When someone gets mature and rethinks about their life, they will have regret about things that they had done in the past.
Every time she thinks about that moment when Jing Bo Yuan was eight years old, she feels heartbroken. She regrets that moment.
She also regrets what she did fifteen years ago. She stabbed him. It makes her regretful.
“I’m sorry.” He Shu E speaks. “I’m really sorry.”
That is the first time, she apologizes toward him.
Jing Bo Yuan just stands there with one of his hand on the pocket, and his other hand holds a car key.
He seems to be unaffected by her words. The time the elevator door is opened, he just walks out.
He Shu E looks at his figure and follows him.
After thirty minutes.
The white land rover stops in front of He family mansion.
He Shu unbuckles her seatbelt and says to Jing Bo Yuan. “It’s hot, let’s go inside and drink a tea and you can go back.”
Jing Bo Yuan just looks at her and says calmly: “Help me to greet Wai Po and Wai Gong.”
He doesn’t have intention to enter He house.
He Shu E smiles. “Drive safely.”
She stands in front of the main door and watches the white car leaves. She is slightly absent-minded.
Today that great successful business man cannot see her again with those pure innocent eyes like a boy.
He wouldn’t try to get her affection again.
He Shu E just realizes that for memorizing that English textbook, Jing Bo Yuan only slept four hours for half a year. That is hard for eight years old. She cannot imagine how can he endure it.
Was it really for her affection? But she had hurt him ruthlessly.
“Gu Gu, why are you standing here?” A blue Lamborghini car stops in front of He Shu E. He Ji Fan lowers the car window.
“I saw Bo Yuan’s car, he sent you back home?”
He Shu E smiles toward He Ji Fan and just asks back: “Why are you home at this time?”
“I forgot something home, I come here to take it.” He Ji Fan says.
Both of them get inside the mansion.
In the living room, there’s a seven-month baby playing on the baby bed.
“Stop smoking. Don’t smoke in front of the kid.” Old Madame He stops He Ji Fan to smoke.
He Ji Fan throws his cigarette away, he bends down and takes the baby. He plays with the baby for a while and then leaves to go upstair.
“You have met A Yuan’s kids?” Old Madame He asks He Shu E.
He Shu E puts her handbag down. She is tired. “Em, the three babies are cute.”
“Xiao E ah….” Old Madame He suddenly says, He Shu E frowns. She already can guess what Old Madame He wants to say.
Indeed, Old Madame He says: “It is reasonable to say that you are fifty years old, Ma shouldn’t intervene your life. But you cannot just live your life like this alone. These years have pa.s.sed, for something that you should forget, you should forget it. Look at Jing family’s A Zong. He keeps on waiting for you. Can’t you try to accept him again?”
He Shu E doesn’t say anything more.
Old Madame He doesn’t persuade her anymore.
He Ji Fan comes over with his folders, he comes over and strokes his son’s chubby cheeks. Then he says to Old Madame He and He Shu E. “Nai Nai, Gu Gu, I’ll leave first.”
Old Madame He: “Go go.”
He Shu E: “Drive safely.”
After He Ji Fan leaves, Old Madame He continues: “Moreover, don’t you want to be closer with your three young Sunr (Grandsons)? When people are old, they will want to relate to their grandkids. You may not feel it now, but in several years you will.”
He Shu E carries up the little baby and pats him.
“Even if A Zong has mistakes, but toward you he is so great. That year if you really be with Su Mu Chen, now you might not be happy, you might not as happy as you are now. When you were young, you had ambition and was so stubborn. I have something that I never tell you…”
He Shu E looks at Old Madame He.
Old Madame He continues: “That year your Pa loved you so dearly, he wanted to let you be with Su Mu Cheng. But he didn’t want you to marry into that poor family, let you suffer hardships. So he secretly asked to meet Su mu Cheng. He requested two things to him. First, Papa would buy you guys a mansion for you guys to live. You guys could stay there and your papa will provide everything.”
“Second, your Papa would Su Mu Cheng works at the company and let him to try hard by himself to be the leader in three years time.”
He Shu E is startled, she never knows about this.
“Who knows, Su Mu Cheng just refused without thinking. He was so furious that he said that your Papa was purposely humiliated him. He al;so said that if you are willing to marry to him, then you should suffer with him together. If you cannot bear it, then you don’t love him.”
He Shu E’s mood is changing.
“Just because of that, your Pa throughly dismissed his thought to let you guys be together. For him, marriage is to bring happiness and joy and not bring one to the h.e.l.l. You were treated by your father as a princess, you have a great life, how can for what so-called “love”, you fall to a muddy life?”
“He loves you? If he really loves you, then he should cherish you. He will try to establish a life that suitable for you and not asking you to just follow him blindly to his world. He should love his life more than you. He should just feel afraid that everyone will laugh at him to be dependent to the woman’s family. It’s only about pride.”
If He Su E is still young, she will definitely oppose her parents’ opinion. “I want to marry him, I’m not afraid to live a hard life. As long as I can be together with him. I’m not afraid of any hardships!”
But this moment He Shu E has pa.s.sed that young age, she rethinks about it. Indeed there’re lots of problems between her and him. Those romantic gestures will not last long.
That year she couldn’t understand it, but now she can.
“I say this to you, just hope that you can understand that A Zong is the one that most suitable for you. These years he keeps on accommodating you, pandering to your life. He never asks you to adapt to his life. You don’t eat fish, he will follow you to not eat fish. You love to eat shiitake, he doesn’t like it, but he will accompany you to eat it. These are little matters but some feelings are reflected by those little matters.”
After Old Madame He is done, He Shu E puts down the baby back to the bed.
She looks at her own mother and smiles. She asks: “Ma, what are the benefits that you get from him? That you keep on talking about good things about him.”
Old Madame He is furious. “You kid, I am just doing this for your own good. I also hope that you can have a complete happy family. Perhaps do you want to live alone till you are old?”
“I will remember what you said to me. I am a bit tired. I’ll go back to my room and rest.”
He Shu E closes the door as soon as she is inside her bedroom and throws down her body on the big bed.
She closes her eyes and imagines those darks and complicated eyes.
Jing Zong always looks at her with that gaze.
He Shu E opens her eyes. She recalls what happened between her and Jing Zong on the car. At first she remembers the pain but the pain turns into a wonderful feeling.
It’s so hard not to imagine. They are almost sixty years old, but they can still bring joy for each other.
Jing Zong said that he doesn’t mind for what happened between Su Mu Cheng and her, but….
He Shu E closes her eyes again. She minds it.
Since fifteen years ago, the time she woke up on the hotel bed with the aching body. She never thinks of stay together with Jing Zong.
She understands Old Madame He’s words.
Jing Zong is really great toward her. He is so great. She feels that she really doesn’t deserve it.
She had betrayed him, she conceived other man’s child. She even wanted to divorce him. That time she planned to take the kid and flee together with Su Mu Cheng. That kind of woman, how can she deserve that kind of treatment?
The sun sets down.
Jing Bo Yuan drives the car back to the hospital. He stops when the traffic light turns red. He takes out his phone and dials Jing Zong’s numbers.
When it’s connected, he just goes straight to the point. “Her face looks pale, she is sick.”
Jing Zong immediately understands who Jing Bo Yuan is talking to.
“Now where is she?”
“I just sent her back to Wai Po’s house.”
“Okay, I get it. Thanks.”
The call ends and Jing Bo Yuan just throws away his phone to the the seat next to him.
He is absent-minded for a moment.
He Shu E’s heart is not at home, Jing Bo Yuan knows this clearly since he was little. He used to think that the worst ending that they would stay as a family though it feels like strangers staying together.
It’s until he was twenty years old.
That night. He accidentally heard out the fight between his parents. From their fight, he knows that her mother, who always acts cold and proud, had an affair with a man and was pregnant. She wanted to have a divorce and flee with another man.
He was just turning twenty years old and he was too emotional. He felt humiliated so he took a group of people to beat up Su Mu Cheng.
He Shu E knew about it and she turned crazy. She asked him about it. That time Jing Zong was there too. During their fight, Jing Zong was there too. It wasn’t clear how He Shu E suddenly fell down the stairs. She lost her child.
No one knows for sure what made He Shu E fall down. Jing Zong just put the blame on himself. That time He Shu E was sure that it’s Jing Bo Yuan’s fault, he pushed her purposely.
The day He Shu E lost her kid, Su Mu Cheng committed suicide.
He Shu E’s mental collapsed. She turned crazy and kept on saying that Jing Bo Yuan killed her kid. Finally one day, she took a knife and stabbed Jing Bo Yuan.
“Jing Bo Yuan! You should die! Why don’t you die! Why the one that died is not you! I shouldn’t give birth to you!”
“Jing Bo Yuan! One day I will let you taste the feeling of losing someone you love so much!”
It’s like a cold curse.
–Di Di Di
The sound of horn from the other car pulls him back to the reality.
Jing Bo Yuan drives the car again.
That day he could successfully avoid it to hurt him greatly. Her voice was so loud and attracted a lot of people in the mansion. She was contained and sent back to her bedroom.
Jing Bo Yuan just stood there and looked at the knife. He couldn’t express his feeling.
He left the mansion with his own car and just chose the road randomly. At that night too, his car is stopped by Zhou Qiao Qiao, who was holding the sick Ye Qing Xin. She somehow provoked Jing Bo Yuan’s cold heart. Who knows that in this world not every mother is acting like He Shu E.
He comes back to the sickroom at around five o’clock.
Old Misters have left. Ye Qing Xin is feeding Zhao Zhao. Ye Qing Xin hasn’t had a lot of milk so the little guys really puts out energy in sucking.
Ye Qing Xin raises her head when she hears the door is opened. “You back, is Ma okay?”
“She is okay.” Jing Bo Yuan closes the door and answers back.
“It’s good that you are here. Later on I want to visit Xiao Guo.”
Jing Bo Yuan says nothing and just sits on the bedside.
He is watching her face.
If that year he didn’t fight with He Shu E, he would not come out and drive to calm herself. He wouldn’t go to T city and wouldn’t help her.
That night Ye Qing Xin was in critical condition, the doctor said that if it’s late than the little girl will die.
If he doesn’t help her, now, she will not be by his side.
Jing Bo Yuan holds her hand tightly.
“Why are you watching me like that?”
Jing Bo Yuan holds her hand and just kisses it. He says nothing else.
Ye Qing Xin can understand his feeling but cannot understand why.
This man, he always talks in few words. Sometimes it’s hard for her to know what he is thinking about. Ye Qing Xin just can feel that he is thinking abotu something.
She knows that he will not tell her anything so she just feels silent. They both just look at each other.
Around 6 o’clock.
Auntie Zhang comes over with the food for Ye Qing Xin. There’s a lot of it, Ye Qing Xin cannot finish it so Jing Bo Yuan finishes it for her.
“Don’t you think that these are not delicious?” Ye Qing Xin watches Jing Bo Yuan enjoys his meal.
She cannot eat too flavorous food after giving birth.
“It’s quite good.” Jing Bo Yuan answers.
After the dinner, Ye Qing Xin goes to Ye Qing Guo’s sickroom.
Ye Qing Guo’s whole body is full of scars, he is in pain. He weeps and cries.
Xu Jin Huan’s phone rings, she takes a look at it. She excuses herself with Ye Qing Xin and answers it outside.
Ye Qing Xin comforts Ye Qing Guo for a while then she wants to leave. When she opens the door, she could hear Xu Jin Huan’s voice.
“I don’t agree…. I know that the promotion for the movie is very important. If it’s a normal condition, I’ll not disagree to use Xiao Guo to promote the movie. But this time we shouldn’t. I don’t want to use his pain to promote . I hope you guys can understand…. wait till Xiao Guo is better, I’ll consider to hold a fan-meeting. To let a lot of people like him, but I don’t want to use his pain to gain sympathy…. okay, that’s it. I still have things to do. Bye.”
Ye Qing Xin stays near the door while holding Jing Bo Yuan’s arm.