Lilly"s TV program, Lilly Tells It Like It Is, is now one of the highest-ranked shows on Manhattan cable. Of course, it"s public access, so it"s not like she"s making any money off it, but a bunch of the major networks picked up this interview she did of me one night when I was half asleep and played it. I thought it was stupid, but I guess a lot of other people thought it was good, because now Lilly gets tons of viewer mail, whereas before the only mail she got was from her stalker, Norman.
Michael: Look, if you"re having time-management issues, don"t take it out on me. Just don"t expect me to meekly do your bidding, especially when you already owe me one.
Me: Lilly, no offense, but I don"t think this week"s a good time for a walkout, anyway. I mean, after all, it"s almost finals.
Lilly: SO???
Me: So some of us really need to stay in cla.s.s. I can"t afford to miss any review sessions. My grades are bad enough as it is.
Michael: Really? I thought you were doing better in Algebra.
Me: If you call a D plus better.
Michael: Aw, come on. You have to be making better than a D plus. Your mom is married to your Algebra teacher!
Me: So? That doesn"t mean anything. You know Mr. G doesn"t play favorites.
Michael: I would think he"d cut his own stepdaughter a little slack, is all.
Lilly: WOULD YOU TWO PLEASE PAY ATTENTION TO THE SITUATION AT HAND, WHICH IS THE FACT THAT THIS SCHOOL IS IN VITAL NEED OF SERIOUS REFORM?
Fortunately at that moment the bell rang, so no walkout tomorrow as far as I know. Which is a good thing, because I really need the extra study time.
You know, it"s funny about Mrs. Spears not liking Lilly"s term paper proposal, because she was very enthusiastic about my proposal, A Case Against Christmas Trees: Why We Must Curtail the Pagan Ritual of Chopping Down Pine Trees Every December if We Are Going to Repair the Ozone Layer.
And my IQ isn"t anywhere near as high as Lilly"s.
Monday, December 8, Bio
Kenny just pa.s.sed me the following note: MiaI hope what I said to you last night didn"t make you feel uncomfortable. I just wanted you to know how I feel.
Sincerely,
Kenny
Oh, G.o.d. Now what am I supposed to do? He"s sitting here next to me, waiting for an answer. In fact, that"s what he thinks I"m writing right now. An answer.
What do I say?
Maybe this is my perfect opportunity to break up with him. I"m sorry, Kenny, but I don"t feel the same way-let"s just be friends. Is that what I should say?
It"s just that I don"t want to hurt his feelings, you know? And he is my Bio partner. I mean, whatever happens, I am going to have to sit next to him for the next two weeks. And I would much rather have a Bio partner who likes me than one who hates me.
And what about the dance? I mean, if I break up with him, who am I going to go to the Nondenominational Winter Dance with? I know it is horrible to think things like this, but this is the first dance in the history of my life to which I already have a date.
Well, I mean, if he"d ever get around to asking me.
And how about that final, huh? Our Bio final, I mean. No way am I going to be able to pa.s.s without Kenny"s notes. NO WAY.
But what else can I do? I mean, considering what happened today at the salad bar.
This is it. Good-bye, date for the Nondenominational Winter Dance. h.e.l.lo, Friday-night television.
Dear Kenny, It isn"t that I don"t think of you as a very dear friend. It"s just that-
Monday, December 8, 3 p.m., Mr. Gianini"s Algebra review
Okay, so the bell rang before I had time to finish my note.
That doesn"t mean I"m not going to tell Kenny exactly how I feel. I totally am. Tonight, as a matter of fact. I don"t care if it"s cruel to do something like that over the phone. I just can"t take it anymore.
HOMEWORK.
Algebra: review questions at the end of Chapters 13 English: term paper World Civ: review questions at the end of Chapters 14 G & T: none French: review questions at the end of Chapters 13 Biology: review questions at the end of Chapters 15
Tuesday, December 9, Homeroom
All right. So I didn"t break up with him.
I totally meant to.
And it wasn"t even because I didn"t have the heart to do it over the phone, either.
It was something Grandmere, of all people, said.
Not that I feel right about it. Not breaking up with him, I mean. It"s just that after Algebra review, I had to go to the showroom where Sebastiano is flogging his latest creations, so that he could have his flunkies take my measurements for my dress. Grandmere was going on about how from now on, I should really only wear clothes by Genovian designers, to show my patriotism, or whatever. Which is going to be hard, because, uh, there"s only one Genovian clothing designer that I know of, and that"s Sebastiano. And let"s just say he doesn"t make very much out of denim.
But whatever. I so had more important things to worry about than my spring wardrobe.
Which I guess Grandmere must have caught on to, because midway through Sebastiano"s description of the beading he was going to have sewn onto my gown"s bodice, Grandmere shouted, "Amelia, what is the matter with you?"
I must have jumped about a foot in the air. "What?"
"Sebastiano asked if you prefer a sweetheart or square-cut neckline."
I stared at her blankly. "Neckline for what?"
Grandmere gave me the evil eye. She does this quite frequently. That"s why my father, even though he has the neighboring hotel suite, never stops by during my princess lessons.
"Sebastiano," my grandmother said. "You will please leave the princess and me for a moment."
And Sebastiano-who was wearing a new pair of leather pants, these in a tangerine color (the new gray, he told me; and white, you might be surprised to know, is the new black)-bowed and left the room, followed by the slinky ladies who"d been taking my measurements.
"Now," Grandmere said imperiously. "Something is clearly troubling you, Amelia. What is it?"
"It"s nothing," I said, turning all red. I knew I was turning all red because: a) I could feel it, and b) I could see my reflection in the three full-length mirrors in front of me.
"It is not nothing." Grandmere took in a healthy drag from her Gitanes, even though I have asked her repeatedly not to smoke in my presence, as breathing secondhand smoke can cause just as much lung damage as actually smoking. "What is it? Trouble at home? Your mother and the math teacher fighting already, I suppose. Well, I never expected that marriage to last. Your mother is much too flighty."
I have to admit, I kind of snapped when she said that. Grandmere is always putting my mother down, even though Mom has raised me pretty much single-handedly and I certainly haven"t gotten pregnant or shot anyone yet.
"For your information," I said, "my mom and Mr. Gianini are blissfully happy together. I wasn"t thinking about them at all."
"What is it, then?" Grandmere asked in a bored voice.
"Nothing," I practically yelled. "I just-well, I was thinking about the fact that I have to break up with my boyfriend tonight, that"s all. Not that it"s any of your business."
Instead of taking offense at my tone, which any self-respecting grandparent would have found insolent, Grandmere only took a sip of her drink and suddenly looked way interested.
"Oh?" she said, in a totally different tone of voice-the same tone of voice she uses when someone mentions a stock tip she thinks might be useful for her portfolio. "What boyfriend is this?"
G.o.d, what did I ever do to be cursed with such a grandmother? Seriously. Lilly and Michael"s grandma remembers the names of all their friends, makes them rugelach all the time, and always worries that they"re not getting enough to eat, even though their parents, the Drs. Moscovitz, are wholly reliable at bringing home groceries, or at least ordering out.
Me? I get the grandma with the hairless poodle and the nine-carat diamond rings whose greatest joy in life is to torture me.
And why is that, anyway? I mean, why does Grandmere love to torture me so much? I"ve never done anything to her. Nothing except be her only grandchild, anyway. And it isn"t exactly like I go around advertising how I feel about her. You know, I"ve never actually told her I think she"s a mean old lady who contributes to the destruction of the environment by wearing fur coats and smoking filterless French cigarettes.
"Grandmere," I said, trying to remain calm. "I have only one boyfriend. His name is Kenny." I"ve only told you about fifty thousand times, I added, in my head.
"I thought this Kenny person was your Biology partner," Grandmere said, after taking a sip of her sidecar, her favorite drink.
"He is," I said, a little surprised that she"d managed to remember something like that. "He"s also my boyfriend. Only last night he went completely schizo on me, and told me he loves me."
Grandmere patted Rommel, who was sitting in her lap looking miserable (his habitual expression), on the head.
"And what is so wrong," Grandmere wanted to know, "about a boy who says he loves you?"
"Nothing," I said. "Only I"m not in love with him, see? So it wouldn"t be fair of me to, you know, lead him on."
Grandmere raised her painted-on eyebrows. "I don"t see why not."
How had I ever gotten into this conversation? "Because, Grandmere. People just don"t go around doing things like that. Not nowadays."
"Is that so? Well, my observations of people are to the contrary. Except, of course, if one happens to be in love with someone else. Then shedding an unwanted suitor might be considered wise, so that one can make oneself available to the man one truly desires." She eyed me. "Is there someone like that in your life, Amelia? Someone-ahem-special?"
"No." I lied, automatically.
Grandmere snorted. "You"re lying."
"No, I"m not." I lied again.
"Indeed you are. I oughtn"t tell you this, but I suppose as it is a bad habit for a future monarch, you ought to be made aware of it, so that in the future, you can try to prevent it: When you lie, Amelia, your nostrils flare."
I threw my hands up to my nose. "They do not!"
"Indeed," Grandmere said, clearly enjoying herself immensely. "If you do not believe me, look in the mirror."
I turned around to face the nearby full-length mirrors. Taking my hands from my face, I examined my nose. My nostrils weren"t flaring. She was crazy.
"I"ll ask you again, Amelia," Grandmere said, in a lazy voice, from her chair. "Are you in love with anyone right now?"
"No." I lied, automatically. . . .
And my nostrils flared right out!
Oh, my G.o.d! All these years I"ve been lying, and it turns out whenever I do, my nostrils totally give me away! All anyone has to do is look at my nose when I talk, and they"ll know for sure whether or not I"m telling the truth.
How could no one have pointed this out to me before? And Grandmere-Grandmere, of all people-was the one who figured it out! Not my mother, with whom I"ve lived for fourteen years. Not my best friend, whose IQ is higher than Einstein"s.
No. Grandmere.
If this got out, my life was over.
"Fine," I cried dramatically, spinning away from the mirror to face her. "All right, yes. Yes, I am in love with somebody else. Are you happy now?"
Grandmere raised her painted-on eyebrows.