Lord Lossiemouth divined that each of the three believed him or herself to be the only one to tackle the subject.
How ghastly! What a cruelly good short story it would make for a magazine!
Then he read Lady Blore"s letter. Apparently it was not pleasant reading. It seemed to p.r.i.c.k somewhat sharply. He winced once or twice, and spoke angrily to it.
"My good woman, as if I did not _know_ that! Men are always behaving heartlessly to women in their opinion. It is the normal male state. It is an established fact that we are all brutes. Why do you want me to marry your paragon if you have such a low opinion of me?"
Still he could not put the letter down.
"It is possible though improbable," wrote that dauntless woman, "that your vacillating and selfish character may have improved sufficiently in the course of years for you to have become aware that you have behaved disgracefully to a woman, who, if she had had any sense, ought never to have given you a second thought, who was and still is deeply attached to you; probably the only person on this earth who has the misfortune to care two pins about you."
Lord Lossiemouth tried to feel sarcastic. He tried to laugh. But it was no use. Lady Blore"s arrow had penetrated a joint in his harness.
After all he need take no notice of any of these monstrous effusions.
He was disgusted with opening letters. Nevertheless he hurried on.
Perhaps he should find others less intolerable.
A somewhat formal letter from his cousin the Bishop of Lostford, who had never been cordial to him since his engagement to Magdalen had been broken off. The Bishop pointed out certain grave abuses connected with house property at Lostford, at which the late Lord Lossiemouth had persistently connived, but which he hoped his successor might enquire into personally and redress.
Quant.i.ties of other letters were torn open and aimed in b.a.l.l.s at the empty grate. But at last he came to a long one which he read breathlessly.
It was from the mother of the girl who had so recently refused him, an involved tortuous epistle, which implied that the daughter was seriously attached to him, and hinted that if he were to come forward again he would not be refused a second time. There was also a short, wavering, nondescript note with nothing in particular in it from the girl herself.
The mother had evidently made her write.
A very venomous expression settled on Lord Lossiemouth"s heavy face. He suddenly took up a Bradshaw and looked out the trains for Lostford.
CHAPTER XXVIII
Tard oublie qui bien aime.
On this momentous afternoon Magdalen was sitting alone in the morning-room at Priesthope somewhat oppressed by an oncoming cold. It had not yet reached the violent and weeping stage. That was for to-morrow. She, who was generally sympathetically dressed, was reluctantly enveloped in a wiry red crochet-work shawl which Bessie had made for her, and had laid resolutely upon her shoulders before she went out.
She tried to read, but her eyes ached, and after a time she laid down her book, and her mind went back, as it had a way of doing--to Fay.
Fay had told her as "a great secret" that she had accepted Wentworth.
She was so transfigured by happiness, so radiant, so absolutely unlike her former listless, colourless, carping self that Magdalen could only suppose that two shocks of joy had come simultaneously, the discovery that she loved her prim suitor, and the overwhelming relief to her tortured conscience of Michael"s release.
Wentworth and Michael were still at Venice. Michael, it seemed, had been prostrated by excitement, and had been too weak to travel immediately.
But they would be at Barford in a few days" time.
When Magdalen saw Fay entirely absorbed in trying on a succession of new summer hats, sent for from London in preparation for Wentworth"s return, she asked herself for the twentieth time whether Fay had entirely forgotten her previous attraction for Michael, or that there might be some awkwardness in meeting her faithful lover and servant again, especially as the future wife of his brother.
Two years had certainly elapsed since that sudden flare-up of disastrous pa.s.sion, and in two years much can be forgotten. But after two years everything may still be remembered, as Magdalen knew well. And she feared that Michael was among those who remember.
Magdalen had that day told Fay of her father"s intention of marrying again, but she took almost no notice of the announcement. To use one of Aunt Aggie"s metaphors, the news "seemed to slide off her back like a duck."
She only said, "Really! How silly of him!"
As Magdalen thought of Fay the door opened and Bessie, who was supposed to have gone for a walk, came in.
She had a spray of crab-apple blossom in her hand. She held it towards Magdalen as if it were a bill demanding instant payment. These little amenities were a new departure on Bessie"s part.
Magdalen"s pleasure in the apple blossom seemed to her somewhat exaggerated, but she made allowances for her, as she had a cold.
"Are you going out again?" asked Magdalen.
"No."
"Then I should like to have a little talk with you. I have something to tell you."
Bessie sat down.
"I am prepared for the announcement you have to make. I have seen it coming. It is about Fay."
"No, it is about Father. He has asked me to tell you that he is engaged to be married."
"Father!"
"Yes, it is not given out yet."
"Father!"
"It is to a Miss Barnett. You may have seen her. The doctor"s sister at Saundersfoot."
"I know her by sight, a tall, showy-looking woman of nearly forty, with amber hair and a powdered nose."
"Yes."
"Father has sunk very low," said Bessie, judicially. "He must have been refused by a lot of others, younger and better-looking, and ladies, to be reduced to taking her. And fancy anyone in their senses being willing to take Father, with his gout, and his tendency to drink, and his total disregard of hygiene. Well, she looks a vulgar pushing woman, but I am sorry for her. And I must own that I am disappointed that if there was to be an engagement in our family it should be Father. There is not likely to be more than one going for a home like ours. It is just like him to grab it."
Magdalen tried not to laugh.
"I"ve looked round," continued Bessie. "I don"t say that at present I could entertain the thought of marriage myself. I can"t just yet, but I mean to in the future. It"s merely a question of time. Marriage is the higher life. Besides, if one remains unmarried people are apt to think it is because one can"t help it. It would certainly be so in my case.
And I have looked round. There is not a soul in the neighbourhood for any of us to marry that I can see except Wentworth, who is of course extremely elderly. Hampshire seems absolutely bare of young men. And if there are a few sons in some of the houses, they are never accessible.
And the really superior ones like Lord Alresford"s only son would never look at me. It would be waste of time to try. There is positively no opening in Hampshire unless I marry the curate."
"That reminds me that he is to call this afternoon about the boot-and-shoe club. I wish, my dear, in the intervals between your aspirations towards the higher life, you would go through the accounts with him. My head is so confused with this cold."
"I will. And where on earth are you going to live when Father marries again? Of course, I shall graduate at Cambridge. He won"t oppose that now. Magdalen, why don"t you marry, too?"
"I can"t, dear Bessie. No one wants me."
"May I go on?"