Chapter 195: Chapter 195 Not Friend Arc- Not Friend
Translator: Doggotranslation
“No! Chu Nan, I am begging you, please don’t say that, okay?” Mo Fei squatted down and grabbed my wrist, eyes filled with tears, “I know I was wrong, I shouldn’t have deceived you. But, Chu Nan, I really treat you as my friend, the only friend. Can you please believe me?”
“Why should I?” I indifferently moved Mo Fei’s hand away, “Since you treat me as a friend, why were you lying to me?”
“I did not lie to you!” Mo Fei cried, “I never lied to you!”
Mo Fei was not a stupid person, but she was playing dumb with me! I chuckled, and the way I chuckled looked worse than crying, “You never lied to me? I don’t know why you even have the audacity to say this. Aren’t you lying to me now? !”
I got up angrily and walked to Mo Fei’s desk. Mo Fei was taken aback and then hurriedly got up and chased after me, screaming suddenly, “No!”
Mo Fei rushed toward the table, but unfortunately, it was still a step slower. I picked up the small picture frame placed on the table first, shook the only photo of her and her father, and asked harshly: “Why are you so nervous? Why don’t you want me to see this photo?”
Mo Fei sat on the ground feebly, sobbing with tears, “No. It’s not what you think it is. Chu Nan, it’s really not like that. . .”
Why was she still refusing to admit it? Obviously she knew it clearly that we couldn’t go back to the previous relationship anymore, why did she still force me to expose her scars? I couldn’t bring myself to forgive Mo Fei, who denied my existence, but I also couldn’t help but sympathize with her, so I didn’t want to humiliate her. She knew this clearly, but she still played dumb with me, it just made me even more furious. As my anger defeated my rationality, I laughed widely, “Not what I think it is? What am I thinking? Mo Fei, do you want to say that you didn’t use me as a subst.i.tute for your father?”
Mo Fei suddenly hugged my thigh, raised her crying face, and said, “I didn’t, I really didn’t!” However, how was she able to conceal the shame on her face?
“If you just simply deceived me, I could forgive you, because we were friends! But, when I found out that in your eyes, I was only a subst.i.tute, a subst.i.tute, can you imagine my feeling at that time? I felt like a doll you created, a character that you could play with at will! In order to satisfy your delusion and to help you from escaping from reality, you obliterated the existence of Chu Nan! In your eyes, there is only the shadow of your father. Have I ever truly existed in your heart before? Since that was the case, how were you able to treat me as a friend? ”
I broke away from Mo Fei’s hug and shook my head feebly, “That’s enough, I am tired of this. Whether you lied to me or played me, it doesn’t matter anymore, I won’t continue to play this boring house game with you. You should accept reality and live bravely, and I will face reality honestly. Mo Fei, we have never been friends, nor will we become friends.”
“No! I don’t want it!” Mo Fei pleaded like crazy: “Chu Nan, we are friends! I know that I shouldn’t lie to you, but I really haven’t denied your existence. Please, I am begging you, you can hit me or scold me, but don’t say such cold-hearted words to me, okay? ”
“For the friendship that has never existed, how can you say that what I said is cold-hearted?” I smiled bitterly. Looking at the sad face covered with tears, I could no longer suppress the sadness in my heart, and said weakly and decisively: “Mo Fei, who is one that is being cold-hearted here? And who is the one that is hurt here? Stop acting like a kid, because I’ve never been as tolerant as you thought. Don’t let your tears drip on my wound, okay?”
Mo Fei was stunned, and her hand trying to grab my hand froze in the air.
“The Mo Fei I used to know was a strong woman. Even if she had a mother who loved to cause troubles for her and didn’t care about her, even if she was facing the troubles of the company alone, she would still hold her head up high like a proud swan and live tenaciously. I hope these things, which I saw personally, were not fake.” I bid farewell to this once beautiful secret love, without any nostalgia, “you didn’t lose anything, because I was never your friend, so you don’t have any reasons to shed tears. . . Goodbye.”
When I took Xiao Yike out of the study, Wu Xueqing, who was leaning against the door outside trying to eavesdrop on the conversation, almost fell to the ground when I opened the door. She could hear our conversation clearly, so she didn’t know what to say to me, “Chu Nan. . .”
“If she had not lacked the love and warmth of her family, what happened today would not have happened,” I said coldly to Wu Xueqing, who was clearly ashamed: “I’m just a subst.i.tute, but you’re not. In the future. . . Take care of yourself, and if you don’t want to see what happened today again, take responsibility as a mother.”
“I. . .” Wu Xueqing glanced at her daughter distressedly and muttered regretfully: “I thought you just looked a little bit like him, and it was just a coincidence. After all, your age. . .”
Wu Xueqing was referring to the father of Mo Fei. It was not difficult to tell from her words that the similarity between her ex-husband and me seemed to be only a little bit. However, probably because it was the comparison between the photo and the real person, so the degree of similarity was increased.
In addition, I was only two years younger than Mo Fei, so Wu Xueqing, who was most familiar with Mo Fei’s father, did not notice her daughter’s abnormality in advance, or maybe, even if she did, she still would not expect that Mo Fei would treat me as a subst.i.tute for her father. After all, if Mo Fei treated me as a subst.i.tute for his father, wouldn’t she treat me and Wu Xueqing as a couple? If I were Wu Xueqing, I would definitely try my best to avoid this absurd thought. This was also one of the reasons why I was extremely angry now.
The human mind was very strange sometimes. . .
“Bye.”
I had already said what should be said. Even though it was very difficult, it was time to get rid of this kind of relationship completely. From now on, we were strangers. Wu Xueqing also understood this, so she didn’t continue to beg for anything, but ran into the study quickly, trying to help Mo Fei, who was sitting on the floor crying, to get up.
When I went downstairs, I heard Mo Fei kept talking to herself in the study.
“No, it’s not what you think it is, it’s really not what you think it is. . .”
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When I got home and opened the door, Chu Yuan, who heard the movement, charged toward me with the kitchen knife murderously, “Where did you go? Why was your phone not on? Why did you just come back now?”
For goodness’ sake; seeing that the gleaming kitchen knife was being waved in front of my eyes, it really terrified me. I seemed to be able to feel the coldness of the blade when it moved past my face a few times. It scared me into taking a step back, “Yuan Yuan, calm down, I just came back a little bit late, there is no need to use the kitchen knife, is there?”
“Kitchen knife?” Chu Yuan seemed to notice the dangerous tool in her hand, her face blushed, and she said with an awkward smile: “I was cooking when I heard the noise, so. . . Huh? Sister b.o.o.by? Why are you with my elder brother?”
“Hey~, Yuan Yuan, long time no see,” Xiao Yike came out from behind me and wanted to give Chu Yuan a hug, but when she saw the tool in her hand, she gave up. “There’s no one in my house, so I came out to buy something to eat. I just happened to meet uncle on the way, so I came here with him. Hehe, I am here to scrounge a free meal, you wouldn’t mind it, would you?”
This was the result of my ‘deal’ with the little minx. She kept the secret for me, and I promised her that she could stay overnight at my flat tonight. . .
Mo Fei had deceived me in order to satisfy her own desires, it made me feel disgusted with her dishonesty. However, when it comes to Xiao Yike, who was extremely honest, although she was also trying to satisfy her own desires, I didn’t know how to deal with her. Maybe, this girl was scarier than Mo Fei. . .
Chu Yuan hurriedly hid the dangerous kitchen knife behind her, and said with joy: “why would I mind it? You are more than welcome to come here at any time. Sister b.o.o.by, please come in.”
I always found it strange that Chu Yuan seemed to admire Xiao Yike especially, but I didn’t know what Xiao Yike had that was worth admiring.
“Yuan Yuan, why did you come to the door in such a hurry, what’s the matter? Something happened?”
Chu Yuan took the initiative to take the briefcase in my hand, and said sullenly, “Nothing. It’s just that Cheng Liusu said that she couldn’t get through to you, so she called me.”
“Really?” my heart trembled, but I pretended to be calm on the surface: “Did she say anything?”