Michael looked a moment at her, and swiftly left the room. He overtook Wentworth in the hall, groping blindly for his hat.
"Come in here," said Michael, "I want a word with you," and he half pushed Wentworth into a room leading out of the hall. It was a dreary little airless apartment with a broken blind, intended for a waiting-room but fallen into disuse, and only partially furnished, the corners piled with great tin boxes containing episcopal correspondence.
Michael closed the door.
"Wentworth," he said breathlessly, "you don"t see. You don"t understand.
Fay loves you." He looked earnestly at Wentworth as if the latter were acting in some woeful ignorance, which one word would set right. He seemed entirely oblivious of Wentworth"s insulting words towards himself.
"I see one thing," said Wentworth, "and that is that I"m not inclined to marry your cast-off mistress."
Michael closed with him instantly, but not before Wentworth had seen the lightning in his eyes; and the two men struggled furiously in the dim, airless little room with its broken blind.
Wentworth knew Michael meant to kill him. The long, scarred hands had him by the throat, were twisting themselves in the silk tie Fay had knitted for him. He tore himself out of the grip of those iron fingers.
But Michael only sobbed and wound his arms round him. And Wentworth knew he was trying to throw him, and break his back.
Wentworth fought for his life, but he was over-matched. The awful, murderous hands were feeling for his neck again, the sobbing breath was on his face, the glaring eyes staring into his. The hands closed on his throat once more, squeezing his tongue out of his mouth, his eyes out of his head. He made a last frightful struggle to wrench the hands away.
But they remained clutched into his flesh, choking his life out of him.
There was a thin, guttural, sawing noise mixed in with the sobbing. Then all in a moment the sobbing ceased, he felt the hands relax, and then an avalanche of darkness crashed down on him, and buried him beneath it.
CHAPTER x.x.xVI
That game of consequences to which we all sit down, the hanger-back not least.--R. L. STEVENSON.
Down, very deep down. Buried in an abyss of darkness, shrouded tightly in a nameless horror that pressed on eyes and breath and hands and limbs.
At last a faint sound reached Wentworth. Far away in some other world a clock struck. His numbed faculties apprehended the sound, and then forgot it when it ceased.
At last he felt himself stir. He found himself staring at a glimmer of light. He could not look at it, and he could not look away from it. What was it? It had something to do with him. It grew more distinct. It was a window with a broken blind.
Someone close at hand began to tremble. Wentworth sat up suddenly and found it was himself. He was alone, lying crumpled up against the wall where he had been flung down. He knew where he was. He saw the piles of tin boxes. He remembered.
He leaned his leaden throbbing head against the wall, and wave after wave of sickness even unto death shuddered over him. Michael had tried to kill him. His stiff wrenched throat throbbed together with his head.
For a long time he did not move.
At last the clock struck again.
He staggered to his feet as if he had been called, and looked with intentness at a fallen book and upset inkstand. There was a quill pen balancing itself in an absurd manner with its nib stuck in the cane bottom of an overturned chair. He took it out and laid it on the table.
He saw his hat in a corner, stooped for it, missed it several times, and then got hold of it, and put it on. There was a little gla.s.s over the mantelpiece. A ghastly face with a torn collar was watching him furtively through it. He turned fiercely on the spy and found the face was his own. He turned up his coat and b.u.t.toned it. Then he went to the half-open door and looked out.
His ear caught a faint sound. Otherwise the house was very still.
A maid servant on her knees with her back to him was washing the white stone floor of the hall at the foot of the staircase. Another servant, also with her back to him, was watching her.
"Then it is early morning," he said. And he walked out of the room, and out of the house, through the wide open doors. A fine rain was falling, but he did not notice it. He pa.s.sed out through the gates and found himself in the road. He stopped unconsciously, not knowing what to do next.
A fly dawdling back to the town from the station, pa.s.sed him, and pulled up, as he hesitated.
"Station, sir?" said the driver.
"No, Barford," said Wentworth, and he got in. The fly with its faded cushions and musty atmosphere seemed a kind of refuge. He breathed more freely when he was enclosed in it.
As in the garden of Eden desolation often first makes itself felt as a realisation of nakedness. We must creep away. We must hide. We have no protection, no covering.
Wentworth cowered in the fly. He pa.s.sed without recognising them all the old familiar landmarks, the twisting white road that branched off to Priesthope, the dew ponds, the half hidden, lonely farms. He was in a strange country.
He looked with momentary curiosity at a weather-worn sign post which pointed forlornly where four roads met. It was falling to pieces with age, but yet it must have been put up there since the morning. He had never seen it before. He shouted to the driver that he had taken the wrong road. The man pointed with his whip to where, a mile away, the smoke of Barford rose among its trees. The landscape suddenly slid into familiar lines again. He recognised it, and sank back, confused and exhausted. The effort of speaking had hurt his throat horribly. Was he going mad? How could his throat hurt him like this--if it wasn"t--if Michael had not----
He thrust thought from him. He would wait till he got home, till his own roof was safely over him, the familiar walls round him.
This was his gate. Here was his own door, with his butler looking somewhat surprised, standing on the steps.
He found himself getting out, and giving orders. He listened to himself telling the servant to pay the fly and to send word by it to his dog-cart to return home. Of course he had gone to Lostford in the dog-cart. He had forgotten that.
Then he heard his own voice ordering a whiskey and soda to be brought to him in the library. And he walked there.
The afternoon post had arrived with the newspapers and he took up a paper. But it was printed in some language unknown to him, though he recognised some of the letters.
How long had he been gone, an hour, a day, a year?
He looked at the clock.
Half-past two. But this great shock with which the air was still rocking might have stopped it. He put his ear to it. Strange! It was going. And it always stopped so easily, even if the housemaid dusted it.
Was it half-past two in the afternoon or in the night?
There was a band of sunshine across the floor and outside the gardens and the downs were steeped in it.
Perhaps it was day.
The butler brought in a tray, and placed it near him.
"Have you had luncheon, sir?"
Wentworth thought a moment, and then said "yes."
"And will Mr. Michael return to-day, sir?"
Wentworth remembered some old, old prehistoric arrangement by which Michael was to have come back with him to Barford this afternoon.
"No," he said, the room suddenly darkening till the sunshine on the floor was barely visible. "No. He is not coming back."
The man hesitated a moment, and then left the room.
Wentworth groped for the flagon of whiskey, poured out a quant.i.ty, and drank it raw. Then he waited for the nightmare to lift.