Chapter 1862: I Realized That I Could Not Do It
Like a bomb, that message exploded in Tang Xiaoyu’s mind. At that time, all she wanted to do was to escape from this man and Pei Ge, whom she had always regarded as her best friend and kin.
However, after escaping for so long, she realized that all of this was just her own wishful thinking. No matter where she went, she was still concerned about these two people.
One was protective of her, and the other loved her deeply.
These two people had given her the happiest time of her life, but they were also the ones who gave her the misfortune and pain later on in life. How could she not think about how many drugs they had drugged her with? How could she not feel the hatred in her heart after such betrayal?
“Ge Ge, I once thought that I wanted to leave you and never see you again, but I realized that I couldn’t do it at all. I couldn’t not care about you. I couldn’t not check on you to see if you were always happy. I couldn’t hate you as much as I thought I could.”
Tang Xiaoyu pulled Pei Ge over and rested her chin on her shoulder. Looking at the huge Chinese parasol tree behind her, she said, “Ge Ge, do you know? No matter how much I hate Gu Zhengrong, I won’t hate you. I know how you’ve lived through all these years. I know what Ji Ziming and the three children mean in your heart. I’d rather believe that what I saw was Gu Zhengrong’s own wishful thinking. However, Ge Ge, do you know how painful it is to look at the person you like and your best friend?”
“Silly girl, I know. I know the pain in your heart. I know that you, silly girl, have never been willing to tell me your true thoughts. It’s my fault too. I didn’t contact you much after I returned to the country. If I cared more about you, this wouldn’t have happened.”
Pei Ge hugged Tang Xiaoyu tightly, worried that this silly girl would do something else without her knowing.
“Ge Ge, I really don’t want to experience that feeling a second time. I really feel terrible. When I saw that message, I realized that I’m nothing in his heart. I washed his clothes, cooked for him, and helped him with his job to the best of my abilities, but in his heart, you’re the only one he cares about. What exactly is love? Isn’t love supposed to be sweet? Why can’t I feel it? Why is it so sour?”
Tang Xiaoyu’s tears finally started streaming down her face. She looked at the sky across the thick Chinese parasol tree, and her vision became exceptionally clear. How did all of this happen so easily?
But what was love? It was sweet, sour, bitter and astringent. It had so many flavors. Which one was it?
Perhaps love had many flavors. It was only sweet when one loved the right person.
If one loved the wrong person, one would only feel sourness.
“Xiaoyu, in my heart, you are unique. No one in this world can be compared to you. If Gu Zhengrong doesn’t want to cherish you, you will meet someone else who will. G.o.d is fair. He has hurt you so much, there will be someone who will accept your temper and your willfulness and unreasonable tantrums. Xiaoyu, don’t worry. Gu Zhengrong will regret not cheris.h.i.+ng you sooner or later.”
Pei Ge looked at the stars in the sky and felt her heart turn cold.
How much did Gu Zhengrong hurt Tang Xiaoyu? If not, why would he let such a good lady suffer so much pain? Why did he distance himself from everything related to him?
Why was the right person not here yet? It was as if Pei Ge was lying.
“But, Ge Ge, it’s too late. I can’t wait for the right person.”
Tang Xiaoyu closed her eyes as the tears on her face became more obvious.
“What’s wrong with you, Xiaoyu? Tell me, what’s wrong with you? Are you really sick? Don’t be afraid, I’ll get Ji Ziming to find the best doctor to treat you. I’ll…”
“I’m not sick; I’m pregnant with his child.”
Pei Ge supported Tang Xiaoyu and looked at her seriously. “Xiaoyu, is what you said true? You didn’t contact me after coming back because you had Gu Zhengrong’s child?”
Pei Ge frowned and looked at Tang Xiaoyu nervously.
If Gu Zhengrong still had a trace of affection for Pei Ge because he was the man Tang Xiaoyu loved the most, it was all gone now. Only the truth that Tang Xiaoyu had just said was more important to her.
“Yes. When I first returned to the country, I thought that as long as I could calm down for a few days, I would come to look for you. But before I came to look for you, I went to the hospital for a physical examination. The doctor told me that I was already pregnant. I had no choice but to wait for the baby to be born before coming to look for you.”
The tears on Tang Xiaoyu’s face were no longer obvious. Pei Ge reached out and gently wiped them off her cheeks. This had been weighing on her heart for too long.
“Silly la.s.s, why didn’t you tell me when you found out about your pregnancy? If you had told me, I would have shared the burden with you. You wouldn’t have had to work so hard to take care of your child alone in the capital. Not only do you want to hide from me and Ji Ziming, but you also have to take good care of your child. Xiaoyu, you silly la.s.s.”
Pei Ge touched Tang Xiaoyu’s cheek. This silly girl was always like this. When faced with love and friends.h.i.+p, she did not have the courage to give up or face one of them.
It was precisely because of this that Pei Ge’s heart ached even more. How long would it take for her to realize that Tang Xiaoyu was living alone in the capital with such a big secret?
“It’s not that I don’t want to look for you; it’s just that I really can’t find you. I went to the Ji family’s villa and waited for you at the entrance for a whole day, but you didn’t come. I know that your company has been busy recently, and I also know that I might not be able to help, but I wanted to tell you. However, I couldn’t turn on my phone because I knew you would find me.”
Tang Xiaoyu looked into Pei Ge’s eyes and said gently, “You know me. I don’t care about anything. You know me.”