled.
Tang You You"s empty eyes slowly gained focus. She looked at Dr. Liu, then shook her head. "I don"t know if that counts as love.
"Alright, we"ll stop here for today. Thank you for sharing your experience. You can go back first."
"That"s it? Don"t you need more treatment? " Tang You You suddenly stood up, he felt that this was not considered a treatment.
Dr. Liu immediately smiled and said: "Psychological treatment is to find the root of the problem and solve it. This is not the same as treating your body, doing surgery, applying medicine can cure your wound, we can take it slow, the more, I think your condition isn"t too serious, the only thing you lack is to not be able to see your own heart, after you go back, it"s best that you communicate more with Quarterly, it"s better that you have some sort of physical contact with him. For example, hugging each other everyday, holding each other"s hand, feeling each other"s warmth, it"s very helpful for your treatment."
"You hug me every day?" Tang You You"s beautiful eyes widened in astonishment.
"It"s best if it"s like this. There are also actions that can be done slowly, step by step." The Dr. Liu said with a chuckle.
Tang You You secretly heaved a sigh of relief: "Then I"ll do my best, thank you, Dr. Liu, suddenly realised, after chatting with you for a while, I feel much better, in the past, I have never told anyone about this, nor did I dare to."
"It is because you have long suppressed the fear in your heart that your body has developed an instinct of rejection. Miss Tang, I see that you have quite a cheerful personality. You are not a very austere person. I believe that your illness will recover in a short period of time." Dr. Liu told her with absolute certainty.
"I hope so. Thank you, Dr. Liu. I will be leaving first."
"Take care!"