Chapter 762: Blame herself, won’t go back (1)
With Demon Lord leading the way, there was no danger or accident along the way. It was like strolling in the back garden of his home. Lin Chujiu doesn"t know what to say.
Seven days later, Lin Chujiu and Demon Lord walked out of the forest and onto a small path.
The tower pointed to the north. "That"s the way back to the capital of the Eastern Country." Demon Lord lifted his arm and pointed in another direction. "That"s the way to the Devil"s Palace. Where are you going?"
The two directions seem to give Lin Chujiu a choice, but there was no choice.
Lin Chujiu hesitated for a moment and asked weakly: "Can I choose none?" She was no longer subject to the medical system. She can be regarded as half a free person. She doesn"t want to return to the capital. Of course, she doesn"t want to go to the Devil"s Palace and face Demon Lord every day.
"Why? Want to go alone?" This sentence "Demon Lord" bites very hard and speaks very slowly. He was obviously angry, and still very angry.
"I…" Lin Chujiu hesitated for a moment, but still gritted her teeth: "I don"t want to go to the Devil"s Palace, nor do I plan to return to the capital, especially now."
"Why?" What did Xiao Tianyao do? Let Lin Chujiu be so disgusted to go to the capital.
Lin Chujiu did not directly answer Demon Lord"s words, but tried to pull out a careless smile, "Do you know why I fell into that forest?"
Without waiting for Demon Lord to open his mouth, she replied: "It was because I willfully wanted to return to the capital alone so that the potential enemy in the dark had seen an opportunity and set up an ambush to kill me. You know, to let me leave safely, the people who protected me died in front of me. Because of my willfulness, because of my unspeakable self-esteem and inferiority, I killed them."
As she spoke, Lin Chujiu"s face was full of tears, and the silent tears made people sad.
"I killed so many people, how can I… how can I have the face to go back?" The more Lin Chujiu spoke, the more she was remorseful, and finally could not hold on, squatting on the ground, and crying bitterly. "They wouldn"t die if it wasn"t because of me. And because I killed them, I have no face to go back."
She was not a coward, but she was really afraid to face the criticism of her dead escort companions and their family members after returning.
"It was my willfulness, my ignorance, that killed them. Dozens of people died because of it. They, they… didn"t have to die." Lin Chujiu bit her lips and tried not to cry, but the effect was not good.
These days, she has been condemned and disturbed by her conscience. These days, when she closed her eyes, she saw the tragic death of those guards.
These days, she has been hypnotizing herself to forget those things and stop thinking about them, but she can"t do it.
It was fine in the woods. The ma.s.sive pressure of life made her have no time to think more. But when she walked out of the woods, she could not say she was innocent, no matter how much she hypnotized herself.
She was guilty. She was the main culprit for killing them.
"I regret it. I regret it. I shouldn"t have asked to return to the capital alone. I shouldn"t be arrogant and think that I can protect myself. In the end, I survived, but the people who protected me died. My willfulness killed so many people. I really have no face to return to the capital."
"If it weren"t for my willfulness and my anger with Xiao Tianyao, things wouldn"t have become like this."
"I killed so many people. How can I have the face to see them? How can I……"
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