A faint ray of comfort presently came to her at the thought that Michael"s innocence might after all come to light. It might be proved in spite of himself.
She would pray incessantly that the real murderer might give himself up, or that suspicion should fall on him, and he should be dragged to justice. And then, if--_after all_--Michael were convicted and his life endangered, then she _must_ speak. But--not till then. Not now when all might yet go well without her confession.... And it was not as if she were guilty of unfaithfulness. She had not done anything wrong beyond imprudence. Yes, she had certainly been imprudent; that she saw. But she had done nothing _wrong_. It could not be right to confess to what in public opinion amounted to unfaithfulness on her part, and dishonourable conduct on his, when it was not so. They were both innocent. It would be telling a lie to let anyone think either of them could be guilty of such a sordid crime. It looked sordid now. Why should she drag down his name with hers into the mud--unless it were absolutely necessary.... And she must remember how distressed Michael would be if she said a word, if she flung her good name from her, which he had risked all to save. Some semblance of calm returned to her, as she thus reached the only conclusion which the bias of her mind would permit. The stream ran docilely in the little groove cut out for it.
During the days and weeks that followed Fay shut herself up, and prayed incessantly for Michael.
She prayed all through the interminable interval before the trial.
"If it goes against him, I will speak," she said.
Yet all the time Michael who loved her knew that she would not speak.
Her husband who could have loved her, and who watched her struggle with compa.s.sion, knew that she would not speak. Only Fay who did not know herself believed that she would speak.
The day came when the duke gravely informed her that Michael was found guilty of murder.
Fay"s prayers it seemed had not availed. She prayed no more. There was no help in G.o.d. Probably there was no G.o.d to pray to. Her sister Magdalen seemed to think there was. But how could she tell? Besides, Magdalen had such a calm temperament, and nothing had ever happened to make her unhappy, or to shake her faith. It was different for Magdalen.
Evidently there was no justice anywhere, only a blind chance. "The truth will out," Fay had said to herself over and over again. She had tried to have faith. But the truth had not come out. She was being pushed, pushed over the edge of the precipice. Oh, why had Michael fallen in love with her when they were boy and girl! She remembered with horror and disgust those early days, that exquisite dawn of young pa.s.sion in the time of primroses. It had brought her to _this_--to this horrible place of tears and shame and shuddering--to these wretched days and hideous nights. Oh, why, why, had he loved her! Why had she let herself love him!
Suddenly she said to herself, "They may reprieve him yet. If his sentence is not commuted to imprisonment I will speak, so help me G.o.d I will."
It could never be known whether she would have kept that oath, for the next day she heard that Michael had been sentenced to fifteen years"
imprisonment. Why had Andrea been so cruel as to let her imagine for a whole horrible night that Michael"s would be a death sentence, when in Italy it seemed there was no capital punishment as in England? It was just like Andrea to torture her needlessly! When the sentence reached her Fay drew breath. The horrible catastrophe had been averted. To a man of Michael"s temperament the living grave to which he was consigned was infinitely worse than death. But what was Michael"s temperament to Fay?
She shut her eyes to the cell of an Italian prison. Michael would live, and in time the truth would come to light, and he would be released.
She impressed this conviction with tears on his half-brother Wentworth Maine, the kind, silent elder brother, Michael"s greatest friend, who had come out to Italy to be near him, and who heard sentence given against him with a set face, and an unshaken belief in his innocence.
Even to Wentworth Michael had said nothing, could be induced to say no word. He confessed to the murder. That was all.
Wentworth, who had never seen Fay before, as she had married just before he came to live at his uncle"s place in Hampshire near Fay"s home, saw the marks of grief in her lovely face, and was unconsciously drawn towards her. He was shy as only men can be; but he almost forgot it in her sympathetic presence. She came into his isolated, secluded life at the moment when the barriers of his instinctive timidity and apathy were broken down by his first real trouble. And he was grateful to her for having done her best to save Michael.
"I shall never forget that," he said, when he came to bid her good-bye.
"There are very few women who would have had the courage and unselfishness to act as you did."
Fay winced and paled, and he took his leave, bearing away with him a grave admiration for this delicate, sensitive creature, so full of tender compa.s.sion for him and Michael.
He made no attempt to see her again when he returned to Italy some months later to visit Michael in prison. To visit Fay on that occasion would have taken him somewhat out of his way, and Wentworth never went out of his way, not out of principle, but because such a course never occurred to him. He would have liked to see her, in order to tell her about Michael"s condition, and also to deliver in person a message which Michael had sent to Fay by him. But when he realised that a detour would be necessary in order to accomplish this, he wrote to Fay to tell her with deep regret that it was impossible for him to see her, gave her Michael"s message, and returned to England by the way he came.
Nevertheless, he often thought of her, for she was inextricably a.s.sociated with the unspeakable trouble of his life, his brother"s living death.
When all was over, and the last sod had--so to speak--been cast upon that living grave, Fay tried to take up her life again. But she could not. She had lost heart. She dared not be alone. She shunned society. At her earnest request her sister Magdalen came out to her for a time, from the home in England, into which she was wedged so tightly. But even Magdalen"s calm presence brought no calm with it, and the deepening friendship between her sister and her husband only irritated Fay.
Everything irritated Fay. She was ill at ease, restless, feebly sarcastic, impatient.
There is a peace which pa.s.ses understanding, and there is an unpeace which pa.s.ses understanding also. Fay did not know, would not know, why she was so troubled, so weary of life, so dest.i.tute of comfort.
Had she met the great opportunity of her life, the turning point, and missed it? I do not think so. It was not for her.
A year later the duke died.
He made a dignified exit. An attack of vertigo to which he was liable came on when he was on horseback. He was thrown and dragged, and only survived a few days as by a miracle. His wife, who had seen little of him during the last year, saw still less of him during the days of his short illness. But when the end was close at hand he sent for her, and asked her to remain in a distant recess of his room during the painful hours.
"It will be a happier memory for you," he said gently to her between the paroxysms of suffering, "to think that you were there."
And so propped high in a great carved bedstead in the octagonal room where the Colle Altos were born, and where, when they could choose, they died, the duke lay awaiting the end.
He had received extreme unction. The chanting choir had gone. The priest had closed his pale fingers upon the crucifix, when he desired to be left alone with his wife.
She drew near timidly and stood beside his bed.
He bent his tranquil, kindly eyes upon her.
"Good-bye, my Francesca," he said. "May G.o.d and his angels protect you, and give you peace."
A belated compunction seized her.
"I wish I had been a better wife to you, Andrea," she said brokenly, laying her hand on his.
He made the ghost of a courteous, deprecating gesture, and raised her hand to his lips. The effort exhausted him. He closed his eyes and his hand fell out of hers.
Through the open window came a sudden waft of hot carnations, a long drawn breath of the rapturous Italian spring.
It reached the duke. He stirred slightly, and opened his eyes once more.
Once more they fell on Fay, and it seemed to her as if with the last touch of his cold lips upon her hand their relation of husband and wife had ceased. Even at that moment she realised with a sinking sense of impotence how slight her hold on him from first to last had been.
Clearly he had already forgotten it, pa.s.sed beyond it, would never remember it again.
"It is spring," he said, looking full at her with tender fixity, and for a moment she thought his mind was wandering. "Spring once more. The sun shines. He does not see them, the spring and the sunshine. Since a year he does not see them. Francesca, how much longer will you keep your cousin Michael in prison?"
And thereupon the duke closed his eyes on this world, and went upon his way.
CHAPTER VII
A bachelor"s an unfinished thing ... He wants somebody to listen to his talk.--EDEN PHILLPOTTS.
Reader, do you know Barford, in Hampshire? If you don"t, I can tell you how to get to it. You take train from Victoria, and you get out at Saundersfoot. There is nothing at Saundersfoot, except a wilderness of lodgings and a tin station and a high wind. It need not detain an active mind beyond the necessary moment of enquiring by which road it may be most quickly left. I cannot tell you who Saunders was, nor why the watering-place was called after his foot. But if you walk steadily away from it for five miles inland, along the white chalky road between the downs, you will arrive at the little village of Barford.
There is only one road, so you cannot miss your way. Little twisty lanes fretted with sheep-tracks drop down into it now and then from the broad-shouldered downs on either side, but take no notice of them. If you persevere, you will in due course see the village of Barford lying in front of you, which, at a little distance, looks as if it had been carelessly swept into a crease between the downs, while a few cottages and houses on the hillside seem to have adhered to the ground, and remained stuck where they were when the sweeping took place.
After you have pa.s.sed the pond and the post office, and before you reach the school, you will see a lodge, and an old Italian iron gateway, flanked by a set of white wooden k.n.o.bs planted in the ground on either side, held together by chains. The white k.n.o.bs are apparently there in order to upset carriages as they drive in or out. But very few carriages have driven in or out during the last two years, except those of the owner of Barford Manor, Wentworth Maine. Wentworth, since he inherited the place from his uncle five years ago, had always led a somewhat secluded life. But during the last two years, ever since his half-brother, Michael, had been sentenced and imprisoned in Italy, Wentworth had withdrawn himself even more from the society of his neighbours. He continued to shoot and hunt, and to do his duties as a magistrate and as a supporter of the Conservative party, but his thin, refined face had a certain worn, pinched look, which spoke of long tracts of solitary unhappiness. And the habit of solitude was growing on him.
The old Manor House, standing in its high-walled gardens, its sunny low rooms looking out across the down, seemed wrapped in an atmosphere of ancient peace, which consorted as ill with the present impression of the place as does old Gobelin tapestry with a careful modern patch upon its surface. The patch, however, adroitly copied, is seen to be an innovation.
The old house, which had known so much, had sheltered so much, had kept counsel so long, seemed to resent the artificial peace that its present owner had somewhat laboriously constructed round himself, within its mellow, ivied walls.
There is a fict.i.tious tranquillity which is always on the verge of being broken, which depends largely on uninterrupted hours, on confidential, velvet-shod servants, on a brooding dove in a cedar, on the absence of the inharmonious or jarring elements which pervade daily life.