"I suppose I am a failure," said this tall, thin, contemplative-looking man, who spoke quite dispa.s.sionately of himself, just as he spoke with a transparent honesty and simplicity of his friend. "But at least I have kept myself to myself. I haven"t sold myself over to the Moloch of fashion--"
"Oh, your dislike of fashionable people is a mere bundle of prejudice!"
Lionel cried. "The truth is, Maurice, you don"t know those fashionable people you seem to despise so heartily. If you did, you would discover that they had the ordinary human qualities of other people--only that they are better educated and more courteous and pleasant in manner. Then their benevolence--if you knew how much they give away in charity--"
"Benevolence!" Mangan broke in, impatiently. "What is benevolence? It is generally nothing more or less than an expression of your own satisfaction with yourself. You are stuffed with food and wine; your purse is gorged; "here"s a handful of sovereigns for you, you poor devil crouching at the corner!" What merit is in that? Do you call that a virtue? But where charity really becomes a heroism, Linn, is when a poor, suffering, neuralgic woman, without any impulse from abundance of health or abundance of comfort, sets laboriously to work to do what she can for her fellow-creatures. Then that is something to regard--that is something to admire--"
Lionel burst out laughing.
"A very pretty description of Francie Wright!" he cried. "Francie a poor, suffering, wretched woman--because she happened to have a touch of neuralgia the last Sunday you were down here! There"s very little of the poor and suffering about Francie; she"s as contented and merry a la.s.s as you"d find anywhere."
Mangan was silent for a second or two; and then he said, with a little hesitation,
"Didn"t you tell me Miss Wright had not been up yet to see "The Squire"s Daughter?""
"No, she has not," Lionel answered, lightly. "I don"t know whether you have been influencing her, Maurice, or whether you have picked up some of her highly superior prejudices; anyhow, I rather fancy she doesn"t quite approve of the theatre--I mean, I don"t think she approves of the New Theatre, for she"d go to any other one fast enough, I suppose, if you could only get her away from her sick children. But not the New Theatre, apparently. Perhaps she doesn"t care to see me making myself a motley to the view."
"She has a great regard for you, Linn. I wouldn"t call her opinions prejudices," Mangan said--but with the curious diffidence he displayed whenever he spoke of Lionel"s cousin.
"Oh, Francie should have lived in the fifteenth century--she would have been a follower of Savonarola," Lionel said, with a laugh. "She"s far too exalted for these present days."
"Well, Linn," said his friend, "I"m glad you know at least one person who has some notion of duty and self-sacrifice, who has some fineness of perception and some standard of conduct and aim to go by. Why, those people you a.s.sociate so much with now seem to have but one pursuit--the pursuit of pleasure, the gratification of every selfish whim; they seem to have no consciousness of the mystery surrounding life--of the fact that they themselves are inexplicable phantoms whose very existence might make them pause and wonder and question. No, it is the ama.s.sing of wealth, and the expending of it, that is all sufficient. I used to wonder why G.o.d should have chosen the Jews, of all the nations of the earth, for the revelation that there was something n.o.bler than the acquisition of riches; but I suppose it was because no race ever needed it so much. And what new revelation--what new message is coming to the mult.i.tudes here in England who are living in a paradise of sensual gratification, blinded, besotted, their world a sort of gorgeous pig-stye--"
"Oh, that"s all right," Lionel said, cheerfully. "Octavius Quirk has settled all that. The cure for everything is to be a blowing of the whole social fabric to bits. Then we"re going to begin again all over; and the New Jerusalem will be reached when each man has to dig for his own potatoes."
"Quirk!" said Maurice Mangan, contemptuously; and then he took out his watch. "We"d better be getting back, Linn. We"ll just be in time to meet your people coming out of church."
So they turned and walked leisurely across the gorse-covered downs until they reached the broad and dusty highway leading towards Winstead village. And then again they struck into a by-lane with tall hedges, the banks underneath which were bright with st.i.tchwort and speedwell and white dead-nettle. Now and again, through a gap or a gate, they caught a glimpse of the lush meadows golden with b.u.t.tercups; in one of them there was a small black pony standing in the shadow of a wide-spreading elm.
They pa.s.sed some cottages with pretty gardens in front; they stopped for a second to look at the old-fashioned columbine and monkshood, the none-so-pretty, the yellow and crimson wall-flower, the peony roses.
Then always around them was this gracious silence, which seemed so strange after the roar of London; and if the day promised to become still hotter, at least they had this welcome breeze, that rustled the quick-glancing poplars, and stirred the white-laden hawthorns, and kept the long branches of the wych-elms and chestnuts swaying hither and thither. They were not talking much now; one of them was thinking of a pair of gray eyes.
At last they came to a turnstile, and, pa.s.sing through that, found themselves in one of those wide meadows; at the farther side of it the red-tiled roof, the gray belfry, and slated spire of Winstead Church just showed above the ma.s.ses of green foliage. They crossed the meadow and entered the churchyard. A perfect silence reigned over the place; they could not hear what was going on within the small building; out here there was no sound save the chirping of the birds and the continuous murmur of the trees. They walked about, looking thoughtfully at the gravestones--many of them bearing names familiar enough to them in bygone years. And perhaps one or other of them may have been fancying that when the great, busy world had done with him--and used him up and thrown him aside--here at least there would be peace preserved for him--an ample sufficiency of rest under this greensward, with perhaps a few flowers put there by some kindly hand. The dead did not seem to need much pity on this tranquil day.
Then into this universal silence came suddenly a low, booming sound that caused Lionel Moore"s heart to stand still: it was the church organ--that awakened a mult.i.tude of a.s.sociations and recollections, that seemed to summon up the vanished years and the dreams of his youth, when it was he himself who used to sit at the instrument and call forth those ma.s.sive chords and solemn tones. Something of his boyhood came back to him; he seemed again to be looking forward to an unknown future; wondering and eager, he painted visions; and always in them, to share his greatness and his fame, there was some radiant creature, smiling-eyed, who would be at his side in sorrow and in joy, through the pain of striving and in the rapture of triumph. And now--now that the years had developed themselves--what had become of these wistful hopes and forecasts? Boyish nonsense, he would have said (except just at such a moment as this, when the sudden sound of the organ seemed to call back so much). He had encountered the realities of life since then; he had chosen his profession; he had studied hard; he had achieved a measure of fame. And the beautiful and wonderful being who was to share his triumphs with him? Well, he had never actually beheld her. A glimmer here and there, in a face or a form, had taken his fancy captive more than once; but he remained heart-whole; he was too much occupied, he laughingly a.s.sured Maurice Mangan again and again, to have the chance of falling in love.
"Getting married?" he would say. "My dear fellow, I haven"t time; I"m far too busy to think of getting married."
So the radiant bride had never been found, even as the new Hallelujah Chorus that was to thrill the hearts of millions had never been written; and Linn Moore had to be content with the very p.r.o.nounced success he had attained in playing in comic opera, and with a popularity in the fashionable world of London, especially among the women-folk therein, that would have turned many a young fellow"s head.
When they thought the service was about over they went round to the porch and awaited the coming out of the congregation. And among the first to make their appearance--issuing from the dusky little building into this bewilderment of white light and green leaves--were old Dr.
Moore and his wife, and Miss Francie Wright, who pa.s.sed for Lionel"s cousin, though the relationship was somewhat more remote than that.
Maurice Mangan received a very hearty welcome from these good people; and then, as they set out for home, Lionel walked on with his father and mother, while Lionel"s friend naturally followed with the young lady.
She was not a distinctly beautiful person, perhaps, this slim-figured young woman, with the somewhat pale face, the high-arched eyebrows, and light-brown hair; but at least she had extremely pretty gray eyes, that had a touch of shrewdness and humor in them, as well as plenty of gentleness and womanliness; and she had a soft and attractive voice, which goes for much.
"It is so kind of you, Mr. Mangan," said she, in that soft and winning voice, "to bring Linn down. You know he won"t come down by himself; and who can wonder at it? It is so dull and monotonous for him here, after the gay life he leads in London."
"Dull and monotonous!" he exclaimed. "Why, I have been preaching to him all the morning that he should be delighted to come down into the quietude of the country, as a sort of moral bath after the insensate racket of that London whirl. But no one ever knows how well off he is,"
he continued, as they walked along between the fragrant hawthorn hedges; "it"s the lookers-on who know. Good gracious, what wouldn"t I give to be in Linn"s place!"
"Do you mean in London, Mr. Mangan?" she asked, and for an instant the pretty gray eyes looked up.
"Certainly not!" he said, with unnecessary warmth. "I mean here. If I could run down of a Sunday to a beautiful, quiet, old-fashioned place like this, and find myself in my own home, among my own people, I wonder how many Sundays would find me in London? You can"t imagine, you have no idea, what it is to live quite alone in London, with no one to turn to but club acquaintances; and I think Sunday is the worst day of all, especially if it is fine weather, and all the people have gone to the country or the seaside to spend the day with their friends."
"But, Mr. Mangan," said Miss Francie Wright, gently, "I am sure, whenever you have a Sunday free like that, we should be only too glad if you would consider us your friends--unless you think the place too dreadfully tedious, as I"m afraid my cousin finds it."
"It is very kind of you--very," said he. "And I know the old doctor and Mrs. Moore like to see me well enough, for I bring down their boy to them; but if I came by myself, I"m afraid they wouldn"t care to have an idling, dawdling fellow like me lounging about the place of a Sunday afternoon."
"Will you come and try, Mr. Mangan?" said she, quietly. "For Linn"s sake alone I know they would be delighted to have you here. And if it is rest and quiet you want, can"t we give you the garden and a book?"
"You mustn"t put such visions before me," he said. "It"s too good to be true. I should be sighing for Paradise all through the week and forgetting my work. And shouldn"t I hate to wake up on Monday morning and find myself in London!"
"You might wake up on Monday morning, and find yourself in Winstead,"
said she, "if you would take Linn"s room for the night."
"Ah, no," he said, "it isn"t for the like of me to try to take Linn"s place in any way whatever. He has always had everything--everything seemed to come to him by natural right; and then he has always been such a capital fellow, so modest and unaffected and generous, that n.o.body could ever grudge him his good-fortune. Prince Fortunatus he always has been."
"In what way, Mr. Mangan?" his companion asked, rather wonderingly.
"In every way. People are fond of him; he wins affection without trying for it; as I say, it all comes to him as if by natural right."
"Yes, they say he is very popular in London, among those fine folk,"
observed Miss Francie, quite good-naturedly.
"Oh, I wasn"t thinking of his fashionable friends," Mangan rejoined.
"Being made much of by those people doesn"t seem to me one of the great gifts of fortune. And yet I wonder it hasn"t spoiled him. He doesn"t seem the least bit spoiled, does he?"
"Really, I see so little of him," Miss Francie said, with a smile, "he honors us with so few visits, that I can hardly tell."
"No, he is not spoiled--you may take my word for it," her companion said, with decision. And then he added, "I suppose he gets too much of that petting; he is kept in such a turmoil of gayety that its evil effects have no time to sink into him. He is too busy--as he said this morning about marrying."
"What was that, Mr. Mangan?" she asked.
"He said he was too busy to think of getting married."
"Oh, indeed?" she said, with her eyes directed towards the ground.
"We--we have always been expecting to hear of his being engaged to some young lady--seeing he is made so much of in London--" She could say no more, for now they were arrived at the doctor"s house, which was separated from the highway by a little strip of front garden. They pa.s.sed in through the gate and found the door left open for them.
"Well, Miss Savonarola," said Lionel, as he hung up his hat in the hall and turned to address her, "how have you been all this time?"
"I have been very well, Mr. Pagan," said she, smiling.
"And how are all those juvenile Londoners that you"ve planted about in the cottages?"
"They"re getting on nicely, every one of them," said she, with quite an air of pride; and then she added, "When is your Munificence going to give me another subscription?"
"Just now, Francie," was the instant reply. "How much do you want?"
"As much as ever you can afford," said she.
He pulled from his pocket a handful of loose coin, and began to pick out the sovereigns. But Miss Francie, with a little touch of her fingers, put the money away.