"I came back as quickly as I could from the Carters" in order not to miss you," said Bessie to Aunt Mary in her stentorian voice, and she presented a glowing rose cheek to be kissed.
Magdalen shot a grateful glance at her sister, and the conversation became general.
After the aunts had departed, Bessie said to Magdalen on their way upstairs to dress, "I found when I reached the Carters" that they had gone out with Professor Ridgway to see the Roman camp. Only old Mrs.
Carter was at home, and she was rather chilly, and said they had expected me to luncheon. They had had a little party to meet the Professor. I saw that my conduct called for an apology. I made one."
"I am glad of that."
"I see now that it would have been wiser to have gone over for luncheon as arranged. I also thought how selfish it was of Fay not to help you with the aunts. And then I perceived that there were not two pins to choose between us, as I had been just as bad myself, so I hurried back as quickly as I could."
"I was most grateful to you when I saw you come in. And Aunt Mary was pleased too. She never shows it much; but she was."
"It is of secondary importance whether she was pleased or not. My object in returning was twofold: to help you, and also for the sake of my own character. I begin to see that unless I am careful I shall become as selfish as father."
Magdalen did not answer.
"The aunts never do things like other people," continued Bessie. "I found Aunt Aggie standing, eating a bun, just outside the drawing-room door. She was quite flurried when I came up, and said she wanted to see my fossils, but would rather look at them another day."
CHAPTER X
La vie est un instrument dont on commence toujours par jouer faux.
Wentworth and Fay did not follow Colonel Bellairs and Magdalen back to the house. When they reached the end of the avenue they turned back silently by mutual consent, and retraced their steps down it.
Presently they reached the trunk of the tree where Fay had been sitting with Magdalen.
Fay sank down upon it once more, white and exhausted. He sat down at a little distance from her.
"How is Michael?" she said at last, twisting her ungloved hands together.
"I came to tell you about him; I only got back last night. I knew you would wish to hear."
"How is he?"
"He has been ill. He has had double pneumonia. It started with haemorrhage, and some of the blood got into the lungs, and caused pneumonia. He is better now, nearly well, in fact. The prison doctor seemed a sensible man, and he spoke as if he were interested in Michael.
From what he said I gathered that he did not think Michael would survive another winter there. The prison[1] stands in a sort of marsh. It is a very good place to prevent prisoners escaping, but not a good place for them to keep alive in. The doctor is pressing to have Michael moved. He thinks he might do better at the "colonia agricola," where the labour is more agricultural; or that even work in the iron mines of Portoferriao would try his const.i.tution less than the swamp where he now is."
[Footnote 1: The prison described has no counterpart in real life.]
"Was he still in chains?"
"No. And the doctor said there was some talk of abolishing them altogether. If not, he will be obliged to go back to them now he is better. He is looking forward to the sea lavender coming out. He says the place is beautiful beyond words when it is in flower: whole tracts and tracts of grey lilac blossom in the shallows, and hordes of wild birds. He asked me to tell you that you were to think of him as living in fairyland."
Fay winced as if struck.
"You gave him my message?" she stammered.
"Of course I did. And he said I was to tell you not to grieve for him, for he was well and happy."
"Happy!" echoed Fay.
"Yes, happy. He said he had committed a great sin, but that he hoped and believed that he was now expiating it, and that it would be forgiven."
"I am absolutely certain," said Fay in a suffocated voice, "that Michael did not murder the Marchese di Maltagliala."
"That is impossible," said Wentworth.
"Then what great sin can he be expiating?"
Even as Fay asked the question she knew the answer. Michael believed he was expiating the sin of loving another man"s wife. In his mind that was probably on a par with the murder he had not committed.
"I asked him that," said Wentworth, "but he would not say. He would only repeat that his punishment was just."
Two large tears ran down Fay"s cheeks.
"It is unjust, unjust, unjust!" she gasped. "Why does G.o.d allow these dreadful things?"
There was a long silence.
For a time Wentworth had forgotten Fay. He saw again the great yellow building standing in a waste of waters. He saw again the thin, prematurely aged face of his brother, the shaved head, the coa.r.s.e, striped convict dress, the arid light from the narrow barred window. He saw again Michael"s grave smile, and heard the tranquil voice, "This place is beautiful in autumn. Mind you come next when the sea lavender is out."
The remembrance of that meeting cut sharper than the actual pain of it at the moment. He had gone through with it with a sort of stolid endurance, letting Michael see but a t.i.the of what he felt. But the remembrance was anguish unalloyed. For a time he could neither speak nor see.
A yellow b.u.t.terfly that had waked too soon floated towards them on a wavering trial trip. Close at hand a snowdrop drooped "its serious head." The b.u.t.terfly knew its own, and lit on the meek, nunlike flower, opening and shutting its new wings in the pallid sunshine. It had perhaps dreamed, as it lay in its chrysalis, "that life had been more sweet." Was this chill sunshine that could not quicken his wings, was this grim desert that held no goal for b.u.t.terfly feet, was this one snowdrop--_all_? Was this indeed the summer of his dreams, in the sure and certain hope of which he had spun his coc.o.o.n, and laid him down in faith?
Fay looked at it in anguish not less than Wentworth"s, whose dimmed eyes saw it not at all. She never watched a poised b.u.t.terfly open and shut its wings without thinking of Michael. The flight of a seagull across the down cut her like a lash. He had been free once. He who so loved the down, the sea, the floating cloud, had been free once.
When Wentworth had winked his steady grey eyes back to their normal state, he looked furtively at Fay. She was weeping silently. He had seen Fay in tears before, but never without emotion. With a somewhat halting utterance he told her of certain small alleviations of Michael"s lot.
The permission, urgently asked, had at last been granted that English books might be sent him from time to time. The lonely, aching smart of Wentworth"s morning hours was vaguely soothed and comforted by Fay"s gentle presence.
She appeared to listen to him, but in reality she heard nothing. She sat looking straight in front of her, a tear slipping from time to time down her white cheek. Except on one or two occasions Fay had that rarest charm of looking beautiful in tears. She became paler than ever, never red and disfigured and convulsed, with the prosaic cold in the head that accompanies the emotions of less fortunate women.
"How old is Michael?" she asked suddenly in the midst of a painstaking account of certain leniencies as to diet, certain macaronis and soups which the doctor had insisted on for Michael.
"He is twenty-seven."
"And how long has he been in prison?"
"Nearly two years."
"And he has thirteen more," said Fay, looking at Wentworth with wide eyes blank with horror.
"No," said Wentworth, his voice shaking a little. "No, Michael will not live long in that swamp, not many years, I think."