「 No! Never!! I’m Yoshi-kun’s fiance!!! I’m a special one!!! I’m different from everyone1
Pure Love x Insult Complex Chapter 752. Beginner’s s.e.x.
Hmmm, where did I hear this line again 」
Looking at Megu screaming, Kana-senpai;
「 lol. You really are quite the woman unlike other 」
She looked at me and smiled.
「 It’s all wasted n.o.bu. You can’t threaten or soothe her. Not even detailed logic goes through her. After all, all she thinks about is her ‘women’s instinct’ 」
Women’s instinct.
「 She doesn’t think deeply, and she just lives with her emotion 」
Kana-senpai sends Megu a glance.
「 Nei-san, the Kouzuki ladies, and Edie-san, these girls are too smart. Therefore, they try to feel out the other person’s feelings to read the situation. Consequently, they can suppress their emotions and talk logically. That’s the reason why I was willing to accept their offer. I can trust them. I know that they’re making a proposal that won’t hurt them or me 」
Misuzu, Nei, showed Kana-senpai that becoming my s.e.x slave is a privilege. First and before everything else.
Then, Katsuko-nee said that she can take as much branded items as she wanted.
And even if Kana-senpai got permission, she didn’t take too much from Katsuko-nee’s stash.
She knows how to do it moderately.
She concluded that she’ll be with us for a long time and so it’s better to not be greedy.
「 I’m quite the calculating girl, but they do many precise calculations. And I think that’s cool 」
Kana-senpai said.
Well, yes. But,
It’s Minaho-neesan’s method of thinking about how to make a fair deal without looking down on the other party.
Nei and Misuzu are just following Minaho-neesan’s example.
But, of course, Kana-senpai thinking that they’re smart girls is correct.
「 And in that regard, you’re a failure 」
Kana-senpai looked down on Megu.
「 I don’t know why you’re so confident that you won’t be discarded, but to think that you want to be n.o.bu’s “special” woman with that kind of att.i.tude, are you crazy? 」
Megu fell silent.
「 I don’t get it. The Kouzuki ladies and Nei-san are among the best women I’ve met, they have good self-control when talking to me, but it feels strange that a girl with childish emotions like you are allowed here. Who spoiled this girl? 」
Well.
「 No, Megu’s also holding down her feelings since childhood 」
Born inside the brothel, raised as the adopted child of Yamamine house. Then Yukino and the Shirasaka house has bullied her for a long time.
「 Now that all of Megu’s problems holding her back were resolved, she finally starts to let out her emotions 」
Oh.
I see it now.
With Shirasaka Sousuke dead, Yukino can no longer threaten Megu.
Minaho-neesan also takes care of Megu as she’s the daughter of the prost.i.tute who took care of her.
Megu started living with us.
She’s able to live a life where she’s free to do what she wants for the first time in her life.
「 I wonder? But even so, I don’t think that her current state is any better 」
Kana-senpai said.
「 I think so too. After all, Megu-oneechan’s not the only one holding back her emotions since she was a child 」
Mana.
「 Misuzu-oneechan, Ruri-oneechan, Nei-oneechan are also the same. I know 」
Misuzu and Ruriko lived a tensed life as the successors of the Kouzuki house. A n.o.ble among n.o.bles.
Nei’s family were murdered, and she was kidnapped and confined by a criminal in the U.S.
「 But they’re not as selfish as Megu-oneechan. They still hold back their emotions even now. Everyone thinks of monopolizing Onii-chan, and yet they believe that it’s for the best if we live together in harmony! 」
Mana tells Megu.
「 That alone shows the difference in the sense of purpose compared to Megumi 」
Edie?
「 Nei, Misuzu, all the other girls love Darling, and that’s why they want to make the family focused on Darling. They all are hungry for a family after all 」
That’s right, we’re a family.
We open up to each other and want a relationship where we can live with peace of mind.
「 Then, that’s still in progress. We’re still int he middle of our struggle to make the ideal family. That’s why everyone’s holding back on various things. We’re still in the middle of the dream after all 」
Edie’s right.
My bakery, Kouzuki SS activities, Minaho-neesan’s brothel reopening.
These are all actions to create an environment where our family and we can live in peace.
That environment isn’t complete yet.
Therefore, we work on it every day.
We suppress our urges for the sake of the family.
「 But Megu’s different. She’s the only one who doesn’t think that the family is essential 」
「 That’s not true! I!! 」
Megu tries to refuse in panic, but,
「 Nononono. Megumi, you hardly have the same hunger for a family like us. Therefore, you don’t feel impatient, and you think that this is enough. You don’t believe that you have to work hard to reach your ideals 」
Edie said.
「 I see, Megu-oneechan has a family after all 」
「 Mana? 」
「 Not that I’m blaming you. Mana knows that Yamamine-san are good people, and they’re Megumi-oneechan’s father and mother. Though it’s not by blood 」
That’s right, Megu;
She grew up loved by her adoptive parents.
「 I can’t live without this family. I need to stay by Onii-chan’s side. Misuzu-oneechan and everyone is also the same. They all lived in solitude and was saved from it when they met Onii-chan. Therefore, they don’t want Onii-chan to hate them, and they’ll accept those Onii-chan saved as a family just like themselves 」
Mana looks at Luna.
「 Last night, Megu-oneechan’s the only one against accepting Luna-chan and the girls to the family. I now understand why you were displeased about it. Megu-oneechan’s different than us. You don’t treasure the family, and you want to keep Onii-chan for yourself and run away 」
「 I-I 」
Megu’s idea of family is different than everyone?
「 But you can’t do that. Onii-chan is with Mana and everyone. He also wants to have a family, he can’t be with just Megu-oneechan 」
Mana said.
「 Look, there’s something I really don’t understand 」
Kana-senpai asks me about Megu.
「 How did this girl become so dependent on n.o.bu? Mana-chan’s having a serene relationship with you, and yet this girl’s the only one-sided among your girls, right? All I see her clinging and depending on n.o.bu 」
「 It’s a bit different from dependence 」
Edie replies instead of me.
「 Darling, do you get what Megumi’s problem is? 」
Everyone looked at me.
「 I know, it’s insecurity 」
I replied.
「 Mana said earlier that Megu’s not hungry for a family. That’s true, but that’s not all of it either. It’s just one of the reasons 」
Megu stares at me.
The biggest reason why Megu’s still loose within the family is that,
The reason why she’s fixated about monopolizing me is,
「 Megu’s feeling insecure towards everyone 」
「 E-Everyone? Who? 」
Megu replies in a weak voice.
「 Everyone means everyone. Minaho-neesan, Katsuko-nee, Nagisa, Margo-san, Shou-neechan, Rei-chan, anyway, you feel insecure towards the adults, don’t you?
I continue,
「 Then, Nei, Misuzu, and Ruriko. You’re not good at dealing with Michi. Nor Agnes 」
I’ve never seen Michi and Megu talk like they’re close friends.
She never gets in gear with Agnes.
Both of them have strong personalities.
Michi’s a j.a.panese-styled beauty, and Agnes is a Western-style loli.
Their appearances stimulate Megu’s insecurity.
「 Megu’s not good at dealing with mature and calm girls like Tsukiko. Neither with Yomiko, a cheerful and noisy one 」
That means.
「 The people in here are girls Megumi doesn’t feel insecurity. Other than Kana 」
Edie said.
Usually, Edie acts like an American girl who can’t read the mood, and therefore, Megu always warns and scolds her.
Therefore, Megu’s able to say anything she thinks to Edie.
She’s known Mana as her half-sister from an early age, so she finds it easy to talk with her.
Luna’s four years younger, quiet and timid/ Megu doesn’t feel any insecurity towards her.
「 Well sure, feel a lot of insecurity towards me. After all, I’m way cuter than you 」
Kana-senpai’s the number 1 idol in our school because of her beauty, but,
She doesn’t feel intimidated by Nei, Misuzu, and Ruriko.
After all, she’s got a bright personality.
Megu’s used to how heavy and serious Minaho-neesan and so it doesn’t pain her as much.
「 You really are loved Megumi 」
Edie’s right.
I think Nei and Misuzu made this choice and Minaho-neesan gave them approval.
They’re all considering Megu.
「 I-I don’t know about that! 」
Although their kindness doesn’t go through Megu.
「 After all, isn’t it normal to feel insecure? 」
Megu asked.
「 After all, the adults are much more mature than me. Misuzu-san and Ruriko-chan are both genuine high-cla.s.s ladies! I could never win against them! Nei-oneesan’s truly beautiful, and Yoshi-kun’s always lovestruck with her. You love Nei-oneesan more than me, don’t you Yoshi-kun?! 」
So you think of it that way.
「 I don’t have the talent unlike them! That’s right, I’m not cute! I can’t do anything, and I just lose to Nei-oneesan and Hoshizaki-san! I’m not cute at all! 」
「 Yeah. You’re right. And you’re also dumb. Nei-san’s smart compared to that 」
Kana-senpai said lightly
「 I know! You don’t have to say that! You’re right! Everyone’s much smarter than me! Yes, I get it! I lose both in beauty and brains! 」
「 You should include the body shape too. Isn’t that why we stripped down to underwear? To confirm it? 」
Kana-senpai continues to stir her up.
「 That’s right! Everyone’s got a better figure than me! After all, I’m!!! 」
To think that Megu’s carrying this much insecurity in her.
「 I can’t win on anything. Not against them. That’s how I felt for these past four months. Minaho-san told me that I’m the housewife of the mansion and to make it my own place, but I can’t win against Katsuko-oneesan in cooking nor housework. Ruriko-chan and Mana are invading my territory further! 」
Megu said.
「 That’s wrong. Ruri-oneechan and I aren’t chasing Megu-oneechan out of the housework. We’re only doing what we want to do for the family 」
「 I know! 」
Megu shuts Mana up in the middle of her talk.
「 That’s why I juggle between my club activities and helping out Yoshi-kun in the bakery. But during that time, you all got better at cooking. Everyone’s more talented than me, it’s unfair 」
Megu.
「 Aah, no. I don’t want this. It’s not with everyone. I hate myself. I’m not cute, smart, a high-cla.s.s lady, a good body. I try to do what I can every day, and in the end, I couldn’t do anything. I have no talent. I hate it! 」
That’s.
「 I know that everyone in the family is kind to me. I understand that this att.i.tude is being selfish. But I can’t do it. It itches me off. In the end, I know that I can’t do anything alone. I hate myself for that! But I can’t do anything about it! I can’t become like everyone, because, I don’t have anything 」
Oh, this is.
「 Darling. 」
Edie smiled at me.
Yeah.
Just like what Edie said earlier.
Megu and I think alike.
My insecurities are quite similar to Megu.
I think of myself as a useless man who can’t do anything.
「 That’s stupid. That’s not what you should compare yourself with 」
Kana-senpai said.
「 If you compare yourself to the Kouzuki ladies or Nei-san, then you’d definitely think yourself as useless. You know, sorry to say but I’m cuter than ordinary girls. I’m just above the average. That includes my body shape. Well, even I can’t win against them. Also, I’m not sure about how smart I am, but, still, I can say that I’m quite the cute high school girl. If I enter an idol audition, I think I’d pa.s.s the preliminary round. That’s the extent 」
I don’t know if Kana-senpai’s praising or insulting right now.
「 Therefore, this is just my opinion; you should break up with n.o.bu and find another man. I recommend a gloomy and weak type. I think that kind of guy would be head-over-heels for you. That profits you way more, and you’ll surely become happy. No, I’m just saying what I think suits the moment 」
Err.
「 In the end, the Kouzuki ladies, Nei-san, or me. You’re picking the wrong opponent. The levels are too far apart, you should choose a level that suits you. How about you transfer to a school with fewer girls? Like a technical focused high school. In that case, you’ll definitely become a queen in your cla.s.s. If you don’t want that, you can go to a school that only has girls. If there’s no chance to meet a boy from the start, then you won’t complain about not being popular 」
This is messed up.
「 No! I! 」
Megu looked at me.
「 I only want Yoshi-kun! I’m going to marry Yoshi-kun! Aaaah!!! 」
She screams.
「 I want to go to a world where it’s just Yoshi-kun and me! Then we will be happy together!!! 」
Megu.
「 That won’t happen 」
Edie said.
「 You won’t become happy from that Megu’s insecurity won’t fix itself if you just escape from reality 」
I think so too.
「 Do you really think that Darling would choose Megumi and throw away the family even though you have insecurities towards other women 」
Megu.
「 No 」
She replied calmly.
「 That won’t happen. Everyone’s better at me at everything, and they make Yoshi-kun’s family together. Yoshi-kun can’t throw away his family and choose only me. I know that 」
I…
「 But, I hope for it, dream it. Yoshi-kun choosing only me. Even though I know that it will never happen 」
Megu’s insecurities are deeply rooted.
Just like mine.
「 Now then, what to do, Darling? 」
Edie asks me.
「 It’s about time we reach a conclusion 」
Yeah.
「 I guess it’s me that’s being tested here? 」
Not Megu.
Either way, Minaho-neesan’s watching all of this from the surveillance cameras.
「 Everyone in here 」
Edie said.
「 Darling, me, Mana, Luna, Kana, and of course, Megumi 」
I see.
Yeah.
Minaho-neesan’s looking at everything.
It’s a trial for Megu to see if she’s still fit to stay in the family.
It’s a test for Kana to see if she’s inclined to become my woman.
To Edie and the girls, it’s a test on how to deal with the family troubles.
And for me.
It’s a test on my judgment on what to do with Megu.
If I think about the family, Megu’s selfishness shouldn’t be allowed.
However.
「 Geez, n.o.bu’s too earnest. You don’t have to think so desperately 」
Kana-senpai says with a look of amazement at me.
「 This is just wasteful thinking 」
Huh?
「 Her insecurities are her own problem, isn’t it? You can’t do anything with it n.o.bu 」
I can’t do anything?
「 I mean, if you make any decision for her then you’re just spoiling her further. 」
Then I shouldn’t make a decision?
「 Isn’t that right? Whether you decide to chase her out or to let her stay, it’s you making that decision. You’re showing her a direction. Spoiling her. She has to worry about herself. Once she’s done with that, she has to stand up and say, “Okay, I’ll do something.” She has to take a step forward using her own strength 」
Kana-senpai said.
「 There’s a lot of things in this world where you need to it on your own. Others can’t do anything about it. That’s how insecurities are. She has to figure out why she has that insecurity herself, and she has to get it out by herself 」
That’s.
「 I mean, it’s Nei-san and the Kouzuki ladies’ wrong to pull n.o.bu out for her sake. And, even if this possible, and Nei-san and the girls were taken out, her insecurities won’t disappear. She’ll remain married to n.o.bu, but her negative emotion towards Nei-san and everyone will remain as well 」
Her inferiority complex towards Nei and the girls won’t disappear. Instead, it will become a deep wound.
「 n.o.bu can’t do anything to release her from her insecurities. Her insecurities are her own 」
That applies to me as well.
I must fix my insecurities myself.
n.o.body can help me out from here.
That’s right.
If it was me now.
Even if Nei tells me, “Yo-chan’s not useless. Yo-chan, you’ve got this amazing power.”
I won’t feel saved from that line.
In the end, I have to show to myself that I have done something useful to everyone.
Else, I can’t trust myself.
I’m the only one who can work on that.
Oh. I see.
That’s the reason why.
That’s why I’m so desperate about the bakery right now.
I want to make a profit for the sake of everyone.
As soon as possible.
Therefore.
「 Megu, if you continue to hate yourself, then you can’t change 」
I said.
「 I know that! But I don’t know what to do! I don’t know at all!! 」
Megu’s suffering.
Her mind is going around circles.
She doesn’t know what to do to get out of this spiral.
I have experienced that.
This spring.
I was like that when my father disappeared.
I was worried about the future.
But I don’t know what to do.
I lost sight of myself.
「 Megu-oneechan’s insecurity is really stupid. I don’t get why you’re so worried 」
Mana suddenly speaks.
「 It doesn’t matter if you’re not cute, talentless, and dumb. In our world, Onii-chan’s the only man. Is Onii-chan’s thoughts about Megu-oneechan not enough for you?
Megu;
「 Yoshi-kun thinks that other girls are cuter than me. They’re more helpful to him. I know that 」
Mana sighed.
「 Oh, I see. I’ve had enough, you’re too troublesome 」
She looked at Megu.
「 Megu-oneechan, sorry but have a match with me 」
Match?
「 Let’s end this here. It’s a waste of time to be stopped by people like Megu-oneechan. This is stupid, let’s end this already 」
Then.
「 If I win, you’re out of the mansion. Go back to Yamamine-san’s house. Good? 」
「 Hey, Mana? 」
What are you planning to do?
「 The match would be s.e.x. The one who makes Onii-chan feel the most pleasure wins! 」
What?!
「 Sure, you can’t do anything against Nei-oneechan who has the best looks, nor Katsuko-oneechan who has the techniques, but, you won’t say that you’d lose to Mana, will you? We both lost virginity in merely days of difference. 」
Both of them lost their virginity during the holidays in May.
Furthermore, they had a system of having s.e.x with me in turns.
There shouldn’t be that much difference during that period.
「 Not confident in your face? Body? Brain? Talent? Then you can’t do anything about that. If you can’t satisfy Onii-chan in s.e.x, then you don’t have the worth to live with us anymore. I mean, how about you quit as a woman 」
Mana said.