Put Your Head On My Shoulder

t.i.tle: Put Your Head on My Shoulder (致我们暖暖的小时光)
Author: Zhou Gangan
Translation credit: Jia

Chapter 20

Fu Pei opened the door and saw Mo at first sight. Mo gave him an indifferent look and got up to leave. He looked at w.a.n.g Shan, who was unconscious in the sickbed, and turned to follow her out.

Mo heard the rushing footsteps behind her. In order not to play the game of chasing each other in the hospital, she stopped voluntarily and said to him with her back: ‘Go back."

Fu Pei followed and stopped. ‘Mo, listen to me."

Mo sighed with annoyance. Why every prologue of him would be ‘listen to me"? She just wanted to be a pa.s.ser-by. Why was she always involved? Gu Weiyi appeared at the other end of the corridor while Mo was worrying about how to get out. Mo suddenly had a brain wave and rushed over to hold his arm. Gu Weiyi was stunned by her movements, glared at her after reaction, but still let her hold.

Mo sucked in her breath and pretended to be bold and straight. She said to Fu Pei, ‘I love Gu Weiyi very much now. I hope you can bless us." Mo trembled after her words. Gu Weiyi also trembled and looked at her incredibly. Mo thought: destroyed! As a matter of fact, she shouldn"t have watched so many TV plays as to say such shocking remarks.

Fu Pei could not believe it: ‘Gu Weiyi, why did you do this to me?"

Gu Weiyi wondered: How could I know why? I just came out to buy water.

Mo rushed to say, ‘It"s none of his business." Thinking that there"s something wrong and add, ‘It"s none of your business."

Fu Pei was about to say something while Gu Weiyi interrupted him. ‘Situ Mo, you play the role yourself. Some things can"t be counted on by one side. Let"s make it clear. I"m bringing them water."

Mo stared blankly at Gu Weiyi"s back as he turned away. Betrayal! What a naked betrayal! Who had said that man was the most righteous, deceptive!

‘Mo, why did you lie to me?" Fu Pei took Mo"s hand and asked.

Mo pulled her hand back vigorously and said, ‘Come on, let"s find a place to talk about it."

Mo sat face to face with Fu Pei. For a moment, they didn"t know where to start. From the point of view of love, the scene was quite hilarious. But Mo didn"t have that idea. She just didn"t want to do anything. All she wanted was to go back home to watch TV and surf the Internet. It was a rare holiday.

Fu Pei sighed deeply and said, ‘Mo, w.a.n.g Shan and I are not what you imagined. I just wanted to annoy you. Unexpectedly..."

Mo waved her hand and interrupted, ‘Never mind. It"s not important. I don"t want to know."

‘Mo..." Fu Pei showed a sad face.

Mo interrupted him again: ‘Let"s just talk about our problems. Let me talk first. Don"t interrupt me. Let me finish it all at once. I have loved you for a long time, at least I loved you all the time before you were together with w.a.n.g Shan and I guess you"ve always known. Everyone thought that I was not good to you. But in fact, you and I knew in heart that over the years, you"ve settled on me. You"re confident enough, thinking that I"ll be waiting for you anyway. I"m cheap enough as well, really thought that you"ll come to me when you"re tired of playing. Mo took a sip of tea and continued, ‘In fact, I used to be naive, and always thought if I"m bad to you, you would pay more attention to me. The less possibility you have to get me, the more you"ll want me. Thinking back, it was really a disgusting idea. Now, I really don"t like you, and I can"t remember why did I like you in the past. Maybe it"s the Buddha"s manifestation. I"ve finally get out of your misery sea. That"s all I have to say. It"s your turn."

Fu Pei didn"t speak until he had opened his mouth several times, ‘Mo, I really like you. I can change it. Would you give me another chance? I will be very kind to you, Never will I make you sad in the future, okay?

Mo was disappointed that he couldn"t catch the key point, so she had to repeat, ‘Now the problem is not you, it"s me, I don"t like you anymore." After that, Mo breathed a sigh of refreshment. It"s really unkind.

Fu Pei was furious: ‘How could you say that so easily, your feelings are too easy to control!"

‘Easy to control?" What a good phrase, Mo almost stood up to applaud. After five or six years of acting blindly, she had tied up her not-so-beautiful green onion years with this entangled feeling. At last, she could catch the train of ‘easy to control", how could she not be cheerful?

Mo took another sip of tea. She had got into the habit of drinking tea after living with Gu Weiyi for a long time. It was really bad. She put her finger around the cup ring, gently shaking the tea in the cup, and said, ‘Fu Pei, do you think you are qualified to say something about my feelings? I just don"t like you anymore. I think I deserve a better man. I can meet a better man. How about that?

Fu Pei patted the table and jumped up. ‘Who is the better man? Gu Weiyi?"

Mo couldn"t stand being looked at by others and stared at him, ‘You can either sit down to talk calmly, or just stop talking. Why are you patting the table alone."

Fu Pei swallowed and sat down. He grinded his teeth and said, ‘Do you like Gu Weiyi?"

Mo thought for a moment, conscious that her feeling to Gu Weiyi had not risen to the level of love, then she should no longer destroy their brotherhood. So she said: ‘No, it is only my own feeling that you"re not able to give me the love I want."

Fu Pei got excited again: ‘What kind of love do you want? Why did you think I"m unable to give?"

Mo was helpless: ‘If you want me to be specific, it would be really hard for me to explain. But at least the love should let me feel that how could I have got such love, rather than let me always feel that I deserve better love."

‘You mean, I"m not worth it?" Fu Pei hummed.

Mo sighed with relief and nodded wildly. At last, he understood. She had said that much.

Suddenly he looked at her with a firm eye and said, ‘I know what to do. I"ll make you think I"m worth it." After that, he got up and walked away with great momentum.

Mo was dumbfounded. Regardless of his pressured departure, how did he come to such a misleading conclusion?

On the way back to the ward, Mo met Hu Niu and Meng Lu. They said that w.a.n.g Shan wanted to stay alone with Fu Pei, so they went back to their dormitory to get something. Mo thought that she hadn"t returned to school for a long time, so she just went back with them. Along the way, she heard Meng Lu tell about w.a.n.g Shan and Fu Pei"s matters in her absence for two weeks. Meng Lu had told so many that she couldn"t even remember. The typical one was a rainy night when w.a.n.g Shan and Fu Pei quarreled wildly downstairs in their dormitory. Even the sound of the big rain failed to cover up their quarrel, leading to a large group of lonely young women carrying chairs and cracking melon seeds in the corridor to watch the play. According to the wisdom of the broad ma.s.ses of the people, the cla.s.sic quotations of this quarrel are roughly as follows:

w.a.n.g Shan:

I. Did you know? I love you till I lose myself. I don"t even know who I am.

2. My heart aches so much that I"m going to die, going to die, going to die, going to die…

3. I love you so much. How could you not love me? How could could you do that?

Fu Pei:

1.I am sorry for you, but I am a cloud, never stay just for a sky.

2. Why couldn"t you learn not to care about eternity?

3.Can"t we let bygones be like smoke?

According to the a.n.a.lysis of Zhou Xiao, a freshman and a talented girl in the Chinese Department, the six sentences won the election because of the use of rhetorical devices such as questions, rhetorical questions, emphasis, comparison, metaphor, synesthesia and allusions, which made the sentences easy to understand and attractive.

Mo stood outside the dormitory door waiting for them to tidy up the b.l.o.o.d.y bed. When she was bored, she leaned against the wall to read short messages, and delete them one by one. She turned over and suddenly turned over to Gu Weiyi"s short messages. She was surprised. In her memory, she hadn"t actually texted Gu Weiyi yet. Where did the short messages come from? She opened it which simply said, ‘ Have you recovered from the injury?" Looking at the sending date, it was when her foot was injured. There was a vague impression that an unknown number sent such a message. Girls were always very easy to be touched by such small details, and Mo, of course, was no exception. Thinking that Gu Weiyi had cared about her so long ago, she felt that her feet were floating lightly and her mood could be free because of joy.

‘Mo, you can come in." Hu Niu greeted her.

Mo stuffed her phone into her pocket and accidentally pressed the pull-out b.u.t.ton. Gu Weiyi"s voice came out of her pocket. Mo hurried to pick her phone out of her pocket and said, ‘h.e.l.lo, it"s me."

‘Nonsense, of course I know it"s you. Where did you go? I can"t find you anywhere. Gu Weiyi"s voice sounded a little urgent.

Mo then remembered that she had left Gu Weiyi in the hospital, she felt a little sorry: ‘I"m at school, coming with my roommate to pick something."

‘Are you human? Having left without saying a word, let me face that pair of miserable mandarin ducks alone. Gu Weiyi paused for a moment and then said, ‘Get back home early after you get what you need, don"t care about them."

‘Okay." Mo answered cleverly.

Gu Weiyi said in a suspicious voice, ‘Didn"t you drink wine? So good-natured?"