"You," she said, when she"d straightened out her skirt, "are a princess of the royal house of Renaldo. A princess," she said,
going to my wardrobe, and rifling through it, "does not shirk her responsibilities. Nor does she run at the first sign of adversity."
"Um, Grandmere," I said. "What happened today was hardly the first sign of adversity, OK? What happened today was the
last straw. I can"t take it any more, Grandmere. I am getting out."
Grandmere pulled from my wardrobe the dress Sebastiano had designed for me to wear to the dance. You know, the one
that was supposed to make Michael forget that I am his little sister"s best friend.
"Nonsense," Grandmere said.
That was all.
Just "nonsense". Then she stood there, tapping her toes and staring at me.
"Grandmere," I said. Maybe it was all that time I"d spent outside. Or maybe it was that I was pretty sure my mom and Mr.G and my dad were all in the next room, listening. How could they not be? There was no door, or anything, to separate my room from the living room.
"You don"t understand," I said. "I can"t go back there."
"All the more reason," Grandmere said, "for you to go."
"No," I said. "First of all, I don"t even have a date for the dance, OK? And P.S., only losers go to dances without dates."
"You are not a loser, Amelia," Grandmere said. "You are a princess. And princesses do not run away when things become difficult. They throw their shoulders back and they face what disaster awaits them head on. Bravely, and without complaint."
I said, "h.e.l.lo, we are not talking about marauding Visigoths, OK, Grandmere? We are talking about an entire high school that now thinks I am in love with Boris Pelkowski."
"Which is precisely," Grandmere said, "why you must show them that it doesn"t matter to you what they think."
"Why can"t I show them that it doesn"t matter by not going?"
"Because that," Grandmere said, "is the cowardly way. And you, Mia, as you have shown amply this past week, are not a coward. Now get dressed."
I don"t know why I did what she said. Maybe it was because somewhere deep inside, I knew that for once, Grandmere was right.
Or maybe it was because secretly, I guess I was a little curious to see what would happen.
But I think the real reason was because, for the first time in my entire life, Grandmere didn"t call me Amelia.
No. She called me Mia.
And because of my stupid sentimentalism, I am in a car right now, going back to stupid c.r.a.ppy Albert Einstein High School,
the dust from which I thought I"d managed to shake permanently from my feet not four hours ago.
But no. Oh, no. I"m going back, in the stupid velvet party dress Sebastiano designed for me. I"m going back and I will
probably be ridiculed for being the dateless biological freak that I am.
But regardless of what happens, I can always comfort myself with the knowledge of one thing: Tomorrow, I will be thousands of miles away from all of this.
Oh, G.o.d. We"re here.
I think I"m going to be sick.
Sat.u.r.day, December 19, Royal Genovian Jet When I was about to turn six years old, all I wanted for my birthday was a cat.
I didn"t care what kind of cat. I just wanted one - a cat of my very own. We had been to visit my mom"s parents at their farm
in Indiana, and they had a lot of cats. One of them had had kittens - little fluffy orange and white ones, which purred loudly when I held them under my chin, and liked to curl up inside the bib of my overalls and nap. More than anything in the world,
I wanted to keep one of those kittens.
I should mention that, at the time, I had a thumb-sucking problem. My mother had tried everything to get me to stop sucking my thumb, including buying me a Barbie, in spite of her fundamental stand against Barbie and all that she stands for, as a sort
of bribe. Nothing worked.
So when I started whining to her about wanting a kitten, my mom came up with a plan. She told me she would get me a kitten for my birthday if I quit sucking my thumb.
Which I did, immediately. I wanted a cat of my own that badly.
And yet, as my birthday rolled around, I had my doubts my mother would live up to her end of the bargain. For one thing,
even at the age of six I knew my mom wasn"t the most responsible person. Why else was our electricity always being turned off? And about half the time I showed up at school wearing a skirt AND trousers, because my mother let me decide what I wanted to wear. So I wasn"t sure she"d remember about the kitten - or that, if she did remember, she"d know where to get one.
So as you can imagine, when the morning of my sixth birthday rolled around, I wasn"t holding out much hope.
But when my mother came into my bedroom holding this tiny ball of yellow and white fur and plopped it on to my chest, and I looked into Louie"s (he didn"t become Fat Louie until about twenty-something pounds later) great big blue eyes (this was
before they turned green), I knew a joy such as I had never known before in my life and never expected to feel again.
That is, until last night.
I am totally serious.
Last night was the best night of my ENTIRE life. After that whole fiasco with Sebastiano and the photos, I thought I would never ever feel anything like grat.i.tude to Grandmere EVER again.
But she was SO RIGHT to make me go to that dance. I am SO GLAD I went back to Albert Einstein, the best, the loveliest school, in the whole country, if not the whole world!!!!!!!
OK, here"s what happened: Lars and I pulled up in front of the school. There were twinkly white lights in all the windows that I guess were supposed to represent icicles or whatever.
I was sure I was going to throw up and I mentioned this to Lars. He said I couldn"t possibly throw up because to his certain knowledge I hadn"t eaten anything since the Entemann"s cake way before lunch, and that was probably all digested by now. With that piece of encouraging information, he escorted me up the steps and into the school.
There were ma.s.ses of people teeming around the coat check in the front entrance. Lars checked our coats while I stood there waiting for someone to come up and ask me what I was doing there without a date. All that happened, however, was that Lilly-and-Boris and Tina-and-Dave descended upon me, and started acting all nice and said how happy they were that I"d come (Tina told me later that she"d already explained to everyone that Kenny and I had broken up, although she hadn"t told them why, THANK G.o.d).
So, fortified by my friends, I went into the gym, which was decorated all wintery with cut-out paper snowflakes, one of those dis...o...b..a.l.l.s, and fake snow everywhere, which I must say looked a lot whiter and cleaner than the snow that was starting to
pile up on the ground outside.
There were tons of people there. I saw Lana and Josh (ugh), Justin Baxendale with his usual flock of adoring fans, and Shameeka and Ling Su and a bunch of other people. Even Kenny was there, though when he saw me he went bright red
and turned around and started talking to this girl from our Bio cla.s.s. Oh well.