"I shall often remember you, dear Elfie," he said; "I shall keep your rose always, and take it with me wherever I go. You must not make it too hard for me to quit Paris ? you are glad to have me go on such an errand, are you not?"
She presently commanded herself, bade her tears wait till another time as usual, and trying to get rid of those that covered her face, asked him "What errand?"
He hesitated.
"I have been thinking of what we were talking of yesterday, Elfie," he said at length. "I am going to try to discover my duty, and then to do it."
But Fleda at that clasped his hand, and squeezing it in both hers, bent down her little head over it to hide her face and the tears that streamed again. He hardly knew how to understand, or what to say to her. He half suspected that there were depths in that childish mind beyond his fathoming.
He was not, however, left to wait long. Fleda, though she might now and then be surprised into showing it, never allowed her sorrow of any kind to press upon the notice or the time of others. She again checked herself and dried her face.
"There is n.o.body else in Paris that will be so sorry for my leaving it," said Mr. Carleton, half tenderly and half pleasantly.
"There is n.o.body else that has so much cause," said Elfie, near bursting out again, but she restrained herself.
"And you will not come here again;, Mr. Carleton?" she said, after a few minutes.
"I do not say that ? it is possible ? if I do, it will be to see you, Elfie."
A shadow of a smile pa.s.sed over her face at that. It was gone instantly.
"My mother will not leave Paris yet," he went on ? you will see her often."
But he saw that Fleda was thinking of something else; she scarce seemed to hear him. She was thinking of something that troubled her.
"Mr. Carleton," she began, and her colour changed.
"Speak, Elfie."
Her colour changed again. "Mr. Carleton, will you be displeased if I say something?"
"Don"t you know me better than to ask me that, Elfie?" he said, gently.
"I want to ask you something ? if you wont mind my saying it?"
"What is it?" said he, reading in her face that a request was behind. "I will do it."
Her eyes sparkled, but she seemed to have some difficulty in going on.
"I will do it whatever it is," he said, watching her.
"Will you wait for me one moment, Mr. Carleton?"
"Half an hour."
She sprang away, her face absolutely flashing pleasure through her tears. It was much soberer, and again doubtful and changing colour, when a few minutes afterwards she came back with a book in her hand. With a striking mixture of timidity, modesty, and eagerness in her countenance, she came forward, and putting the little volume, which was her own Bible, into Mr. Carleton"s hands, said, under her breath, "Please read it." She did not venture to look up.
He saw what the book was; and then taking the gentle hand which had given it, he kissed it two or three times ? if it had been a princess"s he could not with more respect.
"You have my promise, Elfie," he said; "I need not repeat it."
She raised her eves and gave him a look so grateful, so loving, so happy, that it dwelt for ever in his remembrance. A moment after it had faded, and she stood still where he had left her listening to his footsteps as they went down the stairs. She heard the last of them, and then sank upon her knees by a chair, and burst into a pa.s.sion of tears. Their time was now, and she let them come. It was not only the losing a loved and pleasant friend, it was not only the stirring of sudden and disagreeable excitement ? poor Elfie was crying for her Bible. It had been her father"s own ? it was filled with his marks ? it was precious to her above price ? and Elfie cried with all her heart for the loss of it. She had done what she had on the spur of the emergency ? she was satisfied she had done right; she would not take it back if she could; but not the less her Bible was gone, and the pages that loved eyes had looked upon were for hers to look upon no more. Her very heart was wrung that she should have parted with it; and yet, what could she do? It was as bad as the parting with Mr. Carleton.
That agony was over, and even that was shortened, for "Hugh would find out that she had been crying." Hours had pa.s.sed, and the tears were dried, and the little face was bending over the wonted tasks, with a shadow upon its wonted cheerfulness, when Rosaline came to tell her that Victor said there was somebody in the pa.s.sage who wanted to see her and would not come in.
It was Mr. Carleton himself. He gave her a parcel, smiled at her without saying a word, kissed her hand earnestly, and was gone again. Fleda ran to her own room, and took the wrappers off such a beauty of a Bible as she had never seen ? bound in blue velvet, with clasps of gold, and her initials in letters of gold upon the cover. Fleda hardly knew whether to be most pleased or sorry; for to have its place so supplied seemed to put her lost treasure further away than ever. The result was another flood of very tender tears; in the very shedding of which, however, the new little Bible was bound to her heart with cords of a.s.sociation as bright and as incorruptible as its gold mountings.
CHAPTER XV.
"Her sports were such as carried riches of knowledge upon the stream of delight."
SIDNEY.
Fleda had not been a year in Paris, when her uncle suddenly made up his mind to quit it and go home. Some trouble in money affairs, felt or feared, brought him to this step, which a month before he had no definite purpose of ever taking. There was cloudy weather in the financial world of New York, and he wisely judged it best that his own eyes should be on the spot to see to his own interests. n.o.body was sorry for this determination. Mrs. Rossitur always liked what her husband liked, but she had at the same time a decided predilection for home. Marion was glad to leave her convent for the gay world, which her parents promised she should immediately enter. And Hugh and Fleda had too lively a spring of happiness within themselves to care where its outgoings should be.
So home they came, in good mood, bringing with them all manner of Parisian delights that Paris could part with ? furniture, that at home at least they might forget where they were; dresses, that, at home or abroad, n.o.body might forget where they had been; pictures, and statuary, and engravings, and books, to satisfy a taste really strong and well cultivated.
And, indeed, the other items were quite as much for this purpose as for any other. A French cook for Mr. Rossitur, and even Rosaline for his wife, who declared she was worth all the rest of Paris. Hugh cared little for any of these things; he brought home a treasure of books and a flute, to which he was devoted. Fleda cared for them all, even Monsieur Emile and Rosaline, for her uncle"s and aunt"s sake; but her special joy was a beautiful little King Charles, which had been sent her by Mr. Carleton a few weeks before. It came with the kindest of letters, saying, that some matters had made it inexpedient for him to pa.s.s through Paris on his way home, but that he hoped, nevertheless, to see her soon. That intimation was the only thing that made Fleda sorry to leave Paris. The little dog was a beauty, allowed to be so not only by his mistress but by every one else, of the true black and tan colours; and Fleda"s dearly loved and constant companion.
The life she and Hugh led was little changed by the change of place. They went out and came in as they had done in Paris, and took the same quiet but intense happiness in the same quiet occupations and pleasures; only the Tuileries and Champs Elysees had a miserable subst.i.tute in the Battery, and no subst.i.tute at all anywhere else. And the pleasant drives in the environs of Paris were missed too, and had nothing in New York to supply their place. Mrs. Rossitur always said it was impossible to get out of New York by land, and not worth the trouble to do it by water. But, then, in the house Fleda thought there was a great gain. The dirty Parisian hotel was well exchanged for the bright, clean, well-appointed house in State street. And if Broadway was disagreeable, and the Park a weariness to the eyes, after the dressed gardens of the French capital, Hugh and Fleda made it up in the delights of the luxuriously furnished library, and the dear at-home feeling of having the whole house their own.
They were left, those two children, quite as much to themselves as ever. Marion was going into company, and she and her mother were swallowed up in the consequent necessary calls upon their time. Marion never had been anything to Fleda. She was a fine, handsome girl, outwardly, but seemed to have more of her father than her mother in her composition, though colder-natured, and more wrapped up in self than Mr. Rossitur would be called by anybody that knew him. She had never done anything to draw Fleda towards her, and even Hugh had very little of her attention. They did not miss it. They were everything to each other.
Everything ? for now morning and night there was a sort of whirlwind in the house which carried the mother and daughter round and round, and permitted no rest; and Mr. Rossitur himself was drawn in. It was worse than it had been in Paris.
There, with Marion in her convent, there were often evenings when they did not go abroad nor receive company, and spent the time quietly and happily in each other"s society. No such evenings now: if by chance there were an unoccupied one, Mrs.
Rossitur and her daughter were sure to be tired, and Mr.
Rossitur busy.
Hugh and Fleda in those bustling times retreated to the library; Mr. Rossitur would rarely have that invaded; and while the net was so eagerly cast for pleasure among the gay company below, pleasure had often slipped away, and hid herself among the things on the library table, and was dancing on every page of Hugh"s book, and minding each stroke of Fleda"s pencil, and c.o.c.king the spaniel"s ears whenever his mistress looked at him. King, the spaniel, lay on a silk cushion on the library table, his nose just touching Fleda"s fingers. Fleda"s drawing was mere amus.e.m.e.nt; she and Hugh were not so burdened with studies that they had not always their evenings free, and, to tell truth, much more than their evenings. Masters, indeed, they had; but the heads of the house were busy with the interests of their grown-up child, and, perhaps, with other interests, and took it for granted that all was going right with the young ones.
"Haven"t we a great deal better time than they have down stairs, Fleda?" said Hugh, one of these evenings.
"Hum ? yes" ? answered Fleda, abstractedly, stroking into order some old man in her drawing with great intentness.
"King! you rascal ? keep back and be quiet, Sir!"
Nothing could be conceived more gentle and loving than Fleda"s tone of fault-finding, and her repulse only fell short of a caress.
"What"s he doing?"
"Wants to get into my lap."
"Why don"t you let him?"
"Because I don"t choose to ? a silk cushion is good enough for his majesty. King!" (laying her soft cheek against the little dog"s soft head, and forsaking her drawing for the purpose.)
"How you do love that dog!" said Hugh.