"There is no sorrow," said the primroses. "There is neither sorrow nor sin. You are of one blood with us. You have come through into light, as we have done, and those others are coming, too. There is no sorrow, only a little pressure through the brown earth. There is no sin, only a little waking and stirring in the dark. Why then grieve, oh little faith! They are all waking and coming. For the Hand that made us made them. The Whisper that waked us, wakes them. The Sun that draws us, draws them. The Sun will have us come."
Fay had already pa.s.sed by that way, had picked a few primroses, and had gone on. _Was she never to be at peace again?_ Was she never to know what it is to lie down in peace at night, never to know what it is to be without fear. Her whole soul yearned for peace, as the sick man yearns for sleep. Andrea had prayed that she might find peace. Magdalen had told her where peace lay. But all that she had found was despair.
On her way homewards she came again upon the clearing and stopped short.
The place seemed to have undergone some subtle change. A tall figure was standing motionless in it. The face was turned away, but Fay recognised it instantly. As she came close Magdalen turned. For a moment Fay saw that she did not recognise her, that she was withdrawn into a great peace and light.
Then recognition dawned in Magdalen"s eyes and with it came a look of tenderness unspeakable.
"Fay," she said in a great compa.s.sion. "How much longer will you torture yourself and Michael? How much longer will you keep him in prison?"
Fay was transfixed.
Those were the same words that Andrea had said on his deathbed. Those words were alive, though he was dead. Never to any living creature, not even to Magdalen, had she repeated them. Yet Magdalen was saying them.
She could not withstand them any longer. The very stones would shriek them out next.
She fell at Magdalen"s feet with a cry.
"I will speak," she gasped in mortal terror. "I will speak." And she clung for very life to her sister"s knees, and hid her face in her gown.
CHAPTER XXII
To-day unbind the captive, So only are ye unbound.
--EMERSON.
The following afternoon saw Magdalen and Fay driving together to Lostford, to consult the Bishop as to what steps it would be advisable to take in the matter of Michael"s release. Magdalen felt it would be well-nigh impossible to go direct to Wentworth, even if he had been at Barford. But he had been summoned to London the day before on urgent business. And with Fay even a day"s delay might mean a change of mind.
It was essential to act at once.
But to Magdalen"s surprise Fay did not try to draw back. When the carriage came to the door she got into it. She a.s.sented to everything, was ready to do anything Magdalen told her. She was like one stunned.
She had at last closed with the inevitable. She had found it too strong for her.
Did Fay realise how frightfully she had complicated her position by her own folly? She lay back in her corner of the brougham with her eyes shut, pallid, silent. Magdalen held her hand, and spoke encouragingly from time to time.
You had to be constantly holding Fay"s hand, or kissing her, or taking her in your arms if you were to make her feel that you loved her. The one light austere touch, the long grave look, that between reserved and sympathetic natures goes deeper than any caress, were nothing to Fay.
It was a long drive to Lostford, and to-day it seemed interminable.
The lonely chalk road seemed to stretch forever across the down. Now and then a few heavily-matted, fatigued-looking sheep, hustled by able-bodied lambs, got in the way. The postman, horn on shoulder, pa.s.sed them on his way to Priesthope with the papers.
Once a man on a horse cantered past across the gra.s.s at some distance.
Magdalen recognised Wentworth on Conrad. She saw him turn into the bridle path that led to Priesthope. He had then just returned from London.
"He is on his way to see Fay," said Magdalen to herself, "and he is actually in a hurry. How interested he must be in the ardour of his own emotions at this moment. He will have a delightful ride, and he can a.n.a.lyse his feelings of disappointment at not seeing her, on his way home to tea."
Magdalen glanced at Fay, but she still lay back with closed eyes. She had not seen that pa.s.sing figure.
Magdalen"s mind followed Wentworth.
"Does she realise the complications that must almost certainly ensue with Wentworth directly her confession is made?
"Will her first step towards a truer life, her first action of reparation estrange him from her?"
The Bishop was pacing up and down in the library at Lostford, waiting for Magdalen and Fay, when the servant brought in the day"s papers. He took them up instantly with the alertness of a man who can only make time for necessary things by seizing every spare moment.
"Oh! you two wicked women," he said as he opened the _Times_. "Why are you late? Why are you late?"
They were only five minutes late.
His swift eye travelled from column to column. Suddenly his attention was arrested. He became absorbed. Then he laid down the paper, and said below his breath "Thank G.o.d."
At that moment Magdalen and Fay were announced.
For a second it seemed as if the Bishop had forgotten them. Then he recollected and went forward to meet them. He knew that only a matter of supreme urgency could have made Magdalen word her telegram as she had worded it, and when he caught sight of Fay"s face he realised that she was in jeopardy.
All other preoccupations fell from him instantly. He welcomed them gravely, almost in silence.
The sisters sat down close together on a sofa. Fay"s trembling hand put up her long black veil, and then sought Magdalen"s hand, which was ready for it.
There was a short silence. Magdalen looked earnestly at her sister.
Fay"s face became suddenly convulsed.
"Fay is in great trouble," said Magdalen. "She has come to tell you about it. She has suffered very much."
"I can see that," said the Bishop.
"I wish to confess," said Fay in a smothered voice.
"That is a true instinct," said the Bishop. "G.o.d puts it into our hearts to confess when we are unhappy so that we may be comforted. When we come to see that we have done less well than we might have done--then we need comfort."
Fay looked from him to Magdalen with wide, hardly human eyes, like some tiny trapped animal between two executioners.
The Bishop"s heart contracted.
Poor, poor little thing!
"Would you like to see me alone, my child?" he said, seeing a faint trembling like that of a b.u.t.terfly beginning in her. "All you say to me will be under the seal of confession. It will never pa.s.s my lips."
It was Magdalen"s turn to become pale.
"Shall I go?" she said, looking fixedly at her sister.